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( French-27 ) que-de-metal's personal blog. My main fandom is Touhou. Check out my art blog !

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hey! going to try to move some stuff around.

TLDR: for mutuals who post mainly touhou: I made a touhou-only account! see you at @inakyuuracies

for other mutuals: i will still check on u and ur blogs just less often! ramblings that are not about touhou will go to my dreamwidth but I'll still crosspost them here

a bit more about why i'm doing this? insanely lackluster because my car accident injury pains are taking all of my brain today

For years I've been trying to cut out on my mindless scrolling habit by spending weeks offline cold turkey, but I found I was not especially happier or more productive when doing that. As a lonely person who likes looking at stuff other people make, I really do like the internet. I've tried to quit it thinking that it would make me go back to the boundless creativity of my teens, drawing or writing or researching new things every time I'm on the computer, but... I was already online then. Much more dependent on my online communities that I am now, even, really. So I realized that by thinking the solution was to quit being online at all, I was looking at it the wrong way.

I think what I'm done with is... What social media has become? This kind of "Nexus". Where every app and website is a little bit of everything. You have a tumblr, an insta, a bluesky, but all of them have your everything on them. Your friends, movie reviews, politics, your enemies, art, music. So you just open those various hubs and don't get to decide what you experience on them. Even on tumblr, where the community takes pride on the absence of an algorithm, you're still at the mercy of a feed.

I think the internet had this feeling of wonder and actually doing something creative and productive as a child, not because people have gotten dumber, not because "oooohhhh no one comments on fic anymore"... But because it used to be so much more deliberate. I did not have one single button called "internet" that I would press that would decide for me whether the next hour would be spent on reading geopolitics news, watching music videos, or participating in discourse about fandoms I'm not even in. I had bookmarks folders, with various websites, and I would consciously decide what I was going to do on the internet that day. Sometimes it was reading history wikipedia pages. Sometimes it was the ace attorney roleplay forum.

So, I know how to reduce my screentime, but that's not helping me. Maybe trying to emulate that to make my screentime more deliberate might? I don't think I want to be on social media as a whole person anymore. I want to be "online" but I'm starting to really pinpoint how different what I want is from what websites like tumblr or the alternatives sell me.

So first of all I'm actually happy at the prospect of having a blog. Not an account on a feed of various blogs, but an actual adress that you can consult and read long-form customizable posts that I can make the way I fancy. If I want to share something nice I saw, I can do it the humane way, by typing, on the blog, "check out this cool thing I saw". I was excited as a teen when reblog and retweets started being a thing and you could turn your own blog into a mush of your own posts and other's but... The novelty has run off. I don't want to do it that way unless it's for specific topics anymore.

https://monalizard.dreamwidth.org/ : I've had a lot of fun lately writing down and formatting those long "best of 2025" lists and I think I want to utilize my dreamwidth account a lot more, basically for the stuff I used to use this account or twitter or discord for: media recs, talking about my recent interests, food pics and recipes, all of that. I like that I can link those to anyone with or without an account and it reads as a standalone web page, without the clutter of the constant reminder that thousands of other people are talking and you are missing out on them.

If something I want to post on there might dox me or have my face in it, I can even lock it for only my friends to see. U guys remember twitter circles? Among many cool things, dreamwidth has that. I'm going to do a little bit of dreamwidth propaganda now, even though I know most people here won't be interested in that kind of platform. Personally it would make me happy to see more friends on there because long form original posting is truly what I preferred to see from my tumblr mutuals here. Over the past few years it feels like 90% of my dash is opinions from popular people who are not you. And maybe everyone is getting something out of that. But I want to hear from youuu. Well and even if you don't use it if you make a dreamwidth account and befriend me you'll be able to see the locked posts when I make them ;)

But in the meantime I guess I will check on my mutuals, from all those platforms, the old-fashioned way: folders with your blogs in them in my firefox navbar, once in a while when I feel "oh I wonder what X is up to lately" i pull you up in a little tab and see what you've been posting. I think if you're my tumblr mutual it won't change much from what it used to be. Like I'm talking a lot right now but nothing particularily crazy is happening.

I made a new tumblr account but specifically only for touhou. I'll curate a touhou-only dash on there and then tumblr will become "the booksmark I click when I want to see touhou stuff", making it like a speciality website instead of a hodgepodge I doomscroll.

I like the potential tumblr has with personnalized themes and image hosting for making smaller "blog" projects so I still want to use it for that. I'd like to make a blog that's just my landscape pics, for instance. Maybe a nolwenn blog too. I'm working on some cute custom themes for those.

The second I started pondering "what if instead of centralizing my internet presence on one carrd + a bunch of general social media accounts I saw it as various little isolated projects" so many ideas popped in my head. I want to make a website for free animation ressources with all my toon boom scripts and code snippets. I want to post my original short stories somewhere else than ao3 and make little booklets with them to hand out IRL. Maybe I can conquer my fear of recording myself singing and make a small unlisted youtube channel full of covers. Just thinking about it the internet became exciting again. I hope I can find the free time to do at least one or two of those and I will update about it I guess here or on my dreamwidth.

So yeah! I hope everyone has been ok and I wish you all a happy last leg of the year!!!

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i'm still making "best of 2025" rec lists because i need breaks while moving and it's more relaxing than other social media activities. This time I'm reccing fanfiction and online-published short stories! It has a lot of touhou fanfiction but also some: severance, thoroughbreds, pentiment, ace attorney, and original short stories.

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couldnt sleep because of the bone hurting juice (covid booster shot) so i formatted my fav movies of 2025 list and posted it now good nightttt

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if pluribus was made in the late noughties/early 2010s every episode would have a vignette of the joining as a cold open and some of them would be funny or some of them would be sad or scary, there would be a "you may now kiss the bride" with people who were in the middle of getting married when the plurbing happened, etc.

each episode while carol is doing her thing there would be a b plot with every one of the 12 other immunes who would each have little various adventures with how they cope of thrive in the new world and there would be mysteries paralleling the ones carol is going through.

maybe kusimayu would become a main-ish character and a huge fan favourite because her motivation to join the hive would drive her to experiment and learn a lot more things than carol has learned by trying to avoid it

there would be a whole episode with baby geniuses syle cgi where for plot reasons carol ends up being chaperoned by a pluribussed infant maybe cause the hive thinks she will think twice before yelling at a literal baby even though it's talking to her with grownup words and showing her the controls of a helicopter or some shit like that

the hive would have a favourite song that's very random and only slightly nostalgic, like something from the 90s or something. and it would be playing in every speaker in the entire world and it would be a recurring joke through the show that somehow either the genetic markings of the virus OR the averaging of every human's music taste in the world has caused them to feel extremely good about this one song in particular and no other. every time she hears it carol would smash the radio or something and say she hates this song. but then much later in the show there would be a flashback of her and helen in the car and this song would come on the radio and carol would say "oh i love this song" and the conversation would continue normally rather than dwelling on the joke. but then the song would be used for scary and/or dramatic effect in one of the season's finales.

EDIT how could i forget: there would be a Wycaro episode. an episode set entirely inside of Wycaro with cheap costumes and all and everything that happens in it would be a metaphor for something that happens in the real show but it would not break Wycaro fourth wall the whole episode

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i still have a million things to do re: moving out to the other side of the country but i'm supposed to rest and not stand on my legs because my knee wound won't heal so I sat down and made my fav books of 2025 list excited to see everyone else's

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alsoooo this morning i was reading a (absolutely amazing one of the best fanworks i've ever read) gemma x devon severance fic and i stopped right before the car crash scene because i had to go apartment hunting and then my e-reader which had the fic on it got broken in my bag when i got hit by a car wish i was kidding

[rn0na-lizard]

little update

came back from ireland and right away i'm moving to the opposite side of a france to start a new life in a brand new city where i don't know anyone YES again. equal parts over the moon excited at the novelty and tired of never getting to stay still and comfy in one place.

today just did the classic bit of getting hit by a car and standing up right away and not even taking the license plate of the person who hit me because i was in shock and all i could think about was thzt i was late for my appointment (which was to visit a flat which btw i'm not applying for because it had roachezzzzz)

i'm not fully leaving tumblr but when i come back i'm probably gonna remake and change how i separate my different blogs ☝ more on that later.

how are yall

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as we get more artwork of her it is becoming increasingly clear that what tsukasa has going on with her hair is not an overgrown mullet but you cannot make me draw her without one

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if the pink diary cast was in the wilderness Akemi and Yuki would reenact the shaunajackie breakup like. day two. and it will be very ironic for the girl named yuki to die in the snow. Akemi would suggest they eat Sachiko the second she gets hungry even though Sei would know how to hunt. The girls would DoomcomingTravis Tommy but like stone cold sober.

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*me watching the scene where they introduce the character that i know dies because someone spoiled me* woah she is so doomed by the narrative

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when i'm watching a film and the characters use a wish to save themselves but there was an even better wish to make that would cover even more bases that they didnt think of making 🤓 hashtag rational fiction hashtag ratfic hashtag methods of rationality

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la chimera isn't a film about robbing ancient graves its a film about how there's no treasure greater than a brunette with a hook nose and hobbies that she's not talented at

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this is how i feel about spell card bonuses

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May. May it's me. It's only me. I know you're almost over and... fuck... We both said things we can't take back. But you still have two weeks left, May. Maybe we can fix this. Do you remember... Do you remember us two, all those years? Do you remember getting out of the house early to eat breakfast in the park, basking in the sun? Do you remember the hikes, the picnics? Bickering with the coworkers who already want to turn on the AC because it's 26°C? May please. We can still make it work if we try. I'm tired, may. My body and immune systems were ready for 6 months of winter. The last two... i've just been surviving. I knew April might let me down. You know how he is. I knew he'd hurt me like he always does. I set aside some money to pay for the heating in case he fucked up. Who am I kidding. But I trusted you, May. Two weeks ago I had to stock up on extra vitamins and cold medicine because I keep waking up sick. You know who usually does that to me? November. that's right. Fucking november. May, call me. We still have one week left. We can still do this. If you call me back maybe next year we'll barely remember this. Like a bad dream. Don't make June pick up my broken pieces. You know she will do it if she needs to. And when she does? We will be over.

[rn0na-lizard]

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I'm not going to be the change I want to see in the world because I don't particularily like writing or drawing smut and only look at it occasionally but I think we fucked up when we decided the appropriate response to the 2000s Touhou community being mainly sexist lolicon dudebros creating self insert het porn was to make the counter community as puritain as possible. The tumblr fandom response to even the slightest inch of skin on a drawing is to immediately reduce the artist to a "sexualizer" completely ignoring the fact that tumblr is the ONE website where touhou fans are most likely to be women. Everyone is out there calling themselves yuri warriors for drawing two women standing next to each other and if someone draws even the most bogstandard terumoko kissing with tongue then everyone gets really uncomfortable. I feel like we have recreated the 2015 "I'm not lesbian, i'm sapphic, don't fuck me take me to the museum 💗" aesthetic of our teens except we are a community of pushing 30 women and it's embarassing. I've even seen people talk about "touhou proshippers" as if "cishet man who makes money from doujins in which he traces koishi's body directly over a picture of a real life kid" and "lesbian on tumblr who reblogged a picture of remilia and sakuya kissing" are even remotely the same category of person. I'm so sure there are girls who could write transcendental touhou erotica or guro or psychosexual cheating drama but they are afraid of being burned at the stake so instead 80% of the touhou nsfw on ao3 is like "Patchouli x Male Reader with inflation and slime".

There were touhou artists on tumblr I really looked up to that disappointed the fuck out of me when Oil Fire started being popular and they would receive anon asks being like "am I the only one who thinks oil fire is a degenerate sex-obsessed ship" and instead of deleting the asks the artists were basking in the compliment like "omg i thought i was the only one thinking that 😌" (i think unchecked transmisogyny was a part of that aswell but its not my place to call this out i think)

This rant was not prompted by something I saw today but it's seeing this behavior time after time and now when I draw two characters kissing without leaving room for Jesus I ask myself if I'm going to be doxxed and mailed a pipe bomb.

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I fancy myself as a bit of a Yukari Yakumo when looking for shortcuts while taking a walk in an unfamiliar neighborhood (manipulating the boundary between publ