Religion: Procrastination

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...and Conclusions

Turns out writing my thoughts down really made me understand myself and my feelings better.

I’ve realised that I just really want to be a leader more than a follower. I don’t think I fear being different, I just don’t know how. Right now I’m a follower but maybe that isn’t such a bad thing.. After all, a leader works for his or her followers and not the other way round.

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Procrastination

Considering my religion is procrastination, it seems fitting that my first ever blog post is called that too and after all, it is what I am doing right now. Being a teenage girl, you are pretty much one confused mix of emotions and mood swings and for me writing them down feels like the best way to handle them. So here I go. Proceed at your own peril.

After introducing so dramatically, I suppose my beginning should reciprocate the intensity but tbh, I just live a normal life with the usual studying pressure, boy trouble and the worst, hormones, especially since mine lack in places where one’d want them (girls, you know what I’m talking about) but are abundant when it comes to everything else.

I’m not going to start by telling you my name because this blog will remain anonymous for the moment but I am 14 years old, a somewhat bookworm and obsessed with netflix (except where I live there is no netflix so basically TV). As much as I’d like to believe it, I am really not that extraordinary, in fact some might even call me cliché. I mean, I listen to mainstream music, love shows like Pretty Little Liars and read all of the popular teeny bopper books but the thing about me is, and I don’t know if it’s just me or with everyone but I feel like I want to be basic. On the other hand I want to have my own character. I want to like the kind of music that is less known or not as recognised (I largely came to this realisation after watching The Perks of Being a Wallflower) and I want be interested in shows like Sherlock rather the common white girl stuff I love. I just want to have my own taste which is unique but I always end up loving what everyone else does.

I don’t know why anyone would want to read about my chaotic and jumbled feeling but I honestly really appreciate it if you have managed to make it here and advice would be phenomenal.

I get that at my age very few people know what they want to be or who they are but at least in the case of my friends, they have some sort of vague idea or if nothing else, a talent to rely on. But I haven’t discovered any talent of mine yet or even any passion (unless, of course, watching TV counts) and I have many a time, doubted myself on if I really have any true identity. I am fair at studies I have recently uncovered a a love of writing though thinking of stories is not my forte. I am more of a writing out my feelings kind of person. I, funnily also enjoy balancing equations in chemistry and unlike most, I actually like helping algebra find its x (ex). Ultimately, you are who you are.