better than the letter of the law

...she wanders, she wonders, she stumbles along ambling on until something goes wrong... {between 20 & 30 in New York City, winging life by the seat of its pants}

[renegademeteor]

anyone active on Dreamwidth?

can’t stand the yell-into-the-void-and-low-quality-interaction formats of tumblr & twitter; have been starting it up again w/some friends! lemme know.

[pukicho]

Pretty sure people who the play the flute are just elves in disguise or something

[pigeonsinatree]

People who play the flute are vindictive assholes.

[pukicho]

So are elves

[renegademeteor]

I told someone they could trust the validity of my positive opinion of them because I'm a judgeypants, and like...

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Zane: Hey, are you taken?

Vin: Yeah bitch, taken for granted.

[humansofnewyork]

“Not long ago it looked like I was about to get everything. I was one of the first employees at a company that sold for a billion dollars. So I started a new company, and everything seemed to be going perfectly, but suddenly everything came apart. This has been the toughest year of my adult life. I went bankrupt, my company failed, and the person I was in love with died. I didn’t commit suicide—though I considered it. But my ideas of myself have definitely died. I thought I was better than everyone. I saw my success as the culmination of all my positive merits. Losing everything forced me to realize how much of my good fortune was due to things that had been given to me.”

[renegademeteor]

valuable lesson, guy, blinking awake from the milling herds of privileged NYC entrebroneurs. we’re all on rollercoasters. so many rollercoasters. 

and part of me is wary that I’m just on the crest of yet another one.

we’ll see.

once in a lifetime…

[renegademeteor]

oh my god i really tempted fate again huh

[plumcoloredblazer]

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art by Giselle Almeida

i’m floating back into some vague echo of what i once was, pieced together with what i already am & the terrifying potentialorlackthereof in what fuckall nonsense i could be

[auditorydamage-blog]

I used to think it was awful that life was so unfair. Then I thought, “wouldn’t it be much worse if life were fair, and all the terrible things that happen to us come because we actually deserve them?” So now I take great comfort in the general hostility and unfairness of the universe.

–Marcus Cole, Babylon 5, 3x13: “A Late Delivery From Avalon”

[renegademeteor]

this is to say, maybe I still don't know what lasting happiness is, but it is neither couched in my fully independent sense of self nor is it in the loving of others who are wont to take and take and take - so really where am I in this life? how much of my pain is circumstantial and how much is his or hers? and more importantly, is the pain the baseline or is the happiness? which is the delusion and the respite, and which is the rule and the anchor?

[renegademeteor]

hark it is time for my quarterly “shit, this tumblr exists?” post

i’m doing gross adult-like things like putting some of my stupid writing under my actual stupid legal name website because i bought the domain for it a few months ago

jury’s still out on whether or not i want to keep attempting to be An Adult or whatever, but considering I just dropped $40 on ebay on a $600 dress that looks like a fucking fairy elf wedding dress for the express purpose of coming up with an excuse to wear it, I’M GONNA GO WITH NO

the only difference is that my privilege and BSing ability have shat me out a stable job with disposable income and cue our heroine furiously saving for retirement because she’s gonna like do an existential flipout & maybe quit her job once she’s got more savings and good god that’s a stupidly privileged thing to be able to say.

(i feel some guilt & imposter syndrome over this.)

(basically how did I get here and can I give all of my more-deserving friends who actually do work on things jobs too?)

(also contrary to all this, life is pretty good, someone wants to pay me to take photos of me dancing with things on fire, I am attempting to do music sometimes, I have no free time, I am still an adoptive corgi co-parent, and my co-parent is pretty swell.)

[achromaticheart]

[neptunalea]

Chanel ss 2014

[renegademeteor]

life goooooaaaaals

not working or whatever

[shewhoworshipscarlin]

Necklace, 1900.

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see there is a fine line between elegant and ostentatious. the distinction is easily defined by “if you replaced all the gems with plastic ones, which would still look gorgeous?” this. this is fucking gorgeous

[renegademeteor]

manic, stircrazy, and waiting for news from the job front

LIFE

is okay other than the hopefully-very-transient funemployment

[fashionthroughtara]

Elie Saab Fall 2013 Haute Couture finale

[birdcheese]

Bird cards. Caws why not?

[renegademeteor]

yes this is my favorite time of year

because of these drawings & puns

[hajandradeye]

Jean Louis Sabaji  Spring-Summer 2014

[renegademeteor]

fuuuuuck

[aidosaur]

Johnny Wander Engagement Comics

Hey friends! Ananth and I are going to be in India for our wedding for a few weeks! Stay safe, we’ll be back soon!

[seventypercentethanol]

Nameless and the Scientist; the Gates.

[itscolossal]

Ceramic Flower Sculptures and Tiles by Angela Schwer

[renegademeteor]

or: i half expected this all to be carved out of fondant

[dorkbait]

2015. graphite, watercolor, acrylic, ink, colored pencil & white gel pen on 9x12″ hot press watercolor paper.

[renegademeteor]

except I didn’t realize this was TWS fanart at first and for a split second I was like who painted himself with a manbun

what is my life