Smut and Dom/Sub warning/ Trigger warning-Self Harm
A/N This is a smut imagine and its quite graphic in terms of self harm and slitting. I don't want to offend people but I have put a trigger warning on it. This is girlxgirl.
Description- You had been a bad girl and your girlfriend was about to give a painful punishment involving you slitting yourself since its Rhea's sexual kink and she gets off on this.
(Your POV)
Anxiety had risen throughout your body as you knew you were about to receive a painful punishment from your beautiful yet dominating Mami Rhea.
Truth to be told; you had not received a lot of attention from Rhea since her work has become more frequent; she was in constant matches and at the gym training and when she wasn't doing any of that; she was sleeping because balancing out work and home life was a psychically exhausting challenge.
But despite Rhea's work life and your own you both knew that you loved each other dearly.
It was a rare night off for the both of you and you had both decided to go out to eat and have a little fun but one thing Rhea has always stated clearly is you never leave her side.
She was proper protective like that and tonight you did just that, you badly needed some fresh air and you sent Rhea into that panic; that one where she can't find you anywhere and she's frightened something has happened to you and she will never see you again.
Thankfully she found you and with your consent because it was important in your relationship; tonight she is able to become the dominating Mami you know she is and dominate the fuck out of you.
But this wasn't the usual dominating she would do; this was one of those extreme rare nights where you push each other to the limit.
You both figured that whilst Rhea's sexual kink is people hurting themselves...yours on the other hand was psychical pain.
You became addicted to slitting yourself but it was never the usual you're depressed...no this was purely sexual and although you know how dangerous it can be you had done your research and took a course on how to handle injuries safely and effetely.
You're able to take care of your own injuries due to hurting yourself whilst masturbating alone but having Rhea psychically next to you eases the stress of it because you know if something were to happen and you'd cut too deep into a vein...Rhea would make sure you'd be straight into hospital receiving treatment.
But again this is why its one of those extreme rare nights you're gonna do it because of the extreme dangers and consequences; you knew in your heart Rhea would be lost without you and one slit could end both your worlds.
At this current time; Rhea had ordered you into the car and she was driving back home to the house you've both shared for the last 2 years; you used to be her make up artist which is how you met but you eventually went onto pursuing graphic design and you now own your own tattoo parlour.
Both arousal and anxiety have continued to course through your body as Rhea continued to drive home; she had one hand upon the steering wheel and her other hand firmly gripping your left thigh to which she would squeeze every now again coursing your arousal to rise further through your body.
"When we get home; you're going to go upstairs, strip and put on your fishnets and the spiked leather jacket" Rhea's thick Australian accent ordered as she squeezed your thigh once again before trailing her hand closer towards your inner thighs.
"And then you're going to grab your special box; place it upon the bed and then you're going to position yourself upon your knees and wait for your Mami" Rhea smiled seductively and you threw your head back into the headrest as you just wanted to fuck her so much but you knew she was going to make you wait and you had to be patient.
"You understand my orders babygirl" Rhea asked digging her nails into your thigh to deter your attention away from your sexual arousal "yes Mami I understand" your breathing restricted as you tried desperately not to cum in your pants.
You both arrived home and you immediately exited the car and ran straight to your front door unlocking it in the process.
You couldn't afford to waste any time as you knew you would receive a harsh punishment for lateness.
Once you unlocked the front door; you ran upstairs and started to immediately strip away your clothes before proceeding to a drawer grabbing your fishnets and putting them on; you then walked over to your wardrobe and pulled out your beautiful black spiked leather jacket that you know Rhea goes nuts for and you put the leather jacket on and sexual arousal coursed through you.
You walked over to another set of drawers and pulled out your special box that contained your specially designed blades.
You picked the box up and you sat it upon the bed in front of you before you proceeded to sit upon your knees and wait for any further orders from Rhea.
Despite you both pushing each other to your absolute limits; the only thing you both agreed on is that only you are allowed to cut yourself; Rhea has never felt comfortable about her actually psychically cutting you and you respected that.
The only reasons are because she wouldn't know how deep she's going nor if she were about to slit a vein so through a mutual agreement, only you are allowed to cut yourself.
Whilst you can identify how safe a deep cut is; there has been rare occasions where you have cut too deep and had to receive medical treatment which in normal hospitals would get you sectioned but thanks to you and Rhea's high earning careers you are both able to afford proper private health care where they wouldn't dare to question why you had cut yourself so deep.
You were too engrossed within your sexual thoughts about Rhea when you suddenly heard the front door slam causing shivers to descend upon your spine as your sexual thoughts were about to become reality once again.
You sat still upon the bed desperately trying to prevent from touching yourself since you wanted all of that from Rhea; you heard her powerful footsteps upon the stairs before you suddenly saw her emerge into your bedroom and she had her match look smeared across her face and you knew you were in for a messy night.
"You're being very good babygirl" Rhea darkly chuckled as she walked over to you and grabbed your jaw rough "but all that's about to change and you're going to be begging Mami" she chuckled once again before roughly grabbing your hair pulling your head back.
"If you don't obey Mami's orders you will end up in the punishment room for the rest of the night" she violently shoved your head to the side before she walked out of the room leaving you to touch yourself for a few seconds.
You trailed your hand down to your pussy as you already felt yourself wet from Rhea's actions so far and you couldn't concentrate properly but you had to snap yourself out of it and remain conscious since you were about to deeply cut yourself, where you didn't know yet but you needed to concentrate.
This is why both of you also agreed you would never do this fucked out of your heads because one little slit is all it takes to kill yourself.
You suddenly saw Rhea return into the bedroom and she was wearing her fishnets, tainted black bra and the special leather spiked jacket that you had custom made for her; it was the first birthday present you ever gave her and she's cherished it ever since.
Along with the rest of her outfit; you saw her leg harness and attached to it was the custom designed knife that has both of your initials engraved and the knife itself was special designed the same way as your blades in your special box are.
She has never used the knife to actually cut you but rather dominate you with it which turns you on immensely.
"What you doing babygirl; did Mami allow you to touch yourself" Rhea asked with a smirk "no but I want you so bad Mami" you breathed shaky as she walked towards you grabbing both your wrist roughly.
"I don't want to see you touching yourself babygirl...not yet" she smiled dark before pushing you down upon your back bearing over you as the incredible Dom she is.
"Y/N at any point you want to stop; you say your safe word and tap out with your right leg; if you don't feel well you tap out straight away because I love you baby" Rhea smiled down at you before kissing your forehead.
"I promise Rhea if I don't feel well or uncomfortable I'll tap out" I smiled "that's my beautiful girl" she smiled.
The way Rhea has always been able to switch from her characters has always amazed you; you have tapped out before because you've felt unwell and she has always immediately stopped to make sure you're ok and if you both actually need to stop.
Whether you have both reached your orgasms or not has never been the priority; the priority has always been upon both of your mental and psychical state.
"Are you ready babygirl because Mami is hungry" Mami asked smiling seductively "yes Mami please fuck me" you groaned in response "not yet slut" Mami suddenly rose from you and grabbed something that was attached from the back of her leg harness and you saw her infamous 'Mami collar'.
"Get up slut" she demanded you obeyed and she placed the collar upon your neck tightening it to its max which caused arousal through your body.
"How do you feel slut" Mami asked before she collied her hand to your pussy and she started viscously rubbing "oh fuck Mami" you cried out in response to the sudden movement; she grabbed the collar and inserted 2 fingers without warning causing moans to escape you.
"Mami please" you cried out begging "yeah beg for Mami you pathetic bitch" Mami continued to insert her fingers in and out of you as you crumbled into a moaning mess of pleasure.
She removed her fingers and rose from the bed as she grabbed the knife that was hanging at the side of her leg "up now bitch" she demanded as she grabbed the knife and licked the tip of it; you obeyed once again and returned upon your knees awaiting further instructions.
"You're such a little slut who doesn't deserve Mami's attention" Mami degraded you "take out your blade babygirl" she demanded; you grabbed the box and took out your sharp blade before Rhea started to pull down upon your fishnets revealing your thighs and previous faded scars.
"Are you Mami's good girl" Rhea asked as she pulled upon your collar "yes Mami; I'm always on my best behaviour for you" you swallowed spit "but you weren't on your best behaviour today; don't I always state clearly that you never leave my side babygirl" Rhea asked darkly as you she trailed the knife upon your thighs which made you feel alive.
"I'm sorry Mami; I won't do it again" you responded quietly as she continued to tug upon your collar "10 slits to your left thigh babygirl" she ordered as she pushed you back rough and stood proud of her actions.
Your anxiety grew but your sexual arousal had grown further and at this point you wanted to exploded at the thought of blood.
You pressed the sharp blade to your left thigh and started to slowly drag it across your thigh as a wave of sexual arousal overtook you and caused you to moan.
"Slowly babygirl; I want to enjoy this" you heard Mami and continued to slit slowly before you noticed Rhea had inserted 2 fingers into herself which only frustrated you.
"Mami I want you" you cried out as you wanted her to fuck you so hard "shhhh you'll get Mami soon" she moaned out continuing to insert her fingers in and out of herself.
You continued slitting yourself and you ended up doing more than ten slits because the pain was so addicting and caused chaos with your sexual arousal.
You were so caught up in your own sexual thoughts that you hadn't noticed Rhea was wearing her strap on but it was relief because you knew you were about to get fucked raw and hard.
"You deserve this punishment babygirl; are you going to stay by my side from now on babygirl" Mami asked as she tugged upon your collar once again "yes Mami I will but please I beg, fuck me" you screamed out in frustration.
"Stop cutting" she commanded and suddenly pushed you upon your back and spread your legs and she didn't waste anytime in inserting the big strap deep inside of you.
"Oh fuck Mami" you screamed out as she started to fuck you raw and hard "Mami I love you" you moaned as your eyes rolled back into your skull; blood had dripped upon Rhea and she grabbed your thighs trailing your left one. They stung with each grab she did but it wasn't painful enough for you to tap out.
"I love you babygirl" Rhea moaned as she continued to fuck you deep and hard and you started to feel that familiar twist within your stomach indicating you were close "beg for me...beg for your...Mami" Rhea moaned before you both simultaneously squirted all over each other ending your orgasms.
"Oh fuck Rhea" you breathed heavy as you saw her collapse next to you "fuck that was so fucking hot baby" Rhea smiled as she cuddled you.
"Are you ok Y/N; how hurt are you" Rhea asked concerned instantly switching from her characters "I'm ok Rhea; I just fucking love you" you smiled sweetly at the beautiful person that was at the side of you "aftercare time baby" Rhea smiled before gently kissing you upon your forehead.
You saw Rhea walk towards your en suite and you heard the shower turn on; Rhea returned but this time she was naked and she picked you up and carried you to the en suite.
"You've cut a bit too deep in some of those baby; do you feel ok" Rhea asked examining your left thigh as she started to undress you "I feel ok; if I feel I need to go to hospital...you know I'll tell you" you smiled before kissing her soft warm lips.
You both got in the shower and washed away all the blood and cleaned yourselves before you were sat upon the toilet seat wrapped in a warm towel.
Rhea by now had changed the bloody sheets, removed and packed away all your sex toys and hung up your leather jackets and had put on AHS Hotel to watch since its both your favourite series.
"Y/N baby you ok" Rhea asked sweetly as she entered the en suite "I'm ok Rhea; I feel fine" you smiled up at her; Rhea could only smile and she started to disinfect your deep wounds and rubbed cream into the them before wrapping a bandage around your thigh.
She soon dressed you in your boxers and a black t-shirt before carrying you into the bedroom and wrapping you in the duvet covers.
Rhea exited the bedroom and soon came back with your favourite snacks and 2 cups of coffee before she changed into a black t-shirt and boxers before crawling into bed and wrapping her arms around you tightly.
"You're mine forever babygirl; don't you ever forget that" Rhea tightened her grip upon you "I love you so much Mami; thank you for tonight" you smiled before you snuggled into her chest as your eyes started to grow heavy with sleep.
"I love you babygirl; you start to feel dizzy you tell me baby" you heard Rhea's soft concerned tone and it instantly made you feel safe.
"I will Rhea I promise" you smiled into her chest and she started to rub small circles into your back and sleep soon took over.
