Love in the time of Uncertainty (Loki x Female Reader)
Chapter 10 (Last)
Summary : Loki runs again after he found your note. But this time towards the woman he loves.
Warning: 18 + , Smutty smut, degradation kink, dom loki, Dacryphilia, sugardaddy loki is hot, mentions of period sex, loki being insecure, jealous loki , soft dom loki, fluffy fluff
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When he saw your note he didn't have any more doubts left in him. He loved you, he loves you so much, there's no denying it anymore. If you're willing to stick around for him even after he has been nothing but a jerk to you in the past, then he's going to fight for you this time, he would treat you right this time, how you deserved to be treated in the first place.
He got showered and dressed up quickly, it was going to be a long drive, he packed his necessities in a small handbag, He took your note and smiled as he read it again, just few words, he never thought just few words could make him so happy, while he was packing his stuff, his eyes fell upon the picture of him and Audrey, He always kept it with him, not because he still loved her but as a reminder of everything he lost and how much love can hurt, he packed it too along with his other stuff. He had to go see you and he had to see you now.
He drove eight hours straight, and when he reached finally it was almost evening in la, he never thought he would come back to the place he left, but then he never thought he would fall in love again. When he reached his condo, he still had the key and code was still the same so he buzzed himself in. When he reached the door he knocked several times, maybe you were not home yet, he used the key and got inside, as soon as he turned the lights on, he was filled with several memories of you and him in this place, most of them sexual, he didn't really give you a chance did he? He would be so mean to you when you weren't cuddling him or sexing him up. A certain memory hurt him the most.
"Y/n I'm so done with your nonsense" you took out your earphones as you heard him yelling "what's wrong?" You asked him curiously "Thisss" he held the lunchbox you prepared for him and threw it away, he saw your face falling as you watched the food spill out of the box and all over the floor "Did you not like the food?" He groaned in frustration as he heard you "I don't like you trying to act as if you're my wife, news flash, you're not, so grow up and mind your own business" he told you and left for his room, he needed to cool down. You were just trying to take care of him and he was so awful to you.
You cleaned the mess he just made and then knocked on his door "What now?" He saw your teary face and his heart softened, that was the first time he realised how fucked up he was for making you cry like that for caring about him "You should never ever throw food away, especially during such times, there are people who die because they don't get to eat" you yelled a little as you cried and he walked towards you, you took a step back but he grabbed you by your shoulders "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I won't do it again, calm down, stop crying okay?" he mumbled as he kissed your forehead and you relaxed in his arms, he felt bad but he can't encourage this behaviour "But please stop taking care of me, I hate this" he told you sternly "You hate being fed?" You asked him as you smirked and he rolled his eyes as he groaned "you're impossible to deal with y/n"
He snapped out of his memory, he have been awful to you, worst part is he have no idea if he'll be able to trust you fully, a part of him knows you won't hurt him like she did but then that's what he thought of her too. He went to his old room and he saw your clothes all around, your stuff all around, you were living in his room instead of yours. He heard the door lock twisting and went back to the living room. He stood right in front of your eyeline as you entered "Lokii" you looked at him and he smiled "Helllo y/n"
You didn't want to leave him like that, but you had to make him fight for this, you're persistent but you can't force him to be with you, and now he's standing right in front of you, is he here for you? You hoped so, you crossed your arms as you stare at him "Ummm what are you.. you're here, what are you doing here?" You asked him and he tilted his head to the side, god he's beautiful. "I'm here to sell the condo" he joked but it went over your head "ohhh" you answered him and he shook his head, he walked towards you and next thing you felt was his lips on yours, you stood on your tippy toes and you wrapped your arms around his neck "I'm here for you silly girl, you asked me to find you so here I am" he mumbled and you smiled as you heard him.
"Well technically I didn't ask you to find me, I just told you that you know where to find me" you giggled and he smiled, you're adorable, you always were. "Still fancy pistachio ice cream ? Because I got some for you" he remembered that ? Ofcourse he did he remembered little things like that, now that you know the reason why he was so mean and distant and cringed everytime you showed him care and affection, you could see beyond that, he needed love and you'd give him that.
"I do fancy it still" you smiled and he kissed you again "What about those last three words in your note?" He asked you as he smirked and you blushed "What about it ?" You rubbed your nose against his and he loves this so much, he already feels himself getting addicted to this sweetness of yours if he wasn't before "Darling... I ..I lo..I do.." you shushed him up as you kissed him before he can stutter more, he don't have to say it and you don't have to hear it, his actions are enough "you don't have to say it doc, it's alright, I know, I know baby" you mumbled and he teared up as he hugged you so tightly against him. He was home.
You couldn't believe he was here and that he was back in your life, you felt so happy and you felt perfect. You took a shower and shaved all over, you're going to fuck him all night for the starters. When you came out dressed up in a skimpiest tank top you could find and a booty shorts , you saw him on the bed, he held something in his hand , at first you thought it was the note you wrote but it was a picture, you walked closer to him, and your eyes fell upon him with her, they both looked happy, he looked so happy in that picture and it broke your heart knowing the hell he went through after that.
You sat down on the floor and placed your chin on his thigh as you looked at him "To move on you have to forget the past doc, you can't live there and be happy at the same time" you mumbled and he smiled, you wiped the tear that fell on his rosy cheeks and he kissed your palm "I know sweetheart, that's why I brought this here" he told you and then you saw the picture floating in the air, then he set it on fire, he was choosing to move on from his past, this was the first step. You watched all awestruck, you were still not used to his magic.
He looked at your face and smiled, you're so adorable like this but then you switch into a completely different person when you're horny, he's going to have so much of fun making you fall deeper n deeper into your depravity, he grabbed your chin with his thumb and fingers and made you look at him "how's the school going babygirl?" He asked you and you whimpered as you felt his thumb rubbing against your lips "mmmm good daddy, are you proud of me?" You asked him as you looked at him innocently "so proud sweet thing, you make my heart swell" he leaned down to kiss you and you moaned in his mouth. Then he picked you up from the floor and laid down on the bed with you on top of him
"Mmmm dadddy, I have missed you so bad" you mumbled and he pushed his thumb inside your warm wet mouth , you lapped up on it like it was his cock and his breath hitched at the sight of you "I know you did, I thought about you every second since I left, you're so pure but so filthy when you get like this sweetheart, I'm going to enjoy ruining every little piece of innocence you still have in you" you whimpered and he flipped you over so you were underneath him "Did you enjoy living off me sweet girl?" You don't know how he did it but he knew all your sweet spots, he knew where to hit exactly, as egotistical as you were before you met him, you were nothing but a whore for him and you did enjoy having him as your sugardaddy "mmm I did daddy, is that badd?" You asked feigning innocence and he snickered, little minx "So so bad, you know what that makes you hmmm? It makes you a greedy gold digging whore" he mumbled as his fingers played with the waistband of your shorts "ohh fuck loki babyy" you moaned as you heard his filthy words and he got you all naked, he needed you as bad as you needed him, his cock screamed for your warmth, he rubbed the tip of his cock all over your lips and clit and then he pushed in slowly.
"Holy norns you have the tightest little cunt, I'm so happy you saved yourself for me sweet thing, I gave you a chance to go out n explore but you couldn't could you? Needed your daddy's cock only right? " He mumbled as he thrusted himself in your wet warm cunt, you were absolutely soaked for him "I did, I am all yours daddy pleasse fuck me" you whined and he leaned down to kiss you "what do you think I am about to do my dumb little whore" he started to build a slow and steady rhythm, he didn't want this to end quickly, he wanted you to combust and he wanted you to sob for him, he has gone too long without this. You lost your mind slowly, the more he stayed inside you, the more lost you got in your head, you heart felt so full that he came back for you.
When you wrote that note and left, you weren't actually sure that he would come for you but he did. "Y/n, my love, look at me" he whispered as he sees you so far gone in your head, you opened your eyes and he smiled as he looked at you, you looked drunk and hazy, he loved it. "You are so cute like this little whore, so stupid for my cock, so desperate, it makes me want to destroy you inch by inch" you whimpered as you heard him and he increased his pace slowly "Look at you, gonna cry for daddy? Do it sweet thing, show me how much you have missed this, let me see those tears" he absolutely abhorred making you cry outside of bedroom, but in bed, when he's making you feel so good that you're in tears, it makes him so hot, it makes him want to make you cry until you're on his feet begging him to stop. Maybe some other day. He's not running anymore and he's not letting you leave either. You couldn't take this anymore, you needed release and you needed his cum filling you up.
You felt him sucking on your tears as you whimpered and cried for him. He's your kinkiest wet dream turned into a reality. God you're lucky. You wrapped your legs around him tightly and followed his rhythm , your walls clenching him so tightly he couldn't hold back anymore "oh....norns..you slutty minx ..cum now sweet thing...let go with me please" he mumbled and you did almost instantly, he said please? You had to. He kept moving his hips mindlessly as he groaned your name again n again as he came, he looked beautiful and he was willing to be yours. You'd never hurt him.
"I love you sooo much baby" you mumbled as he laid down next to you and he smiled "I know darling" once he cleaned you both up you put on a shirt and fresh pair of underwear, he took a shower and when he came out you were on his bed, for the first time he was going to cuddle and act as if he didn't hate it, he always loved holding you like that but he always made you feel bad about it later on "Come here doc or you're going to stand there while I sleep?" You giggled and he crawled up in the bed next to you, you engulfed him into a bear hug and caressed his head and back "I have missed this" he mumbled and you smiled "I know you did, I knew you enjoyed my cuddles" you latched your mouth on his neck, and peppered him in kisses, he moaned at each of them "I sure did darling, how could I not love this?"
Next morning you woke up in his arms, and that's how you woke up everyday after that. He moved back his practice to la , he bought the place he had during the pandemic and started his clinic there, he was also working at the hospital, he was an in demand surgeon for them, you were busy with your classes during the day and he would be busy with patients through out the day, he asked you to quit the waitress job as it was exhausting for you and you didn't really need it when he was providing for you. It's not as if he didn't want you to work, he wanted you to be independent and you were going to be a chef soon so doing that side job was useless. He paid off your debts, he had his ways with money, you didn't know all the details of how he went 50 years without looking suspicious but you had a feeling it involved some magic and mind games.
He could have been really dangerous and powerful if he wanted to be, could have used his power for wrong but he chose to heal people instead, he chose to be a doctor, you were so in love with him but like he said it wasn't all sunshine and roses in your relationship with him, it's been more than six months since he came back and you were about to realise what he meant by that. You had a fairwell party to attend, your batch passed out and you got a placement in a 5 star hotel, you were so happy and loki was so proud of you. You put on a black dress, you ordered it online and you thought it would end up right below your thighs but it was shorter than that, too short.
You looked beautiful but he felt the dress was too short on you,he knew you'd be eyed up and down and he hated the thought of it. He kept his thoughts to himself though, he didn't want to upset you, you looked so happy. When you both reached the party, one of your batchmate Clark hugged you so tightly, loki almost fumed at the proximity, you two would often pair up together and you even went on events n such with him sometimes. What loki didn't know was that he was gay and had no interest in you whatsoever other than platonic ofcourse, he took you to the dance floor and loki just glared at you both as he held you "that boyfriend of yours is a tall drink of water isn't he, those legs oof, you're a lucky bitch" he whispered in your ears and you giggled as you heard him. You indeed were lucky.
Loki misinterpreted everything he saw at the party, on the way back home you could feel the tension, you tried to play with his hair but he swatted your hands away "Loki baby what's wrong, did I do something?" You asked him and he just snickered "Nope you didn't, except being awfully close to that mate of yours" he told you and you turned to him "loki you know I would never.." he cut you off before you can speak further "shutup just shuush" you teared up instantly as you heard him, he have major trust issues and you thought you were making progress in the last few months but you're back to square one apparently.
When you reached home, he took of his suit jacket and glared at you while you stood quietly in the middle of his room. He was furious, extremely furious. He walked over to you and his fingers intertwined between your hair and he pulled your head back "You dress up like a whore, then you act like one, then you expect me to be alright with it?" He mumbled, you could see his jaw clenching with every word he spoke "Did he have to rub his arms against yours? Or whisper god knows what in your ears, or hold you so tight while he danced with you ? Why would you allow him hmm?" He kissed you so deeply, you're his but in moments like this where he feels so insecure he can't trust you no matter how much he tries, she was his too until one day she had sex with his fucking brother.
"I didn't do anything wrong loki, just listen to me" he ripped your dress off using both of his hands, he was already mad as soon as he saw you in such a short dress. "You want to act like a whore then I should just treat you like one huh? Tell me that you want me to fuck you, tell me if you want me to stop, I just need a yes or no" Normally you'd be gushing at those words, you did feel wet as he spoke, it was instinctual but you knew he was hurt and you felt hurt at his accusations. You nod in yes, giving him your consent, He got you all naked and laid you down on your front, he held your arms behind your back with one of his hands and his other hand held the back of your head , pressing it into the mattress. You're his and he needed to claim you, that's what he warned you about that night, he told you he would be overly possesive but you didn't listen. He thrusted himself inside you and you gasped at the feeling.
"Filthy little whore, did you like being touched by him ? Hmm did you get wet as he whispered filthy words in your ears? Don't forget that you're mine " he thrusted in and out almost violently, you have had rough sex before with him but his words truly hurt you, you were his so why would he assume otherwise? "No I didn't, I'm yours loki, baby I'm yours" you mumbled, your voice so meak, normally he would pick up on it but today he ignored it "I should just take your words hmmm? As if you weren't such a whore for me, want me to believe you're only promiscuous for me? Maybe I should have left you with that damn Clark, would you even come home to me? Or you'd whore yourself out for the night?" You couldn't hear anymore, you could have used the safeword but you didn't. You just sobbed quietly into the mattress, when he heard your broken little cries, he snapped out of the raging nightmare he was in, he stopped instantly and pulled himself out of you. What the fuck he is doing with you?
You don't deserve this, you don't deserve an asshole like him "Y/n ? Sweetheart" you sobbed harder as you heard him and it broke his heart completely, he leaned down and turned you around, you covered your face with your palm, you didn't want him to see you like this "I'm so sorry, oh norns I'm so sorry my love, I went crazy,I lost my mind" He held you so tightly and removed your hands from your face, your tear soaked face hurt him so bad, he wanted to calm you down and make you stop feeling so hurt, this is all this fault, he kissed your forehead and peppered soft kisses all over in an attempt to calm you down "I'm sorry my sweet girl, I'm so sorry please look at me darling" he mumbled, his own voice breaking as he got teary, you opened your eyes to look at him and it made you sob even harder "I di...I didn't do anything with him ...I promise... please trust me" you mumbled between your cries and it absolutely shattered him, ofcourse you didn't, he was there for norns sake, he needs to start trusting you more, he is punishing you for things you didn't even do, for things she did, he's projecting his own insecurities on you like he feared he would.
"I know I know I know sweet girl, I'm so sorry " he mumbled as he wiped your tears "you're mine and even though I don't deserve you, I still want you to be mine forever, I'm sorry sweetheart, please don't leave" his voice felt so small, you wanted to comfort him even though you were hurt yourself "It's okay I love you, not leaving...i promise" you hiccuped between your words and he just felt worse, you were comforting him even after he hurt you "That's not what you think of me do you? You know I'm only yours" You sobbed as you spoke and he couldn't take it anymore, he kissed you softly and his cock slipped inside your cunt again "You're all mine and that's how it will be, I was so hurt n upset with him getting his hands over you, I stopped thinking clearly when I saw you with him and I want to apologise for everything I said to you my sweet sweet darling girl, please forgive me? Please" he mumbled and then he kissed you, he fingers scratched your scalp, he was so rough with you before, he just wanted to adore you right now, make you forget the awful things he said.
"Okayy you're forgiven I love you" you mumbled and smiled, his heart felt so full as he looked at your adorable face, so sweet so kind, the best girl he have ever known, you make him feel things he have never felt before, he increased his pace and he heard your soft little moans, he's so in love with you, he's going to have to protect you more, from himself and his insecurities, he have to, he can't subject you to this, you're so loving and innocent, so so delicate and he can't take that away from you, he can't make you feel awful when you deserve to be treated like the queen you are "You're beautiful my love, you're ethereal, truly truly wondrous" he whispered sweet praising things in your ears as he fucked you slowly. Then he made you cum all over him as he bursted himself inside you.
"By the way he's gay, he was thirsting for you not me" you mumbled and he raised his eyebrows "should have just led with that darling" he chuckled and
Then he held you all night, so tight n close, he made a promise to himself that he would never assume and hurt you so badly like this ever again, he was lucky you didn't smack him across the face and left his sorry ass right then.
Next morning when you woke up he was getting dressed, his hair wet from the shower he just took, he was putting his shirt on and buttoning himself up, he looked sexy even just doing the most mundane things, you were watching him with a small smile on your lips, he kept the lights dimly lit, he didn't want to wake you up but you did anyways. When he saw you, you put your hand out for him, he smiled so sweetly at the gesture "Trying to lure me in the bed again darling?" He was buttoning up his sleeves as he talked, so effortlessly attractive. "Justtt come please, I need to touch" you mumbled and he walked over to you, he sat down on the floor with his arms up on the bed. He leaned down to kiss you "I have a surgery to attend, don't distract me with your sweetness" he kissed your forehead and his thumbs wiped your eyes, getting rid of the sleepy gunks, he was a doctor, he knew human body inside out so nothing really disgusted him, especially when it comes to you and you were lucky.
"What kind of surgery?" You asked him, your fingers rubbing through his scalp "Carotid endarterectomy" he mumbled, his lips trailed over your forehead, pecking softly "English doc" you giggled and he grinned at that "something to do with neck" he answered and you hummed "let me make breakfast for you then, why didn't you wake me?" You proceeded to get up but he stopped you "no no no you sleep n rest my darling, I'll be back soon once I'm done, I'm not hungry anyways" he told you and you huffed. Then he kissed you softly and left soon after.
Months passed and turned into years, your love for each other only grew more n more with time, you had your troubles and fights but you never let him go and neither did he, how could he let go of you, you were the true love of his life and he was blessed to have you with him, with each day he learned to trust you again, he learned to trust the woman he loved instead of believing what his mind said, he learned to let go of his past, the softer sides of him that you saw before you got together, you got to see it everyday, every moment.
"Lokkkki baby" you rubbed your eyes as you walked towards him into the kitchen , he was making a warm soup for you, you didn't feel like eating anything on your first day of menstruation so he would just feed you warm hearty soups "Darling I told you to rest didn't I?" He walked towards you as soon as he heard you and then he picked you up, you wrapped your legs around him and arms around his neck, you rested like a baby on his shoulders "my boss was furious that I took a sudden day off, I might get fired" you told him and he stiffened, how dare he fire you for taking a day off while you were in such pain? He didn't understand mortals sometimes, where's the empathy? "It's okay darling, his loss truly, with your talent you'd find another job quickly, don't stress over it okay?" He mumbled and you pout, he smiled and situated you on the countertop "Now sit here, and wait for me to finish that soup so I can feed you okay?" He kissed the tip of your nose, then he fed you and later on he fucked you, orgasms really helped with the cramps, who knew?
The first time he came up to you and asked you that you were hesitant, you didn't want to disgust him, but nothing ever really did, you could never disgust him, he was so in love with you and he wanted to distract you while you felt so much of pain, plus it was really hot, having him inside you while you shed blood, it was really hot for him too. You loved him so much you'd die for him or do the opposite of it if he ever asked. You often thought about the apple, it's been two years since you got together but you never brought it up in conversation. He would if he wanted to.
2 years 6 months later he finally showed you his real self, his frost giant form, his Jotun beauty, you were exceptionally enamoured with his natural form. You couldn't believe what you were looking at for a long time, he seemed unreal, like a forbidden piece of art, you felt unworthy of this god, and when you had him inside you the first time, he felt surreal, but you realised that you belonged to him and so did he.
Exactly 3 years 45 days later he told you that he loved you for the first time, you didn't need to hear it at all, you felt it every second in your bones, but he muttered those words so casually, he was going for a medicinal conference and he would be gone for a week , he would take you like he did before but you couldn't miss work this time, so he had no other choice, he could stay one week apart from you right ? "Mister doc, eat on time, call me when you wake up and before you sleep, and and and yess be safe please?" You mumbled as you wrapped your arms around him , he chuckled a little as he heard you "You know I love you so much right darling?" Your eyes widened as you heard him and he enjoyed that reaction, okay maybe you'd love hearing that more often now "I did know yes , I love you doc" you smothered him with lots of kisses before he left, you both discovered the joy of phone sex and skype sex in the same week as well, but nothing could compare to having you in his arms as he plowed you into oblivion.
Made him realise something, he came back with the biggest most expensive diamond ring he could find, and proposed you for marriage. For a moment you felt as if you were in trance, the guy who threw you out of his office because you asked him out on a date, was on his knees asking you to marry him. You said yes ofcourse, you didn't need a party or a wedding even, you both did it very formally but it was the most beautiful day of your life, that was the day you became Mrs loki and you couldn't have been happier. The first time he saw you in his kitchen, cooking and dancing slowly he just knew you'd be his real wifey someday, he knew you'd be his savior, his guardian angel, he was so lost and hurt and you fixed him slowly each n everyday, you filled the broken cracks in his heart with your love and affection. He let go of his inhibitions and insecurities slowly with time.
And then it happened 5 years later, you just spent all night fucking him 7 ways to Sunday and you were enjoying the post coitus bliss you were in when he got up from the bed suddenly "Darling can you put on a shirt please I need to talk about something" he got up from the bed and put on his briefs , you did what he asked you to, you felt so nervous all of a sudden, he wanted to ask you of something very important and your bare breasts would just distract him.
When he came back he sat on the bed on his knees and looked at you intently, his eyes tearing up "Loki baby what's wrong love?" You asked him softly, what did you do? Why he's upset? Whys he's hurt?
"Sweetheart, nothing is wrong" he chuckled "Infact the opposite, everything is perfect... It's like a dream, and once I dreamt of this life, this forever with someone else, I ..uhh.. I put myself through rounds of hell for her so I could give her this" he raised his palm up and you saw that Apple appear on his hand. Oh good god. Your eyes teared up at the realisation "But you know how they say that everything happens for a reason? I never understood why they said that, but now I do darling, I may have gone through hell to get this for her but she never deserved to have this, that's why she did what she did, that's why I was betrayed, she didn't deserve my love, this magical fruit , it must have known that too, it must have felt my dedication, she wasn't the right owner of it. You are, my darling wife, my love, you're my everything and there's nothing more I would ever want than to spend rest of the eternity with you, would you accept this for me please? Would you be by my side forever sweetheart?" A tear escaped his eye as he finished talking.
You looked at him with so much of love in your eyes, your own eyes filled with tears, but he was still scared , still afraid that you'd reject him too. You didn't say anything, you made your decision way back, the moment he got in your life you felt connected to him in a way you couldn't even explain to yourself. You were his and he was yours, he always responded to physical cues better than words so you didn't say anything at all and did something that sent him straight to Valhalla.
You took a bite and became his forever.
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Note : Here we go folks đđI loved writing this fic so much, and I loved all the appreciation I got, this was very close to my heart. Now I'm willing to do one shorts about their life so if you're interested in a scenario dm me or send an ask. â¤ď¸â¤ď¸â¤ď¸â¤ď¸
