A Beautiful Disaster

Nahir Irene. 21. Puertorican. Writer. Nurse/ Chemist. Former Plus Size Model, now "In-between" model. Miss Puerto Rico Plus USA 2014. A rookie in boxing. Sarcastic curly haired girl. Rebel with no cause. Tomboy at heart.

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I think I really screwed up this time.

[kinghardy]

(X)

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5 years ago i was a fucking mess & now i’m a fucking mess but at peace with it and with cooler fashion sense

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Disadvantages of being the only girl at the boxing team:

You are hit on like there's no tomorrow. It doesn't matter if you're ugly or not. They look at you the same way inmates look at women in prison.

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Some fancy pics of Sienna (and a bonus Aidan, of course!)

We’ve been doing well. I’m catching up on asks this week, especially now that I’m out for Thanksgiving break. Si and I have started walking to work on the days we go in and she’s been lovely about the walk, though we did used to pride ourselves on our keen subway riding skillz! (We still take the train on some days! But I guess avoiding all of my favorite subway characters like guys spilling rum all over Si or religious zealots trying to “cure my vision” isn’t all that bad!) I’ve been taking more pics and spending more time on instagram lately because it’s been an easier platform for quicker entries throughout the day. I’m trying to improve my photography skills! So all of these were up on insta so if you follow me there too, this might be a bit of a repeat!

We’ve got a few trips upcoming, one for Thanksgiving and then another couple around the winter break. Hopefully all will go well and I’ll keep you updated!

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Need I Say Amour? Dress

Too Much Fun Dress in Polar Bears

Start Spreading the Mews

Land Before Sublime

Quirk Things Out Dress

at Modcloth (via curveappeal affiliates)

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These girls are my everything. 😍

[scorpyonic]

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I’m sorry I never really saw that I had many shoulders to cry on, guys.

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Hoy empieza el countdown de los flashbacks del día que abuela entró al hospital, hasta que se fue al cielo.

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*Acts innocent but is thinking about riding the fuck out of you*

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I almost lost you, and I never want to feel like I’m about to ever again.

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A few days ago a mutual friend told me: “Hey, he’s struggling. Think about it, you were the one who got hotter and all afterwards.”

Is this supposed to make me happy? Fuck no. I was in hell too. I lost everything. I had to rise from the freaking ashes to stand on my current trembling feet. I was sexually assaulted. And after that incident, everything changed. I became promiscuous, I wouldn’t stop drinking. God knows how bad it was. I did things I’m not proud of at all.

Do you really think his misery is my motivation? No. 

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And I look at our old photograph and I can’t help but wonder if you’re alright.

Hope it’s nice where you are.

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I just want you to be okay.

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I haven’t been here in a while.

I think life genuinely enjoys making me a mess.

Sure I got the class I need for nursing school.

Sure, I have a great guy with me.

I stopped drinking,

I’m still modeling

I have met so many amazing people throughout this hell-hole.

I’m boxing, which is amazing. 

But a part of me still died. And its death re-encarnated really bad habits.

 MIA is back, but no one seems to notice. She’s getting worse.

I have really massive commitment issues.

 I have made so many mistakes I have forgot to find the answers to them.

Hey, fuck you balance.