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she doesn't look like she's much fun lily / 18 / skateboards & pop punk

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when we met i was on my back [lily & james] march 13, 2015

The warehouse is... loud. It also wreaks of beer and body odor and there’s a distinct wave of weed smoke blowing in from the right-side bleachers as Lily walks inside. She squints as she looks around, trying to figure out what’s going on; she’s never actually managed to attend a meet since Ted started coaching a roller derby team, but she’s off work tonight and his team is competing so she’s here, money for the bus ride back shoved in her pocket and her skateboard gripped tight.

Lily makes her way into the warehouse and discovers a roller rink surrounded by bleachers, most of which are filled with people. There are women skating around the rink wearing little more than booty shorts and crop tops, a look Lily has seen them sport when they’ve rolled into the restaurant to post fliers about upcoming meets. Lily stands and watches them warm up for a few minutes, mesmerized. She only looks away when someone asks if she’s planning to move any time soon and she flips the guy off, then storms over to the set of bleachers closest to where Ted is standing. He has a bench full of women next to him, others scattered around him stretching and talking. Lily sits in the second row of bleachers and drops her skateboard on the floor, planting one foot on it to keep it still.

Ted spots her after a while and he waves; she waves back and shakes her head when he texts her to say he can’t come up and talk. She texts back, I’ll see you after with a kissy face just to be obnoxious. She also responds to a text from Sev, then a few more when he continues the conversation. By the time Lily looks up again from her phone, the announcer is introducing the teams and everyone is on their feet.

The meet itself is... fast-paced and outrageous, women flying around the rink and crashing into each other seemingly without any concern for safety. Lily drinks it all in, her heart racing from the thrill of the sport. She can’t believe she never came out before tonight; what these women are doing is incredible. Lily finds herself watching the women from Ted’s team most often, because they seem to be doing so well at the start of each bout until suddenly, they’re not. The score on the board reflects that; Ted’s team is losing by a large margin and hardly anyone in the crowd is rooting for them, but Lily starts yelling the names on the backs of the women’s uniforms in an attempt to help them rally, something that earns her a smile and a thumbs up from Ted when he hears her and turns around to find the source of the cheering.

When it’s over, they’ve lost horribly but they seem in okay spirits when they leave the rink. Lily watches them go, her tongue pinched between her teeth. She feels warm all over, like she’s discovered something magical. When the row in front of her clears enough, Lily grabs her skateboard and vaults over the seats, dropping down on the side of the rink next to Ted. “Wow, you never told me how fast-paced this sport is, dude.”

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this is easy, as lovers go (lily & severus) january - may 2014

He asks her out on a Tuesday, between AP English Lit and AP Economics. Lily is caught offguard by it, though later when she tells Ted, he gives her this look that screams I told you so. Lily says yes, because Severus is cute and Severus is smart and she thinks it might be nice to kiss him.

When they do kiss, two dates in, Lily doesn't feel any of the sparks she expected. But she does feel warm, content to let him kiss her again, so she agrees to a third date and lets Severus call her his girlfriend. (Eventually, the kissing gets better.) They keep going out as winter melts into spring and Lily knows, somewhere deep down, that the hand-holding and easy kisses are nice, but not really what people reference when they talk about High School Sweethearts.

They graduate in May, something Lily has been thinking about since well before he asked her out. In September, she'll move away to go to college and Severus will do the same. She doesn't think he'll ask her to try long distance, but if he does...

Lily says no the first time he asks if he can put his hand under her shirt, and again the second, third, and fourth times. The fifth time, she says okay because she's curious, and she feels safe with him, and when he touches her, she feels warmth pool between her legs and wonders what, exactly, she's been missing.

They don't give into the prom night cliche, because Lily would sell her skateboard before she committed to that kind of stupidity, but they do sleep together the afternoon after graduation practice and it's nice. It hurts, but Lily likes that he kisses her through the whole thing, and makes sure she comes even after he finishes just a few minutes in.

Dating Severus is nice. Lily feels a little guilty for wondering, sometimes, if dating should be more than just that.

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