The white rubber tips of Raines black canvas shoe stained to an off-white color, of course with dashes of brown and red from dirt and blood.
The pair of shoes squished in the mud, brown dots of mud splashed to the rubber an cotton, her head was down as she gripped the glass container with both hands, the tips of her fingers were turning white from how much force i was gripping the container, and she didnt even notice.
in the container held ham sandwiches, that Maria made. Raine felt awkward visting someones home empy handed, and who doesn't like food-
well..
anyways.
It was the afternoon the day after Raine woke up to the nightmare and arguing, she hadnt talked to Dina at all since and she decided she was going to apologize.
She didn't really know what for yet, just that she felt bad for being the reason Dina had a fight with her friend.
Raines rusted knuckles tapped against the wooden door 3 times loud. She looke at her dirty shoes—
Maybe I should get new ones?
She began thinking-
I mean, these are starting to rip at the seams and they're stained of blood, Maria has offered me a new pair, or a few.. maybe I should have acceped, I mean then I wouldn't be matching with—
The door opened and Raine was snapped out of her trance and was met face to face with Dina. "Oh.." Dinna hummed, suprised, she looking behind her, shuffled her feet, and looked back to Raine.
"Hey, miss me already?" Dina smiled, holding the door half opened, Dina looked Raine up and down, eyeing the container.
"Um.. is now a bad time? I can- I can leave, or- just uh I was gonna be quick.. if.. thats okay-" Raine awkwardly said, noticing Dinas body language.
"No- no, it's just I was kinda expecting someone, like 20 minutes ago, they still haven't shown.. probably won't at all" Dina nervously laugh, seemingly anxious about whoever it was.
"Oh, I can come back later, I was—"
"No! Swear it's okay! Come on in" Dina smiled, her awkwardness fading away.
"Okay.." Raine mumbled under her breath, walking inside passing the girl. Dina shut the door behind her and walked over to her living room, plopping down on the couch, Raine following behind.
"So, what you got there?" Dina asked, glancing down to the container, it took Raine a split second to remeber she even brought the ham sandwiches, she looked down to them, "Oh! Right, uh, Maria made extra ham sandwhiches, she thought you'd like some" she said, passing over the food, Dina greatfully taking them with a smile on her face.
"Thanks! Once again why you're my favorite!" She laughed, "So, was that why you stopped by?"
"Yeah, but uh, actually there was something I wanted to say too.."
Dina raised her eyebrows, not expected there to be more, "Go on" Raine sighed, looking to, once again, her dirty converses.
"Well, the other morning, when I woke up, I actually kinda heard.. some of.. that conversation.." Raine said quietly, not making eye contact, scared to look up or continue
"What conversation?" Dina asked,
Raine sighed and looked up to Dina "Well you know.. the one.. that you had.. with.."
"with..?"
"With, her" Raine said, emphasizing the word, her.
"Oh? oh.." Dina realized,
"Yeah and um, I just wanted to say sorry.. for making you get in a fight like that with your friend, and I shouldn't be hanging out with you guys behind her back"
"Oh- Raine don't say that, it wasn't your fault at all, don't be sorry-"
"It- it is, Dina, I should have probably stopped talking with you guys when I found out, I mean, I didn't think she was gonna get mad I thought she knew—"
"Raine, stop, we can all be friends, and she doesn't want us to drop you like that either. Just- I asked her to come over, she was who I was waiting for, I was gonna talk to her about it but she didnt show"
"She's probably still mad because of me- just, if I never became- friends, or whatever, with you guys, this would have never happened. I- I'm gonna go Dina i'll see you tomorrow at school" Raine said, standing up from the couch and speed walking to the door.
It took Dina a moment to process what she was doing, but when she did she quickly got up and rushed over to Raine, "Wait- don't leave, c'mon, she wouldn't want this- nobody does-"
Raine turned around, "Dina, it isn't a big deal, we hardly are even friends anyways, and obviously i'll still talk to you at school, I just- I think that your friend clearly has jealousy problems and I don't know wanna be the one causing them"
"Jealous problems? What?"
"I have to head back, I told Maria I wouldn't be long" Raine said, and quickly made her way out of the house, ignroing Dinas pleads.
Raine sighed, looking down to the ground, looking at the stiching of her converse shoe.
She bit her lip and began to make her way back to the house.
"Back already?" Tommy said, looking up from some old history book, as Raine entered the house, "Mhm" she hummed
"Well, you have fun?"
"Yep" Raine mumbled, and took the small moment of silence to leave, "Okay then" Tommy mumbled back, to himself, as she left.
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Raine laid on her bed, her head hanging off laying horizontal, staring at the wall upside down. Her neck was starting to cramp and her head started to hurt but the chipped paint in the corner peaking out from behind the dresser was too intereting for her to move. She was bored.
She was playing guitar for awhile, but shes been doing that for the past weeks straight, her fingertips started to bruise. She tried writing, but she couldn't get anything out, and would end up scribbling it out, plus her hands were starting to cramp from the grip she held on the pen.
Knock
Knock
"Can I come in, hun?" Marias said softly throught the door.
Raine turned her head to the door, she sat upright, immediately regretting it. Her vision went black for a split second and she squeezed her eyes shut, damn low iron. "Yea, come in" she said, opening up her eyes again.
The door twisted open and in walked Maria, "Hey, do you have a minute?" she asked standing at the door, "All the time in the world" Raine mumbled with a shrug.
"Wow, so you're that bored" Maria joked, and came over and sat on the edge of the bleached blondes bed, Raine looked to her waiting for her to start.
"So, it's dinner time, but me and Tommy were gonna head over Joels for todays dinner. I know I usually tell you ahead of time, but this was kinda last minute—"
"Thats fine Maria, we still have left overs from yesturday anyway" Raine interupted,
"Actually.."
Raine sighed, knowing what she was gonna ask.
"Joel wants to meet you, and I thi-"
Raine scrunched her brows, "I already met him?"
"Raine.. let me finish" Maria said in a motherly tone, Raine stayed quiet, letting Maria start up again.
"Joel wants to meet you, actually meet you. He wants to know you, you aren't leaving any time soon, and you're very important to both me and Tommy, don't you wanna meet him too?"
"Maria, you know that's not the reason I don't wanna go"
Maria sighed, looking down, she was silent for a moment before speaking up again.
"Listen, I know you and that girl are indifferent about eachother—"
Raine scoffed, "indifferent" she mumbled under her breath, repeating Marias wording choice, finding it almost comical.
"I said listen, Raine"
"Sorry, just— you can be honest, just say we hate eachother, not 'indifferent'" Raine said, raising her hands defending herself.
"You guys do not hate eachother, just, please let me finish Raine"
"Yeah, sorry, go ahead.. we do though"
Maria sighed. "Just come with us please. You're gonna have to go eventually, and I really want you and Joel to not be strangers. Plus, your friends just so happen to be best friends with her, and the fact how small this town is, you're bound to bump into her sooner than later, it'd be best if you guys got along—"
"Maria, I don't kno-"
"I'm not saying I want you to go and crack jokes with her and compliment her outfit or something- I just want you to go and eat dinner in the same room as her. Thats it. And I don't know how you guys are with eachother or what happened, but preferably no fighting or causing a scene too"
"I wouldn't make a scene Maria-"
"Oh! Great! So you're going"
Raine tilted her head and looked at her with disappointment, Maria smiling proudly.
"You know, my bed suddenly feels like a cloud," Raine said, fake yawning, sliding more under the covers and laying her head on her pillow. Marias smile faded as she looked defeated, Raine caught her emotion change and suddenly felt guilty.
I mean, I live in her house, eat her food, use her water, use her electricity.. the least I could do is go to some dinner.
Raine sighed. "Whats for dinner?"
Maria looked up confused, "Hm?"
Raine bit her lip, "What are they making" she said louder, less of a mumble, she had to do this.
"Really? You're gonna go! Thats great Raine! I am so glad, I gotta go tell Tommy!" Maria stood up, and began walking out,
"Oh- Chicken stir fry, 30 minutes okay?"
"Mhm" Raine nodded,
"Yes!" Maria cheered, and went to leave, before closing the door she said another thanks with a big smile.
Raine caught herself smiling when the door was closed. It felt good to know how happy it was making Maria, but god is she dreading this dinner.
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a/n:
back from my 2 month break 😭
within these months i dated a girl and broke up w her and started school again so its just been kinda hard lately but i promise im getting back into writing and will be publishing more often!
thank you all who've been patient, and sorry for a shorter chapter but i figured you guys are tired of waiting
Why tf did you make ellie wear swimming trunks in that one drabble?? js because she’s a little masculine doesn’t mean she’s not a fucking girl - stop treating mascs like boys MASC WOMEN ARE WOMEN.
this anger over swimming trunks… u need to leave your house once in a while babe 😭 some masculine women love wearing mens clothes 💗 in fact, i know many irl that do. i didnt invent this… just like some of them enjoy wearing boxers and suits instead of lace panties and dresses. lesbian butches are a thing, butch culture is a thing, and just because someone wears mens clothes doesn’t make them any less of a woman <3 stop trying to feminize everyone. ur fear of masculine women is concerning, especially if you’re a wlw. if u wanna read about ellie in a thong, this blog isnt for u 😊
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