#understandingme

[dobblekids-world]

[nineteenfive1991]

Maybe I cry for small things because I have to be strong on the big ones.

-Nineteenfive1991

[certainlovementality]

Today was a good day. Work. School. Errands. While I was running around, I just had a moment of appreciation of being alive. It doesn’t take much for me to be grateful. I was able to wake up in my house, in good health, and get dressed; and that is enough for me. Though that may not mean much to someone else, it is everything to me...

[soularsoulja-blog]

#GoodVibes #GoodIntentions #UnderstandingMe #OpenMindedNess #Intellect #Spirituality #Womanness #Fertility #GODfidence 💖🌍✨🙏💯

[lisalyn70]

Up close and personal with the worn out #puppycharms. #loki is all worn out from watching me work all day on the computer. #love this buddy to pieces. #loki #love #puppycharms #bestfriendsforever #understandingme #mybf

[religionprocrastination-blog]

...and Conclusions

Turns out writing my thoughts down really made me understand myself and my feelings better.

I’ve realised that I just really want to be a leader more than a follower. I don’t think I fear being different, I just don’t know how. Right now I’m a follower but maybe that isn’t such a bad thing.. After all, a leader works for his or her followers and not the other way round.

[sailingunderblueskies]

It's been a while...

So it's been exactly 2 years since I started this blog and until today I'd only made 3 posts.... now 4.

The point of this blog was to get my thoughts out there in a way that would release them from me and because by writing them down, hopefully I would be able to better understand what I was trying to think in the first place.

But apparently I got rather side-tracked.

So to quickly sum up those 2 years, I quit the degree I was doing, was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, did 4 weeks as an apprentice chef, broke up with my abusive boyfriend, moved to Victoria, got a new boyfriend, got a new job, started a new degree, got engaged, got unengaged (but stayed the relationship) had 2 surgeries and met a whole swarm of new people.

However, in that time span, I've forgotten to actually make time for myself. I’ve forgotten to listen to music and to write and to express myself in any sort of way. Occasionally I’ll write a few small things down in my journal but it’s really not the same so I’ve decided to turn over a new leaf and make time at least 4 times a week to just vent out all my emotions whether they are positive or negative so that I can feel human again.

I also want to use this as a way of discovering who I am. What are my passions, what do I want to be in the future, where do I want to go. Who is Sarah?

Hopefully by doing this I will be able to centralize my thoughts and to understand my emotions better, understand my emotional triggers better and through that understanding I will be able to have more stable moods and therefore a much better relationship with my boyfriend.

So, here’s to new beginnings, to understanding and to a brighter future.

Welcome to my life.

To begin this journey, here's photo of me and my boyfriend take last nigh after dinner in the city and a lovely walking exploration of Swanston and Flinders streets. We simply enjoyed the night as teenagers, something we don't get to do often due to busy student lives. Enjoy every moment is the main thing I took from last night.