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[roro23universe]

I am amazing. I will accomplish my goals. My family will be healthy and happy. Take life as it comes. Poof is in the pudding. Don't only say things do things. You got this you wonder beast. Take it all on. And rise.

[roro23universe]

You suck so bad. What a disappointment you are to everyone. Sad for u. I didn't deserve your kind of love. Even though Im pretty sure you hated /hate me. Somehow, you convinced yourself it was love. No thanks. I love her more than anything and will be here for her no matter what. I'll be by her side and proud the whole way.

[roro23universe]

Emotions are high.

Emotions are legit.

Feel it. Move on.

Stay focused.

Let your monster handle the rest.

I love her the most. I will never leave you.

[roro23universe]

Fuuuuuck you.

[roro23universe]

I hate that you are selfish

I hate you only worry about yourself.

I hate you lie about everything even to yourself

I hate you.

[roro23universe]

I will be the best version of myself one day. I'm an unfinished product, and don't need to defend who I am.

[roro23universe]

Checked all the boxes? Now, a few of them are unchecked. Good luck

[roro23universe]

You wanted something else in life now you can have it. Be happy, life is what we make it, not what we make up.

[roro23universe]

fuck you

I fucking hate you and it will never be ok.

[roro23universe]

civilization

Human civilization is not as advanced as it should be.  We have used technology in the wrong way and have now stunted growth. We need peace and harmony, and we have war and destruction. Technology can connect us and help us learn and become one. Instead, it has divided. 

[roro23universe]

Humiliation

humiliations are what is killing me. Treated stupid. Acting like I don't know.

[roro23universe]

Sky

Today is cold, wet and windy. omw to work I had the most beautiful sky back drop all the way until I pulled into the parking lot. Rainbow sky with moving clouds in front, with a shimmer, next to a peek a boo sun.  

[roro23universe]

Hyper aware and manic

Knowing who you are takes time and patients. Often I don't know who I am. I know the basics like my name and my roles I play in society. But I find a new self in growth and experiences so my “self” is constantly changing. People say “I don’t know how you do it or your strong”, and bitter truth is, I only do it all cause no one else will and strong because I've been through hardships. Being hyper aware sometimes makes me manic, because I can see through the lines in most social situations my brain will play it over and over in my head. So much in my life I was never mentally present for, so It appears I have a terrible memory. When in fact when I am present my memory is painfully accurate. 

[roro23universe]

Tough, because you had to be. Not wanting to admit to others you need them. When you have felt nothing but abandonment then how can you admit you need other people. You simply can't. To avoid hurt like you have endured you raise them cold, unforgiving and judgmental. If you can condition them to never need others, then they will never hurt like you. Wrong. You taught me I do need other people, I do need to feel love and cared for. All you did was teach me to be a bully and cold. I want to break cycles and try everyday to be aware of my actions and why I do them. If only you chose love and warmth over calluses. Who knows what my potential could of been. The world will never know. The only thing I have is to work with what I was given.

[roro23universe]

My own head space is toxic. I need to get out.

[roro23universe]

How do you need so much more them what I can offer?

[roro23universe]

Feeling overwhelmed and done with life.