PART 1
sometimes i wonder...
can you feel sad about something you lost even if it never wasn't yours.
i know cliche , but i always end up in the same situation. i get âaddictedâ to someone that doesn't even know my name. and every time i feel really anxious and jealous. i donât want it. it just happens. maybe i have an addictive personality .
most times it has to do with famous people. thatâs why i said to myself âyou are a fan-girl thatâs allâ. but am i. the last two times happened with real people. i mean with someone who is in my everyday life. and i got really obsessed to the point that i couldnât sleep eat or drink anything. every time he is the last thing i think before i go to sleep and the first thing i think when i wake up.Â
ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!!
for example if it is a band or a singer i memorize all the lyrics of every song and sing them all day long , see fan made videos and stock them on social media.
if he is an athlete i learn everything about the sport, watch every game and stock them on social mediaÂ
if he is a person from my college i try to find everything about him from his friends his posts and stock him in real life and social media. donât worry not in a creepy way . i just try to have the same classes , laboratory hours be some-wear near him in the cafeteria
i make stories in my head on how could i became famous , prettier even richer in order to grab their attention.Â
all this thing is a really big problem because my hours and days are spent for him...