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yeah yeah jeremy irons unintentionally funny n all that but another rzn i like him is bc he has strong rethorical n analytical skills w/out much interest in academics or taking things seriously. wanted to be a vet but admitted he was indifferent n had no "scientific ability". had artistic upbringing n classical theatre training so clearly a creative person but acting isn't even his passion more so than being a moneymaker that allows him to do random shit he likes more, like buying a ruined 15th century castle n spending 6 yrs personally overseeing its restoration (strong grasp on architectural geometry n masonry?), etc. this type practical smart person, where everyth stems from genuine curiosity for a wide array of things, are just really likable to me

#also. i feel validated tht he also hated school ok. my idols are old ass ppl but that's ok. another one is the late anthony bourdain

thought abt kingslayer hving at least one end credit where it's just ominous chiaroscuro shots of sakamoto's home then it was ruined bc i was listening to once more to see u

#“the pedophile ending” miles n pavitr meme #well slow heavy a little off n flirty (cos i'm not a pussy) works. just not hving mitski for kingslayer unless it's townie

some changes are made to sakamoto n tovi (+ hana just by being in proximity to them) that may give more oompf to tovi's built up resentment (+him using ej as a -non-discardable- pawn) rather than a pathetically thin character running off a one-sided abandonment fear. bc tovi, same way he occupies the space between abuser n victim, is a good potential-packed character who's nvr one thing

#also i'd argue tht hana looking past his anger at her made him worse is why she's less likely to gv ppl the benefit of the doubt now lol #everybody affects everybody hana's a v good kid but i'm not making her untouchable to the treatment she got from the few ppl in her #earliest memories. yk how sm ppl make char A thee angel ever as a way to either serve B or bring down B via comparisons #well hana has nvr done anyth wrong. she's a rare case where that's true lmao. i'm just careful w framing goodness as smth that always comes #innately n nvr caused or dimmed by external factors. ej's “good” traits is partially him feeling defenseless n wriggling out of trouble #hana's goodness got spat on by tovi n that's prob her heart's first ever genuine “the fuck?” lmao

there's an ej n roy edit like this smwhere in my head

#or tovi n sakamoto the song is rlly not ej roy even tho the movie hving a dissilusioned filmmaker n a woman w her own trauma-induced looping #reality where tomorrow is always her birthday is sorta in similar vein to ej roy #ykw nah i enjoy this as tovi sakamoto better. “i'll be an anchor but i won't bring u down” is straight up not applicable to roy/ej

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i rmbr talking abt ej like this

#awww he got a little womb tucked inside him awww

speaking of them. guess the song

#should rlly change those uniforms 15 y/o me made. more utilitarian. they don't need rlly epaulets or a cop-like silhouette #maybe get filipe in a lab coat straight up. they aren't dealing w civillians they're conservation officers n an ecologist maintaining the #volatile nature of their scifi planet's floral n fauna #ykw i bet suzuki secretly likes the singer in the comfort of his apartment. like ascends at one part of the song. feels it deeply #he's got sm venus energy in him BAHAH

everyth lowk boring now that it got me drafting wtvr shit like "a good team dynamic isn't a dad w 4 kids. that's bad n i'm not the voltron legendary defender fandom"

#well u can nvr be too sure w what ppl will compare ur ocs to. but i alrd had suzuki compared to hiro hamada thx to the hair n teeth #like peculiar teeth n shaggy hair aren't traits i hv myself/enjoy putting on japanese characters. it's an affectionate stereotype sorta #but look unless it's cowboy bebop i don't want my forest ranger ocs compared to any other action-y futuristic ensemble cast w #one visibly younger kid thing i'll sigh and weep

i blv certain characters will be done justice by me not bc i'm generally good w characters but bc of that time i said i love fuzzy rock songs as they function like weighted blankets (+ good noise-cancelling headphones substitute). gawd bless rock n roll and its cousins and the angsty fringes

#i will not let the the thing ur in change u or make a mockery out of u...

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is tzvi a personification of ej's suppressed aggression n survival instincts? are they a DID allegory? no but it's one of those rare things i won't be mad abt if ppl read them tht way as long as they can separate the denotative vs connotative

#if they can't then tzvi's just an extension of ej. n that's shit #the DID allegory isn't intentional n i even surprised myself w how similar they end up but it's right there like #if ppl catch it they won't b wrong #maybe cos i actually write them based on survival/near-death compromise w memory less n a shattered sense of self instead of sm #sensationalized good guy fighting the bad guy in him bs #ej n tzvi are literally two diff ppl just crossing wires. how they end up feeling more “whole” than actual DID reps smtimes idk #the whole point is constant compromise. if there's antagonism it breeds memory loss bc they still share roots no. not treating the other #person as like. a whole diff person/enemy u hv to bravely keep in check