Ruby Rose Garden

Emi/Female/7-11-1995

[rikealoas7]

12/11/25 I'm not really all that good at my job. No wonder I can't find meaning in it.

[rikealoas7]

8/27/25 It's been quite a while since I've posted on here. Things have been doing better and worse at the same time. I have a lot of big dreams still. I'm just hoping that I can have them realized.

[rikealoas7]

...

I'm still in absolute shock about what happened...

Rest In Peace, Reita

[rikealoas7]

I wish I could have someone to help me with my emotions. I have a therapist, but one hour a week isn't nearly enough time.

[rikealoas7]

I've been going through a lot of frustration lately when it comes to my illness. I wish that schizoaffective disorder (and others related to schizophrenia) wasn't so widely judged.

[rikealoas7]

I'm hoping and praying to God that Kamijo tours to Michigan. I really want to meet him. ;w;

[rikealoas7]

I want Japanese Christians to have the same freedom as I do without losing friends or feeling lonely.

[rikealoas7]

My uncle passed away...

He had alzheimer's 😢

[rikealoas7]

Looks like I can't afford to buy anyone Christmas gifts this year.

Edit: I'll do my best to buy some gifts, but it'll be really difficult since I only have my dad's gift.

Edit: I might be ok as long as I don't spend too much per person this year.

[rikealoas7]

My doctor is unsure about my official diagnosis. It's currently Bipolar 1 still.

Very confusing since there's now 3 possibilities.

[chronicallylav3nd3r]

• mentally ill people deserve love and respect •

• no matter how “scary” their illness is •

[id 1: white text reading: “mentally ill people deserve love and respect”. the background is a purple coloured sky with a darker shade of purple clouds. /end id]

[id 2: white text reading: “no matter how “scary” their illness is”. the background is the same as the first picture. /end id]

[rikealoas7]

Me as a kid: That illness is scary. I hope I don't get it D:

Life: 🎉You're getting worse! It's that illness PLUS bipolar disorder! 🎉

[sweetpeauserboxes]

[sweetpeauserboxes]

[rikealoas7]

Me: Oh nice! Another Kamijo fan in my state! I want to be friends with this person!

The person: **doesn't answer my message even after a long time**

Me: ;w; **the big sad**

[rikealoas7]

TW: G*N THREAT

I hope I never have to go through what happened yesterday ever again. A sh**ting threat happened at my workplace. There was no g*nman or victims, but we didn't know that until after a while of hiding. I hope I can feel safe there again.

[rikealoas7]

I either overshare or I don't communicate enough. OTL