meep the peep

and all of a sudden - I’m 18 again. ⊹₊⟡⋆ 25 ⊹₊⟡⋆ SW: 270lbs CW: 220lbs GW1 ✅: 250lbs GW2 ✅: 230lbs GW3: 200lbs

[repoko]

What the heck is this?

(Intro)

I use to take this a lot more srsly when I was younger but now that I’m in my mid 20s and don’t care for life that much more - Im taking things a little less literal and try to make the best out of a crippling situation I find my inner self being in most days

When I first found this side of the internet; I just graduated HS and was insecure, fat, ugly (as if any of those things have changed) and about to go to college. I thought “oh this is FANTASTIC!” Get thin and hot for the college boys AND feel bad about myself with other ppl?awesome! And wouldn’t you know it, I developed a mild case of 3d. It didn’t turn into a full blown case but it was enough to where I counted kcals out the whazo and became freakish about food.

Eventually, after a year or two, I started to focus on school and things got a little better and my mind shifted away from tumblr. But as I’m becoming older I’m like spiraling more and more and have this urge to gain ANY sort of grasp on anything I can find. There’s nothing in my life more than I want to find joy in than achievement. Weight loss, being skinny, being beautiful, is a major achievement.

I have a good job, I have a lovely family. I have a good bunch of friends. I love my two pets. But that’s it. I have nothing else. There’s nothing else for me but this. I need this. This is it for me. I’ll make of this what I will and have fun with it. I’m not taking everything too seriously. I’ll have my bad days where my brain will implode on itself and I’ll wallow in my own corruption and sadness, but on other days I’ll be remembering why I’m alive and who I keep striving for, my loved ones and those that I care for.

I’ll update this post or whatever as time goes on but yeah - repoko

[redbull-zero]

I wish I was one of those girlies who hates food. Like “eww carbs. Omg c4lor1es” but nope I’m just over here like

[repoko]

Locking in im determined to do this again LOCKING IN

[repoko]

literally been b1ng!ing the past 4 days it’s been so awful

[walkitoff2000]

Take it from someone who has started a calorie deficit many times and stuck to it:

1. The first three days, you will be starving. It will be constant. It will suck. I cannot sugarcoat it.

But the good news is it doesn’t stay that miserable forever.

2. The first week you will have food noise. The physical hunger will go away, and the mental hunger will almost be worse. Do not give in or you will have to start at step one again.

3. After a week it starts to become a habit. The food noise is still there. But you have learned not to listen to it. You have learned to distract yourself with other things that you enjoy. (Since eating is not that much fun anyway)

4. After two weeks, it will become a habit.

Even if it seems hard to start back up again after a binge or a period of over eating, those first few days are the hardest. If you’re stuck in a binge restrict cycle, you’re never gonna get past that point of hunger and food noise.

Trust me, it’s worth it.

[repoko]

im built like a man and chopped this is awful I wish I had hips

[repoko]

hi I haven’t been on here in a while. I’ve been slacking but I’ve lost 10lbs since the last time I’ve been on here. Yep.

[spycarb]

Couldn’t be me haha...

[repoko]

I will lose it believe in me

[spycarb]

Couldn’t be me haha...

[ana-beetle]

Maintaining weight and gaining weight are the same thing in my brain

[lambofstarvation]

[repoko]

Ok I finally get the hype of strawberry and cream Dr Pepper yall this shit is GOOD

[lundllwa]

[weightlossbian]

HOW AM I SO FUCKING BAD AT HAVING AN ED BRO?? How do I think abt ts constantly and I STILL can't eat under 1000cal in a day I'm such a fucking fatty 😭😭😭

[expand-to-breathe]

Being junkorexic is wild to me

And I say that as a junkorexic myself

Like,,, brother you cannot OMAD on ONE CAN OF PRINGLES

YOURE GOING. TO PERISH 😭😭😭😭

[repoko]

someone said my weight loss inspires them. Thanks. im still fat and I hate myself even more vs when I was 40lbs heavier. I also eat less than 800 kcal a day so.

[repoko]

When I start to think I look pretty I need to watch the videos my friends took and remind myself why im single. no one wants a fat ugly pig.