And one day, there will come a day when you stop caring about it all;
the drama, the fake friends who would only ever message you when they needed something from you, the heartbreak of seeing someone dear to you fade away from your life, helplessly watching them choose someone else "better than you"
the people that broke your trust and took for granted all that you'd done for them, those that tried to undercut your worth because they only cared to bring themselves up. the loneliness from keeping people at bay, protecting my heart too vigilantly and as a result, having no one to talk to when things fall apart.
an embarrassing moment that you thought people would remember years later down the track, that one exam in which everyone did better than you, the feeling of being a failure no matter what you do, the missed opportunities, mistakes that you constantly beat yourself up over, the feeling of having let yourself and others down, wanting to end your life when hope became hopeless, and the worse was all you ever knew
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an event that changed you in a way that you couldn't go back to who you were, the frustration of not going anywhere when it feels like everyone around you is moving forward, seeing how incredibly blessed some people are and realising that their successes are like a pipe dream to you, the isolation of being lost and directionless, the unfairness, unfairness, unfairness of it all.
not understanding how it all wrong, the emotional and physical exhaustion of being stuck in a vicious cycle of being in constant battle with your mind, thinking how different everything would be if you were like him or her, the disappointment of giving your all only to have someone say it wasn't enough
When you're caught in the moment, it feels overwhelming, and you just want it all to stop, but it just won't. But, in time, it could be a few months, a year, or five years, in hindsight, you look back on everything, and you have a rude awakening; you've moved on, you've let go. You haven't thought about the heartbreak that happened a few months ago. Why? That's because you've been too busy focusing on yourself. You've forgotten all about it because you've grown, you've matured, forgiven the people who broke your heart, and the missed opportunities were replaced by another wave of better ones,
The mistakes you made when you were younger have made you wiser, and the pain that once made you feel weak have made you stronger today. You made it, even when every inch of your body screamed at you to give up.
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