hello i am Roselle Moon

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RG - {A} - ISABELLA - LOST STARS - CHP 5

ISABELLA POV

It has been months since arriving in Korea, and it took 66 days to record all the parts, plus I was doing online schooling. I was tired of working and doing school, plus learning a new culture and a new language. At least I could count the learning the new language as something towards schooling.

I thought at the time, 90 percent of the time, I was in a recording studio with Summer. Doing schooling, on my laptop on the floor, half-listening, half - learning.

Summer and I became close; Summer is a woman with autism. At first, summer seemed cold, and now she was a sweet woman. I started to look at her as a big sister and mentor.

Summer sweet, pastel-wearing, lavender. She loved Hello Kitty and other cute things. I thought Imani kinda liked - kinda hated me. That's the vibe I got, I thought at the time. Summer told me that Imani wasn’t expecting me.

Which kinda explained it, today summer brought me to her husband's friend's place. He was an idol as well in a boy group, “Jimin, members are fun, Jin funny,” she said at the time, “ they have someone your age as well, it’s common in K-pop groups,” she said at the time as we pulled into the building. It looked like a poor-looking building, “ this is their dorm, “ she explained, “ it’s safe here,” she said as she got out. I did slowly, summer was married to a guy named Jimin. He seemed cool; he really loved summer.

I thought as I heard summer, I didn’t hear the name she said, “ he around the back…say hi,” she told me at the time. As I went around the backyard, there was a hoop and a guy. I only saw the backside. He missed the shot. “Hi… um, summer sent me. I am Bella,” I said, roughly in Korean, nothing. Great going, Isabella, I told myself in the moment.

Then I saw him take out an earbud, “Oh, hi…I am Bella,” I said.

He turned around, mentally, I lost it, it was kookie. “ Bella, “ he said in Korea. He slowly walked over. He had short black hair, and these doe eyes I could study for hours. Then he picked me up quickly, just like the old days in LA. He always picked me up in his arms.

Before we could speak, or Kookie could speak. Summer called us “ jungkook, Isabella, dinner.” Summer said in Korean, “After dinner,” he promised me.

Dinner was nice, there was food I didn’t know the names of. I really like kimchi fried rice, Korean egg rolls, and rice balls. The guys were really nice and sweet, yes, Jin was really funny.

Namjoon was the older brother.

Suga - quiet guy

Hobi- silly, happy guy

V- silly as well

They all get along pretty well, almost like brothers. I thought at the time, as dinner went on, Kookie went to clean up, which the guys teased him for. I laugh at the time “ jungkook knows where the kitchen sink is.” Jin teased him as he did at the time, as summer was busy with Jimin trying to get more leftovers.

I had to sneak or walk away to the backyard; luckily, there were some lights. I saw the windows of the dorm, he mouthed “coming” before covering the window, then I heard the back door open, there he was.

He quickly walked downstairs. “Bella… here… um… with Summer,” he said in broken English. Kookie made him fall for him more. He was speaking English, not Korean. “Um, I speak Korean, learning,” I said in Korean. His face relaxed. “Um, summer brought me here, girl group,” I said at the time. He nodded. “ I did message after that …our last day,” I said. “My phone, accounts hacked, I couldn’t get it back,” he said. I could tell by his eyes that he was telling the truth.

“I thought you forgot me,” I said. “No, never, I never forgot you,” he said, almost upset, not at me. “Can I see your phone ?” He asked. I nodded as he started entering his information. “My phone number,” he said, before being cut off by the guys yelling. “It’s okay,” he said at the time, before I heard Summer, “ Bella, time to go.” She said, “Text me, “ jungkook said. I nodded, I will, as I slowly walked off towards Summer. I smiled to myself.

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RG - {A} - ISABELLA - LOST STARS - CHP 4

ISABELLA POV

Korea airport

I thought at the time, as I was following summer, she kept looking back at me. As we made our way, it had been a couple of months since I met. Finally, summer had guardianship of me. As Usher and his Company had thought, my grandma approved, I thought at the time. Plus all the paperwork, passports, ID, all that. After getting our bags, at the time, “Mrs. Park ?” I asked Kiley, and she giggled. She was her friend, with long white hair in a high ponytail. “Can I use the bathroom ?” I asked, “ 1st it’s summer, yes, you can,” she said as I went to the bathroom. Inside, I used the bathroom and checked my phone for emails from that address. Kookie replied to my email.

Dear, kookie

It’s me, Bella, Bella. I am in Korea. I am hoping we can see each other. Email me back if you can

Xoxo bella

Nothing, I thought as I fixed my hair at the time, before going back out to Kiley & Summer. Summer has gotten a car ready for us, I thought, as I texted my grandmother a pin. With my location, I let her know I was okay, I thought, as I followed them.

~~

The car ride was peaceful, I thought at the time. We arrived at a modern, basic house. It was nice, not a mansion at all, a large home.

I thought as I got my suitcases and duffel bags. As we headed to the house, “It’s like NYC & LA had a baby,” I said, “Summer said as she unlocked the door. “Maybe, I never thought it that way,” Summer said as she unlocked the door and stepped in. 1st I heard people inside, at the time. Then I went inside last, I took off my shoes as summer told me at the time.  As I heard at the time, “ this is Isabella, “Summer said, “ hi,” I said at the time.

I saw two other women.

Women one - blonde hair, women kinda skinny, with blue eyes

Women two - mixed black women with brown eyes, had these braids.

“ Summer kitchen,” she said simply at the time as summer went to the kitchen. I thought at the time, as I was studying the room. When I heard the door open. I heard footsteps,

There were two girls: the 1st girl had long blonde hair and green eyes, and the 2nd girl had dyed green hair. She was wearing a Pokémon pajama Gengar. “Oh, hiiiiii,” Angel said. She had that face like we knew each other.

“ I am Angel, and this is my twin Aylin,” she said. “Hey, whatever,” Aylin said. “ Isabella …” I said at the time, “ omg we know !!!! Each other.” Angel said, “Golden ep…I was one of your background dancers with Usher Agency. I love Usher!!! He’s the best boss I've ever had. “Angel said

“ Thanks, “ I said shyly as I heard Summer walk in, “Oh, your summer.” As she hugged Summer, she was caught off guard.

“So sorry, I am a hugger, so rude of me, I am Angel Park. This is my twin sister, Aylin Park. Omg, omg I love your vibe, soft girl. I saw your modern dancing…love it all, totally jealous modern dance is so hard to excel at, you have my respect totally,”  she said. “I do choreography. A lot of hip-hop, Latin-inspired stuff, sharp dance breaks, stage formations, all that fun stuff. So when I see someone who understands body storytelling, I get excited.” Angel said

“ So who’s the producer dude ?” Aylin asked, “Uhh…me? “Summer said, confused, “You?” Aylin asked, “Aren’t producers guys ?” Aylin asked 90 percent is…there is a 10 percent chance of us being female.” Summer said, “Sorry for my twin.” Angel said, “It’s fine, I am used to it.” Summer said, " Mixed women looked as if they were about to fight. " Summer said, “This is Isabella, and Kiley.” Summer said, " Kiley came out of the bathroom.

“Call me Bella, baby Bella, or Isabella,” I said nervously. “Kiley is my best friend, she's going to back vocals,” Summer explained.

“ I am Imani Stone, manager… producer, rapper, and vocals, leader,” mixed women said

“ I am Rose, a rapper,” a blonde-haired woman said casually.

“ Okay… Aylin and Angel know their room,” Imani said. “Kiley, last room on the right,” Imani told her. “ Isabella …next to Summer's room,” she said, low-key annoyed, as I grabbed my bags, followed by Summer. Her room was kinda empty. There was a Hello Kitty plushie on the bed. My room was empty. “There was a bathroom, a closet, and a dresser here,” Summer said before leaving. I started by letting my grandmother know I was alright.

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RG - {A} - ISABELLA - LOST STARS - CHP 3

Isabella pov

While I was with Usher and his family, his daughters loved me. I loved spending time with them. They made me think of my cousins. I thought today usher, a friend he called, was coming. He had a project for me, I thought at the time, as I was waiting outside of a room where they were having a meeting. I tried to listen in from the room.

But it was a thick door at the time, so nothing happened. Then the doors opened, and it was the usher, “Come in, Isabella,” he said as I walked in. It was him, and a couple of his staff. Then women, very young, like 18-19 tops, with pastel lavender-dyed hair. Lavender dress pants and top, with a matching sweater. I thought as I sat down, she looked surprised, “ Isabella,” the usher said, “This is my rising star in the group or the program I called rising star, then something happened that was not planned,” he said, all thought it was about the fire.

“ Isabella, sing for us, “ he said. My mind went fuck, I stood up, picked a song, " Mother Nature " by Michael Jackson. I started to sing at the time.

My voice depends on who you ask: my grandma or a classic opera singer. I asked to watch TV after she sang for me. “Why would you want to watch TV?” she said, lovingly. A professional voice coach - I had perfect pitch, and I can hit all high notes. Powerful voice. They called it.

After the usher asked me to go outside the room, the course door locked.

It felt like forever, then the door opened, and an usher came out. “Meet Summer Han, your new producer, new group member,” he said, pointing to the woman with lavender hair. Then he left. “Hiii,” she said shyly. “Summer Kim Park Han,” she introduced herself.

She was shy at the time. As I said, “hi,” she said, “I am a producer….” I nervously listened to her. I thought she was well-spoken at the time; she had a slight accent. I thought, as I listened to her speaking, at the time. Her voice was soft and sweet, I thought at the time, “Have you heard of K-pop?” She asked I only heard Kookie speak about it, “ not really,” I said. “Well, K-pop comes from Korean, you're living with me and others,” she said. My heart is beating faster at the idea of me in Korean, maybe bumping into Kookie.

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RG - {A} - ISABELLA - LOST STARS - CHP 2

ISABELLA POV

They lived; they, luckily, eye-rolled. Now we were at the agency, or usher, being talked to. “Snoozabella, “ one said, “ at least I didn’t cause the fire,” I said at the time. The fire was caused by them smoking weed; they thought that if they threw it in a mental trash can with paper inside, it would magically stop. One of them was still high. Mrs. Bee worked for the usher; she wasn’t a dorm mom. She had a “ don’t call unless you're dying, don’t need me” vibe.

We've been questioned for hours by Mrs. Bee, and others are in charge. Plus firemen and police, now it was early morning. I had taken a doughnut when Mrs. Bee started yelling at them or us. “Let me make sure I understand this,” Mrs. Bee said, her voice dangerously calm. “A group of young artists in a professional development program decided to smoke inside the dorm house.”

She asked. No reply, “And then,” she continued, looking at the guy who wouldn’t stop rubbing his eyes, “someone put a lit joint in a trash can full of paper.” She said as Bryan was about to speak, “Shut up.” She said, “ Isabella is only one had sense, good lord gave her.” She said, holding a clipboard. “You are not celebrities. You are not rock stars. You are not misunderstood artists living on the edge. You are teenagers and young adults in a program you are lucky to be part of, and last night you almost burned down company property because you wanted to act grown.” She yelled, “that's why -“the phone rang, she saw it, she looked like she passed out, “ hello sir” she answered, “ yes…sir ….sir…" Yes, I will,” she said, nervously. “ Isabella … Mr. Usher is waiting for you in his office.” She said nervously, “Okay.” I said as I left, I went to the main office

I wanted to puke when I got inside. How to become a rising star after a local TV show. Was a con artist. At 14, I won a TV talent contest promising a recording deal. Then the agency fell through. Usher brought that agency. He loved my talent, voice, and dance skills. He said I was a female Michael Jackson.

I thought as I sat down, “If this is about fire ….I didn’t do anything,” I said, “ calm down…yes and no,” he said, “ I am ending the program tonight was final strew. “ he said, " Yup, back to Ohio with my grandma. Here I go, “ but I found a perfect project for you…until then you're staying with me, details get tied up, trust me. “ he said as I nervously nodded.

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RG - {A} - ISABELLA - LOST STARS - CHP 1

Isabella pov

This can’t be my life, really; it felt like a sitcom sometimes. Like really,

I live in a dorm house. Since I was in the usher star program, it wasn’t a show. It was a youth-focused program aimed at developing the next Justin Bieber or Hannah Montana. Rising star, my rising star journey, I had an ep. Called Golden, 5 tracks, it was a flop, depending on who you asked, 100% flop.

The fans I had loved it, adored it, said they were doing me dirty. On social media. The dorm house was… very odd: 5 people, 3 girls and 2 guys. They made out with each other, did drugs like weed, getting high. I wasn’t. I stayed in my room, watching movies or TV. Social media

I thought as I heard them, “Borealla!!!!! Snoozabella, it’s the saint Isabella,” they said loudly.

I put my headbands on I pulled out a special photo book. It's a photo of a close friend, pushing her boyfriend. Kookie was in Korea for less than a year. He was here in LA for dance class. We had a dance class. He knew no English, and I knew no Korean. Google Translate is my best friend; it wrote me notes. Printed out text messages and emails. Photos of us, the last photo was taken on the last day. I didn’t know it was the last day. We went to the Fairs Wheel at the boardwalk, and he took a photo of us. My favorite photo. I haven’t heard from him in years; he probably found a pretty Korean girl.

I thought as I flipped through all the notes, when I didn’t hear anything. Like, something was up, like eerie

Almost like smoke, I smell it quickly; it was a fire. “What the fuck?” I said at the time. I ran down the stairs where the fire started in the living room, then back up. I quickly ran back, grabbed my book bag, threw my photo book, phone, and my laptop in it, and went to the window, luckily for me. I could climb down low enough to jump into the bushes. As I ran across the street, I started calling 911. Next, I was calling the real dorm mom. She wasn’t. She told us never to call her unless we were dying, bleeding, or about to die. I thought as I dialed her phone number. Here we go, I thought at the time.

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RG - {A} - ISABELLA - LOST STARS - SUMMARY

Isabella is a very talented 16-year-old girl who was a part of Usher Agency and Rising Star, a program to discover the next Justin Bieber or miley cryus. Then things went down, Usher forces his hand for Summer Han to take Isabella. Added her to Rose Goddness; she moves to Korea in the summer; she finds out about her crush and her love. Kookie is one of summer's friends; they reconnect, but he’s jungkook in Korea. They reconnect. At the time, Rose Goddess and BTS began their journeys as separate groups. Will stars be there for them?

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RG - {A} MASTERLIST - { ISABELLA & JUNGKOOK}

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RG - {A} - ISABELLA - BOOK COVER

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rose goddness { b} - unicorn healing - CHP 35

SUMMER POV

We were at the American Dream Mall, walking past a lot of stores, when I stopped. It was a toy shop with plushies on sale in the window. I stopped in my tracks when I saw an otter plushie. I thought of him, and my brain got fuzzy. I started having flashbacks. Of him, my friend Jimin.

Flash blacks

{Jimin and Summer 9 years }

“ Welcome, summer. She is a new student. She is from America, her name is Summer Han, “the teacher said as Summer shily stood beside the teacher. As summer saw all the students, she sat in an empty seat near Jimin. “Hi,” the boy waved. Summer waved back shyly. Kept to herself, held her book bag. Tightly, as Jimin placed his otter keychain.

On her desk, “ otters hold hands when they sleep so they don’t float away,” he said. Summer picked it up, “ I won’t let you float away,” he said

Summer is hiding under a table for reading time in Liebury. Summer reading book for younger kids about a unicorn that's lost trying to find a home. Jimin finds her. “Hey, I don’t want the teacher to get mad at you again,” he said, caring as he helped her out. “ I don’t want you to get yelled at,” he said as he helped Summer sit down, “ unicorn,” he said as Summer flipped the page, once more. She was sad for unicorn, “ she lost” he said “ do you feel like that “ he asked, I didn’t response, “ otters hold hands “ he told  me “ so they don’t float away” summer said jimin never heard her speak before, “ jimin” she whisper, summer slowly held jimin hand, “ now you won’t float away” he before teacher called them over.

~~ Summer in art class, summer painting of the Han clan foxes. She had been working on it for weeks, and it was deliberately ruined by mean girls. It caused summer to have a meltdown, 1st summer was crying. Turned into a physical meltdown, she was banging her arms and hands against the desk, repeating words she heard her abusive father say to her and her mom. Kept going, jimin ran over try to stop her. “ bad…bad …girl” summer said in crying and streaming, “ summer, look at me” jimin called, as he pushed summer away from desk gently.  “ it’s jimin, summer” he said he kept saying “ don’t float away” he said than summer stopped slowly, “ we start an new one “ he told summer, was slowly calming down.

~~

Jimin made a summer homemade fox necklace with beads and a fox charm. “It’s the fox that escaped painting, “Jimin said, smiling happily. “Do you want me to put it on you?” He asked, and Summer nodded at the time. “ I am always with you, “ he said, and Summer happily smiled as she looked at him.

~~ Years later, Summer is 16, living in America.

Summer tugging on her necklace jimin made her, her teacher makeing her asked the zookeeper an question apart of field trip and her grade. “ go summer” she said “ um…can otters and foxes be friends “ summer said nerouse, mean girls makeing fun of summer. “ it’s okay” he said as summer try not to cry, “In the wild, foxes and otters don’t usually become friends the way pets might. They live very different lives. Otters spend a lot of time in water, and foxes are land animals,” he explained gently. “But animals can surprise us. If they were raised safely around each other, and neither one felt threatened, they might learn to be comfortable together.” The zookeeper said at the time

Summer is a therapy center thanks to her abusive father, aka bad papa. “Mrs. Summers. We're going to start our therapy session,” the doctor said as summer cried before the election shock therapy, bad papa gaslight doctors saying summer needed it. “No,” Summer cried.

~

Flash backs ends

Summer had her hand on the glass as she looked at the otter plushie. Kiley called my name, “Summer…we lost you…” she said, “Aww, it’s cute …you love otters, right ?” She said I nodded, 'foxes and otter. ' I said, 'I promise we'll come back after set. ' Kiley said as I nodded.

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rose goddness { b} - unicorn healing - chp 34

SUMMER POV

We were in PA last weekend; we were in Pittsburgh, PA. Now we were at the Ross Park Mall, now we were at the King of Prussia Mall. We were at 19,759 followers. Now we were at 43,125 followers on social media at the time. The mall's performance here was different: for 90 percent of the night, the food court was either empty or had only a small group of fans. But now it was a crowd, a very large crowd, not scary at all. It was a big jump to get used to, I thought, as we performed at the time. As we started the 1st song of the chant, the fans started chanting our names.

Almost like a real K-pop chant, like the ones I've seen in videos of fans. Going to concerts, I thought at the time as I took a breath. As we finshed chant at the time. Before we went into the next song, I took a controlled breath at the time. As we went through the song, our solo dance moves showed once we made it through the dance break. When each of us dances, they chant the name of the person dancing.

I thought as we finshed went into the hunt formation, as we did it. Everyone's eyes were on us, I thought, as we got into our last formation move. Bow & arrow, a modern dance move. We did the shot, the fans cheered and clapped, took photos and videos of us, and then we started singing our last song. Called equal, it was a slow, chill song at the time, I thought.

As we finshed our set at the time, I thought it at the time, as I took a deep breath at the time.

The fans cheered and clapped at the time, but it happened slowly. Fans are asking for signed phone cases, making home posters, or taking selfies. At the time, I kept going and following Kiley. As we made our way through the crowd at the time, I thought.

As we kept going, until we got to the stairs, and far from the crowd at the time, we were all in shock. Angel started to laugh. “What the hell was that?” she said, in pure shock. We were all thinking the same thing, as we each broke into laughter.

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rose goddness { b} - unicorn healing - chp 33

SUMMER POV

MALL OF AMERICA

The Mall of America was big, NYC big. I don’t care what Imani said at the time; we were lost. NYC lost. Imani was looking at the map of where we needed to go. They were fighting over where they needed to go; it was mostly Aylin & Imani. I was hungry. I stepped away, got a drink, and a pretzel with sugar on it.

“ Wait…1…2…3…4…5…6…where summer?” Imani asked at the time. “There she is ?” Marabella said as she saw me, “Snack?” Imani said, “ I didn’t have breakfast.” I said simply, “ I gave you a cereal bar. “Imani said, “ I didn’t want a cereal bar …I wanted seaweed chips. “  I said, “A pertzel is so close to a seaweed chip,” Imani said, annoyed, as I smiled. As Marabella had a kai in her arms. “The food court is this circle thingy, “  she pointed on the map, “ food court is here, we need to get there.” Marbella, “Oh,” Imani said, annoyed, “ to the food court.” Imani said at the time.

“Yeah, after Mariabella figures out the map,” Aylin said at the time as we walked, “snack ?” Kai asked as a ripped piece for Kai, “ yummy. “ he giggled at the time

“ He likes me,” I said. “ he likes sugar,” Imani said at the time. As we follow the signs to the food court. Imani is posting, vlogging, or anything to tell the fans. We were on the way to the food court to perform at the time.

I thought at the time as I took a breath, as I took another sip of. Lemonade, I got as well. I knew Imani was in panic mode or boss mode. Aylin called it at the time, I thought. As we got closer to the food court

I noticed they were fans, not a large group. Good-sized group, I noticed Imani started to calm down at the moment, I thought, as we were finally here for our set at the time.  I thought as we got closer, I finshed my drink and my snack at the time. Before we got to the spot, where we quickly got in the formation, I thought at the time.  

I smiled at the fans as I went over the counts in my head, and the music started as we performed for them.  

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rose goddness { b} - unicorn healing - chp 32

SUMMER POV

It was nighttime in the RV. Everything was quiet. Rose was driving. Everyone was chilling in the RV. I had my laptop. I connected to Imani's mobile Wi-Fi while writing emails. To my grandfather and Mark, I missed them and wanted to let them know I was alright, I thought as I was pulling up the email. At the time, I started with the grandfather one.

Dear, grandpa

I've missed you badly since he showed up at the RV campsite. It had shaken me up, and I had a panic attack. After the set in Chicago, we left early, and the girls didn’t blame me. I know it was my fault, I try not to blame myself, but I do.

As I am writing, we are leaving Wisconsin, the crowd. It was okay. At 1st, they weren’t paying attention to us. Then they finally did. After Isabella hit this high note, like she always did, everyone in the food court turned around. After the set, we were all laughing about it. Now headed to the Mall of America, Imani says it's very large. I’ll email you again.

Xoxo - summer

Then I send it at the time,  before typing in Mark's email address.

Dear mark

Doing better this time, I know you were worried about him hurting me. I am doing better. Sorry, I made you worried. Now we are traveling from Wisconsin to Minnesota, to the Mall of America. Imani says the mall is very large. I don’t understand whether it's as big as NYC. I tried to ask Imani to explain, but I still don’t understand. I am happy to go, I promise not to get lost. I can’t wait to visit you, it feels like a long time since we last met. I miss you.

Xoxo summer

I emailed them both I thought at the time as put my laptop up I felt the curtain move. “ boo” kai said playful, before he clapped he wanted to climbed into my bunk. “ come here” I said at the time, I help him he giggle at the time, “ are you hiding” he giggled at the time, “ I think your mom is going to find you” I said as he played with one plushie I had at the time. Giggle at the time, I smiled as I took a breath: “Mall of America, here we come,” I thought to myself.

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rose goddness { b} - unicorn healing - chp 31

Summer pov

Once out of Ohio, I felt like I could breathe once again, I thought at the time. He was far away from me, or could not touch me or find me. I thought we were in Chicago at the time. The mall, Woodfield, was pretty packed because it was summer break. So they were teens, adults, and children around.

I thought at the time, we had just finshed the set, I was still shaken because he showed up at the RV campsite. At the time, I thought.

As I found a wall lying against just breath at the time, I thought of the girls' voices, talking about the set. “Rose killed it!!!!” Angel said about her rap section, “ saw people recording it.” Angel added at the time, Imani noticed I wasn’t myself, “You're okay ?” She asked, “Yeah….I’m just trying, “ I said as I stopped in the moment. My brain went into panic mode as a man looked like him. Panic attack

My brain hyper-focused, and the noise was muffled. I was underwater, body frozen, “ summer ?” I heard Imani snapping her fingers, then I saw Angel's face with her new earrings. “That's it, “ she said, “They’re stupid, right? I told Aylin they were cute, but now I think they look like tiny disco onions.” She added, “ I said they were dumb looking.” Aylin said my brain grabbed it as a lifeline. “There, “Imani said as she undid the top of the water bottle. For me to drink out of it at the time, “ was it him ?” Kiley said as she took a couple of sips. I thought at the time, “No…my brain felt fuzzy.” I explained that when it happens, I can get upset or get overwhelmed.

I thought at the time, as I started to get reaxed. “Feeling better ?” Imani said I nodded slowly at the time; I breathed in and out as a friend taught me, and I thought about it as I relaxed more.

“ Hey, let’s go,” Imani said at the time. I nodded, “ yeah…vibes here are lame, “Angel said at the time. I thought at the time, 'Wisconsin, the home of the cheese, “Angel said loudly at the time. All I could think was that I wanted to get farther from Ohio. Like super duper far, like Korean far, I thought as I walked by Imani side by side.

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ROSE GODDNESS SERIES { A} - UNICORN & BUSAN BOI - 35

Summer pov

We just finshed a set at Queens Mall in NYC.  It was a good set; 25 fans were in the food court. I thought that as we were in the drug store, we were getting snacks. Seo-yeon was looking at sodas when I heard Aylin and Angel talking with the pharmacy cashier.

“ It’s over thousands of dollars  ?” Aylin said, “After insurance ?” Angel said as the cashier nodded, “You need it.” Angel said, “How much do you have ?” Angel asked, “Less than an inch?” Aylin answered

“ What’s going on “ I asked “ nothing summer”, “ get out of the line “ customer said rudely “ we trying “ aylin said annoyed “ you need it, if blood suga drops to low, rmeber when we were kids “ angel said “ I pay for half, -“ I step in “ I got it” I said I used my han clan debit card I had more enough. “ summer…in american money thats an lot I know your used to korean dollars” she said as I put my card in.

“ Summer, I got paid you back -“ she said, “you don’t trust me, you don’t just take it,” I said at the time before walking up front along with Seo-yeon.

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Imani hotel pick, because it was raining badly and Imani could not leave or drive in this weather.

The hotel she picked, Rose Goddess Budget, looked like a crime scene. “Yeah…no, it’s not Jimin approved. He would kill me,” I said. “Summer, this is what we have to work with, “Imani said, “I said before I was calling around. “That's fine…” I said as I booked a room. “It’s a large conjoined room, it’s only 10 mins from here,” I said at the time.

“ You can’t be spending money like that “ aylin said, “pretty sure your husband is going to see” aylin said “ it’s my money “ I said as I stood up, “ what are …you an princess” aylin said “ I am last member of an clan, named han clan…it’s mine money” I said “ I hardly used it expect for twice years, jimin doesn’t let me used it on him” I said simply “ I wasn’t expecting that” aylin said as seo-yeon grabbed her bag as well. “ trust me I won’t be abled to used it all “ I said “ all?” Aylin asked, “All, until I was able to collect it, nobody touched it, so it kept growing and growing,” explained at the time before I left, headed to the RV.

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ROSE GODDNESS SERIES { A} - UNICORN & BUSAN BOI - chp 34

Summer pov

Mall of American

We were at 42, 095 thousand fans and followers, I thought at the time. We were lost in the middle of the Mall of America. While in his stroller, Kai just spoke his 1st word. “Bad, Aylin, stop!” he said as his 1st word, “Bad!!!” He said happily, as Aylin and Imani were fighting over the map of the Mall of America. My sister seo- yeon was living in the chaos, vlogging it. “I’ll be back, snack,” I said as I took my wallet from her and went to a pretzel stand.

Got us a cinnamon sugar pretzel at the time, with a lemonade. “Thanks,” she had at the time, as she handed hers. “Guys, I think the circle thingy, “Seo-yeon said in Korean, “Seo-yeon thinks the circle thingy is the food court, “ I said at the time, as Imani looked at me, “Where did you get a drink and a pretzel ?” Imani said, “Over there.” I said I thought, eye rolled, “ see it’s the circle thingy, “Aylin said, “ I was right,” she said, “ whatever, “Imani said as we started to go in that direction at the time.

Of the circle thingy at the time, I thought as we were walking. Imani was on her phone, she was texting or something “ updating the fans, “ Imani said at the time, “ make sure to add, I was right,” Aylin teased her, as I made her. Isabella was close by. I thought at the time, as we got closer to the food court where the performance, aka the set, would be happening.

As we went to the food court this time, I saw a small group of fans. Maybe 15 fans as we got closer to the area.

I thought as I took a breath of air, as we were finally there. Finally, I thought, as I saw the fans' pure, happy faces and handed my drink and snack to Seo-yeon, she smiled at me before I got into formation. As we started setting up, I noticed the fans knew the lyrics by heart and began singing along. At the time, I smiled and blushed as we performed the 1st song. I thought to myself, in the moment, that something was happening.

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ROSE GODDNESS SERIES { A} - UNICORN & BUSAN BOI - chp 33

SUMMER POV

Summer came, and it worried my mother. Mrs. Kim is sick, thinking I was. I was going to be in the same state as Ohio.  Aka him, the evil I could not escape, at the time. It really worried Jimin, my adopted mom, Mrs. Kim, I thought at the time. “ I decided not to attend with the girls at Ohio, I would be joining in Chicago.

Along with my sister, Seo-yeon, it was on her list to go to America. We were just doing mall performances, I thought as the taxi brought us to the mall in Chicago, the parking. A lot. I saw the aged RV Imani brought for us to “tour.” I thought at the time that I had a duffel bag and a book bag. SEO-YEON brought her suitcase and her makeup bag.

“You're finally here,” the angel said, greeting me. I smiled. “I got your bags,” Marabella said as she took them and brought them onto the RV.

“ I am going to get ready,” I said as I got on the RV. I went to the bathroom and then got dressed. Slik, modern dance pants; the top was light lavender. I fixed my space buns before coming out. “Let me touch you up,” she said as she did my makeup. “breath…” She said she knew me better than I did. “ I will,” I said at the time as she finshed I took a selfie and sent it to Jimin to let him know I was safe. With the girls, I thought after I went to stretch out with Angel.

Before we headed inside the mall, American malls were so different from Korean malls. In the food court, there was a balcony. I thought, “Just imagine we're in a dance studio,” Imani told me before we started the set. I thought as we started.

At 1st, there was a small group of fans watching, along with a couple of random people. Watching us as we started

Intro - rose goddness chant.

How we do it

This is our sound

The hunt

We Are the  same

During the hunt, I noticed the fans filming us as we performed it. I thought at the time that as we ended the hunt, we went into the same. Before we finshed our set, the same group of girls. “We're glad you're feeling better, Summer,” one shouted. Imani had posted online why I wasn’t in Ohio because I had gotten it wrong, and it wasn’t the truth; it was middle. I thought, at the time, as I caught my breath, I smiled at Imani.

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SUMMER POV

It was dinner, aka intro Korean food for the girls. AKA K-pop crash course: tonight was kimchi rice and tteokbokki. Which was new to girls. “We have kimchi rice again,” Aylin said, “Questions?” Angel said, “Yes?” I said at the time, “Can I add hot sauce, egg, or cheese, or Mexican cheese to tteokbooki?” Angel asked many questions

“ Not taco American cheese like Mexican cheese,” she asked, looking to Imani for help. “No…this isn’t an angel Mexican twist on Korean classic meals,” Imani said, annoyed as Aylin laughed. Aylin wasn’t used to it; in Korean culture, sharing food out of a pan.

She always goes first, before everyone else. I thought as I heard the doorbell, “It must be Jimin with empty kimchi jars. “ I heard Mariabella, 'I’ll get it, ' she was Imani's sister, from America. She was so shy and sweet. She had burned badly on her cheek and neck.

I heard the door open, Marbella speaking rough Korean; she was new to Korean. As well, “ it’s summer friend, with jars,” she said it’s Jimin, " I thought at the time. I stopped when I saw Namjoon; he stopped when he saw Imani. Imani didn’t look happy. “Mani?” He asked, “ Jonnie, “ she said, “This is Imani -“ I said as Rose spoke, “ he knows …trust me knows. “Rose laughed, “ damn,” she said, “Um, summer here,” Namjoon said

As he handed my jars back at the time, “Do you want - “ I said as Aylin caught, “No summer, we have to go food shopping.” Imani said, “But-“ I said, “It’s alright.” Namjoon said, “See ya, Mani,”  he said

Rose, laughing, waits for the door to open and close. “Summer, what are you doing with my Jonnie?” she said. “You said your Jonnie? “Aylin said, “Shut up!” Imani said, “You know what I mean?” Imani said, “Namjoon is the leader of bts, Jimin group, we're friends. I feed the guys, “ I said, confused, laughing.

“ So…” Angel said awkwardly, “Are we going food shopping ?” Angel said, “No, that was a lie.” Imani said

It was an awkward dinner, “ I am going to break the silence. Why did you and Jonnie break up, mani? “Aylin said, annoying Imani. “You won’t give this up ?” Imani asked, “Yup.” Aylin said

“ If you must know….he is my high school sweetheart …until I was 17. My parents moved to Japan for work, and we broke up when we were 17. It was for the best; dragging it out would have been pointless,” Imani said. “Move back to Korea after school at 18.”

“ How old are you ?” Aylin asked, “ 19.” Imani shared, “Why do you sound like this was thousands of years ago, dramatically?” Aylin mocked her, “We didn’t want to drag it out, then there was war.” Aylin said in a mock dramatic voice. Rose laugh

“ Why are you laughing” imani asked “ your going to drag this out, I know you going to drag this out, find reasons …to talk to namjoon I don’t what will be your reason” rose said “ namjoon I am lost, this bigger school than our last school” rose said “ rembered why I had be an 3rd wheel on your dates in high school”

“ Why, “Angel asked, “ our adopted mom feared Imani would be pregnant?” Rose said, Aylin laughed

“ Everywhere?” Angel asked, “Girl fucking everywhere, festivals, Harry Potter movie night, parties, date night, you name it, I was there.”

“ So what was he like ?” Aylin teased, “ class president thanks to Imani, smart guy, he wanted to be a rapper….he wrote a lot of raps about Imani.” Rose said, “Kill me.” Imani said, “ he wrote about her body, her beauty rated R of course.” Rose said.

“ So what are you going to do ?” Angel asked

“ I don’t know, “Imani said as there was a ding from Imani's phone. “ omg he followed me,” she said at the time.