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[Support Only] I have a serious porn/masturbation addiction

Hi, this is my first post on this subreddit. As the title suggests, I have a serious masturbation/porn addiction. I’m 15 years old, and you might say that it’s normal for a teenage boy to masturbate while he’s going through puberty, but this has been going on since I was 9 or 10 years old. It started out small: I would go to porn sites once in a while. But then I started doing it twice as much at 14. I would be so desperate for porn that I would text other people in hopes of getting private images. This would mix in with my anxiety in a very bad way, which makes me send so many text messages in a row. I don’t think I can tell my parents any of this without making them mad. I just need help getting over this issue.

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I work with my roommate.

So flashback about 6 months, I move in with my boyfriends sister and begin working with her as she gets me a better job where we currently work. At the time, I did not realize what kind of a roommate she is. She is dirty, doesn’t clean up after herself, skips work all the time, and anytime you call her out on something, she has a bad attitude about it. She recently was looking for a new job and was skipping work all the time but she gave the doctor, who is our boss, a business proposal for her to do the laundry instead of paying the laundry company (which would be cheaper for him) and she was essentially rewarded for her attitude and laziness. She got a raise and is staying.

She has the worst attitude I have ever seen and she is so selfish. All the time. I wish she would have found another job sooner because I hate living with her and working with her at the same time.

She has a bad attitude now because I told her I’m moving out with my boyfriend when our lease is up and she doesn’t want to move back in with her mom because her boyfriend can’t come over there cause her mom doesn’t like him and she can’t smoke there but I can’t live with her anymore.

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A man with only woman friends [Light]

So I was celebrating my gf's 21st on Saturday, and naturally, there was alcohol. At one point, when we were back my appt, my gf and her friend realized that they still had their makeup on from when we had gone out earlier. Without even processing the fact that I am man that doesnt wear makeup, my gf hands me a makeup with a quick "here ya go" kind of gesture. It wasnt until I had completely wiped my face with her fresh cucumber smelling makeup wipe that I remembered I dont even have any makeup on my face. I have been around these girls so much that routine "girl stuff" is slowly being integrated into my normal lifestyle with almost no conscious thought...

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My mom is scared that im going to commit suicide

Last week i went to a crisis center since i told a therapist that i want to commit sucide in middle of school day.

I didn't told anyone that i tried to hang myself when was 12. My mom knew that i was suicidal and i had plan's to do it.

The whole point it that i want to do it but im scared of mom getting hurt or being emotional about me. But i can't stop thinking about it.

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Currently trying to get fit to ask out my trainer.

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I stood someone up and I don't care. [no regrets]

I should care more. I should actually feel really bad.

But, this person has been treating me like dirt for a very long time and I put up with it. I bend over backwards for her. No more. No more diddling with me with this hot/cold bullshit. No more putting up with the bouts of sudden ghosting. No more me tolerating my messages, in a damn active conversation, just being ignored.

She says "I don't believe you did this to ME?"... yeah, how have you been treating me lately? Silence...

I'm not going overly into details, but we picked a place, I said what time, didn't hear from her for days, then day of, 20 mins prior, she decides it's time to finalize that. Here, here's how it feels to be ignored. BTW, my questions go unanswered all the time, so nothing new.

Yes, I'm a fucked up human being, but you know what, sometimes you got to save yourself and you have to scorch the earth to do it. She can go if she wants to. Don't let the door hit you on the way out. If she's staying, she knows I'm not playing.

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[Conflicted] Need to get some stuff of my chest

Throw-away because I don't know if my friends know my reddit or not.

I just need to vent and confess some stuff to some people because I have no friends to which I can tell EVERYTHING. I have a normal amount of friends, some of them extremely good friends, but I don't share my deepest secrets with them.

So I will share them with you, because it's starting to gnaw at me. (for those of you hoping for some illegal shit, nope sorry) I honestly don't care for much of a response, but I'm constantly bottling this stuff up and it's starting to make me miserable.

1) I'll start with some history: I was a fairly popular kid when I was young. I started secondary school with lots of friends who all were very excited about it as well. That was until I started to feel anxious. I did not know why but I started hating going to school. This went on for a couple of months until I couldn't handle it anymore and I sent a text to my mom that I was feeling suicidal. (My parents are extremely supportive and I love them to death, because without them, there's no way I would've made it this far) We went to a ton of therapists, tried all kinds of stuff, until they found I had a tumor in my brain. It was benign, but it was growing and was pressing on my hypophysis which explained why I wasn't very big for my age. The doctors said the operation was very urgent as it was pressing on some very thick veins. One doctor told me the risks of the operation, because apparently you have to as soon as someone is 12? Idk. He told me I could go blind, I could become a vegetable, I could die, ...

I then told him I did not want to go through with the surgery to which he responded that that would be my death sentence. (I'm probably over exaggerating, but that's how I remember it) My mom then pushed me to have the surgery and I did. As soon as I woke up, I told her "I'm cured". (ie not feeling depressed) cue narrator: he was in fact, *not** cured*

I started going back to school after the surgery in days of two hours because of the headaches. The first day I came back, some kid started shouting at me about 'cancerhead where's your tumor now boy?'. This had a profound impact on me and I started spiralling again. Now I was in fact getting depressed. Started taking medication and went to a psychiatrist. I was getting severely depressed and wrote a couple of suicide letters and had a cord around my neck for a couple of times. I was extremely fragile. Now I'm in between getting homeschooled and going to school. I'm getting bullied a lot (kids trying to light my hair on fire, following me after school and intimidating me, guessing my facebook-password and sending shit to people and posting shit on facebook) This went on until I was 17. Somewhere in that time I also had encephalitis with complications, which was another close call with death. This was actually a matter of hours.

After I graduated, I was extremely glad to be out of that hell-hole of a school and start going to college with a clean slate, no longer being known as that kid who doesn't always come to school.

This brings me to the next part.

2) I'm a relatively smart kid, because I'm interested in a lot of things. I read the newspaper everyday and have a lot of day to day knowledge. In high school this shit got me graduated. College was different. I had to study for the first time and it was hard. I was studying economics but after 6 months decided this was too hard, so I switched to commercial sciences. I barely went to class because I joined halfway through the year and I kind of have anxiety of getting into cliques? Idk, I'm a social guy, but under the right influences. I'm convinced I'm smart enough, but I never had the discipline to study. I realize this is my own fault though, and I'm okay with dealing with the consequences.

Another year passes and It's still not what I want to do. This because I don't have friends in my 'degree' so I decide to once again switch it up. I'm studying small business management now, and plan to get my bachelors, after which I will get another bachelor followed by a master. This is honestly because I feel extremely inferior to my peers. My older brother studied Economical Engineer, which is the hardest economical degree there is, he aced it and now has an amazing job. My sister has also done economics and is starting another amazing job as well. My 'best' friends are civil engineers, computer sciences, industrial engineers, doctors,...

This puts pressure on me to get a degree after this one. It's amazing how many people judge you based on your degree. I'm on tinder and someone stops talking to me as soon as she hears what I do. (not always, but it happes sometimes)

3) I've finished my first semester, exams went fairly well, and I received a call today that I have to go in because of plagiarism. I honestly don't know what it's about because I would never plagiarize as I pride myself in my writing skills (in my native language, that is). I read some of the repurcussions and some of them are suspension from your degree. I'm honestly flabbargasted and losing my shit as I haven't found the nerve to tell my parents. I'll wait until tomorrow after the meeting and then tell them about it.

It honestly just feels like I had some shit luck when I was younger and was in a very dark space, climbed out of it, which took several year, and now I'm on the brink of crashing yet again.

Thanks for everyone who read through it, I appreciate the fact that I can just share my story with people so I don't have it bottled up anymore. :)

TLDR: had some shit luck when I was younger health-wise, got depressed, got over it, possibly fucked my life up because of plagiarism and falling into a depression again.

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I have bo sense of Humor,i feel bad:(

Ok so i have a friend that always trys to make me laugh but i can't.I don't get jokes,funny references,metaphors or any joke based humor.Its like im a robot thats emotionless.The only thing i could laugh atis peoples failures.Im starting to hate myself.Its funny how everyone laughs so easily but i can't at all.It doesn't matter who tells me the joke because i still wont laugh.I feel bad i don't have any sense of humor

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I'm a Graffiti Artist.

I'm a graffiti vandal. I'm 25 years old now and I been doing it since I was 12 years old. My friends and I started a crew a few years ago. At the age of 13 I was sneaking out of my house with a backpack full of spray paint and hit the local trains and freeway spots. At the age of 16 my graffiti name came out in the news asking for information about me. One time around the age of 17 we bumped into other graffiti artist in the trains they where from San Francisco and pretty know artist. It was nice painting with them... I felt like I was somebody. Girls really didn't dig the whole graffiti thing while growing up... They liked my art but when I showed up to school with paint on my clothes I looked dirty. Like a bum. But I didnt care. All I cared was about going out and painting my feelings away. My family doesn't know I do this. Or if they do they haven't said anything at all.

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[Support Only] I have a serious porn/masturbation addiction

Hi, this is my first post on this subreddit. As the title suggests, I have a serious masturbation/porn addiction. I’m 15 years old, and you might say that it’s normal for a teenage boy to masturbate while he’s going through puberty, but this has been going on since I was 9 or 10 years old. It started out small: I would go to porn sites once in a while. But then I started doing it twice as much at 14. I would be so desperate for porn that I would text other people in hopes of getting private images. This would mix in with my anxiety in a very bad way, which makes me send so many text messages in a row. I don’t think I can tell my parents any of this without making them mad. I just need help getting over this issue.

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My friend embarrassed me. I finally got the chance for revenge, and I left him em-BARE-ASSED.

[No Regrets]

Throwaway.

My friend James is a huge geek in college. 4.0, Dean's List calculus geek. 22 year old college senior.

I never forgot senior year of high school how he snuck behind me on the beach and gave me a HUGE wedgie in front of about a dozen of our laughing friends.

I always told him he would pay for it...and one day he finally did lol.

We went to different schools. I'm about a state over, living with my fiance. One day he calls me and tells me that he needed a job to pay the final few semesters, and was trying to get a desk job at a hotel. But he tells me he found this one job, only 5 minutes up the road in the hills from his house in fact, that pays DOUBLE of any in the area.

Well great!

After a month of him working there. I started texting him for details and he's being really sketchy and vague.

I'm like "What is the big deal?" He said "Promise not to tell anyone?" I said sure.

He writes "...it's a nudist resort."

I said "HAHAHAHA are you serious? Well, at least you don't have to work in the nude or anything right."

He types back "Well..."

HAAAAAAAAAAAAA. I was cracking up. This is my virgin geek friend. Not exactly built like a model. 5'7, chubby belly you'd expect on a nerd who studies while chomping on Doritos and he always had that (admittedly cute), big bubble butt he was hiding under those nerdy khakis.

So of course I teased him mercillessly.

"What are you doing? Strutting around wearing just a fig leaf?"

"You tanning that white ass yet?"

He said that he isn't tanned, and is able to cope with the embarrassment because he is behind a desk, so his lower half is always covered.

Of course he swore me to secrecy, and would never tell me where the place was. And I tried SO HARD to find it. But it was even tough on Google.

Then one day I was CC'd on an email from James about some shipment. He must have put me on by mistake. There's the address.

JACKPOT.

So guess who strolled in there one day, after being forced to leave the camera I brought with me and my phone at the door lol, smiling like the cat who ate the canary and greeted my blushing, butt-ass NAKED friend?

"Are you really...hehehe...NAKED behind there?"

He was hemming, hawwing and stuttering. Standing as close to the desk as possible to hide his family jewels lol.

There he was, my virgin, geek friend. Blushing in his birthday suit!

Then a 40 year old, female guest came over to be checked in (with clothes on lol).

He said "Excuse me", and turned to check her in.

I just couldn't help myself.

I silently snuck around that desk while he was distracted.

JACKPOT - there it is, in the flesh. My naked friend, and his big, white, round BUBBLE BUTT jiggling behind him! Hahaha.

And then - my God - the motherload of jackpots - down at his feet, his neatly folded pile of clothes and accessories. His clothing...his socks, his sneakers...his phone, wallet, license, ID and car keys.

All in one very easily grabbable pile...

Oh FUCK IT!

I leaned back with all my strength and said "Have a nice ride home, nature boy!" and SMACKED those bare cheeks as hard as I possibly can as he did an adorable hop and yelp lol.

Then I quickly SNATCHED that pile of clothes and took off RUNNING!

As I ran full-speed for the exit, James left from behind his desk and ran after me in a panic.

I turned back and, my God what I wouldn't have done for a camera. My adorable virgin friend, his 5'7 frame totally bare, his cute, chubby little belly shaking, looking as vulnerable as ever, and pathetically holding a hand over his little package hahaha.

And then, when he was really losing me, he stopped covering it, and I turned back and saw it all. That too-cute little penis and balls flapping in the air conditioning for the world to see.

I sprinted out of the front doors towards my car in the parking lot, and there was James, his modesty trapping his front half behind the door, too chicken to go streaking through the parking lot in broad daylight hahaha.

Now what am I supposed to do? I have literally everything this boy had. Talk about stripped NAKED! I even have his phone, money, ID and car keys lol.

I'd at least give him a chance to get home.

First, I went into his car, and I cleaned it out. It was neat (of course it was), but he had an old shirt back there, and a towel. I took those, and even took the floormats lol. Checked the trunk which was empty.

As James stood at the front door, waiting for me to hand over his stuff, I then went for my finale.

I got in my car, sped off with my engine roaring, and yelled "Hey James, nice UNDIES!" and started whipping his underwear in a circle out of my window like a victory flag.

James told me later that he left the resort at night, knowing his had a shirt and towel in the car...then saw he didn't lolol. And the resort was locked up.

There was a naked virgin boy driving home that night, slumped in the seat at the red lights, then sprinting BUTT-ASSSSSS NEKKID across his front lawn and into his house.

Pretty sure he will never try to embarrass me again lol

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Terrified of ending up alone

I'm only a teenager but i'm so scared im going to end up alone, i'm absolutely terrified. Both my parents are still single and in their 50s, It controls my relationships because I'm scared to get into an argument with them and have them leave me .

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I'm in my early 20s and really want to hook up with this older woman I know from my seminar class who is probably 20 years older than me

Yep.

I'm officially on the reddit stage about thinking about this. We're both in a seminar class that's wrapping up soon (only 2 classes left). Suffice to say, yeah, definitely would (dat ass and dem thighs). I've noticed her staring at me, checking me out, rubber necking when I'm behind her, holding the stare, eyeing my body and ass up (my friend called that), flaunting herself off in front of me and checking if I'm looking (again dat ass). We talk, she laughs at every weak joke I throw her way, she seems pretty eager to flirt and what not.

I really want to hook up with this woman, but I'm afraid she's going to be weirded out by my age. I mean, I model so I'm no stranger to attention to girls my own age, but her being older is a bit of a turn on and definitely taboo. I'd like to ask her out for a study session (there's a bit of work involved with this seminar) but I'm afraid she might think of me as a son or just say no because I could be her son...but by the same token, would she eye fuck her son?

I think I'm just going to offer her my number and see where it goes, maybe a study session at her place? [No Regrets]

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Suicidal after gay sexual experience

[Remorse] 3 years ago when I was 18 and a virgin and on anti depressants that I wasn't prescribed. I knowingly made out with pre op trans and a post op trans. I don't know why I did it but I regret it more than anything. I feel disgusted and worthless. Idk how Ill move on and have inner confidence again. Im honestly just like fuck it after a couple weeks of reminiscing on this.. I honestly just want to give up. Fuck the gym, sex, my goals.. Im done

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End of the f world

I just feel so bloody sad after finishing the tv series end of the fucking world. It was just so intense . I hadn’t expected it to turn out like this .

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Depression and Hopelessness after gay experimenting(Teen)

[Remorse] 3 years ago when I was 18 and a virgin and on anti depressants that I wasn't prescribed. I knowingly made out with pre op trans and a post op trans. I don't know why I did it but I regret it more than anything. I feel disgusted and worthless. Idk how Ill move on and have inner confidence again

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Thought about divorce too many times

I'm a 26 yo newly married man (Jun 2017) and I've thought about divorce too many times these past months.

I got married happy, expectant of what the future will bring me. Happy with the person I was compromising my self with. Happy with the package, knowing it wasn't perfect. And I was ok with that.

He's 24, a person that was raised in black (if that makes it any different for folks reading this) family, with two sisters and a loving religious mother (including her family side) and a typical distant father. I can tell my husband grew up thinking being gay was wrong for too long. To the point his last ex was so fed up with not having a public relationship that ended up kind of leaving him. With a mom with the idea that house chores were for his sisters, to the point I'm teaching him now (being 24), how to fry an egg or how to how to do dishes.

I noticed some things in the beggining of our relationship, but he made huge changes in his life. He told to his friends of the ship (he's navy) that he was with a guy, and thinking of marrying me at some point, and then he started letting me kiss him in public. Baby steps I was happy with.

But other than that, nothing's changed. He's still in the closet to his family and there's not public recognition of us being a couple on any social media Network.

His motive for still being like this is that he's scared his family/friends will reject him, and he just rather keep everything the same even though is not reality.

I've talked to him about it, trying to give him confidence that his fears are just fears and whatever happens he will overcome it, but no reaction from him. Nothing.

We were in Spain for 3 years (I'm Spanish and thats were he met me), now we're in the states for roughly 3 months and I've asked him about visiting his family since we're in America before we go overseas again for 2 years at the end of March, but nothing. "We'll see, we'll see".

Side note: he hasn't seen his family since summer of 2016).

I don't get to feel like in a real relationship everytime we go out, he sometimes tries to act and talk "masc" compared to how he's at home, he doesn't talk too much to me and if I ever ask for a kiss he has to look around to see if people are looking at him ( like if there was a sniper pointing at his head to kill him, I just don't get it). I ALWAYS tell him when he starts acting weird, and it's always an argument.

Sidenote #2: I know ( he told me) he was bullied in school for being weird, or different. He grew up in Easly-South Carolina, if that makes any sense for people or can relate in any way.

For months I've gotten to understand that his past is still pretty present in his life, but he's no kid anymore and so forth responsible for his actions. We got money to be independent of his family or anybody else. So I don't know what button to push to make any changes in our life. I'm scared my time to be young and "reckless" is passing by. And he's not seeing it.

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