Making Sense of “My Life”
Today, I didn’t have a “quiet time”. I’ve just realized, we have made these terms, lingo, and just other generalizations that I have no idea where we go from. No I didn’t have a specific time of reading word and journaling and praying. But I did spend time with The Lord and I did grow today. I know that.
I watched a Francis Chan sermon today; titled Making Sense of Your Life. I totally thought it was going to be just explaining my life, or this season of life, or somehow be specific to my life. I don’t know why. I just wanted clarity and reassurance going into watching this sermon.
But man, this sermon turned my life around. 100%.
It was about how it doesn’t make sense for me to say that I believe one thing and my actions don’t reflect that. And in the most basic way, that makes so much sense. So to make sense of my life; it would look like giving it away. Truly having the LIVING GOD live in me; my heart. To not let it be about me, to not let it be about this life.
I constantly am worrying about money, family, friends, or something. But it’s all out of selfish desire. Or not trusting God and his plan for my life. But this life is so short, and I can’t even grasp how short it is. There’s an eternity that I’m going to be spending with my God, and I want to be excited.
I don’t want to fight callings, I don’t want to live this life for myself; when there’s a God out there that loves me, and calls me to higher things. I pray that I may seek those things daily, that my heart will be changed, everyday, forever. That I will never get tired of wanting to know you more. because I can never know You fully God. I truly pray for a desire that will never cease or die, a commitment to You that cannot be broken, I thank you that you have already won my battles. That you have won my battle over sin and temptations for me. That you know exactly how I feel in every moment; mourning, happiness, sadness, and joy.
Thank you for placing me in a country that I am allowed to freely worship; where I can openly proclaim your name without being PERSECUTED. Lord, allow my eyes to be open to the persecution around the world. I’m tired of being oblivious to other countries’ cultures. That where we live is not the “norm”. I pray that God you will give me a heart for these other countries, that I will be grateful everyday to live in a place where I do not have to be afraid to know and love You. Jesus, I pray that you will do big things in my life; and allow me to be open to them. You are love.
I pray that my life will make sense, will measure of IN THE LIGHT OF THE GOSPEL.
I thank you for allowing me to learn new things, I thank you for allowing me to come to you; I thank you and praise You for allowing me to know you.
I love you. I’m sorry for who I am, but I thank you for who you allow me to be.