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[roseyharp]

Fags, I think I have hypophantasia, which is what people know as "almost aphantasia." It's really hard to imagine things but not impossible. My imagination is really black and blurry, it's like what I'm imagining has chunks taken out of it + it's low opacity 😢😢😢😢😢 me crying because it affects me a lot actually. I have lots of trouble reading stories n' I think a part of the reason is because I can't imagine ANYTHING clearly. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 Without having to put a lot of effort into whatever I'm trying to see, sometimes doing this gives me headaches...

Also, I can't draw without references which is so sad well everyone uses references but when I try to draw without one it looks TERRIBLEEEE. Do y'all think the words "terrible" and "horrible" are siblings or dating I mean which one? Don't say both because that'd be scary pls

[roseyharp]

Aren't you afraid that WE have to turn 15 years old

[roseyharp]

I think my vocal cords are really damaged and as a result absolutely fried, I also think that came from me screaming so fucking much as a child LOL

[roseyharp]

I want to go back to May 2025, where I was 13 and had yet to fuck up any of my friendships and meet that one person that kinda ruined my 2025. Also, I hadn't abandoned trying to take care of myself yet, because wooo boy I didn't take care of myself summer 2025. Whole reason I cut all my hair off was because I neglected it.

Anyways I'm back in the fuckin g building again because I'm neglecting my hair again bro ahhhhh. Tomorrow I'll finally wash it.

I've been getting these like. Flash-back, optionally uploaded images on tiktok for over a week now. They all flash-back to exactly a year prior. Literally every new day of May I get a new image I can choose to post. I always just upload them to my story, most of the images consist of Seranok and Merely related content LOL I've liked them for so long wow. It's kinda killing me man I was so happy.

I hope it continues into June because I want to see what comes up on my b-day LOL. Wow I'm going to be 15 in less than a month 0_o. I don't want to grow up, I feel like 15 is the age people start expecting you to do more tedious and "adult" tasks, I am not prepared in the slightest for that. I might as well try and prepare myself for my 15th birthday. I'll clean my room and see if I can get my routine back on track, if I'm successful I'll start trying to eat and drink more and sleep on time.

That reminds me, my parents haven't even brought up the fact I'm turning 15 soon. I'd be lying if I said it wasn't heartbreaking, when I was a kid they'd get excited for me when my bday was near. They haven't even asked me if I want anything. I'm convinced they want me to kill myself actually, but that's a post for a different time LOL... I just wanted to go on a little rant. Bye-bye, for now :^)

[peko-peko-pekun]

doombringa

[roseyharp]

Y'all ever come into a disagreement with somebody in game, but realize you're gonna end up losing the fight no matter what? Because 1. You're a slow typer and have to make sure you don't misspell or mistype, but you end up misspelling shit anyways so it makes you look stupid to others, and 2. The opposing person is completely ignorant to your point of view. Like.. it would take quite a bit of explaining to get at why you're not necessarily in the wrong ... but that realllyyy doesn't go well with the first point. This especially is tricky if they think you had malicious intentions😭. People who are ignorant in other ways won't care about your pov at all.

Oh yeah, then there's points 3 n' 4. You're fatigued/tired, and you get easily angered at people.

Whenever this happens to me I just have to accept the fact I'll end up looking like a whiny bitch to others if I try to engage in the argument, which is soooo annoying. I swear I'm smart, you're just mean... ok.

[roseyharp]

Like I wish I had one of those aac devices because I really don't like speaking and sometimes it's hard for me to control all the different aspects of my voice because it's difficult to even get the words out. Other times it's more natural.

And don't think I have a really really hard time trying to speak or wore my sentences like other people no o just mildly kind of struggle, especially if I haven't talked in awhile.

I used to talk more when I was in middle school and I can't remember if even then I struggled to speak. I genuinely can't. Makes me wonder of this is a struggle I gained recently because if that is the case my trouble with speaking does not seem valid at all idk why.

I still don't like talking I don't think I've ever actually enjoyed speaking so

[yeahoknobye]

holy fucking shit.

SERANOK IS IN THE DEMO 5 OF BLOCKTALES AS A CAMEO, IM VERY HAPPY ABOUT THIS, ITS ONE OF MY FAVORITE AVATARS OF HIS TOO, VERY GREAT

[simondragon206]

What if

Snuck in was possessed by a demon

[roseyharp]

MY 6 YEAR OLD SISTER TREATS ME LIKE I'M A SUB HUMAN BRO like who is you LAME REFERENCE WHATEVER

[roseyharp]

I bring this up because it's like genuinely the cherry on top of my misfortune

[roseyharp]

MY 6 YEAR OLD SISTER TREATS ME LIKE I'M A SUB HUMAN BRO like oh who is you LAME REFERENCE WHATEVER

[roseyharp]

MY FAMILY IS THREATENING TO SEND ME TO BOOTCAMP BECAUSE I TAKE TOO LONG WASHING MYSELF IN THE BATHROOM

[roseyharp]

mama

ok, so like a couple weeks ago or around that time period I saw some lady say that neurotypical people like. shut their brains off during tasks, meanwhile neurodivergent people can't. I found it very interesting but hey I am too depressed or something to literally do anything, so I didn't look into it. But it still left its mark... I should really consider looking into it to see if it's actually. Y'know. real.

I'm so tired I forgot to specify what I meant by "shutting brain off" basically they don't think. Their goal is to get the task done and they just go for it. I suppose that's why they can focus so easily. This has made me reflect on myself a lot and how I achieve tasks. It's made me realize I genuinely can't tell if I'm one or the other :0( this guy is me because I am frustrated trying to figure myself out. I wish something or some1 would tell me about myself, but I don't got anyone observing me. Impossible :,(

I do know I somewhat shut my brain off when doing something. Maybe it's more like reoccurring zoning out, rather than full on focusing.

An interesting thing about this is that I think it actually STILL messes me up. You'd think not having thoughts get in the way the whole time you're trying to do a task would make you succeed, and you'd only be kinda right about that (when it comes to me lol). But you're only kinda right because me not having thoughts = me having trouble registering stuff so I end up messing up a lot.

I forget to process stuff if I'm not at least thinking a little bit. And BTW all this shit I just explained goes for simple tasks. Such as completing Roblox obbies! This definitely does NOT go for academic related duties, assignments.

I might be wrong about all of this. I might be wrong about the point I just brought up before this one. Because I think as time passes, I am gradually teaching myself how to focus better. I've noticed I can read better, I can do things thoroughly, without pause when I get motivation. I still think my mind doesn't function normally, but it's finding its workarounds! It's magical how my brain is teaching itself how to do things, guess that's the beauty of developing. Perhaps having nobody to guide me through my younger adolescence has brought me here; to becoming subconsciously independent.

Anyways this all makes me question whether or actually I'm neurodivergent or not 😂😂 Oh mom, PLEASE get me a therapist so I can know ASAP!

[roseyharp]

Mentions of Cocsa underneath.

A couple days ago I think I realized that cocsa happened to me. Just insane. It really is that common, parents need to pay attention to their kids! Always! Especially when they're playing with another child. I am lucky, the mom of the little girl who coerced me into taking off my clothes caught us the first time. Then she caught her daughter asking me to do it again. And when we finally did do it again my grandma caught me putting on my clothes and already knew what'd happened. It's crazy how easily cocsa can happen, and how fast. I wouldn't wish my experience on anyone and it wasn't even that bad compared to other peoples stories.

[roseyharp]

You think it can't get worse but for some reason it ALWAYS gets worse with Roblox

[roseyharp]

I finally opened up to my mom last night and in doing so I told her how bad of a parent I think she is. She handled that information in a very annoying way.

"... Since I'm such a bad parent-" Yes, yes you are. You suck.

[vimbry-moved]

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[a series of images from an interview with Tove Jansson, who sketches the character Snufkin as she speaks. the captions show the English subtitles: “He’s… a bit soft and sloppy, and he’s looking for new paths to walk. He actually likes landscapes more than people, which of course means that he’s not always very nice to his friends, but they forgive him. It’s quite easy to forgive a Snufkin. Yes, I like him.]