[morbidpunk]

I fell in love with you in the way leaves fall to the ground in autumn. But with you, everything was just raw emotion or a crisis. I just wanted to talk about how i like my noodles half cooked, and how much i hate the feeling of charcoal pencils against paper and how i totally despise when people shower and leave small lakes of their body water on my bathroom floor. Other days; i wanted to talk about how hard it gets to breath sometimes. Take me out and shoot me, aim for the heart, i’m kidding but not really. I carry too much weight. No, no, i’m fine, i’m great. Does it occur to you; to want to utterly and completely vanish? No, let’s dance. Do you search for pieces of you beneath the paper and in between the lines? I’m just being silly, don’t mind me. I’m lost. But i didn’t combust or fall through the earth’s crust; so, i think we can only go up from here. You’re a playlist, but i’m no player; so i leave you there hanging and, if you ask me, i was the coldest place on earth and you turned me into a perpetual fireplace. Let’s drink to that.

[palevirgin]

“The soft figure, nurturing, protecting, Isn’t she? So why does her arms feel like jaws When she holds you close? She whispers in your hair, soft brown curly hair, She whispers that she loves you, loves you, And she holds you so close That you find it hard to breathe. She is in your back and her body is warm when She tenderly kisses your cheek. She holds your hands – Her fingers are long and thin strings. And when she pulls you closer again, You agrees silently. (You cannot feel her warmth.) She pushes your head back, two fingers under your chin, And asks for a smile. It hurts to comply; your face is so stiff. Stiff face, and stiff fingers, and stiff body – You are made of wood and smudged paint, And you are only alive when she wants you to be.”

— But children aren’t puppets, are they? (k. m.) (or: a poem about controlling mothers.) 

[paintedgreypoetry]

“I’m exhausted.

I just want to put my childhood

To bed and let it sleep.

My younger me is still wake inside me;

She is so tired -

Of all the neglect;

All this abuse is draining.

She just wants to sleep

But there is no bed to sleep in.

Fear is a bed hog

And

Depression steals all the blankets.

Present me is tired

Of pretending everything is ok

When it’s fucking not.

It’s not ok.

I am not ok.

Mama

I’m tired of smiling at you.

I’m tired of pretending you were there for me

When you weren’t.

Mama,

I’m tired of making excuses

For your controlling demeanor.

Mama,

I’m tired of walking on eggshells when your around.

Mama I’m done acting

I can’t keep laughing

At funny memories

I don’t have.

I’m ready for some sleep

But the heart crushing anxiety

It is a heavy snorer.

It’s so damn loud in my head.

Daddy,

Your voice

It likes to echo

And

Bounce off the walls of my bedroom.

Daddy please let me rest.

Daddy let me go,

I’m so weary

Walking on broken bones is exhausting

Daddy I’m so weary,

I need a place to rest

But as you said, there is no home for me here.

I’m so exhausted

The panic

The fear

The anger -

It’s exhausting.

This mask of a happy girl is heavy

And I can’t keeping wearing it.

The child inside me,

She is weeping from delirium.

She is begging to be tucked in.

And dammit do I want to let her

But the way the past hangs off me like heavy chains

And the way the past pushes at me

It just won’t let me let her go,

Not without giving her a real home

Not until she is safe.

It’s not safe yet my dear

Keep one eye open,

It’s not the dark you need to fear

It’s the monsters that crawl in the day you need to watch.”

-Some bedtime stories are not to be told.

[fckawrytr]

I drank until...

I drank until every thought was gone,

Killing all the feelings with each shot,

I drank until I couldn’t tell the difference between the floor and the walls,

Everything was spinning,

I still took another shot.

I drank until my legs could no longer walk,

I know I was with someone but I forgot.

I drank until I got stuck in a bathroom stall,

Nothing else mattered,

I was finally gone.

I was happy until I heard the knock,

I tried to shout I’m fine but I couldn’t talk.

“Oh baby come on, I’ve got you”

Words from the angel who took me in her arms.

That was the last thing I remember,

Everything stopped.

I drank until I blacked out,

Lost in my consciousness,

Sweet dreams of tea and honey,

Good memories,

Old friends,

Rooms filled with smiles and laughter,

Warmth and love...

But then I woke up back in my world;

On a couch,

My couch,

Wrapped in a strangers jacket,

Head splitting,

Brain corroded,

Cold,

Sick,

Alone,

Waves of nausea,

Waves of emotions,

Tears rolling down,

Begging death to take me.

“I’m sorry” I whispered to myself,

I don’t deserve this self inflicted hell.

I drank until I hurt myself.

[antidepressantjunkie]

Amber is the colour of my energy

Whisky, I neglected you

For mushrooms and amphetamines.

For ket and weed and LSD,

And Mandy too, to name a few.

*

Needn’t I have looked so far

To be the greatest of clichés.

The drugs and raves led me astray.

For writers, scotch is more on par.

*

Half your bottle drank away,

Half full in my state of mind.

Every sip; sublime and kind,

Every piss a harshened spray.

*

Now I’m stuck, a drunken haze

Has washed and swept the ways of rhyme.

In its tide is also time,

As by the sun, the night decays.

*

Whisky, polished, final sip.

Like the bottle, I am dry.

So, I tried, to write not high.

This poem sucks. I’m off to trip.

[chaos-in-this-wasteland]

Oh, you play bass??Well I guess that means you’re INSTANTLY HOT

[astrologym0od]

scorpio sun, leo moon, sagittarius rising.

[playsthetics]

Sister Signs: Taurus + Scorpio

Key Words: Introverted, Controlling, Opinionated, Emotional, Assertive, Anti-conformist, quiet power

.

Bite - Troye Sivan

False Alarm - The Weeknd

No Role Modelz - J. Cole

Gangsta - Kehlani

Fuck With Myself - Banks

You Haven’t Seen The Last Of Me - Cher

Greedy - Ariana Grande

Me & Mr Jones - Amy Winehouse

East Of Eden - Zella Day

Hold Me Down - Halsey

Needed Me - Rihanna

You Don’t Own Me - Grace ft G-Eazy

Go - Meg Myers

Royals - Lorde

Goddess - Banks

Me, Myself & I - G-Eazy ft Bebe Rexha

[doujinshi]

[aradhels]

-,’ types of people: greek goddesses  ,’-

aphrodite: pretty hands, neat notes, small handwriting, soft lips, poetry, mom jeans, perfect eyebrows, roses, flirty, soothing voice, the scent of vanilla, gardening, plays the ukulele, strawberries, the colour red, rosy cheeks

artemis: pretty hair, animal lovers, cottage in the woods, hunting, loves small plants, believes in mythology, forest witches, wants the best for nature, wolves, competitive, archery, moonlight, vintage t-shirts, stargazing, sharp features

hera: old souls, hot tea, fashionable, wants to travel, oversized sweaters, high ponytails, very loving, intelligent, coffee shops, old libraries, bookshelves, tiny houses, genuine smiles, passionate, photography, starry skies, bookworms

persephone: bruised knees, very kind, misunderstood, very artistic, black coffee, believes in fate, midnight hours, astrology, leather jackets, red lips, thorns, springtime, writing stories, procrastinating, messy but lovable

[vitamin-death]

[riotjalayne]

As a young Maori girl living in Australia, it is absolutely heartbreaking to watch the Ihumātao protests and be able to do nothing.

If you are protesting please stay safe! I am there with you in spirit! Know your rights! We can do this! Not one more acre!

“From Manua Kea to Ihumātao, from Standing Rock to the Amazon, from West Papua to Western Australia our indigenous brothers and sisters still fight to protect our whenua. Tell us again to leave the past in the past when it is still happening today.”

[witchescauldron]

Scorpio Sun is a very intense sign, they can be obsessive, they can be moody, they can be mysterious and sneaky, they can be confident and powerful, and the most loyal friends you could ask for. They tend to have a lot of acquaintances but only a select few close friends and even those friends are narrow down to an even smaller number, only their true friends who they truly trust get to see their heart. They are extremely guarded typically this is due to some small incident as a child that taught them not everyone could be trusted. Scorpios are water signs so they are very emotional and as children they didn't know how to deal with all this extreme emotion, thinking that somebody was a friend they might have slipped up and showed something very vulnerable to that friend and then said friend turned and stab them in the back in some way in the Scorpios eyes. Resulting in the Scorpio coming to the extreme conclusion not everyone can be trusted. This statement is true but in Scorpios eyes the world has always been black and white there are no Grey's there are no in-betweens, this strict view can cause a divide in arguments and debates. Scorpio stand true to what they believe never wavering. As they grow older they've learned a lot more about these intense emotions that they experience and they becomes so well-versed in their emotions that they become very in tune to others, they prefer to read the mood of the room the mood of a person before stepping into action that's why you often see a Scorpio a little bit further away from the group or a little bit quiet and just observing. They could be observing to see if you're a liar they like to do that, or they could be just seeing what the mood is if anyone has some hidden emotions. To a Scorpio power is knowledge, and they gain this knowledge through observation, if something is said they see somebody flinch they'll definitely mark that down as suspicious and noteworthy.

Leo Moon are surprisingly a very large home body, they feel most safe and secure at home or among very close friends. Leo moons or more so lazy cats referring to bask in the Sun and take long naps then go out and conquer the world on a daily basis. Now this isn't to say that they won't take action they most definitely will when the time calls for it but they would rather wait and see, watching a situation from afar and picking their moment to intervene. Leo moons can be particular and how they would like things done, they are leaders but they are picky ones they believe their way is the right way or you can hit the highway. They tend to think of themselves as the Kings or Queens, pointing out a flaw on their plan or a fault of theirs can upset them greatly, instead of seeing it possibly as a critique they can take it rather personally and be very offended by it.

Sagittarius Rising is a free-spirited individual, who likes out of the ordinary situations and people. Depending on the rest of the chart they might either be very big homebodies or have a thirst and drive for new experiences and situations. Even if a Sagittarius Rising is a bit of a homebody they still will seek a little adventure in their life and always look forward to but next vacation. A naturally inquisitive mind, they're quick-witted and a bit blunt. They better learn from situations and experiences then from watching videos or reading a book. These people actually make great teachers, and many people flock to them for their bright and reassuring nature, the confidence they give off also attracts people to them and always tends to lend them in positions of power even just in friend groups. They can be temperamental often giving in to their anger but it is always short-lived, they can be very sarcastic and prefer puns.

@riotjalayne

[letskeeplifesimple]

“I like being alone. I have control over my own shit. Therefore, in order to win me over, your presence has to feel better than my solitude. You are not competing with another person, you are competing with my comfort zones.”

— Horacio Jones

[crativeminds]

“I cared. I fucking cared so much that I stayed with you, I stayed through all your shit. I stayed even though you made me feel Weak Useless And alone But then I left And you said I didn’t care at all You said I never cared You said I did way worse to you Who was by your side when you fell? Who ALWAYS made sure you were okay? Who stood up for you when no one would. Me, me and me again. But I had enough. I’ve had enough of the posts about the ones that leave being the bad guys. They almost always have a reason to leave So this is a post for you This is a post for the ones who had no choice but to leave”

—

[midnineties]

getting older and realizing how deep rooted your daddy issues actually are

[thinandbxnee]

uh oh

Me, earlier in the night: “fuck I’m suicidal. If I didn’t have work tomorrow, I’d OD and see what happens”

Few hours later, when my shift got cancelled: *sweats*