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asian don't love rice, rice love asian. Loner.Introvert.Chemist.

[riceloveasian]

2 more years have passed since my last post.

Everyone says turning 30 is when your life truly begins.

I’m waiting for it.

Maybe it’s enough just to be able to have a quiet place to drown out life’s noise?

-2026-

[riceloveasian]

Stumbled upon my tumblr again.

Looking back at my old posts,

Many things have changed.

Many things have also stayed the same.

It’s quite comforting, to be honest.

- 2024 -

[riceloveasian]

Stalling at life.

Do you ever get the feeling that everyone is moving forward with their lives but you’re still stuck at the same place?

I do not like to move forward cause it is change. I like everything to stay the way it was…but life will never let me have what I want. Well….the only constant is change, a quote which I kind of hate but can’t deny its truth.

I’ve been working in the same company since 2019, almost 4 years….am I loyal to a fault? Nah, I’m just unwilling to leave my safety bubble.

Many people keep asking me if I have plans to further my education but I honestly don’t want to…because I’m unwilling to leave my safety bubble.

My negative thoughts keep me from trying new things and moving forward. Thoughts like: what if I can’t cope, what if I don’t understand anything about the project I have to work on etc. These thoughts they really stop me from pursuing more. I know I can do more but it’s hard to pull away from the negative thoughts.

I really want to pull away and move forward already…. I’m getting tired of constant.

[riceloveasian]

Hi.

It’s been awhile.

A long while.

Should I start dusting the cobwebs off my page?

Maybe?

Who knows…

[riceloveasian]

I’ve never been more proud of myself than this moment.

Look at that perfect fold in my omelette.

I know I’m overreacting over an egg but I’ve been having a shitty few months ever since I’ve graduated and started job hunting. Been going to interviews but none have been successful. D:

You really start to doubt yourself after so many failures. Starting to think what’s wrong with me, what was the point in me working my ass off getting a first when it didn’t give me an advantage, do I really come off as unenthusiastic about the job?

Actually, had an interview last week and they’ll let me know the outcome today. I’m nervous af cause I reaaaaallllly want to work for this company but I think I pretty much botched the interview. The hiring manager didn’t even ask my salary expectation and the phone interview was pretty short. GAHHHH why am I such a screw up!! T_T

And I do admit, I have been on the fence about whether or not I should start working, or continue my studies for a masters/phd tho I’m really not motivated to go back to study. There are so many choices after your degree but I’m not one that handles choices well. I really hate this uncertainty. I’ve always had a clear goal in mind and my goal of getting a job right after graduation isn’t going as planned. I don’t know if I should give up and pursue other options at this point or continue on. My head is a mess. I just want my life plans to get back on track.

But I guess that’s life.

[riceloveasian]

Yeah get u a girl that smuggles u a turkey through her dress.

[riceloveasian]

WHY WONT U UPDATE ALAIN’S ROUTE WHYYYYYY

[riceloveasian]

Thank you demon ancestors.

[joiedecombat]

“And my parents always said they brought good fortune.“

[na-kyum]

yohan mood board

[myprettyboys]

LITTLE SAM! 😍😍

[riceloveasian]

Alain the sweet talker strikes again!!

Ughhhh this guy!!! It’s like the writers specially went to take a class on how to do cheesily romantic lines 101 for Alain’s route.

(And that blush omfg)

How can they be so cruel to me! Now I really have no chance of finding anyone cause no guy talks like that EVER!!!

And my personal favorite one,

I JUST..

JUST...

KEEP IT IN YOUR PANTS MC (not his lol ;D)!

[riceloveasian]

Omg I’m a wreck now

I’m totally glad but regretting at the same time about picking up this manhwa to read - can’t see, can’t hear but love.

Seeing the short description, I assumed it would JUST be light and fluffy about their love for each other even though one can’t see her and the other can’t hear him BUT NOOOOOO. The author had to go and destroy, mangle and rip apart my heart as well as my tear ducts.

I honestly never cry when watching stories like this (The tears are normally reserved for animal-related stories) So for this manhwa to drain me dry of my emotional state is a miracle and I hate the author for managing to do so but still, kudos to you. I honestly didn’t read all of the story. I just jumped straight to the ending after reading about half of the manhwa and I’m not planning to finish it ever after knowing what lies ahead. I don’t read manhwas to get depressed, dammit.

For anyone who loves to have their heart ripped into tiny ass pieces and their tears drained dry like the Sahara desert I strongly recommend it.

I shall now proceed to gather myself together.

[hosoyame]

Pure romance hides suffering

[itsagoodluckkiss]

[riceloveasian]

Alain, you’re killing me!!!!

*warning* spoilers ahead if you’ve not read the latest chapters of Alain’s route.

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My last ramble about this app still stays true till this day - Forget about every other person and just jump to Alain’s story!!!!!

Throughout the season, after his heart was frozen by yours truly (in order to save him, ok) MC was trying her best to thaw out his heart and you can tell it was working bit by bit. But the storyline was progressing too slowly I was abit disappointed in the first few chapters BUT THEN this weeks one was ON FIREEEE (literally, there were dragons, though they didn’t really help him lol). He managed to return to his lovable (hunky) old self and omg I need to SHARE the screenshots now.

UGH he calls MC ‘my love’ a few times and IM DYING. I know it’s a super cheesy af line BUT I CANT HELP IT.

I forgive you and your ‘perfectly sculpted body’ (- as quoted by MC herself).

Alain is still the sweetest, best-husband-material character out there. And I’m super angry that he’s not real. (My evil twin pls drag me to this fictional world ASAP) Everything that this guy says literally I have to calm myself down for 5 minutes before I can continue the story.

And finally...

ERM...BABABOIIII YES. *nods furiously while reading the story*

(I will hit MC in the head through my phone’s screen if she say something other than that). My boy has waited for so long for this girl. She would be more evil and cruel than w(b)itch queen if she rejected him. And how does the authors manage to draw such sincere af eyes on a drawing!! Or maybe I’m just too invested in this game already.

Wtv I’ll reflect on my very sad lack of a life later but for now lemme stare at this picture and compose myself.

[bob-belcher]