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âïœĄđŠč°âËïœĄâ riki's angel
even if i fall, i'll reach out to you. i believe in the fate that connects us. even if you drift away, i'll run to you.
navigation á”á” âââàšà§âââ she / her
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LETTERS - multi member series
001 my dear arthur - nishimura riki { letter written in readers pov }
002 to my dearest historia - yang jungwon { letter written in jungwons pov }
003 my dearest allie - kim sunoo { letter written in sunoos pov }
004 dear billy - park sunghoon { letter written in readers pov }
005 dear bruce - sim jaeyun { letter written in readers pov }
006 dear carl - park jongseong { letter written in readers pov }
007 dear thomas - lee heeseung { letter written in readers pov }
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TO MY DEAREST HISTORIA â yang jungwon
to my dearest girl,
as i write this, sunoo is sitting right beside me. he knows this is for you. he keeps glancing over, pretending not to read, but i know he is. he says itâs romantic, stupid but romantic. heâs laughing, but his eyes are red.
still, he promised heâd get this to you if i didnât make it back. he says he owes me for the time i pulled him out of the collapsing trench when i couldâve kept running.
i donât need to tell you how this ends.
you already know.
maybe thatâs why iâm writing this instead of saying it to your face. maybe iâm a coward after all.
iâm sorry.
iâm sorry i left you waiting, in that quiet town, with your hair braided back and your hands holding onto hope like it wouldnât burn you.
i told myself i was doing the right thing. fighting for something bigger, something worth bleeding for. but the truth is, every step i took away from you, i lost a little more of who i was.
i thought i could come back. i thought weâd have time. i thought youâd always be there, waiting, smiling, whole.
but time isnât kind to people like us, is it?
iâve killed.
iâve lost.
iâve watched boys younger than me cry for their mothers as the world swallowed them whole. and yet, the only thing that keeps me awake at night is the memory of you. sitting under the tree at the edge of town, asking if iâd come back before the cherry blossoms fell.
i lied when i said i would.
and now, i donât think i can.
theyâre closing in. thereâs smoke in the sky. i donât know if weâll hold out long enough for the sun to rise again. but if i close my eyes, i see you. not the way you looked when i left, but the way i imagined you on our wedding day.
smiling.
soft.
safe.
thatâs my regret.
not the battles. not the pain.
but that i never got to see you in white. that i never held your hand in front of the people who mattered and said, âsheâs mine.â
that i never married you.
if i had another life, iâd run the other way the second they asked me to fight. iâd choose you. first. every time.
but until then, this is all i can give.
my words. my heart.
my last breath.
with love, always
jungwon
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MY DEAR ARTHUR â nishimura riki
my dear riki,
you never showed up.
and now, after reading the papers, after hearing your name spoken in the streets like a ghost,
i think i understand why.
i don't expect youâll read this. i donât know where to send it. i don't even know if you're still breathing the same air as i am. but i need to write it. maybe for you. maybe for me.
maybe because i still love you.
i waited at the station. you told me to wear the yellow scarf, the one you used to say made me shine like the sun. i waited until the sun dipped below the rooftops, until the cold crept in beyond my bones, until i finally understood. you weren't coming.
and you weren't coming back.
iâm not angry anymore. no really. just tired. just hollow.
because, riki, i was starting to believe again. in small, silly things. like laughing in grocery aisles. like putting tiny hopes in coffee cups and watching them grow into tomorrows. like us. like healing.
but the thing is, i was dreaming by myself.
you always said that you were too much for this world. that your shadows wouldn't fit into daylight. i had been trying to pull you out anyway, like a fool who thinks love is enough.
but love is not a light switch.
and you were never trying to leave the dark, were you?
i see now. i see it the way your smile would always tremble at the edges. in the way you touched me like i was porcelain. like you were saying goodbye as you waved hello.
iâm sorry.
for all of it. for dragging the past into the here and now. for making you come and get to know me when maybe you were already halfway gone.
thereâs a kinder man in there. iâve met him. i held his hand once on a summer morning when you laughed with your eyes shut and said you wished the world would pause. i held him when you cried onto my collarbone, whispering you didn't want to be this way. i held him when you kissed me like i was the only safe thing left.
but riki, the good man inside of you is fighting a giant.
and the giant wins every time.
youâve broken my heart again.
and i fear iâve broken yours.
if only i could go back through the years and keep from loving you, maybe i would. maybe i wouldn't. maybe some heartache is worth remembering.
iâm enclosing the ring you gave me when we were seventeen. we shouldn't have had any claim over the word forever, but you used it anyway. i kept it all these years, not because i didn't want to forget you. but because i couldn't.
and now i must.
itâs strange how something so small can weigh so much. it was never the ring. it was the hands that gave it.
i hope someday you find someone who loves you enough not to try to fix you.
i hope you let them.
i hope you let yourself remain.
but i have waited too long.
and i cannot walk you into the night.
so this is it,
the final letter.
the final farewell.
the final thread between us.
goodnight, riki.
in another existence, perhaps.
perhaps in a gentler one, we meet again.
goodbye.
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HIS DOLL, HIS DREAM â nishimura riki
synopsis, riki is hopelessly in love with his petite, doll like girlfriend who turns every ordinary moment into a dream he never wants to wake up from.
paring, nishimura riki x female reader
setting, late spring in a peaceful city
genre, fluff, soft romance, established relationship
content warning, none that i can think of
word count, 834 words
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Riki still couldnât believe you were real.
You were sitting on his bed in that impossibly perfect way, tiny legs dangling just above the floor. The lace trim of your socks fluttered as you swung your feet, your soft skirt pooling like petals around you. A silky bow sat in your hair, the light pink one he liked most, and his hoodie hung off your frame like it had been made to wrap around you.
He stood by the door, arms folded, quietly admiring you.
Everything about you looked like a dream. From the little glint of gloss on your lips to the way your bangs fell just above your eyes. You were the kind of girl who made time feel slower. Softer. Better.
You looked up with those wide eyes, holding two ribbons between your fingers.
âRiki,â you said gently, âwhich one do you think looks better with this outfit?â
Your voice was as light as your steps. You always spoke to him like he was someone precious, even when you were just asking about ribbons.
Without a word, Riki crossed the room and knelt down in front of you. His eyes moved between the pink and the white ribbon before settling on the one in your left hand.
âThis one,â he said, taking the pink ribbon carefully. âIt matches your cheeks.â
You blinked, lips parting just slightly, caught off guard. He always said things like that. So simple, but they left your heart full.
âAre you sure?â you asked.
He leaned in a little, brushing your bangs out of the way. âIâm sure. But honestly, youâd still be the prettiest girl in the world even without a ribbon.â
You smiled shyly and pulled his hoodie sleeves over your hands. âYouâre just saying that because you like me.â
âNo,â he said quietly. âIâm saying it because youâre the most beautiful thing Iâve ever seen.â
He tied the ribbon into your hair as gently as he could. His fingers were big, and the bow came out a little crooked, but you didnât say anything. You could feel how careful he was being. Like you were something fragile. Something treasured.
âThere,â he said, sitting back on his heels. âPerfect.â
You reached out and took his hand, small fingers curling around his like always.
âI like when you look at me like that,â you whispered.
âLike what?â
âLike Iâm special.â
Riki gave a quiet laugh under his breath and squeezed your hand.
âYou are.â
And you believed him.
Because when he looked at you like that, you didnât feel small or delicate or like you had to be perfect. You just felt loved.
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The sky was turning gold as you walked beside him, the breeze carrying the scent of cherry blossoms through the quiet streets. You held his hand with both of yours, your little fingers curled around his much larger one, and his thumb brushed lightly over your knuckles every few seconds like he just needed to feel you there.
You wore a cream cardigan now, buttoned all the way up and trimmed with lace. Your skirt swayed with every step and your shoes clicked softly against the pavement. Riki kept glancing at you out of the corner of his eye, his expression unreadable but his ears slightly pink.
It made you smile.
âYouâre staring again,â you said softly.
âYou noticed?â he said, not even trying to deny it. âI always do.â
You looked up at him and gave his hand a little squeeze. âWhy?â
He shrugged a little, not because he didnât know the answer, but because he wasnât sure how to say it without sounding completely in love.
âYouâre really pretty,â he said simply. âEven just walking.â
Before you could reply, you felt your shoe loosen, the strap slipping down at your ankle.
âOh,â you whispered, stopping in your tracks and bending slightly to fix it.
But Riki was already kneeling down in front of you before you could reach.
âIâve got it,â he murmured, his voice quiet and gentle like always.
You stood still, cheeks burning as he carefully fastened the little buckle on your mary jane. His fingers brushed against your sock, then your ankle, with the same delicacy he used when tying ribbons in your hair. His head was bowed, the strands of his dark hair falling over his forehead, and he looked up only once.
âYouâre like a doll,â he said under his breath. âSeriously.â
You gave him a soft smile, letting your hand rest lightly on his shoulder as he stood back up.
âAnd youâre like a prince,â you whispered. âYou always take care of me.â
He looked at you for a long second, his hand reaching up to brush your hair behind your ear. His eyes were warm and quiet and so full of something you couldnât name.
âYouâre easy to take care of,â he said. âBecause youâre mine.â
And with that, he laced your fingers back into his and kept walking, as if that moment hadnât just made your heart feel like it was wrapped in rose petals.
But that was just Riki.
He didnât need big gestures. He didnât need grand declarations.
He just needed a ribbon, a soft look, and your hand in his.
And that was more than enough.
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WHEN WE WERE SOFT â nishimura riki
004 rainy days, shared umbrellas
word count, 526 words
The morning sky was grey, heavy with clouds, and you already knew what that meant.
You glanced out the window, seeing the first drops of rain splattering on the ground, and sighed. It wasnât that you hated the rain. It was kind of nice, in a way, peaceful, almost. But there was something about rainy mornings that made everything feel more intense. The way it blurred everything around you, the soft hum of distant thunder, the quiet rustle of the world going on while you stayed still.
And, of course, there was the fact that rain meant one thing.
Riki.
You had barely gotten your shoes on when you heard the familiar knock on your door. Three quick raps, followed by a soft âItâs me,â and you knew before even opening it.
You swung the door open, and there he was, standing with that ridiculous umbrella that barely covered both of you. He was grinning, of course, that signature lazy smile stretched across his face.
âItâs raining,â he said, stating the obvious. âYou ready?â
You raised an eyebrow, eyeing the umbrella sceptically. âIs that the umbrella youâre using?â
He glanced at the small thing, then back at you. âI thought itâd be romantic.â
âRomantic?â You shook your head, but a laugh escaped anyway. âIt looks like a disaster waiting to happen.â
âWell, itâs our disaster,â he replied, nudging you lightly with his elbow.
You bit back a smile. âIâm not sure our is the right word.â
âYouâll change your mind once weâre halfway to school and youâre drenched,â he said, holding out the umbrella with a flourish. âNow, come on. The faster we go, the less time weâll spend looking like wet dogs.â
You couldnât argue with that logic, even though you wanted to. You grabbed your bag and stepped outside, walking close to him as the first heavy drops of rain began to fall faster. The umbrella barely covered both of you, leaving your shoulders brushing together with every step.
It was uncomfortable, but also oddly comforting.
You glanced at Riki, his face illuminated by a soft glow from the streetlights, the rain starting to dampen his hair. He didnât seem to mind, of course. He never did.
You were about to say something when Riki suddenly leaned closer, giving you a teasing look. âWhatâs wrong? Canât handle the rain? Itâs only water.â
You rolled your eyes but didnât pull away. âIâm fine. Iâm just thinking how youâre going to be soaked by the time we get to school.â
He grinned. âGood thing Iâm used to it.â
The two of you walked in comfortable silence for a few moments, the soft pitter-patter of the rain against the umbrella almost rhythmic. It was strange, how easily things fell back into place with him. As if nothing had changed at all.
But something had changed, hadnât it?
It wasnât just the rain or the umbrella. It was the way your heart seemed to race every time your hands brushed together. The way his presence seemed to feel heavier now, in a way that made you both nervous and excited.
But you couldnât exactly tell him that, could you?
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BETWEEN DETENTION AND YOU â lee heeseung written series
001 detention, day one
word count, 493 words
You werenât even supposed to be there.
The scratchy plastic chair dug into your back as you crossed your arms and stared at the slow moving clock above the whiteboard. Twenty seven more minutes of silence, stale air, and the infuriating presence of Lee Heeseung, your personal nightmare since freshman year.
He sat exactly one desk away. Close enough to annoy you with the occasional pen click, far enough that he could pretend he wasnât doing it on purpose.
âYou know,â he said suddenly, his voice low but smug, âyouâre really not as scary as you think you are.â
You didnât even turn to look at him. âAnd youâre not as funny as you think you are. Weird how we both suffer.â
He let out a soft snort like he hadnât expected you to bite back so quickly.
The classroom was nearly empty, except for the two of you and the teacher in the front who couldnât care less. Detention supervisor Mr Kang was dozing off, head tilted back in his creaky chair. Typical.
You glanced sideways.
Heeseung looked like he had just rolled out of bed. Hoodie half-zipped, uniform shirt wrinkled, hair messy in a way that wouldâve looked good if you werenât so determined to dislike him. His backpack was still half open on the floor, a single earbud hanging out, tangled like the rest of his life probably was.
âWhatâre you even in here for?â you asked, not out of curiosity, but because the silence was getting on your nerves.
He shrugged without looking at you. âArguing with a know it all in the library. Ring any bells?â
You narrowed your eyes. âYou literally shoved my notebook.â
âYou literally stole my study room.â
âI booked it.â
âYou booked it after I didâ
You stared at him, blinking slowly. âYouâre actually insane.â
He leaned back in his chair and folded his arms behind his head, looking entirely too pleased. âAnd yet here we are. Stuck together. Fateâs weird like that.â
You rolled your eyes and looked away. You didnât believe in fate. Especially not the kind that punished you by trapping you in a stuffy classroom with Lee Heeseung and his ever growing ego.
But then he said something that made your stomach twist, just a little.
âYou donât actually hate me, right?â
You looked at him this time. Really looked.
His smirk faltered for a split second like he wasnât sure if he wanted to hear your answer.
You blinked, surprised at the sudden seriousness in his eyes. But it vanished just as quickly as it came.
âI mean, you act like it,â he added with a little laugh, âbut itâs kind of fun.â
You turned away before he could see the heat rise to your cheeks.
âDonât flatter yourself.â
Heeseung didnât reply after that. Just tapped his pen against the desk and let the silence settle again.
But this time, it didnât feel quite so heavy.
And that was the most annoying part.
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BETWEEN DETENTION AND YOU â lee heeseung written series
synopsis, you and heeseung have hated each other since freshman year. Unfortunately, your names are always next to each other on seating charts, class rosters, and now⊠detention slips.
pairing, lee heeseung x female reader
genre, enemies to lovers, highschool romance, slow burn, slight angst, fluff
content warning, emotional tension, emotional conflict
status, on hold
start (11.05.2025) end ??
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001 detention, day one
002 a desk apart, a war waged
003 quiet looks and louder thoughts
004 the debate disaster
005 not so accidental touches
006 library twice
007 youâre not that bad
008 rain and unspoken things
009 jealously, loud and clear
010 the confession
011 this feels like something
012 epilogue â after the bell
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WHEN WE WERE SOFT â nishimura riki
003 after fireworks
word count, 777 words
The fireworks didnât stop. Bright colours danced across the sky, but your focus stayed on the space between you and Riki. The way he leaned back against the stairs, eyes glowing with the reflected light, made your heart flutter in that strange, quiet way again.
You tried to focus on the fireworks. You really did. They were beautiful, bursts of colour painting the dark, but his presence beside you kept pulling your attention back.
âWhy do you always seem so different at night?â you asked, your voice barely above a whisper. You didnât know why you said it, only that it felt like something you had to let out.
Riki turned his head toward you, his gaze soft. âDifferent how?â
âLike⊠I donât know. More you, I guess?â You gave a small shrug, hoping the words didnât sound as clumsy as they felt.
He let out a soft laugh, not teasing, just real. âMaybe itâs because I donât have to hide anything at night. The worldâs quieter.â
You nodded, even if you werenât sure you completely understood. But in a way, you did. Night always felt easier, like the world slowed down just enough to let you breathe.
âYeah. I get that,â you murmured.
Another burst of fireworks lit up the sky, loud and dazzling. You watched them, but your mind kept drifting back to him. To the way he looked at you sometimes, like there was more behind his usual grins. Something that made your chest feel too full, your hands a little too warm. You tried to brush it off and told yourself it was nothing.
But it didnât feel like anything. And that scared you.
When the final firework faded into smoke, Riki stood and stretched, arms high above his head.
âWell,â he said, breaking the silence, âthat was fun.â
You stood too, trying to ignore the twist in your stomach. âYeah. It was.â
He glanced at you, his face half-lit by a nearby streetlamp. âYou know, we could stay out a little longer.â
You tilted your head. âWhat do you mean?â
âI mean thereâs no rush. The nightâs still here. We could walk home slowly, and enjoy the quiet.â
It was simple, but it didnât feel that way. His words felt like something else. A quiet offer. A nudge toward something you didnât know how to name.
âOkay,â you said, the word slipping out before you thought it through.
The walk home was slower than usual. Neither of you said much, but the silence didnât feel heavy. If anything, it felt like it meant something. Every step echoed louder than it should have, and every glance he stole in your direction made your heart skip.
At one point, you caught him looking at you again. His gaze stayed longer this time, and when your eyes met, he didnât look away right away. It was like he was waiting for something.
You cleared your throat. âYouâre staring.â
He raised an eyebrow. âYouâre very observant.â
âI know,â you said, deadpan. âItâs one of my best traits.â
He let out a quiet laugh. âIâll be sure to add that to your resume.â
You smiled, the kind of smile that came without trying. But then the silence returned, and you were both back to walking in step, the air between you filled with unsaid things.
Too soon, you reached your house. The stillness of the night felt heavier now. Riki stopped in front of your door, giving you that look again, the one that made your heart race for reasons you didnât want to think too hard about.
âWell. This is it,â he said, a little too casually. âAnother classic night of hanging out.â
You nodded, trying to keep your voice light. âYep. Very eventful.â
He hesitated like he wanted to say more. His eyes softened just slightly, and then he smiled.
âSee you tomorrow?â he asked, quieter this time.
âYeah,â you said. âSee you tomorrow.â
You wanted to say more. You wanted to ask what heâd been thinking about, what all of this meant. But the words caught in your throat.
He stood there for a second longer, hands in his pockets, watching you. The space between you felt like it was stretching into something bigger, something unknown. And it scared you.
Then he turned and walked away.
You stayed there for a moment, staring at the place where heâd been. The night felt different now. You werenât sure why.
You stepped inside, closed the door gently behind you, and leaned against it, your heart thudding in your chest. Everything felt like it was changing. Quietly, slowly. And you didnât know what to do with that.
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hana, 18, australian
i collect smiskis, cute things, and moments that feel a little like peace.
enhypen on loop, always.
i like quiet walks, rainy days, and playlists that feel like home.
usually somewhere between daydreaming and doodling in the margins.
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my posting schedule â đđrik1sberry
ౚৠletters â multi member { ongoing }
{ randomly 9-11pm aest }
ౚৠbetween detention and you â lee heeseung written series { on hold }
{ every tue & thur 4am aest }
ౚৠwhen we were soft â nishimura riki written series { on hold }
{ every mon & wed 4am aest }
ౚৠnew posts â any member
{ randomly 4-7am aest }
drafts :
ౚৠwhispers behind the walls - yang jungwon ~5000
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BREWING SOMETHING LIKE LOVE â park sunghoon
synopsis, a sunshine hearted new barista slowly melts the walls of her grumpy coworker⊠one shift, one smile, and one cup of coffee at a time
paring, park sunghoon
setting, cozy local café
genre, strangers to lovers, slow burn, grumpy x sunshine, fluff
content warning, mild language, emotional vulnerability, soft romantic tension
word count, 2095 words
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The first thing you noticed about the boy behind the counter was that he didn't smile.
Not when customers complimented his latte art. Not when an elderly regular gave him a handwritten thank you card. Not even when a gold retriever puppy peeked through the glass doors and wagged its tail. He just worked in silence, his movements precise, expression unreadable.
âThis is Y/N,â your new manager had said brightly. âSheâll be training here starting today.â
The boy didnât even look at you. âYouâre cheerful,â he muttered, his voice flat, and you couldnât help but grin.
âYouâre not,â you replied, your smile warm and genuine, even though his words barely registered as an insult.
That got a glance. It was the barest flicker of an expression, just a quick glance before he went back to wiping down the counter, but it felt like progress.
You learned his name the next day: Park Sunghoon. It was written in sharp black ink on the staff schedule.
He wasnât mean. Just quiet. Guarded. Efficient in a way that didnât leave room for small talk. Youâd try, of course. Commenting on the weather, the playlist, the new pastries. Heâd respond with a nod or a hum, then go right back to steaming milk or scribbling names on cups with annoyingly perfect penmanship.
But you didnât give up.
You told him about your failed attempts at latte art, the way you once accidentally served someone an iced espresso with salt instead of sugar, and how your favorite part of the job was the smell of ground coffee beans in the morning.
Sometimes heâd blink slowly, like your energy short-circuited his brain. Other times, you thought you saw the corner of his mouth twitch. You counted that as a win. Maybe it wasnât much, but it was something.
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A month passed.
You noticed things.
Like how he only drank black coffee. How he always wore headphones before opening shifts, but the music was soft, classical, completely unlike his aloof attitude. How he always made an extra matcha latte on Thursdays and left it behind the counter for the regular who never ordered but always showed up tired. It was the kind of thoughtful gesture he never talked about, and you wondered if he even realised how much it mattered.
You started bringing him snacks. Little things like chocolate covered almonds, rice crackers, a tiny blueberry muffin with a post it that said âYou look like someone who forgets breakfast.â
He never thanked you. But he always ate them. His face remained unreadable, but you noticed that his shoulders would sometimes relax, just a little, when you handed him the treats.
One day, it rained.
You came in drenched, dripping from your bangs to your sneakers, and slipped on the floor the moment you stepped inside.
Sunghoon caught you by the elbow before you hit the tiles.
âCareful,â he said, voice flat, but his hand lingered for half a second too long.
Your heart stuttered. âThanks.â
He let go, like heâd caught you out of instinct. âDonât drip on the espresso machine.â
That was the first time he made you coffee without asking. It came in your favorite mug, with a foamed heart on top. You didnât even have to say anything, because his small gestures spoke louder than words ever could.
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The following weeks were a mix of routine and subtle changes. You worked morning shifts together, the café quiet except for the occasional order and the soft hum of the espresso machine. You found yourself in the back room often, taking the opportunity to chat with him about the weather, your favorite books, or just random little things that filled the silence.
Sunghoon still wasnât talkative, but he stopped giving you one word answers. Heâd respond more thoughtfully, sometimes even offering his own opinions. The first time he laughed⊠really laughed, was when you told him about the time you accidentally made a macchiato with a shot of soy sauce instead of caramel syrup. It wasnât loud, just a soft chuckle, but it felt like a small victory.
You started closing shifts together. Sometimes in silence, sometimes with music playing low in the background. Always something soft, like heâd chosen it for you.
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Two months into your job, the little interactions became a bit more frequent.
One evening, after everyone else had left, Sunghoon stood by the counter, watching the light rain outside the window.
âYou look pensive,â you said, wiping down the counter nearby.
âIâm not,â he replied, but his tone was softer than usual.
âYou always look like youâre thinking about something.â
He glanced at you, a flicker of surprise in his eyes. âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
âLike youâre always somewhere else in your head.â
He didnât answer, just took a sip from his cup and turned back to the window. You continued with your work, but you noticed the way his shoulders seemed to relax when he thought you werenât looking. The way he leaned against the counter with an unfamiliar ease. Maybe it wasnât much, but you felt like you were starting to get to him. Just a little.
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A few more weeks passed, and you started noticing even more details about him.
Like how he always tucked a pen behind his ear when he worked. Like how he hated it when people were late, but was never overtly rude⊠just more quiet. Like how, on slow days, heâd doodle little sketches on the back of order tickets when he thought no one was watching. It was like his way of quietly letting out the tension he didnât know how to express.
But one of the most surprising things you learned was how fiercely he took care of the café. He had this way of arranging everything just so, always checking the supplies, making sure nothing was out of place. You started to realize that, just like you, this place was one of the few things he allowed to matter.
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One night, after a particularly busy evening shift, you were both left to close up. The lights were dimmed, the buzz of the espresso machine had died down, and only the sound of you wiping down the counter filled the space.
âYouâve been looking at me a lot lately,â Sunghoon said, voice low but steady.
You raised an eyebrow. âWhat?â
âYou know, whenever Iâm near, you always seem to be looking at me.â
Your heart skipped a beat. You couldnât think of anything to say, so you just shrugged. âMaybe Iâm just trying to figure you out.â
He stayed silent for a moment before answering. âWhat do you think?â
You took a deep breath. âI think youâre not as indifferent as you try to act.â
He shifted, clearly caught off guard. âWhat?â
âYou care. You care about this place, about the people here. And maybe⊠you care more than you realize.â
His gaze softened. âI donât know how to care.â
âWell,â you said, walking closer, âsometimes itâs okay to not know. But that doesnât mean you canât try.â
You paused for a moment, taking a chance you hadnât dared before.
âCan I ask you something?â
He nodded, his eyes narrowing in curiosity.
âWhy do you always do that? Try to keep things to yourself.â
He didnât answer right away. Instead, he set down the rag heâd been holding and looked at you with a seriousness that made your chest tighten.
âItâs easier that way,â he said simply.
âIs it?â
He hesitated. âI donât know.â He sounded a little unsure, a little vulnerable, and you couldnât help but feel a strange warmth in your chest.
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A few days later, you both ended up working the closing shift again. The café was nearly empty, the last few customers having left, leaving behind a quiet that only the two of you shared.
You were both cleaning up when he spoke again. âI think youâve changed the way I see things.â
You raised an eyebrow, glancing up at him. âWhat do you mean?â
He looked at you for a long moment before replying. âI think⊠Iâm starting to care a little too much. And itâs not just about the cafĂ©.â
Your heart did that thing again, an unexpected skip. âWhat do you mean?â you whispered, a little afraid of what he might say.
He took a breath, stepping closer. âI think⊠Iâm starting to like you.â
You smiled softly. âI think Iâve known for a while.â
He blinked, surprised by your response. âReally?â
âYeah. But that doesnât mean itâs easy,â you said. âNothingâs easy.â
He reached for your hand, a small smile tugging at the corner of his lips. âIt doesnât have to be.â
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The days that followed were a quiet rush of small moments. You both tiptoed around the tension that had bloomed between you⊠careful, uncertain, but undeniably there.
There was the moment when he passed you a fresh cup of coffee, his fingers brushing against yours for the briefest instant, and neither of you spoke. Just the soft flutter of that touch lingered in the air.
There was the evening when you both stayed late to clean up, and he surprised you by ordering takeout for both of you. His way of offering something, even though he didnât know exactly how to do it.
Then there was the night when he looked at you, not with his usual distant expression, but with something softer, something warm. âI think Iâm getting better at this,â he said quietly.
âAt what?â
âAt caring,â he replied, voice so low it was almost a whisper.
You smiled, not needing to say anything else. Because in that moment, you both knew. Something slow and quiet had built between you. Something real.
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The night was quiet when the café closed. The lights were dimmed, and the soft hum of the espresso machine was the only sound, almost like the calm after a storm. The air smelled faintly of coffee and cinnamon, comforting in a way only a café could be.
Sunghoon was wiping down the counter, his movements slow and deliberate. You stood beside him, gathering your things, the soft silence between you feeling⊠different now. The shift was subtle, but it was there. Something had changed.
You couldnât help yourself.
You turned to him. âSunghoon.â
He looked up from the counter, his eyes locking with yours. There was no more hesitation in his gaze, no more distance. Just something warm, something patient.
âIâm glad youâre here,â he said softly.
You blinked, caught off guard by the sincerity in his words. âWhat?â
He gave a small, almost shy smile, and for the first time, you saw him open up, just a little. âIâm glad youâre here. I think⊠I think Iâve needed this.â
Your heart swelled at his admission. You didnât say anything right away. You didnât need to. You stepped closer, your fingers brushing against his in a quiet, meaningful touch.
âI think I needed this, too,â you whispered, your voice barely more than a breath.
And in that moment, standing in the soft glow of the cafĂ©, you realised something. It wasnât just about coffee. It wasnât about the late nights or the small gestures.
It was about something more.
Like a cup of coffee left to brew, slowly and carefully, the warmth that had been building between you over the weeks was finally ready. It had taken time. It had taken patience. But now it was something that could no longer be ignored.
Sunghoon tilted his head, eyes searching yours for something you both knew deep down, but had never quite dared to say. âI think⊠weâre brewing something.â
Your heart skipped a beat, the meaning behind his words sinking in slowly. âSomething like love?â you asked, your voice barely a whisper.
He nodded, his smile a little crooked, but softer than before. âYeah. Something like love.â
You couldnât help the smile that spread across your face. Something so quiet, so gentle, had been growing between you. No grand gestures. No explosive confessions. Just slow, steady, and real.
And maybe thatâs how love was supposed to be. Something brewed over time, warm and comforting, a little messy at first, but finally perfect in its own way.
âYouâre not wrong,â you said softly, your fingers brushing his once more.
And as the cafĂ©âs lights flickered off, the two of you stood there, together, knowing that the quiet, patient love youâd been brewing for so long had finally come to life.
Something like love. Quietly brewing.
Just like coffee.
Just like you and him.
© rik1sberry
I THINK I LOVED YOU IN SILENCE FIRST â yang jungwon
synopsis, two life long friends tiptoe around unspoken feelings until a quiet confession and first kiss change everything.
paring, yang jungwon x female reader
setting, final year of high school
genre, slow burn, friends to lovers, fluff, comfort, angst (light)
content warning, emotional vulnerability, kissing
word count, 1715 words
perm taglist, send an ask to be added
Youâve always known Jungwon.
Not in the world stopping, dramatic kind of way. He just⊠existed in your life. Consistently. Quietly. The way your favourite sweater waits folded at the bottom of your drawer, the way your umbrellaâs always slightly damp by the door. He was there.
You met in the second year of middle school during an after-school clean-up. Both of you had forgotten to turn in an assignment. While the rest of the group grumbled about sweeping the hallway, Jungwon quietly dusted the desks, sleeves rolled up, lips slightly pursed in focus.
You offered him a second rag without saying anything.
He blinked at you, then took it with a small nod.
That was it. That's where it started.
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You never really grew into your friendship. You simply grew with it.
By high school, people rarely said one of your names without the other. You weren't loud or clingy, not the kind of duo that posted selfies every weekend or gave each other nicknames. You were the kind of friends who shared earbuds on the bus. Who didn't need to talk while walking home. Who quietly knew when the other was tired just from the way they blinked.
You'd send him screenshots of weird math problems with a string of crying emojis. He'd respond with a photo of his scribbled notes and a single word: âhelp.â You made each other laugh in quiet snorts and shoulder bumps, not loud crackles.
But feelings are like seeds. Even when they're small, even when you pretend not to see them, they still grow.
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You noticed it one late afternoon.
The sun was starting to set, casting that golden light that made everything feel like a memory in real time. You were both walking back from, cram school, shoulder to shoulder, when a sudden gust of wind made you shiver.
Without a word, Jungwom unwrapped his scarf and draped it around your neck, still warm from his skin.
âYour nose is red,â he said.
You mumbled a thank you, clutching the scarf tighter, pretending your heart hadn't just lept into your throat.
That night, you stared at the ceiling in your room, scarf still in your lap. And for the first time, you let yourself wonder.
What if you liked him?
No⊠what I'd youâd always liked him?
And what if it was too late to unlike him?
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The more you tried to ignore it, the louder the feelings become.
Youâd catch yourself staring at his hands when he wrote, noticing how his thumb tapped his pen when he was thinking. Youâd overthink every smile, every text with a heart emoji, every moment his finger brushed yours.
You noticed the little things.
The way his eyes softened when he looked at you.
The way he always saved the last bite of his snack and quietly handed it to you without being asked.
The way your name sounded when he said it⊠warm, familiar, like a promise.
But you were terrified.
Because the friendship was safe.
And love? Love could ruin everything
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You started pulling away⊠slowly, almost unnoticeably. Fewer texts. Excuses to not walk home. Choosing seats slightly farther away in the library. You told yourself you were protecting what you had.
But Jungwom noticed.
Of course he did.
One nippy afternoon, he waited for you outside the school gates, holding a canned coffee in each hand.
You hesitated when you saw him.
âHey,â he said, offering you one.
You took it wordlessly. He walked beside you for a while before finally asking, âDid I do something wrongâ
You stopped walking.
What? No.â
âThen why are you avoiding me?â
You looked down at your shoes. âIâm notââ
âYes, you are,â he said, more gently this time. âDid I say something? Is it about the scarf thing? Or that time Iââ
âItâs not you,â you blurted.
He blinked. âThen what is it?â
You gripped the can tighter.
âItâs me,â you said quietly. âI just⊠I needed space.â
âWhy?â
Because I love you. Because I canât look at you without wanting to hold your hand. Because your laugh makes my chest hurt in the best and worst ways.
You didnât say any of that.
Instead, you whispered, âI didnât want to ruin anything.â
He was silent for a long time.
Then: âRuin what?â
You couldnât answer. So you walked ahead, and he didnât follow.
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Days passed.
He didnât text first. You didnât either.
But everything felt off. Like going to school with mismatched socks or forgetting your phone at home. Like half of something was missing.
It was a Sunday when he showed up at your door.
Your mom let him in without asking.
You found him sitting on your porch step, hoodie strings tangled in his fingers, like heâd been picking at them for a while.
âYou said you didnât want to ruin anything,â he said when you sat down beside him.
You nodded, eyes tracing the edge of the step.
There was a pause. Then, a small breath.
âCan I tell you something?â
You glanced at him, heart already too loud.
âI think Iâve liked you for a while,â he said softly. âBut I didnât know how to tell you. And when you started pulling away, I figured maybe it was just me. Like I made it all up in my head.â
Your breath caught.
Your throat felt tight. âYou⊠like me?â
He nodded. âI still do.â
You stared at him, the words sinking in too slowly.
âI didnât know,â you whispered. âI really didnât.â
His laugh was quiet, almost shy. âGuess I wasnât as obvious as I thought.â
âI thought you just⊠cared,â you said, voice small. âI didnât think it was more than that.â
He looked at you for a long moment, then reached out carefully, like he was afraid to spook you, and brushed his fingers against yours.
âIâve always cared,â he said. âJust maybe in a way I couldnât name yet.â
Your fingers curled into his.
And for once, you didnât try to hide the way your heart was shaking.
âI like you too,â you said. âI didnât want to admit it. I thought if I did, Iâd lose you.â
âYou wonât,â he said instantly.
A soft silence fell between you, like an exhale neither of you had realized you were holding.
Then, quieter than before: âCan I kiss you?â
You nodded, barely, eyes already starting to close.
He leaned in slowly, his breath brushing yours. When his lips met yours, it felt like the gentlest question and the answer youâd been waiting to give. Soft and warm and a little nervous, but it felt right. Like something that had always been there, finally spoken out loud.
When he pulled back, your faces hovered close, still caught in the hush of it all.
âWas that okay?â he asked.
You gave a small smile. âYeah. It was more than okay.â
He let out a breath, then took your hand and pressed it lightly to his chest.
âFeel that?â he whispered. âItâs been like that since the moment I saw you again.â
Your heart stuttered.
âI think mineâs been like that longer than I knew,â you said.
You stayed there, side by side, wrapped in a quiet that didnât feel empty this time. It felt full. Like everything had finally found its place.
A week later, someone spotted your hands loosely intertwined as you left the school gates.
âWait. Are you twoâŠ?â
Jungwon looked at you, eyes soft.
You gave a small nod. âYeah. We are.â
No grand moment. No announcement. Just a soft beginning that felt like the next step in something already real.
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One evening, you found yourselves in his room again, books pushed aside, the window cracked open just enough to let in the cool breeze. His dog lay curled at your feet, head resting on his paws, snoring quietly like he belonged in that moment just as much as the two of you did.
Jungwon was lying on his back, arms behind his head, staring at the ceiling. You were next to him, close enough that your shoulders touched when you both shifted at the same time.
It was quiet. Not the awkward kind, not anymore. Just quiet the way comfortable things are. You let your eyes wander to the side and found him already watching you.
âI used to think about this a lot,â he said softly.
You tilted your head. âWhat do you mean?â
âThis. Us. Lying here like this. You next to me, but not just as my friend.â
Your chest tightened. âWhen?â
He smiled a little, eyes still on you. âI donât know. For a while now. I didnât even realise what I was feeling at first. It was just⊠you. Always you.â
You stared at him, heart fluttering.
âI think I loved you in silence first,â he said. âBefore I could admit it to myself. Before I ever thought youâd feel the same.â
You didnât answer right away. Instead, you let the moment sit. His dog shifted and stretched beside you, soft paws twitching in a dream. Outside, wind moved through the trees like a whisper.
âI think I felt it too,â you said at last. âI just didnât know thatâs what it was. I thought it was comfort. Familiarity. I didnât realise it could be love.â
âIt was,â he said quietly. âEven then.â
You turned toward him, propping yourself up on one elbow.
âThank you,â you whispered.
âFor what?â
âFor being patient. For letting it be quiet until I was ready to hear it.â
His smile softened. âIâd wait all over again if I had to.â
You leaned in, pressing your forehead gently against his.
âI donât want silence anymore,â you murmured. âI want this. You. Every version.â
He kissed you again, slow and sure, with the kind of calm that comes when everything has finally settled into place.
His hand found yours, warm and steady.
And there, in the quiet safety of his room, with his dog asleep beside you and the air filled with everything that didnât need to be spoken anymore, you let the silence fade.
What remained was something real.
Something that had always been growing, patiently, between the lines.
Love, finally named. Finally heard.
© rik1sberry
WHEN WE WERE SOFT â nishimura riki written series
002 goldfish games & school festival
content warning, animal handing
word count, 819 words
The school festival was always something you looked forward to, mostly for the food and the way everyone seemed to forget about homework for a day. But this year felt different.
Riki had, of course, roped you into running a booth with him. He claimed it was to âbalance out the karmaâ from stealing your snacks every day, but you knew better. He was just bored.
As you approached the booth, you saw Riki sitting on the edge, lazily tossing a goldfish in his hand like it was a stress ball. His eyes were half lidded, and he had that signature grin on his face. That one that made you want to punch him in the arm and kiss him at the same time.
âHey, princess,â he greeted, flicking the fish into a cup of water. âYou ready to watch me win this thing?â
You raised an eyebrow. âYou mean lose it? Because thatâs what you're really good at.â
Riki chuckled. âOnly because I'm being polite. I could win the entire festival if I wanted.â
âSure you could,â you said, crossing your arms. âAnd I could probably teach a dog how to do calculus.â
He laughed loudly at that. âIâd love to see that. Maybe Iâll take you up on that challenge after this.â
âFirst, you need to win this one.â
You both looked at the goldfish swimming lazily in the bowl. The objective was simple: catch one of them with a paper scoop before they darted away. It was harder than it looked.
You already knew Riki was going to be terrible at it, but also knew he wouldn't give up. He never did.
He picked up the scoop with dramatic flair, but the fish immediately darted away, swimming in the opposite direction.
âNice try, genius,â you teased, biting back a laugh.
He gave you a look, then leaned forward, narrowing his eyes at the water. âIâll get it this time. Just watch.â
You leaned against the counter, arms still crossed, waiting for him to try again.
But when he reached into the water for another scoop, his hand grazed yours, and for the first time today, something in your chest skipped.
You pretended not to feel the way your heart was suddenly racing.
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It didnât take long before Riki finally caught a fish. A small one, but it was enough to win him a silly stuffed bunny. He handed it to you with a smug grin, clearly satisfied with his victory.
âYou actually did it,â you said, taking the bunny from him. âYou shouldâve seen your face when you first started.â
He leaned closer, his breath warm against your ear. âI knew Iâd win. Just had to play it cool.â
You rolled your eyes, feeling a little light-headed. âYouâre so full of yourself.â
He shrugged, still grinning. âThatâs why you love me.â
You stopped for a second, staring at him. He didnât seem to notice how your heart beat louder at his words.
Instead, he nudged you with his elbow. âLetâs go grab some food. Iâm starving.â
You nodded, trying to play it off, but a little voice in your head kept repeating the same thing: What if heâs right?
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The rest of the afternoon passed in a blur. You ate cotton candy, laughed at the weird costumes people were wearing, and played a few more games, though none were quite as interesting as the one youâd just had with Riki.
By the time the sun started setting, you were both sitting on the steps of the gym, watching the fireworks start to light up the night sky. The colours were bright, painting the clouds in shades of pink, blue, and gold. But all you could focus on was the fact that Riki was sitting beside you, close enough that you could feel the warmth of his body beside yours.
Neither of you said much for a while. Just watched as the fireworks exploded above, each burst of light more beautiful than the last.
Then, Riki turned to you, his face lit by the fireworks. âYou know,â he said quietly, âyou look really pretty tonight.â
You blinked, surprised. âWhat?â
He grinned, that lazy smile of his. âJust thought Iâd say it.â
You could feel your cheeks flush, but you couldnât tell if it was because of the fireworks or the way his words made your heart race.
âThanks,â you muttered, hoping your voice didnât betray how much it mattered. You werenât sure what was going on, but you knew that the space between you and him felt different now.
âAnytime,â he said, and for a moment, you thought he might say something else, but the fireworks kept going, and the moment passed.
But you couldnât stop thinking about it.
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