nothing personal

University of Hawaii / Paradise

[rickywcc]

Hello, it’s me.

Just thinking about how life has a little funny way of showing you that all things, good and bad; will come to pass.

[kinuphoto]

[ps1]

Hurricane Lane from space, 2018.

[ps1]

Yakinik

[gamuchoko]

[rickywcc]

8/15/2018

A little frustrated because this job search is taking longer than expected. This journey is long and difficult but it will not end in defeat.

[jueki]

Bitter Honey 2016 ‘蜜のあわれ’ Directed by Gakuryū Ishii

[williamyuphotog]

#blackwhite image of #Huangshan, Anhui province, China.⠀ Photographed in Jan 2018 with Sony A7RIII. Want to go? Join me next year to photograph this #amazingdestination.⠀ #bnw_captures #fotoclub_bnw #rsa_bnw⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ #unopix_bnw #match_bw #bw_divine #ig_energy_bw #superstarz_bw #bnw_kings #bnw_society #bnw_planet #wms_bnw #bnw_creatives #bw_diamond #edits_bnw #show_us_bw #black_n_white_traveller #artlimited #sonycamera #sonya7riii #sonyalpha #sonyimages #beautifuldestinations #pricely_shotz #ig_countryside #master_gallery (at Huangshan, Anhui)

[lechatnoiir]

[wanderlustfuldays]

Huangshan, China

[pizzaslimeirl]

[ksao-deactivated20181222]

Okusawa - Tokyo

[svnddlsnts]

[rickywcc]

If a man is not strong, he will suffer. If he is fearful, he will suffer. If he is slothful, he suffers... and if he cannot love anything, he will suffer most of all.

Alexander JA Cortes

[houseofdawn]

[aloemila]

[rickywcc]

23 this year

and still looking for direction. I’m at a stage in my life where I know that nothing is permanent. Despite that, I want to feel like I am working towards something meaningful.

I left my first full-time job last month because I wasn’t getting what I needed in life. It was bold to accept a position working in an area unrelated to my degree, but ultimately naive. I made the mistake of choosing a company over the role, hoping that things would fall into place. They didn’t.

Working in technical operations at a major aviation company brought me to a new level of stress that I wasn’t prepared for. To say I was miserable was an understatement. I screamed in my car on my way in and out of work. I experienced mood swings several times per day. I gained and lost weight. I had trouble sleeping. I spent every waking minute of my 9-hour work day wondering if I had made the right choice in accepting this position.

Adding to my frustration - my workplace environment was truly toxic. I was put in a department where I knew nobody. I was the youngest person on my team of 4, which was to the bane of my colleagues. This was considered a mid-level position, something that my colleagues had spent years working towards.

Naturally, I was accused of “not deserving” to be where I was. This led to harassment, being thrown under the bus, and misrepresentation in performance evaluations. Needless to say, talking to HR did not help.

After facing months of discrimination and harassment, I left the company. A part of me wishes that I could’ve held on a little longer to prove my grit, but life is too short to work with a company that doesn’t support you. 

Despite the many issues - I am really thankful for the experience of meeting some of the most supportive and thoughtful people (in an adjacent department) who had spoken up for me on multiple occasions. I don’t know what I would’ve done without my supporters from the sidelines.

I left a “great job” to pursue a better peace of mind. It was nice to have great benefits and a decent commute, but never will ever I put a job before my own best interests again.