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i'm either too direct or don't express my emotions at all

just got home from cosmo, hubbyy’s nephew died last monday. he’s only 8mons old and baby died before his dads birthday. while going home I told hubby if i’m in that kind of situation as a mother who lost his son while holding her hand. I might die aswell, i think i’m gonna lose my mind. that my world will stopp coz it hurts so much that i will not take it. but i admired ate and kuya’s courage smilling, standing as if its not breaking their hearts. I hope God heal their hearts make them feel at ease coz baby is already with him.

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but at the same time I want to be private about my life, our life…

I’ve been thinking about this kind of field but I always feel doubtful to myself that I feel I can’t make it or I might screw it up or I won’t able to express my platform. It’s been 5 years since my pcos is back and I always been sad and depressed and all my Anxiety episodes and I dont know what to do to myself.

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step one to overcoming social anxiety is to realize that most people kind of suck and their opinion of you is literally worthless

dont get me wrong theres nothing wrong about my marriage, this is just a combination of pcos and mental fatigue. was barely sleeping and everything feels a million times harder

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so here I am again, writing a little journal to make myself feel better.

so i was diagnosed with PCOS last 2018 and since then my anxiety got worse, I isolated myself from everybody, i deleted social media coz I’m sad and fucked up