When Pain and Sadness Collide
Some days really knock the wind out of you. Today’s one of those days—I feel awful. My tooth’s been killing me for hours, the pain sharp and constant, and there’s nothing I can do right now. My blood sugar’s too high, so I can’t even get it treated. Now the pain’s creeping into my ears too, and honestly, it’s hard to think straight, let alone rest.
When I feel like this, I miss my parents so much it hurts. I want them here, just to hold me, to tell me it’s going to be okay. I want to collapse into their arms and let it all out—the pain, the frustration, how heavy everything feels without them around. They always made things feel a little less impossible. Without them, even small problems seem huge.
It’s wild how life just keeps moving, even when you’re sick or hurting or completely alone. Right now, I feel cut off from everyone. I wish there was someone who could just listen, really get it, the way only a parent can. Sometimes I catch myself thinking, if they were still here, this wouldn’t hurt so much. Maybe I wouldn’t feel so lost.
Still, I have to remind myself I’m tougher than I think. Pain sucks, but it also shows I can survive it. I let myself feel it all—the ache, the sadness, the longing—because pretending it’s not there doesn’t help. Missing my parents hurts, but remembering them this way is my way of honoring them, and myself, too.
Life’s brutal sometimes. But even in the middle of all this, there’s this tiny bit of hope that it won’t always be like this. Someday, the pain will fade; someday, I’ll feel lighter. Until then, I’m still here—still moving forward, even if it’s just inch by inch.
