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“I suppose it is out of laziness that the world is the same day after day.” - Jean-Paul Sartre, Nausea

OVERWHELMED

Well, shit. There has been a lot of firsts these past few weeks. First death of a family member, first time seeing my mother cry, first time failing a nursing exam.

I never experienced a traumatic event while upholding MAJOR life responsibilities and this is a whole new ball game. I feel like I had no time to process this death. But I know this person would have wanted me studying and trying to succeed in this exhausting cycle called life. So that’s what I filled my time with, but not enough time. I got my grade back and I failed.

Should I have just given up at the time and grieved? I kept telling myself it’s ok- you need to get through this exam. But then I fucking fail it. Now I feel even worse. Maybe I should have said fuck it, I clearly would have failed anyway.

I also haven’t cried over this death in almost a week, am I a bad person?

I don’t know how to feel right now, this is so weird. Ugh, that’s it.

#overwhelmed #anxiety #nursing school #student #death #grief

quotefeeling

You can’t help what you feel, but you can help how you behave

Margaret Atwood (via quotefeeling)

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— friday, october 1st

kinesiology revision <3

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They say that hugs are not denied to anyone, receive this hug from me with a lot of strength and smile, in the end life is cycles.

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NURSING STUDENTS ! ! !

This is what changed me passing in Pharmacology to A’s :-)

Wait, what? A’s in Pharm?

Here’s my opinion on the subject.. you are either a memorizer or a learner when it comes to this class. I could not just stare at pages over and over again.. memorizer life not for me. I needed to dissect these drugs - asking what and why? I would dry erase all night long but THIS is what changed my outlook.

Let’s be real - we say that the side effects are kind of irrelevant and we’ll just learn by the classification blah blah bullshit. Again..not for me.

I drew out charts on every drug I was going to be tested on, by class, and their side effects. It helped me take a step back and really compare all of these drugs. Like..ok..these are all in the same class but THIS one is the only one with GI effects.. fatigue...etc. Which then comes into swirl with the nursing interventions. Because they’re always based off of the side effects of the drug.

You’re welcome.

#nursing school #nursingstudent #studyblr #medical #pharmacology

LET’S TALK BOOKS.

First off, this picture is not mine - I found it on google (obviously).

You are sucked into a world of psych patients and learning how fucked up are the people that work in that field. It magnifies on this one “silent” patient and a determined psychiatrist ready to crack her open.

He moves to a new city, new psych unit, new coworkers... everyone starts giving off the suspect vibe so naturally you start pointing fingers. Is the person who fucked this woman up so bad working in this unit?! WHAT. WELL WHICH ONE - WHO THE FUCK IS IT!

You slowly begin to eliminate the prospects one by one and then HOLY SHIT SHE SPEAKS. This psychiatrist actually got her to make a noise - something that nobody else has accomplished.

Employees of the unit start to dwindle as far as suspect vibes, some looking more suspicious.. WHO has done this to this woman? Are they here? Are they about to kill her? me? you? What the FUCK is about to happen.

Needless to say, I finished this book in 24 hours. Do it.

#bookstagram #silent patient #psych

infected

by blueming_soo

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and my mood depends on them....

mayessta

fluid & electrolyte imbalances, anyone?

#student #nursing #nursingstudent #school #education #aromatherapy #nursing school

mgic881

Perspective

Maybe it’s not about trying to prove that what you’re saying is right or to try to bring someone over to your side. It’s about defending what you think of as a viable perspective, again, not to necessarily have someone agree, but to fight that a perspective you like or believe in is a viable and coherent option. If there really is no right and wrong when it comes down to it, if it’s about your own values, and recognizing there is no objective perspective to hold, then believe in the ones you discover within. You pick your poison, with absence of the antidote.

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The University of Toronto Campus photographed by Isabelle de Leon (me)

lifeafterpsychiatry

I'm not saying mental illness can't make socializing a struggle but guess what? If you keep waiting for your friends to come to you, then your friends will end up feeling neglected and eventually they'll move on to people who can meet their efforts halfway - and they're not in the wrong for doing so. So you gotta fight the instinct to self-isolate no matter how insecure you are feeling. Your friends likely need reassurance sometimes too.