“Lyon isn’t allowing it,” Eirika protested as Ephraim turned away. “He has no control. I only saw him because the demon purposefully let him go, just for a moment.”
He was so stubborn… Eirika bit her cheek until she tasted blood and had to admit that in his position, she would feel the same. Hadn’t she made that choice already? Come back to free her brother, no matter the cost? And now here he was, for her, and he wouldn’t be persuaded any more than she would have been.
“We’ll have to find a way to kidnap him tonight, then. I have a theory that…with the stone of Rausten, and perhaps by the full moon, since the demon is strongest at the new moon…”
That was when he’d taken Lyon as his sacrifice, at least. But she could explain her theories later. They had so little time, but she wrapped her arms around Ephraim’s waist and pressed her cheek against his back, feeling herself crumble in tandem with him.
“I missed you so much.” Her voice was already watery. “I’d wished you wouldn’t come back, but at the same time, I’m so glad you did.”
“I couldn’t just leave,” Ephraim said immediately. At the sound of her voice breaking, he turned back to her and buried his face in her hair, his arms tight around her as if somehow it could keep them together. “I couldn’t. I wanted -- I wanted you to stay away, more than anything. I thought if I could just -- just work up the courage to end it again, then I could go home to you and everything would be all right again --”
It wouldn’t have been all right, he knew. It hadn’t been all right the first time, after all. He’d just stayed silent about it, kept it a secret. But now it was all out in the open, every raw, vulnerable emotion he’d ever had about it, and he couldn’t simply hide it all again or pretend as if it had never been there. He wiped at his cheeks, furious at himself more than anything. More than the demon -- more than Lyon, and the realization of how angry he was at Lyon just made it all worse.
“For a while, I wished -- I wished he’d never come back at all. I wished none of it had ever happened. I wished no one ever knew any of what I told you, and that you and I and -- and Renais -- could just... heal, finally. But now I don’t even know what to do, Eirika. I don’t. It’s all my fault for ever letting him back in, because after all of what he’s done, I didn’t learn a damn thing.”