raymondtree

[raymondtree]

[raymondtree]

No longer poet

An absence of longing

Haunted by memories

Of youthful hope

Of marvelous truth

Overcome with grief

Painted cruel and bitter

These eyes have seen

But hands go numb

Reaching toward

better tomorrow 

Trembling with pride

[raymondtree]

Beauty isn’t relative

More than vivid ideal

Beauty is awe inspiring

Living breathing and true

Powerful and fragile

She moved with Grace

As if a dancer

Possessed by starry sky

Her eyes a force of nature

I heard thunder

Felt lightning

She saw in me

What I’ve yet

To understand

Instilled in me

Warmth and anxiety

She believed

In beauty

In love

In Holly

Embrace

Terrified

I drank

I drugged

I ignored

I forgot

She could never

She’s hopeful

She’s strong

Everlasting

Harder to forget

I am a trying man

Hopping to see

Half of what she saw

Forever in her debt

Eyes that whispered

Songs of hope

A sincerity

I thought Lost

Wholeheartedly

Shared through

Vibrant lips

Soulful sighs

Drunken laughs

And the occasional

Unexpected phone call

Still I shake

Forever grateful

[raymondtree]

[raymondtree]

I used to be friends with a lot of people and drugs Made me a dick But I didn’t Much like them So that’s ok

Or myself

[raymondtree]

I don't much like going to the dentist

[raymondtree]

I'm unsure of a lot of things But more sure of self More so then I've ever been I'm ready to love I'm ready to share love I am greatful I am well versed in appreciation I awknowlde my faults I'm happy to be alone I'm still trying

[raymondtree]

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[raymondtree]

All forgot Remember That one The mad Lost one She loved me She said She believed She was wrong She never looked Into my eyes She thought me Poet I'm just a drunk The world Makes me shiver I find comfort In it's arms

[raymondtree]

ragged heart Ciggaritte? Whiskey pls eyes like death lipstick like blood she'd watch me die I'd gladly hold hand Shiver while she sweats Dream little dream

[raymondtree]

drugged and still a lover

[raymondtree]

Youth in silence Wandering Wondrously

[raymondtree]

Cheap vodka soothes Weary soul, I’m so tired Anxiety I feel fleeting They assume and assert Their ideals, their insecurities Paint me lesser man I’m not going mad I’m not muddled narcotic I’m truth my own virtue I’m poet, my own muse I’m so tired, I exist Not for anyone’s benefit I owe them nothing They’ve done nothing To merit devotion I’ve grown weary Of desperation, want to Love, to feel, to grow wither on my own See angels dance Beneath the stars In dirty alley way On quiet streets I want to dance With them Forget I exist

Forget it all

[raymondtree]

Let love run rampant Unburden by time Let love live forever Unburden by need Love unrestricted Love wild and true Beyond belief Beyond you and me

[raymondtree]

Need coffee Like I need love Drunk still Herion dreams Warm embrace She'll be fine Me not so much

[raymondtree]

All the while Drunk and blind With haunting love And desperate eyes My love unbound Blizzard roaring Windows shaking Alone with wine The thought of her More than enough

Hella nahs

[raymondtree]

Sitting in what felt like fifteen bellow zero wrapped in dirty bed sheets, the fluffy kind you find on bergenline avenue. One of tiger other of dolphin and I wonder what kind of blanket I'd be? I gave it a sincere try concluded I'd probably be too depressed to keep anyone warm, let alone make it my life's work and wondered why the hell I still write at all and decided I needed coffee.