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nox
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butterbean has passed away.
figured i might as well post an update because i've been silent again
the anxiety episode i went through trained my brain to be uncomfortable in my house and with my boyfriend. i feel like i've fallen out of love, but i'd never leave JD. at least, i don't think i would. sometimes i contemplate taking a break but he's trying so hard and being so loving and compassionate that i just feel fucking awful for the fact that my brain does not want to cooperate
i'm at my lowest point right now. i barely have any willpower to function properly, i have no drive to get anything done in the house, and i just haven't been able to draw a thing. no interest in reading or watching anything, don't want to talk to people. i almost wonder if i should go inpatient again because this is absolutely horrible.
i'm on two antidepressants and an antipsychotic. i do wonder if that's contributing to the numbness of it all, but i'm afraid to stop taking them
i'm sorry for being so nothing right now.
so i have a tremor now, either from a new med i'm on or just..randomly. art has to be put on hold for the time being until things get figured out. it's a huge bummer to say the least :[
alright we're good, it's nox again
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went inpatient at a mental hospital for 40 days lol
okayy so i'm going through a super awful anxiety episode. hard to sleep, something keeps me up every time, whether that's my head or my stomach or shaking
it used to just be bad at night but now i'm waking up and anxious thoughts are there..my stomach muscles are tight today. i'm trying breathing and calming reassurances but jesus it feels useless sometimes
anyone else gone through this kind of thing? like for weeks or longer. the anxiety makes me question things like, my routine and stuff. things i know never bothered me in the past. i'm signed up for some kind of anxiety managing class which starts in a few days but it's hard to keep my mind occupied until then so i guess i just need some reassurance :{
for whatever reason lately i've been having killer insomnia. my brain is so aware of itself trying to fall asleep so i'll just be awake for hours in bed, getting so close and then snapping out of it
i mean, it's probably tied into the awful horrible anxiety i have at night now, but like.. it's so bad, man. i am exhausted
like i wonder if this is all because of that pituitary thing but i also wonder if there's more going on that i don't know about
finally cancelled premium on neopets after all these years
the site exhausts me now.
hi i'm still alive
happy new year
cinnabar turned 4 on christmas
it's so funny going through the flight rising tag on my blog and seeing the posts here and there about how i keep struggling with that double white. most difficult dragon to figure out because he has a million good looking options
i'm never quite happy with how my double white looks, but i think this is pretty good for now
the new ancient is sooo silly and cute i Love It
nan's 83rd birthday
i wish i could call her and let her know that i remembered it correctly this time
hello . orange creature
chickens on an autumn day