why am I so hard on myself?
well it's because mean girls and shitty men have made me feel a certain way about myself that I'm still trying to recover from. I catch myself saying certain things that just paint a reflection of myself that seems to be insecure with low self esteem.
I try my hardest to love who I am, my body, my flaws and all the positive things about me. it's hard. but im learning the more I think I'm not good enough... the more everyone around me will start to believe it too.
I also can't blame everything on my past trauma and negative experiences. I'm here now. this is the current moment and I've done so much to get to where I am and if I start to detour away from all the progress I've made, it just turns me into a hypocrite.
with time it'll get easier to catch those moments or even catch them in my head before I say anything out loud.
i just have to stop being so hard on myself. it'll be okay. I'm worthy. I'm beautiful and no one or anything will change my mind about that ❤️









