blur my hands

from the floating death, to the fire of death, to a flower outside my grave—were you just being polite with your hands? / kim seokwoo, 23.

[asterocky]

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ALL THE TEXTS

Send “✆” for a MORNING text.

[ lil bro dae ] im not going out tonight man[ lil bro dae ]its sunday[ lil bro dae ]its god’s day u prick

Send “✉” for a text that WASN’T SENT.

[ lil bro dae ]can you tell dad not to show up here next time

Send “☎” for a RUSHED text.

[ lil bro dae ]i[ lil bro dae ]im[ lil bro dae ]late fkc

Send “⁇” for a DRUNK text.

[ lil bro dae ] i think    someone took my thmubs [ lil bro dae ]i cant findmy thumbs[ lil bro dae ]? hello?

Send “ø” for a LATE NIGHT text.

[ lil bro dae ] u trippin or what this late? [ lil bro dae ]why are you calling[ lil bro dae ] go to bed

Send “✘” for a HATEFUL text.

[ lil bro dae ]clean yourself up man[ lil bro dae ]no ones gonna do it for u[ lil bro dae ] sure as hell wont be me

Send “#” for a RANDOM text.

[ lil bro dae ] oi[ lil bro dae ] get some drinks with me after class

Send “@” for a SCARED text.

( past: highschool, fourteen )

[ lil bro dae ]fuck where are u[ lil bro dae ]ive been calling for the past fuckin hour[ lil bro dae ]somethings wrong dae[ lil bro dae ]somethings wrong with me [ lil bro dae ]please

Send “&” for a LOVING text.

[ lil bro dae ] ok ok[ lil bro dae ] yeah[ lil bro dae ] you’re cute[ lil bro dae ] ㅋ

Send “%” for a CURIOUS text.

[ lil bro dae ] havent seen you for a good week[ lil bro dae ] u alright?

Send “ツ” for an EXCITED text.

[ lil bro dae ] ACED MY EXAMS BRO[ lil bro dae ]im nutty af [ lil bro dae ]drinks on me

Send “$” for an ACCIDENTAL text.

[ lil bro dae ] hey babe

( 2 minutes later )[ lil bro dae ] wrong babe

Send “♀” for a HEARTBREAKING text.

[ lil bro dae ]why the fuck is he trying to act like a father now[ lil bro dae ]im not going dae[ lil bro dae ]im tired man

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t: dusk til’ dawn

@rmryuwon​

sitting right under the AC vent is solacing, cooling against his damp skin after a hot shower. his frustration from the three consecutive losses of pick-up ball in the early afternoon simmer quietly in the back of his mind now. the boy sits beside his roommate in quiet company, tangled in disheveled bed sheets, clad in shorts and a t-shirt that probably hasn’t been washed for a solid week or so.

he bypasses an impending laugh after watching a video of a cat doing very cat-like things, opts for the shift in atmosphere when he hears the subdued rumbling of thunder. his dorm room, bathed in the glow of a cloudy day, is strangely pacifying; rain a gentle pit-a-pat against the window screen. he remembers then, of a girl (big eyes, sweet smile, and lulling voice), he’d dropped off at her dorm building on a rainy day like this, and in consequence, a dilemma.

“oi,” he looks up, stretches out an arm to nudge ryuwon, a gentle pinch to his tricep for extra measure, “look at this.”

he pulls up the picture she’d sent him three days ago, her messages left on read since then. It’s a cute selfie. it looks like she’s on her tip-toes, bright smile dimmed next to the girl that stands beside her. her sister.

“this sounds shitty, but uh,” he snorts out a cheeky laugh before zooming into the girl’s face, lightly tapping a thumb to her dimpled cheek, “think i went for the wrong sister.”

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t: introductions

there are earbuds shoved loosely in his ears, and the content, despite what the general public might think, is not music. third year classes have him wound up so tight, he’s barely got time to study let alone review shitty notes, so his phone plays a constant loop of his voice; pre-recorded textbook terms and definitions. he’s half there, intermittent static buzzing in his ears now and again. the boy pauses in his dull, zombie-like funk, when he feels an odd stickiness at the sole of his shoe. squints in vexation then, and yeah, would you look at that – there’s gum stuck on the bottom. fucking hell.

it starts here, the dismal onset of a bad day.

he thinks he sees it coming, wired and hungry, a tightness in the back of his neck when he looks down at his options in the vending machine. he goes for his regular, a habitual slip of a coin and press of a button. drops his eyes to his phone, a lazy scroll through messages before he’s looking back up, and— “ah.” it’s stuck. okay. this is fine. he can work with this. a quick glance down the hallway confirms he’s alone before he lifts his foot for a shameless, rough kick to the base of the machine. once, twice. nothing. third time’s a charm? nope.

it’s late, he’s starving, it’s been a long, long day, and he’s usually not one for such extremes measures but, “fuck it,” he dips into a squat, locked jaw, pursed lips, before shoving his arm straight up into the machine. it’s a bit of a twist, he’s not exactly sure how he gets there, but he’s got long arms and fingers. he breaks out into a smile; a genuine, unadulterated smile when the bag of chips settles into the palm of his hand like it’s made to be there. holy shit. he tugs. and this is where it comes full circle. his smile plummets, along with his blood. cadaverous shock, right down to the tips of his fingers.

he’s stuck.

“oh. oh no.”

saturday, 8 p.m, kim seokwoo, age 23, immaculate poster boy: squatting deeper than your girl on a weekend night, metal arm wrenched into a vending machine.

an amalgamation of unfortunate (sticky) events.

“ — oh my fucking god.”

[stephjoho]

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o helo. kim seokwoo (at ur service) facts and plots under the cut 👌

- hails from gyeongju, moved to seoul when he was 14

- has done a p stellar job at “fixing” his satoori, mom r u proud of me

- mom’s a bomb ass lawyer, and his dad is dying from self-pity somewhere (seokwoo voice lol dad srsly)

- (parents got divorced when he was 10)

- acted up in highschool ‘cause his mom didn’t pay attention to him (didn’t work lmao)

- currently in the finance program @ gumi 'cause he didn’t know what else to do and also didn’t want his mom to drop his ass

- brilliant at math / walking calculator

- really meticulous/detailed when it comes to his work

- like puts up a bit of a front when out in public; that hard working, immaculate, extremely accomplished, neat as a pin dude etc.

- is actually kind of a loser at home, doesn’t know how to take care of his shit; being disorganized and losing things is what he does best

- pretends he doesn’t get stressed / thinks he’s too cool for that shit

- can be p insensitive and is generally a selfish person

- he smokes but also has healthier habits so to speak? knows how to take care of his food intake, loves his protein shakes, enjoys cardio (sports only bruh), etc.

- gives off a rly even-tempered, laid back vibe; tries to avoid confrontation and drama as much as he can (doesn’t work v well)

- pretends like he’s an open-minded person lol

- is a gentleman(?), just beware of ulterior motives

- sociable / silver-tongued / presentations are his forte

- don’t touch his hair; he didn’t just wake up looking like a greek god jfc

- fuck boy extraordinaire; two-timed once (got caught, didn’t do it again)

- has v temporary obsessions / crushes

- flirts with everyone

ex-girlfriends (0/?)

1. two timed (1/2) “listen, they were both interested at the same time; what was i supposed to do?” “die. you should’ve died, you piece of shit.” 2. marshmallow (0/1) “hope he fucking chokes on a marshmallow and dies alone.” (broke up with you in highschool because you didn’t like iu’s marshmallow song, what’s wrong wit u) 3. nice try (0/1) - you dropped his ass after the first date and he’s still lowkey salty about it 4. others - full permission to beat the shit out of him black eye (0/1) - he dated your sister/friend and sort of broke her heart and you’re ready to break his limbs (seokwoo voice before he’s buried alive, “haha dude, you know my mom’s a lawyer rite”) bffl (1/1) - ok look, he needs at least one person who puts up with his shit. mallang mallang (0/1) - seokwoo is (somehow) your tutor for a class you’re struggling with and he spends more time flirting with you than teaching you tf

flashback (0/?) - any old friends from gyeongju he’s had misunderstandings with? ): if you wanna be ma lover (0/1) - constant bickering / you’re technically rivals of some sort but ppl around u think its all a bit of a ruse

sinking ship (1/1) - ok for some reason you convinced him he could be a model, and he failed so hard bcus he’s awkward af in front of the camera, and now that shitty photoshoot is circling around in his department and he’s never been more embarrassed in his life

random au’s i found (0/?) -

“your mom and my dad are dating and on the verge of getting married, thank god i’m not the only one pissed off about this” au

“you crashed into me on your bicycle but i’m actually okay, you on the other hand look like you need some first aid” au

“tripped and landed face first into his crotch” first meeting au

“mY CHIPS WOULDN’T COME OUT THE VENDING MACHINE AND I GOT MAD AND TRIED TO GRAB IT BUT NOW MY HAND’S STUCK STOP LAUGHING AT ME THIS IS V SERIOUS” au

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