This is my Now

Rayna Lynn Berry twenty five years old director & photographer

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Snowfall | F2F | Meryna

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Meryl avoided eye contact.  She did that a lot these days.  Looking people in the eye meant opening herself up and she just wasn’t at that point right now.  At the response to her question she moved to grab another wine glass and popped open the bottle to pour them both a glass.  She noticed the brunette lean up against the counter and handed over her glass to lean up against the opposite one.

Once another long sip was taken of that Malbec, she cleared her throat gently.  “Mm hmm…”  She hummed.  But at the added on commentary, she rolled her eyes, pushed off the counter and made her way back into the living room.  “I took the weekend to collect myself, regroup, relax…alone…. though if the storm doesn’t let up any time soon, we’ll probably be stuck here at least a week.”  Curling back up on the couch, she opened her book back up and adjusted her glasses.

Rayna offered a smile to the blonde when she handed over the glass of wine. Her eyes followed Meryl as she moved back in to the living room. She probably should have offered to leave that would have been the right thing to do. But the brunette had no intentions of driving in the gross weather. Let alone doing it at night. “Well,” she sighed after taking her own sip from her glass. 

“If we’re lucky this will be the worst of it. And I can be out of your hair by tomorrow afternoon.” her moved so that she could situate herself in the arm chair facing the couch. “Or... we;re stuck for a week. But the place is big enough, we’ll be able to work it out.”

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Snowfall | F2F | Meryna

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Pretending to be irritated, Meryl didn’t look directly at the brunette.  Instead, she watched out of the corner of her eye as the girl stripped off her wet outerwear and snow boots,   Taking a long sip from her wine, she gave a hum.  “Sure seems that way, doesn’t it…”  But it wasn’t really a question.  There was a slight snarkiness to her tone that tended to always appear in the presence of Ray, however, this was merely a fraction of what Rayna typically got.

Polishing off the rest of the glass, she pushed up from the couch and brought the glass into the kitchen where she went about pouring herself another.  “You want a glass?”  She offered with a raise of one brow.  Mostly she’d been avoiding the other woman but in her defence she was avoiding anyone that truly knew her. The on slaught of crazy weather had her body aching which meant it was harder for her to function.  Everything had been off since that accident.  Truth be told, she was still in physical therapy at least once a week.  She missed pain that had nothing to do with the crash.

She forced herself to walk correctly, not to limp or wince, her poker face was a work of art these days. 

The tone she was getting out of the blonde wasn’t really anything she wasn’t used to. Actually she was thankful there was still a little sharpness in her tone. They’d stayed in contact a little. But Rayna hadn’t really gotten to be one on one with the women. It was nice to see she wasn’t completely different. Sighing she hung up her jacket and set her boots out of the way so they wouldn’t get snow on the floor. She spun around slowly when she was spoken too. 

“Yeah, that would be awesome.” slipped from her lips gently as she moved towards the kitchen. Her hand lifting to put a loose bun in her hair. “I honestly didn’t think anyone was going to be out here.” she offered as she leaned against the counter. “Let alone you, Since you’re always so busy.” was added as the girl’s teeth tugged at the flesh of her lower lip. 

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Snowfall | F2F | Meryna

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She needed this.  A weekend away from the hustle of city life, a weekend away from her job and her forever ringing phone, she needed time to herself.  So she packed a bag, booked a flight and a car and made her way to the lake house up in the mountains which she knew would be empty.  Since the accident, she’d done a spectacular job of isolating herself and pushing people away. The holidays had been a brief and hurried affair with the family here at the house but otherwise Meryl had been back to visit only a handful of times. She felt the need to check up on the place since she felt responsible for it but she never stayed more than 24 hours and normally she had someone else with her.  The hype about her ‘relationship’ with Rayna had all but fizzled out and she’d buried herself back into work.  They spoke now and again to catch up but she didn’t have time for a social life any longer.

This weekend was the first weekend since last summer that she took some time to decompress and take care of herself.  She’d unpacked and cleaned the second she got there and when the flurries started falling from the sky, she’d headed into town to stock up on groceries and other necessities.  It was now, that she was finally unwinding.  There was already a few inches of snow on the ground outside and it only seemed to fall from the sky harder with every passing minute.  She should have read the forecast.  It was too late to do anything about it now.  She knew better than to drive in certain conditions now.

The fire in the living room was crackling as it glowed, a healthy blaze illuminating the room along with a lantern here and there.  She was curled up on the couch, a glass of Malbec in hand and a book in her lap.  The thick, over sized, cable knit sweater kept her warm as did the thermal leggings and thick bunched up wool socks; blonde waves were worn up in a messy bun and black rimmed glasses sat perched on the bridge of her nose.  

Meryl read in peace, occasionally sipping from her glass of wine. She didn’t notice the car that pulled up out front but she did hear the knob of the door turning. Her senses perked up and her heart leapt into her throat.  Setting the book and glass aside, she closed slender digits around a heavy silver candle holder from the coffee table and prepped herself for the absolute worst. 

When the door opened, hazel eyes narrowed slightly at the intruder only to widen and her grip on the candle holder loosened.  “…Ray?”  She muttered softly.  ”Fucking hell, Rayna-”  She sounded exasperated as her heart hammered away in her chest. Rolling her eyes, she fell back onto the couch.  “You have got to be kidding me.”  She didn’t sound pissed or even bitter maybe a little annoyed but that was nothing Rayna wasn’t used to.

A weekend away sounded like a brilliant plan in Rayna’s mind. She’d been so damn busy with work. It was about time she just took off. The family lake house seemed like the best option for that. No one really knew where it was, other than family of course. Giving her a little peace. Plus she’d be able to turn off her phone and let the real world sit on hold for a while. It’d started to snow on her drive from the Air port. It was nothing to bad at first. Just a little white coat over the road. But by the time she actually got to the house it seemed like the whole damn sky had opened up to drop on them. 

She quickly made her way from the car to the house. Lugging her bag with her as she did so. She was so focused on getting in to the warmth that she didn’t even stop to think why there would be a car in the driveway already. Once inside she couldn’t help but chuckle when she heard a very familiar voice. Of course Meryl would be there. Fate seemed to like to throw the two of them at each other. Licking over her lips she offered a small smile. “Hello...” she tugged her jacket off her body. 

“I see you had the same idea I did. Weekend a lone at the lake.” the brunette shifted around her spot pulling offer her snow covered boots. 

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Coming Home || Meryna

The last week has been a complete mess for Rayna. She’d never been the best at dealing with her feelings. Especially if they were negative ones. Meryl being in the accident had put her in a pretty shitty place. She’d hid herself away from everyone. The only company she’d kept were bottles of what ever Alcohol she’d managed to track down. Needless to say, The last few days were the first of the week she’d actually been completely sober. Which was all on account of going to the hospital to be with Meryl. 

As she waited for the blonde to sign a few more papers. She was more then happy to be taking Meryl home. She knew that the women would probably feel more comfortable around things that were familiar. Her finger’s adjusted lightly on the handles of the wheel chair. Hospitles were one of her least favorite things in the world. So she was itching to leave. A smile slipped on to her lips when they were finally given the okay. “Freedom..” she breathed leaning down just so that Meryl could hear her. 

Ray pressed a soft affectionate kiss against Meryl’s cheek before wheeling her out towards the car that she had waiting out side. The process of getting the blonde all set in the car was a bit more tricky now. Rayna had to help a bit not that she minded. Once they were all settled and on the road she reached for Meryl’s hand. “I can’t imagine how good it feels to be out of there..” she offered giving the women’s hand a squeeze. 

The brunette was driving a lot more carefully then she usually did. She didn’t know how Meryl was going to react to be in a car again. And didn’t want to make her any more anxious about it then she’d already be. 

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@raynalynn: ‘we were born with fire n gold in our eyes..’

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Text || Meryna

M: There's uhm... A bunny in the small pocket of my suitcase. And that big tshirt that I stole from you last week.

R: Alright, got it.

R: Leaving now.

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Text || Meryna

M: there are two people I want to see and one of them doesn't want to see me.

R: I'll come see you. Do you want me to bring you anything from the house?

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Text || Meryna

M: Would you uhm... Maybe come see me tonight?

R: If that is what you want. I'll come tonight.

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Text || Meryna

M: Tomorrow maybe. I hope.

R: I hope so too. I really want to see you.

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Text || Meryna

M: Scared.

M: Just wanna come back home.

R: Have they said when you might be able to come back?

R: Amber's kept me somewhat updated but she didn't really say anything about that.

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Text || Meryna

M: Promise?

R: Yeah I promise. Been sleeping out in the cottage this whole time.

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Text || Meryna

M: Is it stupid to say I miss you?

R: No.. Not at all.

[Unsent]I've been a fucking mess with out you here..

R: I miss you too..

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Text || Meryna

M: Ray?

R: Hey Princess...

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Text to Rayna

A: Meryl is awake, I just thought you would want to know.

A: Beyond that, I'm sure she will get a hold of you when she can.. yeah..

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More than Coffee || Liz & Rayna & Charlie

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A growl formed in the back of Charlie’s throat as Liz whispered in her ear. She swallowed hard and simply allowed the brunette to position them, wrapping an arm around Liz’ waist as she spooned her. For a second, she had thought about leaving as a wave of awkwardness had washed over her when Rayna started to approach them. But she wasn’t ready to give up her time with Liz especially after what the smaller girl had just whispered in her ear. 

Charlie stayed silent, her eyes following Rayna as she made her way into bed with them. It was almost hard not to drool. Rayna and Liz looked exactly alike after all, only a few distinct differences between the two of them given there style and attitude. Charlie’s eyes flashed between the two of them and suddenly she felt nervous. Twins. In a bed. With her. Her mouth grew dry when she heard what Rayna said and she held Liz closer, kissing her shoulder as if to try and comfort herself and calm her thoughts.

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Liz wrapped her fingers around Charlie’s forearm, appreciating the feel of her strong body all along her back.  Add Rayna along her front, her twin kissing her cheek as she scooted her back against her breasts and Liz bit her lip against a moan.

“Hey, now, Ray Ray. Place nice.  I don’t always … all the time …  have wood …” Liz pursed her lips disapprovingly as Rayna started giggling and she felt Charlie’s body shake in effort not to do the same.  Swatting the blonde’s arm playfully, she growled.  Despite herself, Liz felt her own giggle work its way out of her throat and she started to pout just because.   “Shut up. Both of you.  It’s not funny. Maybe a little funny.”

The balance of Rayna’s words registered and her body responded in kind.  She could feel Charlie behind her, the girl’s lips on her shoulder even if she was a little tense. She couldn’t help but flash on what it might feel like to have Charlie and Rayna at the same time. She swallowed hard, willing herself to stop responding.  “This isn’t tease Liz like a horny teen day.”

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“Yeah if you don’t pop wood like every hour.. I’m a virgin.” she teased snuggling in to her sister with a chuckle. “Oh... Hush I’m just teasing you know that.” sticking out her tongue she scrunched her nose.  “Wait.. I thought that was every day..” Rayna gave her sister a wink.  Shaking her head at her sister she turned her attention to the blond behind her.

“Its nice to see you Charlie..” she offered in a warm tone. Her finger’s lightly tapping against the girl’s arm that was around her sister. “Its been a while.” she added with a smile. 

The last time she’d seen charlie in the flesh had been the moment in the blonde’s room. Where she’d found out just how much she still enjoyed fooling around with the girl. But that was before half the shit in the house had gone down. Pushing the thought aside she shifted so she was laying on her back. Her arm stretched out to let her finger’s lightly dance against Liz’s thigh.

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drink wine til you’re numb..

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Storm and Cuddles | Rayliz

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“Mmm”. Liz purred and settled back into her sister’s soothing touch and squeezed her fingers. Rayna always knew exactly how to calm her down. “I came up when the thunder started. You know how I get … Hate to feel so needy though. If you hadn’t answered I probably would have texted Charlie, but she hasn’t had to deal with needy me yet. Would not want to scare her away yet.”

Liz kissed Rayna’s arm lightly and sighed.

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Rayna listened quietly, letting her body relax even more in to the cuddles. “Yeah, best to not through needy at them this early in the game. “ she spoke playfully as she gave her twin a squeeze. “so.. things with Charlie huh.. whats that all about?” she asked curiously as she nipped at her sister’s shoulder.