IS IT TOO LATE TO SAY SORRY? 01/30/2016
To My Dearest Best Friend,
Bhest, it's been two weeks since we have misunderstanding or something I called as quarrel. I knew it's my fault and I'm really sorry for what I've done. Through this blog, I just want to tell all my thoughts and feelings about what happened to us. You are the most important friend I've ever had and the most special one. We were so happy first when we've travelled to Manila wherein it was like a dream for me but when we went home, it was like a nightmare to me. I didn't expect it to happen between the two of us. After what happened to us wherein you didn't talked to me for almost 6 hours while we're on the bus, it's kinda painful in my part because I assumed that we will have lots of fun in Manila but it didn't. I'm really sorry bhest for what I've done to you during our vacation in Manila, I didn't mean it. Please forgive me best friend of mine. I don't want to lose you in my life bhest. I don't want to lose a best friend again. You knew that I am a person who had so much pride but now I'll swallow it for almost six years of friendship that we have treasured. You are the best guy friend I've ever had throughout my 20 years of existence in this world. Please I'm begging for your forgiveness, understanding and acceptance bhest . Even I would look pathetic and stupid; I will try my best to fix our friendship. I won't give up even they would tell me to stop thinking about you and asking forgiveness from you because they were not in my place. I've treasured this friendship and I don't want to be put it in a situation where it will just end without any closure.
I've decided not to send a message immediately to you and call you because you might get madder at me. Bhest, you knew I've waited for you to greet me on my birthday last January 19. I assumed that you will be the first or last person that will greet or sing a "Happy Birthday Rio" but it never happen. How assuming I am that day, right? I woke up early on that day and it's already late when I slept that night as I waited for you to send a message of greetings or you'll call me. I assumed you might greet me through Facebook or Twitter but it didn't happen again. I'm really assuming, funny right? I expected a lot from you that day but it led me only to disappointment and tears. But it's okay, I understand that you didn't greet because you're mad at me. I've missed everything about us as beset of friends. I missed our food trips during those times we met and laugh trips through phone call and sms conversations. But still I'm just wondering if why this misunderstanding happened to us. I can't afford to lose you my best friend because you've played a big part and role in my life. My life would be dull anymore and my days and nights wouldn't complete once you step out of my life. Yeah, it's so easy to pretend that I'm fine but deep inside I felt the pain of not having such communication with you bhest. I missed all the laughter, fun stuffs, secrets and tears we shared since our High School days. I promised to myself I won't cry again because of you but I can't as I typed this blog, I can't control my tears from falling. Pain and sadness really haunted me because I can't forget what happened to us Bhest. I'm a person who can't easily move on and forget but I will try as long as I could then I'll do my best to be resilient no matter what happen.
In this blog, I just want to address my sincere apology to you my best friend. From the bottom of my heart, I really want to apologize to you (these words seemed like what you told in your letter for me during our junior year). I hoped it is not yet too late to say sorry. The last time we've talked, it seemed like both of us were mad that's why I decided to went home already because I'm sure you'll get more mad at me and I want to give you time and space to understand and realize everything that was happened to us. Please accept this sincere apology of mine. For all the wrong things that I've done and for all the times that I've taken you for granted, pardon me please for all these things. I'll just wait again for the right time you'll approach me because I'm willing to wait for your acceptance bhest. Please. I'm so afraid for this friendship of ours to end. Please let's start all over again what we have as friends. I really admit that it was my fault and I knew by myself I've changed. Please don't get mad at me anymore bhest. I missed you and you're so important that I can't afford to lose you and leave me. I'm not perfect as I could do such mistakes too and please I'm asking for your forgiveness. I missed the piggiee-goattiee tandem and I'm longing for everything we've shared throughout six years of friendship.
You're my confidant, bestie, stress reliever, joker, food and travel buddy. You're the best best best friend I had in my life. Thank you for all the things that you've done to me. I appreciate all the gifts you've given to me and for all the food you've bought for me. I will treasure all the happy memories that we have shared and I'll cherish those wholeheartedly. I hoped we'll see each other again and how I wished we'll go back to the same.
I can't be completely happy and show my full smile because without you in my life makes my everyday incomplete. You're worth crying for bhest no matter what they say because you're so special to me. I'm really grateful to God that you are my best friend. I would not regret and forget everything about us bhest. I knew God made this happen to us as He wanted to test the foundation of our friendship. Okay, it's already long to read but I hoped you will read it.
Just do remember, I will always be at your side as best friend of yours. I'm lucky to have you my bhest. I miss everything about us after all the things we've been through. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. 'Til next time. See you again my bhest baboy.
Sincerely sorry by goattiee...
