Reddie or Not!

Unfortunately I suffer very heavily from major depressive disorder. It's gotten too difficult to fight anymore. I've always tried to be a good friend to those I love, but I can't do that anymore and I feel like that means I shouldn't be here. People I love don't deserve the sort of burden that comes with associating with me, as depression has made me someone that I wasn't when I met them and won't allow me to pretend to be. the only fault is mine, and there's nothing that could have been done to prevent this. I hope only that those people that I care so much for know that I love them and miss them, and will understand my leaving. There is no one that I have negative feelings for here, and it's very important to me that that's known. I'm not coming to any harm, only trying to find a solution to my less than ideal state of mind. Know that I'm okay, and looking for ways to make things better for myself. I love you all so very much, and words cannot describe now sorry I am. Red

[memories]

If there’s one thing I learned since I signed up on 06/03/2012 3:23:23 PM, it’s that #red plays pokemon takes up too much of my time.

[reddiemercury]

I dreamt about you all last night and it is staying in my brain!!!! I miss you friends!

[reddiemercury]

Gosh I really don't know what to say. I'm on mobile so forgive me for any kinda formatting errors or stuff like that. I guess I just want to start with I'm Sorry. I was really terrible to a lot of people and it's inexcusable. If it helps at all, I've done a lot of growing and changing in the past few years. My memory isn't so great and I've gotten a little weird from essentially hermitting myself away from people for a while but I hope you'll... I don't know what I hope you'll do, actually! I connected really deeply with a lot of people I met through this blog and I've thought about, missed, and cried over probably all of you at some point or another. I think I just wanted you to know that. That the things I did and said here, good or bad, were and are important to me, and so are all of you. That's kinda silly and lame, isn't it, but I needed to come back to say it. I needed to come back to fix it

[reddiemercury]

Oh my god!!! Oh my god hi!!! you guys actually remember me i'm going to cry

[reddiemercury]

Hey all. Anyone still out there?

[becausebirds]

hoo dat

[reddiemercury]

you ever just feel like

not

being a thing

me 2

[reddiemercury]

I think when I do come back I might make a new blog to live on, move on from this one. Would anyone want to follow it though?? That is the question

[reddiemercury]

While I was gone I became Dragon Age trash btw

[reddiemercury]

My psychologist is really cool. He has an earring in one ear, references sci-fi crap, and very very subtlety mocks Freud.

[reddiemercury]

Good news! Got a new computer. Bad news, it runs windows 8. Does anyone have some advice for this?? I have to idea how to work this, and everything is blurry.

[stunningpicture]

the halls of a high school in Texas filled with students supporting their classmate after his mother lost her battle with cancer

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Just wanted to reblog this again because THIS is what life is about. This is pure, genuine love towards others and it’s the coolest shit on the planet. I don’t know how we got to a place where it’s corny or whack to be kind and genuinely love everyone. Everybody wants to be pissed off and hateful all the time. Idk man, I just think this is a microcosm of what our society should look like, everyone lifting each other up.

[reddiemercury]

i cant draw anymore

[reddiemercury]

(i smudged my closet but im still sleeping with the lights on.)

[reddiemercury]

So here's a thing, my closet is three sliding mirror doors and I always make sure they're closed when I go to bed because I'm a weenie. Yesterday they were open a little, so I thought mom must've gone in there while I was sleeping on her way to work to get like socks or something idk. So I was like whatev and closed them and went to bed. I woke up this morning and they're open again in the same way! So I text mom and ask. And she says she hadn't gone near my closet. So I have 3 dogs and a cat but these doors are heavy. They'd have to really kick at them to move them and that would have woken me up????? ?????????????? #ghosts #illuminati #sixpenceee #666

[mooncactus]

if you are a young thing i have one piece of advice for you:

being enthusiastic and happy about things you love is more important than being apathetic and snide. you will go so much farther in life spending energy on and talking about something you love than wasting energy on only complaining about or making fun of something you don’t. 

don’t focus on mocking others for being genuinely excited about something. focus on the things and people you love. 

[pagingme]

boom

[shia-suprise]

Holy shit turn on the audio

[dogstickz-deactivated20161113]

PLEASE TURN ON THE AUDIO