If you're reading this then I'm probably dead.
Crazy title, I know, lolol. I'm serlet, marie, ringosteve, chejobs whatever name I posted under. I couldn't shut up about Steve Jobs and PoSV, I also cosplayed him a couple of times lol. I drew stupid portraits, I ranted, I posted half finished projects, even though I've deleted most things. I wanted to finish the dating sim. I made progress, but it was never enough for a full demo. Maybe I'll ask someone to leave the trailer behind so it doesn't completely disappear.
If you're reading this, then I didn't make it. I want to be clear, l've chosen to end things. To end my life. I've been struggling for a long time, longer than anyone could see, longer than I could admit. I've been hospitalized and treated after past attempts. I've tried to get help, but it's never been enough. I'm tired of everything.
I've lived with this weight for years. I've tried to survive, to keep myself together, to push forward even when everything felt impossible. l've promised people l'd keep trying, but the truth is I can't. I'm done.
To everyone who listened to me, even for a moment: thank you. Thank you for humor, for patience, for reading my rants, for sharing my interests, for letting me feel like I mattered. To my friends: You kept me going longer than I could have on my own. Please don't feel guilty. This was my problem, not yours. Nothing you did or didn't do could have stopped this.
I want to leave this post as closure. I don't want to leave without an explanation. I want for anyone who cared, or knew about me to know that I loved this, and the friends I made here. You made my life brighter, even when I couldn't see it for myself.
Bye bye.
-Marie
P.S. If you are reading this and you know me in real life, please don’t go through my tumblr or share my account with others. I’d like for my account to remain private.
