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a virtual diary — typically about sad stuff, with the occasional sappy happy shit

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{5/14/18}

I’m so tired of this game.

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{5/14/18} Questions

Why do I constantly avoid my problems? I tell others to face what they fear head on, but I can’t ever follow my own damned advice.

Why do I keep ruining things? Why couldn’t I just be happy? Why am I the way I am? Why do I keep asking myself why I’m alone when I damn well know the answer to that?

Why am I always in denial? Why can’t I ever keep my mouth shut when it should be and speak up when I need to? Why am I fucking like this.

- a

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{5/14/18} Confession #3

I’ve lost the will to live, yet again. I can’t find it in me to become motivated to do the things I used to love. There’s no passion in my life. No sense of thrill. I’m constantly spiraling into a bleak state of emptiness.

- a

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11/23/17 Another day, another problem

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Sometimes, home has a heartbeat.

Beau Taplin, “Home” (via wordsnquotes)

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{11/12/17} Questions

Why are true friends so hard to come by? Why do I have such bad luck when it comes to friendship?

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{11/11/17} Confession #2

I'm jealous of your ability to move on.

I'm still stuck in the same place I was in years ago.

- a

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{11/10/17} Questions

When will I get better? When will life feel real?

- a

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{11/10/17} Confession #1

I've always felt that I had this responsibility to make people happy, to unburden them and lighten the mood. I've always made an effort, and yet, I wonder, would they do the same for me?

- a

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11/10/17 Another day, another struggle.