the truth about now. 24
I dont know how to face my realities of the decisions of what got me here in the first place. I dont know how let go of your hand, even though you hurting it. I dont know how you can say the meainest thing to break me down. I dont how you can speak of love and goodness, and come back with a knief to stab me with it. I don’t know how get up and grab my stuff yet again. Pick everything up, and go back home with shatter love and the same old hurt. I dont know how to go back home and look at my mom. I dont know how to face her, when all she ever did was warn. I did not listen, not one bit. I didn’t even consider it. I just went with my heart and my love. Ive left you so many times. Ive come back so many times, and its not working. I want to have a real honest talk with you. But youre not allowing me to have. My gut is telling me to walk away, and leave. My heart is beating me down. I dont’ know how to let go. I know this isnt a healthy stage anymore. I know that being with you isnt good. I don’t know how to lt go. let go of the idea of you, let go of my from you, let go of your family, and their love. I dont know how to leg of my own expectations. I wish someone would give me the answers I need. I wish someone would give me strength. But I am not strong, I am weak. I am weak. You are my weakness. I dont know how to move on, and let go of you.






















