The things I carry... @rolando--bloom - Tumblr Blog

Hey, it’s cool. You can come join if you like.

You looked like you were in the middle of something... erm.... this is awkward...

luc-delis-deactivated20150809

"I agree. I mean, I was the one who suggested it. He just went along. Pfft, if you’re being pinned as a bad ass for smoking I want to know what they’re calling me. But, sure, why not. Haven’t had one of these in a while."

rolando--bloom

"Great, lets have one." Rolando sits on the ground where they were standing and puts a cigarette in his mouth and lights it, sucking in slowly before breathing out a deep breath of smoke. "Have a seat, please sit down. I don't want to feel like I'm the only one invested in this conversation." Rolando watched Luc carefully, then smiled. "You're pretty cute, y'know?"

cyrryl

Don’t think I could pull off a pirate very well. Maybe have to be drinking around the clock to put on a decent act, at least. We’ll name each other’s parrots.

A whole lot, before. Dogs, cats, birds, snakes, name it. None currently.

I’ll be here as long as you want me to, best company or not.

rolando--bloom

Then on Halloween, let's buy a bottle of Jager and let's drink all day and be pirates, yeah? C'mon, I can't do this alone. Let's do it. It'll be fun. We could skip class all day and drink and be pirates . Wouldn't that be nice?

Wow, that sucks. Do you want a pet now?

You... you shouldn't make promises you can't keep.

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The question is odd, but it brings a smile on Micah’s face. He loves the rain, the way the water cascades down in little rivers over him until finally coming together and making one huge waterfall and the coolness of it against his warm is such a great feeling that he will happily stay out in the rain until the sun came and soaked it all up. He nods. “Yeah. I totally get you. It reminds me of relaxing and sleeping against the fireplace. Nothing’s really stirring. Everything peaceful. I love it. Wish it could be like this everyday.”

rolando--bloom

"Too much noise, I hate it." Rolando said, taking another drag of his cigarette before calmly putting it out on the wet grass. He laid his body down on the grass, letting the wetness seep into his thin clothes. The rain trickled heavily down his face. It felt lovely. "I don't think it's a good idea that we both are sitting here in the rain. We might catch a cold or something, I don't know."

rolando--bloom

At Midnight | Rolando + Bastian

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"Are you suggesting something?" Bastian smirked, quickly taking a few steps away from the male once the cigarette was lit. He liked that his hand had been so close to his face, their skin almost touching for the first time. Suddenly, everything inside of him was craving Rolando. As his mind wandered, he took inhales and exhales of the cigarette, standing dangerously close to the edge of the building.

Bastian turned when the boy spoke, surprised at his honesty. He took one last inhale of the smoke before letting it fall to the ground, taking a step over it as he walked to sit beside Rolando. “Maybe I was bored. Maybe an invitation to hang out with a hot guy on a roof all alone was too great to pass up. Whichever,” he smirked, letting himself really look at Rolando, taking every detail of his face in as he stared.

rolando--bloom

"Well, thank you for flattering me again. I like this a lot. You flirt very easily." Rolando but the cigarette on the floor. His attention fled to the drawing that was in front of him. His pencil began to trace slowly over the paper. Rolando suddenly became dissatisfied, crumpled the paper and tossed it off the roof. "Do you flirt with a lot of guys like this, or am I this special? Please, be honest. Don't give me the answer I want to here." he said, picking up his cigarette and another clean sheet of paper.

Then, an idea popped into his head. Rolando positioned himself in front of Bastion with a smile. "Let me draw you." Rolando said, not asking for permission. He instantly began drawing the anatomy of Bastion's jaw. It was very sharp, very striking, but had a little but of beauty in it. Rolando chuckled.

"You stare a lot too, I notice."

Oops, sorry. Didn't know you were under here.

#vpastarter

jackfreemanvpa

It doesn’t help if you’re alone, I’ll tell you that..

I don’t think I’ll stop myself just by thinking that I shouldn’t be the person I am now… Th-This’s just going to end one way, and I’m almost sure how it goes.. I seriously have no idea how you control yourself.

Yeah Rolando, but what will you do? You shouldn’t really have to deal with my mood swings and all that shit. Plus, people can’t know about this.. I mean, a teacher who does meth and makes whenever he gets a chance? I’m screwed.

rolando--bloom

Well, the cats already out of the bag, so you have two options. You can either trust me or not. Nothing's going to happen to you. I don't spill secrets on the floor.

I will help you. I'll listen to you. I'll rub your back and I'll tell you that you'll make it. I'll stand near you all night when you can't go to sleep, because the pain hurts.

But you have to trust me.

jackfreemanvpa

I’m so sorry Rolando.. I had no idea you… I’m really sorry.. How do you handle it, though? Thankfully, you’re still alive so you must be doing something right..

rolando--bloom

It's not easy. It's not easy at all. I slip up all the time. My cravings always knock at the door at the most worst times. And that's when I leave the place I'm at. I... I can't be that person I was when I was on my fix...

It doesn't help if you're alone, I'll tell you that..

jackfreemanvpa

Exactly… -sighs- You know what.. this is stupid. I’m a grown man and you’re 17. You shouldn’t worry about my problems. Specially this kind of problems.

I just haven’t been trying.. yeah that’s it. I just need to try harder…

rolando--bloom

Stop fucking saying that, God damn it. It always comes back to my age, because I'm fucking younger than you. I won't understand anything. Well, fuck you! I have lived as much as you have. You don't know a thing about me.

I've been addicted to cocaine when I was fifteen years old. I think I know enough about drug abuse, don't you think?

jackfreemanvpa

No, too risky. You would tell by the smell it leaves.. I just prepare some stuff in the la and then I go to an abandoned and finish the work.

I just.. Fuck, I already od’ed once before coming to Chicago and told myself I’d stop… I probably shouldn’t have told ya.

rolando--bloom

No, I appreciate you telling me. Thanks. I guess it means you trust me.

Okay. So you don't sell it, right? You just make your own to use it...

Let me help you, Jack. Please? If you want to stop, you shouldn't be going at this alone..

jackfreemanvpa

I c-can’t really stop..

Meth, mostly.

rolando--bloom

... Jesus Christ. You're addicted to the stuff, aren't you. Jacky...

Alright, I get it. I'm guessing you make the stuff in the lab at night, when everyone's asleep?

jackfreemanvpa

Alright um… I uh.. I do drugs.. And not the weed kind.. I actually make some as well.

rolando--bloom

... Well shit, that escalated quickly. I wouldn't have expected you to be the Breaking Bad type of guy. Look at you.

What do you make, then?

jackfreemanvpa

I know.. and thank you.

The thing is.. I really don’t want you to worry Rolando. Besides you’re just 17, you have other things to worry about.

rolando--bloom

Don't underestimate me, Jacky. That's actually pretty insulting. Just try me, okay? One time, just talk to me..

jackfreemanvpa

I never had that much friends in high school, so this is no big difference.

You’ve been paying attention, I see. Dude, don’t worry about really. II just work a lot, that’s all.

rolando--bloom

I'm glad it doesn't phase you. I don't think your an asshole, if that makes you feel any better. I actually like you a lot more than most people here.

Jacky, stop bullshitting me, honestly. We're both too smart for the shit. It's one thing if you don't want to tell me, but don' lie about why you don't sleep a lot.

jackfreemanvpa

You know I’m getting a reputation as the rude teacher or some shit like that.

I’m not really sure that’s name for it -he whispers to himself -

Yeah I don’t.. I think I sleep plenty.

rolando--bloom

Yeah, I heard people talking about you. Some of the stuff isn't very pretty. But are you bothered that everyone thinks your an ass? I wouldn't be.

I don't think you sleep much. You always have dark circles under your eyes. And every Wednesday in class you're just even more grumpier then you already are.