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I broke my no drinking rule a while back and just like disbanded it and now im definitely buzzed if not a schwee drunk and worrying about developing alcoholism unsure if its ocd or a legit concern to have

Im am depressed and nauseous and i know the nauseous is because i need to eat but all we have is eggs and i hate eggs

Fuck i cant reach out to anyone i cant hust curl up in bed and pretend i don’t exist and now i have to clean before my mother potentially shows up

I dont know quite why its hit all of a sudden

I feel lost and overwhelmed and depressed as shit

Im anxious

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I think I need help

I’m not sure I want to be in this relationship

I don’t know how to figure that out

I don’t know how I’d begin to leave

I don’t know if I could afford to live on my own

Mom just called whil I was typing in just gonna go back to bed

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I am also scared that wanting to leave is just depression talking

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And I only have like one friend and they don’t live in my state…

I need to eat I should really get out of bed again but I don’t want to be perceived

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I think I need help

I’m not sure I want to be in this relationship

I don’t know how to figure that out

I don’t know how I’d begin to leave

I don’t know if I could afford to live on my own

Mom just called whil I was typing in just gonna go back to bed

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I am also scared that wanting to leave is just depression talking

I think I need help

I’m not sure I want to be in this relationship

I don’t know how to figure that out

I don’t know how I’d begin to leave

I don’t know if I could afford to live on my own

Mom just called whil I was typing in just gonna go back to bed

Sorry for flaking again I just can’t handle pretending to be okay

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#bad times mental and I really want to be okay #but I feel like a burden reaching out rn #especially about a topic so triggering #and not just triggering but creates moral loop.#because saying fat is bad if you aren’t fat #rather saying you *feel* fat when you aren’t fat is rude to fat people #and while I certainly have weight and feel fat and to myself look fat #people say I’m not but they also say I’m. curvy n shit #all the southern code words for you’re a little fat #I don’t even eat that much anymore I know use to over eat every meal and really bad stuff but I’ve gotten better #lol #I’m not in a good place mentally #I hate my body #please fucking kill me

Kendal wrote me an apology letter

I haven’t read it yet because it isn’t here

My mom knows more about what happened to me than I do currently

She called me while I was on my way to work/internship thingy for my degree. I was driving and alone and I hated it and I feel so stupid and broken and I am not ready to forgive I have no reason to forgive rn and I don’t care about that stupid letter

Fuck them both rn

I feel like a fucking burden and like I’m annoying her by talking about and I don’t mean to it’s not my fault this got brought up and it’s not my fault I can’t just drop it why does everyone seem to care about how I’m reacting I’m trying not to affect others

Hi yes if we’re mutual and you have spoons please talk to me about this because shit related to my trauma just happened and I’m not sure how or what I feel and a lot of people are saying that I don’t have to open the letter but I feel like maybe I should so idk

I’m not upset about the change I’m upset because it feels like raw like I’ve been stripped bare a little bit and that I lost the choice. I literally don’t mind being gendered as a girl I’m still getting use to she pronouns again and I don’t want to tell people

#don’t rb #idk what to do #stopped watching my kids show #and scrolled insta #saw a label changing positivity post and got sad

Anyone else see cute kid stuff and get mad jealous?

I just wish they had cared more about me

For being their “miracle” as she puts it I sure was ignored until band or when I could be used for social gain at church or w/e

I’m a bad person and I would like to self stab now

Thought about how she called out of work for me yesterday I guess today is actually just a day off me but yesterday was so bad

oh no I just made myself sad:(

I AM ALLOWED TO BE TRIGGERED BY PEOPLE IN MY LIFE AND STILL LOVE THEM ANDNSTILL OOVE MYSELF AND I CAN WORK THROUGH THIS I AM OKAY I AM OKAY

#caps tw #all caps

CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHY I STILL GET MILDLY PANICKY WHEN I SEND A “risky” TEXT TO MY BEST FRIEND OF 2(if not more) years does anyone know what it’s like to be normal and not over explain yourself cause I don’t I had tocrewrite a one sentence message three times

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