Mercyrainer @reverse-therapist - Tumblr Blog

sooo I left school due to lack of film programs, and Im interviewing for an editing job soon. Life is GREAT. I'm moving in with a friend this winter. it all turned out ok

I’m too much of something for everyone

I’m going to break down soon

I’m stupid for not having saved money

Every problem I have is my fault

I fear I will become nihilistic and apathetic

What if I’m in my parents house forever

Does progressing and growing have to mean hurting the people you love

Is there a guide on how to do this right

#misc

I made a Jun Togawa top, buy it if you want to

#jun togawa #yapoos #halmens #diy fashion #upcycling #bleach dyed shirt

Hey if there are people out there who love Jun Togawa then I have news for you!

I bleach dye shirts with handmade stencils and designs and I recently made a Jun Togaw Tamahime Sama design. It’ll be in my depop pretty soon and if you’re interested please consider buying one as they help a lot!

#jun Togawa #tamahime Sama #bleach dyed shirt #diy #fashion #upcycling #recycled fashion #Yapoos #halmens #alternative #alternative fashion

Don’t enter a restaurant

Oh and btw I’m not a guy. A lot of people think I am (which is sick since it means they’re not perceiving me as a girl) but like I lean towards the masculine in my gender, but not the male. I am my parents daughter. I am just an idea. Idk. I understand myself and really don’t need to make sense to anyone else. I’m super happy in this regard.

A guy who I went to college with was in a cut video that Cody Ko made a video on and meanwhile I’ve done zero film shit since I had to drop out and I work at the fucking old navy.

I feel like everyone else is moving forward career wise and I’ve been trapped in limbo for six months. And you wanna know how many times I’ve cried about it? Pretty much not at all. I haven’t allowed myself to feel my feelings about what happened last fall in any amount. I doubt I ever will. What’s the point? I’m going to a state school in the fall and I have a job and friends so literally what would the point on dwelling on what could have been be??? It would just make me feel shitty and I’ve been working so hard to be happy (and I AM!! In my day to day I am usually very upbeat and in my hobbies!! I just get sad sometimes). I just need to realize that everything goes at its own pace. Snail speed is not judged by the speed of the mouse. Things will be okay and so will I.

#this post ended up being positive lol #misc

I can’t keep running forever

I do not like men , it seems

It’s funny when people try to hurt my feelings by calling me ugly because

A) I’m the hottest bitch ever

B) even going by conventional standards I’m pretty attractive, not like supermodel status but definitely not conventionally ugly

C) that’s really the best you can do?

After like five minutes of thought I really don’t think Josef r*pred his sister in Creep. Like he’s so full of shit I don’t think that happened. And SHE called HIM, and it’s like if he had done that why would she be in contact with him still??

I just flat out don’t believe him.

#creep

When they tore down my childhood home

The pilot light was still aflame

#misc #creative writing

Pls buy my shirts I need to pay bills so bad