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first year, week forty-two

may 21, was supposed to review for upcoming final exams but i just lazed around thinking that im just gonna wing everything and that ill be okay even though i dont do good on my exams because ive already did some extra work for the past previous weeks to stabilize my grades even though i flunk my exams or that if ever i dont do good. i did the final revisions for our research paper in filipino and made my other groupmates print it on my stead. i did some reviewer in theology and prepared the things ill be needing for our trip in majayjay. laguna with my family because we planned on going swimming with my relatives. i felt really shitty because i didnt do anything that would somehow prepare me for my exams and i feel guilty because im going to have fun while not really exerting any effort to save myself from my final exams. but whatever right?

may 22, trip to majayjay, laguna. the swimming was fun because it was some sort of bonding with the family. i ended up pretty much as the photographer of the whole trip though. my dad did get one nice picture of me that ill be uploading on facebook sometime soon. i just dont get the time to upload pictures and my internet conenction is practically useless especially now that its officially rainy season in the philippines. i tried to review for my exams during the trip but it was just me lying to myself because i really cant absorb any information i read.

may 23, exams in theology. i pretty much just tried my best to answer everything and to not leave any space blank. after theology i had lunch with my friend group and i decided to stay on beanleaf to make reviewers and to review myself atleast. i did reviewers in phil hist before i decided to call it a day. i reviewed in english at home as well as made another reviewer for it. im oretty sure ill be able to pass english anyway no matter how bad i fared for my final exams but oh well, im trying anyway.

may 24, final exams in english. it was rather easy i guess. i brought my reviewers in envi sci, psychology and filipino because those are the courses scheduled for the next day. i hanged out at the usual cafe ive been going to for the past few days and i  just finished my reviewer in phil hist and reviewed for my envi sci exams and scanned through my psychology book. im just gonna try to wing my filipino exam if i can.

may 25, filipino exam was kind of hard and tricky but i guess i managed anyway. envi sci was long but atleast it was finally over. psychology exam was an essay type of exam and if there would be any prof that would be deemed lazier than my psychology prof then id like to see them and try. also passed our envi sci term paper that i pretty much made  myself. made me thought about going solo for a project the next school year. went to beanleaf again to make a reviewer  in accounting and scanned through my phil hist textbook. one last day to go.

may 26, phil hist exam was really difficult and i found myself mouthing 'tangina' to every question that i encountered and read. i pretty much guessed my way through and it was so frustrating because i really tried my best to review. i promise. i really did. accounting exam sounded and looked easy but it was intensely tricky. i think i passed the exam though. barely. exams were finally over and my friend group did nothing to celebrate which was very uneventful. me and my other blockmate just decided to take our flu vaccine shots and i pretty much just accompanied him to buy some swimwear for their trip to boracay because i wanted to buy a dress for my sisters graduation ceremony anyway. i guess my last day of my first year of uni was very uneventful but i guess it was okay. its not like im gonna miss anyone anyway.

may 27, first day of vacation and i pretty just did nothing but watch the first two episodes of my hero academia and cut yellow paper and business papers in sizes of 1/2 crosswise and 1/2 lengthwise, 1/4 and 1/8. i think i did 20 copies for each and im stocking up for future use on second year. atleast i did something productive on my first day.

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first year, week forty-one

may 14, i spent half of the day together with my blockmate at home because she stayed over for our other blockmate's debut party happening today. to be honest i didnt really feel that comfortable with my clothes because its the first time ive worn a jumpsuit this fancy. like yo know the lower part thing being like a culotte or something. i felt awful because my blockmate literally looks better than me and even though i look overdressed i feel like garbage. the debut party was nice i guess i drank some alcoholic beverages again but it only felt like i was drinking juice even though there was vodka mixed in it. i felt kind of out of place especially since ou of all the friends my blockmate invited for her debut i feel like i was the one she was least acquainted and close with on the side of her college friends. and only six of us managed to attend anyway, out of the seven she invited. i didnt got anything correct when they asked questions regarding the debutant and i didnt really enjoy the party i guess? i wish i just stayed at home because there are lots of things i should be doing instead of attending some party i dont particularly enjoy. atleast before going to the party i have accomplished some tasks like finishing the flow for our oral defense and making a guide regarding it for my groupmates.

may 15, when we got home from the debut i checked my twitter only to find out that my internet friends had planned a meet up for sunday and so even though i have five quizzes on monday that i havent reviewed for because i attended a debut, i decided to come and meet up with my internet friends because its been so long since i last saw them and i wouldnt miss the opportunity for the world to be honest. i love my internet friends so much and i like being around them even though sometimes i feel inferior because of their art skills. but ill be able to get to their level someday. someday. i hope. anyway, the day went great even though we kind of taken some time to find a place to settle down on for our art date. i wish we could hang out longer but the distance is really a problem for us. we were supposed to talk and plan about merch making for blush con but we kind of got carried away and just talked about anything under the sun. venny made a halo halo painting and it was really good. tin started with her hq kindergarten/daycare charms and kou worked on his commissions. if i have time ill try to write them some letters the next time we meet. i drew some osomatsu san and kou said that i improved and it really made me happy. like how one simple compliment he said in passing made me really really happy that i dont know??? i felt accomplished even though i havent really drawn and exerted effort into actually improving. sometimes i feel bad because i feel like ive been really neglecting my art because of school. but really, its just me and my lack of time management. hte day ended with venny parting ways with us and tin, kou and i getting dinner from jollibee. tin had a quiz for tomorrow for accounting and she had to excuse herself. kou accompanied me for some dominos pizza because my mom was requesting that i buy her some on my way back. on our ride back home kou commented on how everytime we see each other i always carry a reviewer with me. well its just a silly thing i guess.

may 16, hardwork kinda paid off because after the art date i immediately proceeded into reviewing for my quizzes and i got a perfect score on my quiz for envi sci. it was the one i was reviewing for on my ride back with kou so it made me happy. i went to watch my sisters contest though but she lost and she blamed it all on me because i watched and that i was bad luck for her which was shitty. remind me to never show support for her again. it was her last contest and all so i just made sure to watch her even though i have a lot of things on my plate. but anyway it was really shitty and i was crying all the way home. i had to get over it though because i still have to study for my quizzes for the next day.

may 17, had a long quiz on phil hist that i hope i somehow passed. crying made my eyes heavy last night that i only got to review on my way to school. i was glad because somehow the things i reviewed for showed up on the exam but there are too many of them. like who the hell makes a 70-item identification exam even. after the regular classes we had to practice for our final practicum for our fitness class which serves as our final requirement for the subject. i swear to god she said the field demo would be the last of it but here she is requiring us to dance for her one last time again. i hate professors who dont keep their word. i guess our practicum was a so-so. it was really boring and i swear i wanted the floor to eat me out alive. i hate it when people are looking at me i hate it when people bury their eyes on me as if im going to have holes or something. i mean, sure theyre not really looking at me but i just hate presentations so much i wanted to die that very moment. at home, i had to revise my script for our oral defense tomorrow and my groupmate didnt bother to give us the powerpoint presentation which was very shitty for her. she kept on promising and that we would do a splendid job on it and for me to not worry but she always kept on fucking everything up. it was very shitty and i just cant wait until we are finished with the defense so i dont have to team up with her again.

may 18, the oral defense was not good. i mean we were doing fine until our professor decided to cut us off because of the lack of time. it wasnt our fault that she arrived 15 minutes late? im pretty sure ill get a low score because i wasnt able to finish my part in the oral defense and the girl im teamed up with fucked up on her introduction that i wanted to slap her by then like i dont care if youre not accustomed with filipino? stop being such a fake ass youre a filipino and you saying that youre much used to speaking in english is not an excuse to drag us all down with you in it. stop making excuses. i appointed you there because i thought you'd be great in it. you just keep on disappointing me. the day went on with a quiz on theology and psych that i pretty much answered in a breeze. even tohugh i didnt got the time to actually review the night before because of the whole oral defense shit. at home i did our project in english even though it felt like i was the only one who actually did all the work because my partner only did the questionnaire and the pie graph that everyone can actually do using microsoft word. like i did the whole data analysis and most of the surveys and it just made me wonder how i would fare if i just did the project alone. i might just try to go solo someday in second year. maybe.

may 19, had the pre-finals in accounting that i pretty much fucked up for some reason i mean i would get a nice score but i couldve gotten a perfect score if i didnt just crammed every piece of knowledge we studied in accounting in just two hours. i kind of hate myself for being too competent that id be fine with accounting anyway. i mean sure i did just get by but you know i couldve done better if i werent just too confident with everything. also had a quiz in english that i guess went okay atleast. at home i tried to study for my math final exams but i just fucked everything up and just decided to sleep it all off.

may 20, im pretty sure the whole class failed the math exam. some of them even cried and it was annoying knowing its the people who are safe with the course even though they would flunk the exams. after exams i waited on this cafe called beanleaf because i had some paneling for filipino to attend to. turns out my blockmate texted me saying that it wont push through only for me to check my phone the same time i was about to go paneling. i wasted the whole day when i couldve gotten home after my math exams to relax and get some sleep after the stressing pre-finals week we just undergone to.

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first year, week forty

may 7, did all my schoolworks ahead of time so that i can have time to rest atleast for the long weekend ahead. if it wasn't for the lot of quizzes that will bombard us once we get back to class on wednesday then i wouldnt really feel so tense and nervous. its because we will have quizzes for math and theo on wednesday and quizzes on phil history, accounting and envi sci that i don't know ow i will manage to review for all five of them with just 4 days of vacation when i dont really feel like reviewing at all because the school year is about to end and i just feel lazy.

may 8, i passed my part for the conclusion and my sources on our group chat regarding our filipino research paper. had a sigh of relief because im finally done with all my parts. but then again, im the leader of our group and it just stresses me out when the deadline for it is on thursday may 12, and my groupmates were still not passing theirs when my deadlin for everything was today. so i thought i'd give them some time and wait until tomorrow. i did nothing to review for my upcoming quizzes during this day because i really felt like drawing a lot. i felt like just spending all my days drawing and it feels nice actually, ive been art blocked for far too long but this is just another case of wrong timing.

may 9, philippine national elections. i thought id be able to review today but i didnt because i was so glued on the television watching the partial and unofficial results of the elections. it was a landslide for duterte and i was rather upset because i wanted miriam to win. but then again her statements regarding bongbong marcos disappointed me. it was rather a close fight for leni and bongbong for vice president and its kind of disgusting how bongbong was leading the vp race. around 3 am, leni closed the gap and i rejoiced my heart out, even though the results were still partial and unofficial. i dont want another dictatorship in my country. i dont want another martial law. so im really hoping leni will come up victorious on the race on a few days time.

may 10, last day of my vacation, , i felt really unproductive because i did nothing regarding reviewing for my quizzes. so i did my best and reviewed for my quizzes for tomorrow at least since i have to review or else ill fail. to be honest, what really hindered me from reviewing was the fact that i didnt listen to all the lectures my prof did for math and im afraid to open my book and study annuity on my own because i feel like im just going to waste my time and understand nothing so ill just feel like trash. but when i opened the book, read the chapter about annuity from the start, i actually understood how it works.  i also studied for psychology and theology and actually, im quite proud because i feel like im ready whatever they throw at me for tomorrows quizzes.

may 11, i managed to answer my math exam though im sure i wont be able to perfect it. my smart blockmate said that we have three similar answers so im hoping that i get a passing score for my quiz. i had a perfect score on my quiz for psychology and im happy because i did it on my own efforts and didnt just ask the reporters of the lesson for the answer key regarding their quiz. my theo prof didnt come to class so it was a bummer. my envi sci prof moved his quiz from tomorrow to today and i was totally annoyed because i still havent reviewed for it like, at all. im pretty sure ill get a failing mark with the quiz. like way to ruin my schedule. ugh.

may 12, had the quiz on phil hist which im sure i failed again, the answers needed to be precise but i only answered in the way from what i heard during discussions since i barely make notes. also the accounting quiz was a group work rather, but it was so confusing. not to mention my groupmate brought home my copy of the question so i wasnt really able to check and review how it works. had to wait until 4 pm just to attend a make up class in envi sci too and it was such a waste of a day.

may 13, had to cram something for filipino around 4:30-5:30 am because nobody and im group dared to make one when i kinda fell asleep early last night because i was tired. i had to go out of the house rather late but im glad i was able to come just in time for my first period. i really just couldnt trust my groupmates for some really really light work to do on their own and im getting stressed about everything to be honest. had a lesson about amortization on math which i also didnt listen to. the reporters in psych didnt finish their report so the quiz was move up to next week. the quiz in theo was so difficult i wonder where the hell my prof got the questions because im sure as hell that she didnt taught them. had a surprise quiz again on envi sci like wtf...we only had an hour to review about it and i guess at least i only got 4 mistakes. i was happy about it because i got the score with my own efforts. unlike some of my blockmates who literally asks for answers on the neighboring sections every goddamn time. after class, i went straight ahead for a milktea place to connect to the wifi and catch up on my rhythm game lovelive! i was tiering for an event and i was pretty sure ill fall out of the tiers if i dont catch up right after class. im pretty happy that i did manage to get the card i wanted and also my blockmate who'd be sleeping over accompanied me to buy my outfit for our friend's debut party for tomorrow. it was a pastel pink overall culottes or something. i dont know how you name such a bizarre piece of clothing but it was beautiful. i hope i can just pull it off because i dont really look nice at all.

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first year, week thirty-nine

april 30. went to school on a saturday and had a practice group report with my psych groupmates and had the toeic proficiency exam and i hope i only got a few mistakes on it. it was rather easy but it was very tiring to read because of the long ass reading materials used. anyway, i hope my mistakes wont exceed over 15 mistakes since the whole exam was over 100. after the exam i headed towards pasig from manila to accompany my dad wth the groceries.

may 1, practiced my part for our psychology report alone at home, did my english homework about no exit by jean paul sartre, folded clothes that was like occupying 3/4s of our bed for the past 4 days or so, also did my laundry and washed the dishes. i am really becoming a housewife because my mom's gone. wrote an update for my blog, my reflection paper in theology, and the body part of our research paper in filipino. i finished editing our term paper in envi sci too and pretty much the day was very productive but im still not satisfied with my efforts.

may 2, had our report in psych and i was nervous but then again i thought i could do it, and so i just winged it. in the end i got a perfect score and it brought our group's grade up. we got a 96 and well, it wasn't that bad. nothing much happened aside from that but it felt like a really great day because i felt accomplished. i did schoolwork at home because i felt pumped.

may 3, had no classes because of the ust dangal awards. i did more schoolwork due but pretty much i gave myself some time to relax and i finished a whole a season of anime (daily lives of highschool boys) i really like that kind of genre with anime, lighthearted and funny, it doesnt stress you when you are watching.

may 4, went shopping with another friend in hopes of find a pastel dress for my friends debut on may 14, i didnt find one which was upsetting but atleast i got to buy her a gift this day. the format for our research paper in filipino finally got announced after like i dont know...forever? it was so annoying because we were almost finished with out paper but we have to revise and dump a lot of our works just to accommodate her format.

may 5, nothing much happened this day but just another lesson in phil hist. it was kind of a day off for accounting this time around and i got grouped with two smart people on our class. its kind of degrading though but i heard someone said that our group was a solid one and that were all smart? oh please im not in their tier at all.

may 6, i woke up late today when my first class was supposed to be the most important class i have to attend to because i have queries regarding our research paper in filipino but anyway i only got to class at 8 am, just in time for second period, when i found out our filipino professor didnt arrive for class. damn was i lucky this day.

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first year, week thirty-eight

april 23, had the general rehearsal for our field demo in p.e, it was very tiring and i felt like im going to have my asthma back again. it was very dusty and the heat was very striking that i went two shades darker in a span of minutes. we had to do our piece twice and my partner, you know who, went awol for the second time around. he really is incompetent and im glad im over his ass too. i was late for the general rehearsal though, i woke up around 6:43 am when the call time was 6:30. i arrived 8:00. i planned to finish our research paper in envi sci together with my friend at starbucks after grabbing lunch and giving ourselves a break from the field demo practice. but my friend wanted to leave at around 2 pm and we barely had any progress with the paper during that time. not to mention i also did her reflection paper for her during the time we were told to rest and wait till the other colleges finish with their practice. the day ended up getting kind of wasted, even though i tried my best to still make some work done on our research paper because i cant really expect any help from my friend other than moral support.

april 24, i tried my best to wake up way way way early even though its a sunday. i woke up at 6:00 am to finish the research paper once and for all. i finish around 8:30 am with 7000+ words and 19 pages of shit with the format of times new roman font 12 with 1.5 spacing. i took my breakfast and proceeded to work on my other agendas. I drew our filipino presidents for our project in phil hist along with designing the title page for the same reason also. i was in the middle of doing our work in filipino when i learned from my internet friend that theyre going to hve the last presidential debate later this evening. i kind of watched the whole thing that i kind of disregarded my work and only got to resume on it around 9-10 pm. I also did a blogpost about week thirty seven afterwards. the day was very productive but i need more time to be done with all my work.

april 25, nothing much happened but we had a sudden quiz in theology which im pretty sure i flunked. also passed my reflection paper on envi sci and my friend ditched three of our classes just to make hers. this is the same friend which reflection paper i made last saturday, we had two reflection papers to pass and i did the one she didnt pass on time. she makes her own deadlines which is really unbecoming of her. im thinking of making some distance between the two of us because i cant tolerate her anymore. i did it because were friends, but youre totally just using me for your advantage. im done with your bullshit.

april 26, had to attend an event at school for 1pm - 6pm called ola bayle, it was a cool event but my friends had to cut so we ended up going home at 3:30 pm which was sad because i really liked the event because it was about a competition about different social dances. i wish i stayed but im really just easily swayed by my friends. i should work on that.

april 27, had the field demo and it ended early and i was with my other friend the whole time. the friend i said above didnt come for our field demo even though it was for our finals because she woke up late??? look at her incompetence. i mean i can wake up late but ill still try to come at least. parents really do know better, they told me to never associate myself with that person but look at what i did. its kinda shitty how she just disregards me most of the time but clings to me when it comes to schoolwork. bitch please. my mom went back to her province for 10 or so days and told me to keep the house in order till she comes back. anyway, its time to go to full housewife mode for these days.

april 28, back to regular classes. phil hist professor didnt arrive and we had a group quiz or rather work in accounting. bookkeeping is some serious shit without the aide of excel...nothing much happened at school but i did so much shit at home. mothers sure are superheroes. i did the laundry without using the washing machine, ironed clothes and theres tons of pants there i tell you, washed the dishes and cooked the rice. i was so tired that i immediately fell asleep right after dinner. i didnt had the energy to do my schoolwork. you really cant have the best of both worlds. though i really feel accomplished with my feat.

april 29, i arrived at our classroom to my classmates congratulating me because my works got published on our college's official magazine or something. it was a compilation of their works and i got in as one of the contributors. two of my works out of three got selected and i was very happy, well not really very, but i was delighted about the news. i had to rush things again for our filipino group project because our professor there was so unreasonable and i had to completely close my ears during math class so im pretty sure im going to have a hard time trying to make sense of our current lesson there about annuities. im not that bright when it comes to word problems, heck, im not good at math in general anyway. had another quiz in theology and im pretty glad that i got a passing grade anyway...for a change. i got to talk with you a lot today if you count two times being a lot but i dont really feel that much with you??? i mean sure i get excited but other than that you seem pretty normal to me. also, i heard you have someone else on your mind and that you have an ex??? weird.

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first year, week thirty-seven

april 16, had an orientation on TOEIC on a saturday. It was annoying how we had to go to school when they can just tell us how stuff works fifteen minutes before they start the exam on may 7. also i attended my highschool friend's birthday around 5 pm. it was very unbecoming of me to disregard all my schoolworks to just see my old highschool mates again but it's her 18th birthday celebration and i'd feel guilty if i wont go. also this is also the first time i went drinking all-out. i had like 10+ shots but i didnt really feel drunk or nauseous or anything like that. i just felt sleepy because i had to wake up early for the orientation and tired because i have schoolworks that i still have to do. her birthday celebration was nothing out of the ordinary at all.

april 17, made my reviewer for our phil hist quiz on tuesday and reviewed for a quiz in math we have the next day. i also did paperworks like my reflection in english. i woke up rather late because i was tired yesterday so i got around my works late. i had to stay up just so i can study thoroughly.

april 18, the quiz in math was kind of moved because our prof didn't arrive. it was such a bummer and it made me slightly annoyed because i couldve taken a rest but then i chose to study for math. also had a surprise quiz on theo which was really shitty because i didnt study at all so i didnt pass the short quiz by a point. passed my reflection paper in envi sci and the prof told us were going to have a long test by friday. just great.

april 19, had a quiz in phil hist which i thought i really studied well enough (no not really i noly did a reviewer but i didnt get to review because i talked about sinful au's with my friend all night before) but everyone in the class failed anyway because the questions were hard. had a new lesson in accounting which i understand fortunately but i still need to study for adjusting accounts. had p.e. again which is actually nice and we had these cloths we have to tie in our index fingers for both hands and i helped k with his and he tied mine. it was kind of an exchange of engagement rings but you know im just overthinking but it was sweet okay. i thought my heart was going to burst. when she asked for my hand and i reached it out for him to tie the cloth around it, it was very dreamy. anyway, at home, i skimmed my notebook in math a bit then went to sleep.

april 20, had the quiz in math but i was annoyed because i didnt get to answer a problem right. though im really hoping that i pass my first quiz in math. nothing much happened this day but i reviewed for my quiz in english for tomorrow.

april 21, as you can see im practically blazing off with this blog post because im actually really really tired of typing shit. ive been dealing with paperworks quite lately so im really fed up of it. for now. so, had the quiz in english and it was really kind of shitty but i hope i pass the quiz at least. i reviewed for my quiz in envi sci that night. (no actually i talked about sinful things again with my friend. nobody can resist talking about osomatsu-san tbh esp. blmatsu)

april 22, had the long test in envi sci and as much i didnt get to perfect the test, im pretty sure ill get a decent grade for it anyway. also the reflection paper in his subject wasnt passed on time as well because he says he cant carry so much paper because he already has our papers from the test. my friend who didnt do her reflection paper was so relieved about it. well wow okay. lucky her. the week has been practically uneventful. i wish i didnt get to know what my feelings for you were. maybe by then we'd get to still listen on the songs on your phone sharing your earphones with one another. maybe we can sit side by side again while we talk about practically nothing. i wish i don't really fel anything whenever our eyes meet, and i wish that everytime we bump into each other, we dont say sorry, but laugh at each other for being silly and brush it off just like in the past. i miss you, or maybe, i miss the moments you probably forget by now that we've shared.

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first year, week thirty-six

april 9, i did my first reflection in environmental science about the documentary he made us watch the other day, it was about the alarming birth rate we have in this world, and also about overpopulation and poverty. it was really eye-opening. i ought to make my reflection paper before i forget the feeling. i went out with my parents today and they bought me two new pairs of shoes. i also got 2 dresses that didnt really fit me right when i tried it out at home. i also got to ate dominos pizza which i was craving for some time now. pretty much afterwards i wrote a script for our psychology report so things would flow better when the time comes.

april 10, wrote for my blog and printed my reflection in envi sci, not that it was already needed or something, i just like the feeling of not having to mind things even though their due dates arent even fast approaching yet. i dont want the feeling of being pressured is all. i reviewed for our quiz in theology for tomorrow. nothing much happened i am probably just stressing out about our research paper in filipino because we haven't made much progress at all.

april 11, got our result with the article we wrote on our filipino course and we got 24/30. its not much of a bad grade because its the highest the prof gave to the works. it was shit because we only had minimal errors and yet she deducted points anyway. if theres someone i cant stand the second half of this semester it would be my filipino prof because shes giving us too much work. while im typing this im actually really just stressing about our research paper in filipino because pretty much i can smell the scent of failure in this.

april 12, i had a somehow study session with my blockmate because i asked her to teach me in accounting. it didnt go that well though because she seemed pretty confused about the whole lesson proper as well. it was such a waste because we chilled at starbucks and i wasted my money for nothing because i didnt learn anything. also there were no classes for this day but we still had to attend school because we have to watch this theater performance of the salin/gga/wi dance troupe of U//ST which was really nice and i enjoyed the latter half of it the most. it was such a letdown because i almost got to sit beside my crush in a dimmed auditorium watching the show if not only we have to reserve a seat for my blockmate who as running late and had to sit beside me. why is fate ever so cruel?

april 13, i heard homestuck ends today, which is kind of relatively sad but also i just cant get to give that much of a damn because i gave up on it and two, my otp there; davejade, didnt become the endgame and jade became third wheel which is the ugliest shit hussie can pull ever. but anyway, i attended a business seminar today which was about taking a break on this busy marketing world we live in and it was kind of religious and all but it was rather nice i guess. also had to watch another documentary on envi sci. this time, it was about how overpopulation isnt really a matter we should panic about, and that the worlds population would go steady at 11 billion. kind of frightening.

april 14, discussed about fallacies on english class again and about love is a fallacy by shulman. i also got my prelim grade which was an 89. not bad i guess. also i need to recite to get better grades. it not like im aiming for nice grades anyway so no. also accounting class is making my head ache really bad. its because i missed some lectures that now i cant keep up. thats how my mind works everytime. so seriously im fucked with accounting and if  dont get my shit straight ill obviously fail my accounting class...

april 15, our research paper got revised. all of it. we have to start from scratch again. it was such a letdown and im super super stressed and i want to die because of it. i dont want to deal with filipino anymore!!! i mean not the language but this course...the professor is so demanding just...shit man i die. also had a seatwork in math today and oh boy did i suck. also i got to talk about my classmates about anime and i guess were going to share some files together or something and its cool i guess im blending in...slowly? people like it when youre studying hard because they think they can use you in the future. basic rule in college i guess. all in all this week sucked ass nothing much happened but schoolworks.

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first year, week thirty-five

april 2, i got a haircut today from my dad. he said he'd be the one to cut my hair the way i wanted it, but it really did go horribly. my hair went so short and thin and it was so hard to tie it up into a ponytail. my fringe was full on but was rather uneven, my hair was shaggy he said, and it looked like a total disaster from the back. he had made a lot of mistakes on my hair that itd be so embarrassing to turn up in school with the hairstyle. though i really did bring this whole deal myself, i guess ill just have to deal with it from now on. came up with topics also for our filipino research paper and attended a small family gathering on my aunts house to celebrate my cousins graduation with his primary education.

april 3, sunday became a day of self-loathing and pretty much looking at the mirror every five minutes to look at my new haircut and trying to make up the good points that came along with it. i also thought of ways on how i can sport it without looking full on pathetic. i pretty much did nothing today which is new considering every weekend has just become that two day interval t prepare for the next school week.

april 4, o had to deal with my classmates making fun of my new hairstyle and my full fringe for oth homeroom and first period. we also had our topic for our filipino research paper chosen and a new topic on mathematics was introduced. our psychology professor was now teaching us, though in a very slow manner. we had a discussion about sacraments on theology and on envi sci, our documentary projects were shown in class. it was really really annoying because our film was the one that turned out really disgusting and ugly. i cant believe our leader would really submit a trash like that as our project. the worst thing is that the professor thinks that he's the only one who did the whole film because he was the one who narrated it. its so annoying how he can just appoint himself as the leader and make the fate and the grades of our whole group crash and burn. until now, im still really mad about what he did. he was so sure that he can pull it off himself and only asked a few things from and that we'll obviously have something to pass our professor on the date of the submission. it was really ugly and rushed and the ratio of the video was cut off because our leader took a video shoot of himself with his phone when the rest of us used a dslr camera for ours. what is more annoying is that the clips that i took went awol on the documentary that they gave our professor.

april 5, had a new lesson on phil hist, which i pretty much didnt paid attention at at all. also the new lesson in accounting got me going in circles because i didnt understand it completely. the new lessons about adjusting entries and depreciation and pretty much, i dont know how to do it. wish we can turn back time to the good old days where we only need to do simple bookkeeping. we had a discussion about the different types of propaganda there is and we were told to read about love is a fallacy by max shulman. in p.e. we were kind of rushed to learn new steps in our field demo that i completely forgot about it when i got back home. k came into class this time which is a good thing but he totally cant keep up with the new steps because he missed the previous ones. it was a wreck to say at least.

april 6, i had to come up with our general objectives and specific objectives for our filipino research paper last night right after i got home from our fitness class. it was 7 pm and i was aching for sleep but as a leader of our three-man group i have to come up with something because they can't do so. i get the feeling that when i lead, i mostly take up most of the part on the job because i lack trust that they can do what i told them well. i guess i have to change that part about me. we got told to change some parts on our objectives by our shitty filipino professor which is totally aggravating because we (or I for that matter,) already know what to do exactly with our paper. our math professor has been teaching us a lot but the progress is just too fast for our minds to process it. i mean i need to look at my notes so i can answer the questions he give because theres too much to remember and memorize. i guess i should do some self-study with the current lessons to keep up and and keep my mind in check. our psychology professor was a no-show because she claims she was having an ulcer attack again. our theology teacher taught us about sacraments again and that we will have a discussion about baptism the next time we meet. our envi sci professor made us watch a documentary from bbc called This World- The Worlds Busiest Maternity Ward and it was about a public hospital in the philippines called fabella in which a lot of mothers give birth to babies a hundred times each day. it was very eye-opening that when our professor told us to make a reflection paper to be passed on a time yet to be announced, i did it the first thing i got home. it tackled about poverty and the alarming birth rate in the philippines and overpopulation and the conditions were severe and depressing that i couldnt help but tear up when the woman on the documentary said that she is the only one that her familys got left to support them and raise them up above from the poverty line. you know, this is the kind of thing we should make our government officials watch at all.

april 7, we had an evaluation time for our professors in some specific courses we have and we also had a psychological test given to us by our guidance counselor and the questions were so personal and it was kind of triggering in a way that it asked if i ever thought about self harm and killing myself and feeling unwanted and unloved and being unappreciated that it took me quite a time to answer the questions. i didnt want to talk about such matters and disclose it to our guidance counselor because i might get a record of being not emotionally stable so i played safe and lied on my answers so i wont get called out about it. i dont want people to meddle on my problems and my life when i dont ask them to. i believe il be able to get over my problems over time. i dont want to trouble people. had a new lesson on accounting but i really wasnt able to wrap my finger in it. it was hard and i arrived late in class together with my classmate because we grabbed breakfast. it was suffering. i mean, the whole psychological test was still ringing in my head and it hindered me from being able to concentrate in class. it was nice that we only had a discussion about a few fallacies for our english class that i was able to save myself from being so inattentive that i might mess my final exams for my behavior. decided to unwind by meeting my bestfriends and grabbing some pizza and talk about a lot of things. it was so nice having to see such familiar faces again. i wish im over with my first year of college like them so i can bond with them all the time but our school calendars are different from each other that its such a cockblock when were planning about going out together as a group.

april 8, the whole psychological test is still getting into me and that i was feeling really shitty even way way back because ive been feeling so neglected by the friends that i have in class so i was feeling so mellow and i decided to just distance myself from them and everything. i even went home on my own but they bumped into me and tried to initiate a conversation. im pretty sure they know something is up with me but i dont know. i dont really know what i want from them. i know they arent the type to say sorry anyway. i just dont..know what to feel and i feel shitty for like, venting my feelings indirectly towards them. the whole thing about my family and me being conscious about my grades and that shitty psychological test asking about if im really sure about my course and that i should shift if im still not sure on what course to take after i finish is just circling around my head waiting to eat me and my sanity alive. this week has been calm and yet my whole being is left in chaos. i dont want to feel this way anymore. you know, lost in thought about my unsure and blurry future is all. i want to feel okay soon.

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first year, week thirty-four

march 26, i attended the xiumin birthday event in sm megamall an hour and a half late. even so, the event started after another thirty minutes. like, what to even expect about filipino time... i met someone there who was really outgoing and lively. all i asked about them was whether the event already started or not but when i realized it she was already asking me a lot of questions about exo and xiumin. and since i have been away from the fandom far too long i felt really pressured and i really think i came off as a fake fan... the day was rather boring but it was okay. the whole accommodation wasnt really that nice and i felt ripped off from what i paid for. after the event i met up with my friend kou and i chipped in for him to get his new game for his 3ds. i think it was called fire emblem fates along the lines of conquest or awakening i think. we grabbed dinner after that and i made some tweaks on my english project because it sucked and afterwards i watched him play fire emblem and it was really enjoyable and it made me really want to get a 3ds for myself too. but that hobby is a really expensive one and i dont think i can afford it. we hanged out until 9 pm and i got home quarter to 10.

march 27, theres pretty much nothing else to do. i just lazed around on twitter the whole day because we never really got to go out to the mall to buy things. it was shitty. it was all i looked forward too for this vacation after all. i mean, my classmates got a trip abroad or to the province or somewhere cool like palawan or boracay but were just stuck at home doing nothing.  it was very uneventful.

march 28, last day before we get back to school. i only just arranged my things and pretty much packed up nicely for our p.e. class the next day because i want to be neat in front of the person i like. and well, because he is my partner in our field demo and all. but one thing ive been thinking about that the whole vacation made me realize is that...i dont really like him that much? i didnt really miss him the whole period and i guess that just helps because these feelings im feeling is so unnecessary. i stayed up the whole day because osomatsu-san episode 25 was going to be released that midnight. it was out on horriblesubs 2 am sharp and i got to view it an hour and half later because our torrent is shit. it was not what everyone of the osomatsu-san fandom was expecting. i think i just..regretted my life choices.

march 29, got back to school. i cant believe our prof in phil hist got some nerve to discuss already when she didnt even gave the results for our exams just yet. it was very ugly and i somehow stole some naps in between her one and half hour of class because i didnt get to sleep a wink because of osomatsu-san episode 25. truly thankful that our accounting prof didnt show up because i got to rest for another hour and a half even though i really just hurt my neck from bending down on my desk to nap. got my result from our english exam and well i got like 12 mistakes and i guess i can live with that. if only i didnt take my shot before my exam maybe i could have focused better...

march 30, got my result for our filipino exam. had 10 mistakes. not that bad really. but i couldve done better. if only i actually studied for it. math professor went ahead and taught a new lesson without even saying a thing about our exam results. the guy probably didnt touched the papers just yet. psych prof came just to dump us her work and made us correct the exam papers of the students from the other class. i mean sure thats cool and all but why...the hell...would you make us grade the essay part as well??? theology prof gave the results of the exams and i got a really high score and i didnt really expected it. like i know id pass but a high score? well thats really..well...told you i was a saint. bio exam results was okay too.

march 31, phil hist prof didnt come for some reason so i just had a chat with my friends about some nonsense i think. accounting exam results were released and i got a fair score but i was still disappointed because i didnt try hard enough. we didnt have an english class so we were dismissed early and i got my physical exam results and i guess im glad im all negative. and its not like i was actually doubting there'd be something wrong with me anyway.

april 1, april fools. i didnt really the essence of the day this year because im too tired of all the fun and games and the foolishness. one of my classmates even tried to pull the im in a relationship bullshit and went ahead and took a picture together with her crush and i swear it was very ugly i almost told them off to get a room. why are my blockmates so ugly i dont want to be together with them for three more years id rather die.

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first year, week thirty-three

march 19, i just watched the second season of how to get away with murder this day. i planned on making art for the merch ill be selling on blush con but i wasnt really able to produce any today. i kind of just broke down into this sorry mess trying to explain my side and i dont know, it just made me feel really shitty how im stressing out over it when i already told myself that ill just be doing it for fun.

march 20, i tried to ink the osomatsu-san sketch i did a few days back that i plan on using as a print for blush con. i think it really turned out okay and its just that i dont know how to tweak it nicely so that it'll look okay when it gets printed on photo ppaer and reproduced. i also tried coming up with ideas on what else to sell and draw for blush con. it was a wild day of ideas and my other friends helped me come up with it.

march 21, a day to just channel all thoughts and ideas into paper. all i managed to do were some sketches though and sad to say i wasnt really pleased with how they turned out. theyre like you know, its nice and cute but not merch material. its not something i would buy with my own money and it sucks. i just dont think im cut out for this kind of thing. it stresses me out more that ill be tabling along with a lot of cool people and their cool art. i feel like ill just be out of placed and be laughed at for trying to sell something so ugly.

march 22, it was about time that i do something with my schoolworks honestly, ive been keeping it out for too long when it was supposed to be the first thing id do once i was over with my exams. i finished my english project at the same day and i also finished searching for my part in our phil hist project. i printed my works and all im left to do was to hand write my part in phil hist then ill be a free man.

march 23, im back to the watching and drawing routine for the rest of the vacation. i watched both the episode 24 of haikyuu and osomatsu-san and pretty much i got emo over osomatsu-san epsode 24 that i spent the whole retweeting and venting out on my fandom twitter about it. it was just so sad and it struck me so much that im so glad i have a friend that i can talk about it a lot even though theres only the two of us to talk about it. osomatsu-san episode 24 would forever be etched in my heart...

march 24, still have that post-heartbreak about episode 24 of osomatsu-san that i was still being emo about it and i couldnt believe that it actually happened in the first place. now im in pain because i have to wait a few more days till the last episode of osomatsu-san. the episode ended in a cliffhanger so it was enough to drive me insane. i dont know what else i did this day i probably did good for nothing sketches again.

march 25, i lazed around whole day i guess? i was thinking of what clothes to wear for the xiumin birthday event tomorrow but in the end i didnt really bother to look for an outfit. i also just wrote my part in phil hist so i have lesser things to think about and that i dont have to be problematic about it when the due date comes.

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first year, week thirty-two

march 12, i was supposed to have an intensive review for my envi sci and psychology exams on monday but i just lazed around the whole day and slept it all off because i didnt really have the motivation to start reviewing for psychology because my professor there was such an ass. i didnt really learn anything from them because they were absent most of the time. i think i just used the whole day complaining on my twitter and convincing myself that me sleeping the whole day off was a reward for my hard work for the last week. though it was all a lie and i felt very disappointed with myself.

march 13, i tried to review for envi sci by searching for the handouts i printed for the quizzes we had for the semester, i kind of skimmed through all of it and since the exam was multiple choice i think ill be okay anyway. i dont really plan on acing it i just want to pass. for psychology i made a reviewer and fortunately i was able to review the last minute, though i sure know myself that it wasnt enough to let me pass her subject. if only she actually taught us for real.

march 14, the exam for psychology wasn't that hard really, i just wasn't that prepared and since i just crammed information the day before i was sure that i'd forget a lot of things. the essay part was ugly and just looking at the test paper makes you realize how lazy my professor in psychology really is. it was horrible. the exam in environmental science was long as fuck. 100 questions in 60 minutes was really nerve-wrecking and because i was pressured by the time i tried my best to answer every question as fast as i can, i guess because of it i didnt really focused on the questions and i was just trying to derive and make sense of the choices before me. sure ill pass, but barely probably? all i care about is that i pass truly.

march 15, the exam for philippine history was so long and ugly i surely didnt review for it at all. i just relied on my stock knowledge and because of that im sure that i will fail my exam because what the hell is stock knowledge? i barely listened to her discussions at all. the exam on accounting was a breeze and i sure as hell wished it was just all about the actual bookkeeping and not with the multiple choice and information bullshit again. i got the correct answer and i balanced mine correctly and a lot of my blockmates got it wrong. i accompanied my friend with buying her clothes on a boutique near the school afterwards. i bought planners for year 2017 and 2018 because i saw the same kind of planner i was using in the same store. i really liked my planner so i bought similar ones for the years to come. i also bought a cute pink totoro sock i can use during p.e. class. somehow a way to get attention from k? probably.

march 16, exams for mathematics and theology. the mathematics exam was really hard and even though im pretty sure i studied very well along with the memorization of the formulas, it was still a very hard exam for me. i didn't know how my professor can be so inhumane with the way he made the exams. im pretty sure i didnt get any of the questions right for problem solving which is a real shame. the theology exam was rather okay even though i didnt study at all. i guess i was born a saint after all. lmao. no im just joking it was hard but im sure im able to pass it anyway. afterwards, my friend treated us lunch on shakeys because it was his birthday yesterday. and we planned to get ice cream with liquid nitrogen for dessert on an ice cream shop nearby but when we got there there was no such thing on that place, so we just had dessert on a plane cabin inspired restaurant called plane bistro.

march 17, only had exam for english left. i went out for uni early though since i wanted to get a vaccine for tetanus toxoid that was required so i can enroll for my second year classes. and since i got a little bit early than what my friends and i agreed with, i met up with one of my blockmates who lives in the same area as i do in 7eleven to hang out because we both got to school really early, we kind of just talked and tried to do last minute review for english while killing time. afterwards we payed for the vaccine and went to the health center for our shots. it was painful but it was bearable. talking about it makes me reminiscent of the heaviness it caused towards my right arm. i had to take my english exam partly dead because my right arm was bothering me. it made me lose focus and shade wrong parts of my exam paper when the instructions said that erasures weren't allowed too. isnt life just great? i finished early and walked out of the room and waited for my friends outside. we grabbed starbucks and some sandwiches there for lunch and went home feeling rather satisfied. i slept the whole day afterwards because my arm made me feel shitty and sleepy.

march 18, i woke up rather late even though i slept really early yesterday. i didnt do anything but lazed around whole day on my bed with the ac on. i just watched tv shows and series like i intended to for my 12 day vacation off school. for this day i watched how to get away with murder season 1 and i really enjoyed the show so much. like the element of surprise and the plot twists are really good.

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home

you reminded me how a home really feels like; not entrapped in four bricked walls,  but caged in your loving tender arms. not in forced conversations during meals, but when its 3 in the morning  and you're holding my tensed body tightly, reassuring me its going to be alright. drying up my tears with your kisses, after another intense and sporadic episode. not in "you can do better than that," but you looking right into my eyes, smiling; saying "i couldn't ask for anything more than this." you reminded me how a home really feels like; but you also made me taste the raging storm, that gave me that unforgettable nomadic experience.

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first year, week thirty-one

march 5, was supposed to meet with old friends again to watch pmmm rebellion but one of them went down with a fever so we kind of put the whole meeting off until the end of our exam periods. we'd probably meet during the holy week if given the chance. everytime i think about it i get kinda stressed out because theyre really pushing the whole pmmm cosplay on me and i just really want to cosplay totty from osomatsu-san and not akemi homura...i mean i think its okay but its not my top priority...

march 6, reviewed in both envi sci and filipino because we have quizzes for it the next day. ive been thinking about it and my envi sci prof isnt even teaching us properly with his course. like, sure he attends his classes but only to show a powerpoint about every chapter and discuss it in passing. i guess its okay but the way he gives out quizzes is unreasonable. i had to cram 2 whole chapters into my head so i can have something to write for his quiz. i realy wonder why a lot of my blockmates like him while he not that extraordinary. maybe because he's young? because i came from a science school i had better teachers that taught me about biology before. though id really have to give it to him because my envi sci teacher from my first year of high school had a really tiny voice it was suffering. i had to pull an all-nighter for this day so i can ace both of my quizzes for this day. though im doubting i could do it for envi sci.

march 7, i got the highest in my class (tied with others though) on the filipino quiz. i guess hard work sometimes do pay off. the quiz on envi sci on the other hand was hard af and it was only natural  that id forget a lot of terms because i just crammed all the information in a span of hours for it. After class i went to a pizza place to have lunch on my own and buy some take-outs for my grandparents because i promised my grandmother id buy her a replcement for that slice of pizza i ate when i visited them the other day. i wasted a hefty amount of time just talking with them and itwas a nice feeling even though it was really hot that time. i wish the time would come where i can relax all day on their place where time seems to come to a halt.

march 8, had a practice quiz on english that i forgot to study for. i got a passing score though while a lot didnt. so the real quiz would be by thursday instead. for our fitness class i got k as my partner and it was pretty much to make me feel happy for days. i didnt know that this day would actually come. is this a gift from the heavens because i have survived life until this day? sigh. if only we'd be a thing...i doubt it though. he doesnt seem like the type to actually get serious when it comes to romance. worse, i think he doesnt even care about those things. the eye contact we had whenever we do the jumping jacks for our field demo practice was enough to melt me away. i hope he always smile at me that way. sometimes i think about why im so undesirable and that i dont have a single romance thing that happened in my life. his friend teases me with him but i wonder...sigh i hope he likes me back... the chances are slim though. i lazed the whole day afterwards at home and tried to get as much rest as i can.

march 9, had physical examination the whole day. i went home early alone with my friend because we didnt get in time for the cut-off for the drug-test we needed. i slept my life away even though i have two quizzes the next day. i woke up really late and i felt like death just because of philippine history. i hope i pass though. i didnt even bother to review on english anymore.

march 10, had the long test on phil his and english and im not satisfied with how i did on both. i passed both fortunately but my score wasnt enough to be called remarkable. to actually think i didnt get to sleep at all because of phil his (mainly because the energy drink i drank got me palpitating and didnt let me sleep a wink). i studied theology, filipino and math at home because i have a preliminary exams for filipino and quizzes for both math and theology.

march 11, i think i did okay for my preliminary exam in filipino and i answered my quiz in math in a breeze. almost enough to make me think that i did everything wrong because i really finished fast and my friend who rocks in math finished on the 11th hour. also k got a really short haircut that got everyone of his friends laughing at him again. seriously, how often does he even get a haircut? his previous hair was so perfect on him that i used to stare at him all the time because of it. now i guess it was a sign for me to focus on my studies first because its preliminary exams period and a whole week break afterwards because of the holy week. id just think about it as a reward to see him looking all nice again when we get back to uni afterwards. i think he's just being nice and its his way of saying to me to focus on my exams first and look at him later. oh how nice. but tbh im just joking at this. it really looks like he just signed up for the military what is wrong with his hairstylist??? as usual when i first saw how horrible his haircut was i just rly laughed at him because my friend pointed it out and his friend told him " k , myname is laughing at you " at a teasing manner because they like to couple as together and k is just laughing about it. ahh i hope his hair grows fast. after school, my sister treated me lunch and i stayed late to watch some film together with her and her bestfriend. i guess it was a bad idea because i havent gotten any rest yet because i reviewed for my quizzes and because of it i went a full 24 hours without sleep and barely got home sane. im just hoping i do well on my preliminary exams by next week so i can get all the rest that i want and need come holy week.

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first year, week thirty

feb 27, i was supposed to meet with my friends to watch pmmm rebellion but one of them said she cant come because something came up on her side so we just put up the meeting for next week. i continued with revisions for our filipino article and pretty much there was a lot to edit. i also just wrote backlogs again because i usually get two weeks late with updates because i tend to forget that i run a blog.

feb 28, did homework on accounting, i dont get how things work with accounting unless i do some self-study, makes me wonder why i even attend my instructors classes, if only they dont count the number of absences a student makes and fail them for it. payed for my ticket on a xiumin birthday fan event happening locally on march 26, got the early bird perks which is nice too.

feb 29, special day that happens every four years, nothing eventful happened though. a lot of my professors didnt arrive for their respective classes so it was really such a waste of day. i also didnt had the drive to review for my phil hist course quiz and just went ahead and watched anime. the osomatsu-san episode was about japanese mahjong which i dont really get how it works so i didnt really had too much laugh about it. the godmatsu part ended really ??? so yeah its such a waste. i just kind of talked with friends online and shitted about non-asians trying their best to defend asians when no one even asked them to in the first place. its kinda sick how they think of asians as fragile little snowflakes really. stop glorifying us.

mar 1, i cant believe were already on the third month of the year, the days are really going fast and since march would be a very busy month, im betting i really wouldnt notice it passing by, and then the year would be 1/4 finished. had a quiz on phil hist i bullshitted my way through so im betting ill fail at it big time. also had a nice score on my physics homework while a lot got confident and didnt do theirs because the prof barely checks the homeworks but she recorded it this time so guess what bitch. anyway during fitness class i got teased with my crush and his other friend and well it was cool and nice and i hope i get teased again with k. (which i was teased with on twitter) thanks @ based god

mar 2, such a waste of a day because we went shooting at intramuros, manila for our documentary in environmental science and i couldve gotten myself some really nice pics if only i dont look ridiculously ugly and tired that day. my friend was exceptionally photogenic at all angles which really irked me because i was the owner of the dslr camera and the one recording the whole thing and my memory was full of her shots. im just jealous because i really wanted some nice shots myself because the place was gorgeous. not to mention because we kinda got ourselves to spend a lot on the whole trip. also visited the national museum for like 20 minutes because we have a train to catch. i want to go to museums and admire art with my significant other in the future. sigh. when will you look my way k??? (oh also earlier during class they teased me again with our other blockmate and k's friend was like covering k's ear and telling him not to listen and im just so weak nice one)

mar 3, had a quiz in accounting i probably aced, i hope. also had to stay behind to do more revisions with our filipino article project together with my groupmates at starbucks, which got me to spend unneccesarily for coffee and cake. but their chocolate cake was delicious, albeit really pricey for a single thin  slice. (that my other groupmates ate halfway when i was editing our paper.) also compiled the videos that we took on a usb and the pictures we took on another usb for our group leader and my other friend to upload respectively.

mar 4, had our filipino article draft evaluated by ourselves and by another group. we graded ourselves high because why not? i think we really deserved it. also had a groupwork on theology which we did okay with, albeit not reading the magazine where the prof took all her questions from. also did our hw in phil hist due on tuesday during the whole course of the day and finished right in time before our last prof said goodbye. atleast thats one less thing off my list. had a fun drive home with my friends where we took about absolutely the weirdest things out of the blue. also did our phil hist hw due on thursday at home after a 30 minute break. now my workload is a lot lighter *despite having to review a shit ton i shit you not). now i need to get myself ready for hell week(the week before my prelims) and hell week x 10(prelims week itself. wish me luck.

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first year, week twenty-nine

feb 20th, last monday, my friend asked me of a favor of helping her buy some cosmetics because she thinks i am well-versed about it than her. even though i still have a lot of schoolworks on my hands i said yes immediately because it feels nice knowing that you would be of help and serve a little bit of purpose your whole life. and this day we met for it we also watched 2 out 3 puella magi madoka magica movies there is because we lacked time to watch the third one, and it was the rebellion movie that i really wanted to watch too. it kinda sparked the old days between us and my other friend and we kind of began talking about potential cosplays from pmmm and i gues i got the homura akemi role and they picked mami tomoe and kyoko sakura. despite the lack of ships from our choices i hope it goes well...more of i hope it actually happens. what kinda irked me though was that i was helping her find makeup that fits her skintone and all and were asking these bunch of assistants and its taking its toll on me because im not the type to talk to strangers and ask for assistance a lot but because i guess i am the most outgoing out of the three of us i guess i had no choice; and that she was really not feeling it??? more of shes feeling kind of forced to do it like im not the one who told you to go buy makeup on your own? you just asked me for assistance and for my opinion about what youre gonna pick and buy and thats what i was doing. i just felt really uncomfortable with it because i felt like i was pushing her to do it when it was her choice. i wasted a lot of money this day and im just feeling like it wasnt worth it at all.

feb 21st, now all my schoolworks are piled up. i just tried my best to review in environmental science because thats the least i can do with the time that i have left. i still havent reviewed in philippine history even though the quiz always get delayed and all. i also planned the flow of our article in filipino because i feel like if im not going to do it, no one will. the weekend came by fast and i didnt really do anything productive at all. i felt really irresponsible for handling my time this way.

feb 22nd, nothing much happened this day, like technically, i got to my first class late because of traffic reasons, also because i woke up late, and we only had our professor check our formulated topics fo our article. so much for taking my damn time making those when she approved the first thing on the list saying everything was all well-thought of. like...nice. we only had a discussion in math of investments and i guess im glad that i can follow through his new lesson. our professor in psychology didnt come to class again and claimed that they were having an ulcer attack or something. our professor in theology delayed her quiz to friday and spouted nonsense about her not being in favor of same sex marriage. we had the quiz on biology and it was confusing but im sure enough that ill get a passing score. though what ive been thinking about is how my other friend is always getting higher scores nowadays than me and it kind of really starting to aggravate me and spark the competetive side on me. i mean, i dont know why, but i want to get better than her. kind of mean on my side i guess?

feb 23rd, you guessed it right, the philippine history quiz was delayed once again, i guess it was the right move not to study about it yet, at the same time im kind of guilty because ive been putting it off for two weeks already. pretty much all we had was our accounting class and our fitness class in the afternoon. this day went by in a breeze i kind of got myself to spend a lot again because of lunch though. it wasnt really worth it because i got hungry in the end of it all. fitness was really tiring and my legs practically died on me and it was stinging and the pain was so real i wanted to stay the night in the university if only that was okay to do.

feb 24th, my legs were hurting like the bitch they were. it was a struggle to walk and it was more of a struggle to sit down at all. i was kind of complaining about it the whole day. my friend was craving for pizza so we kind of went to dominos for lunch. i spent more from what i was thinking to spend this day too. we pased by this condominium and my other friend wanted to check out the units they have for rent and so we kind of went with her during her inquiries and all and well, it sparked the three of us to think about living together on a condo and talked about potential expenses and we also checked out other apartelles close by to compare rates and all. it was really tiring and not to mention my legs were killing me. but i was kind of serious about living alone one of these years so i guess this is a start.

feb 25th, had no classes so i just stayed at home and tried to do assignments and school works in due. i woke up around 2 pm though so more of less i just wasted my off day. the only thing i did thoroughly was review in math, and i dont even get half of what i reviewed for. such a waste of a day to be honest. the only thing i liked this day was the brownies my sisters boyfriend brought home and the home massage i got before i was about to sleep.

feb 26th, i was about 10 minutes late for my first class because i forgot my yellow clearbook at home and inside that clearbook was all the shit i needed for this day and the things i needed to pass. so i was already on my ride to school and i seriously had to go back home just for it. losing 20 precious minutes of my commute time. had the quiz for math and im really really hoping i pass this one. i got the results from my previous math test and it was such a disappointment because i thought i did well and i barely passed it. well sure i passed but i wanted and expected more? we also had the theology quiz that got delayed for its own good far too much and well, i didnt reviewed for it, but im still hoping i get a passing grade for it at least.