hello! name's Willow. Using my love for psychology and philosophy to muse about the characters from the visual novel "Big Bad Dogs" created by @where-spar0w-barks , and making my own story about my characters based on the main story it self.
🐛 personal note; This is a collection of all the writing pieces I've done so far. They are not part of an official fanfiction yet, but will be re-written into one when we will have more information about the game's story and main characters. please remember I am not in the psychology field but I am studying it in my free time! I am also studying philosophy at school for passion and love for both subjects.🙏🏻❣
⚠️The following writings contains dark themes such as physical/emotional abuse, neglect, mental disoders, mention of self harm and possibly suicide, obsession and unhealthy relationships, stalking - there could be more, they will be pointed in each writing piece!
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THE STORY SO FAR: The story takes place after the main story. Year 2024-2025. The protagonist, Paris, is the teenager daughter of Biker Boy and the MC (you). A girl with deep black waves and pitch black eyes like her dad, and since she was a young child she has shown problematic behaviour towards both parents. Growing up, the father (BB) has started to show his true colours too, making evident his abusive nature masked by being just protective of you. But this has caused many deep wounds inside Paris' heart, who's dealing with them almost on her own and with the help of her real true friend, Nicole. Who is Lane's daughter. Things seems to be going okay with therapy and new experiences with this friend...Until, she met a sttange yet lovely older boy. And her own nature starts to show up as well.
What are they about? they are small pieces of the fanfiction I'm planning to write as we are waiting for more details and lore. please note these ARE NOT full chapters or the final version. they are just meant to give all of you a picture of what's happening and giving you pieces of lore. I may slightly change them in the final version.
🐜 Deep dives - "BB as a parent",
What is this about? they are about the characters of the game being parents. for now, they are just about that.
🐌 What If - "BB has a son instead of a daughter", "BB has more than just one daughter + Paris with sibilings" ,
What is this about? basically me musing about the characters from the game or my characters in different scenarios. they are somewhat connected to the deep dives.
🐞 Memories From The Past - 1, 2, 3,
What are they about? they are memories my characters have when they were little children. they are connected to my main story, but I decided to give them a name and a space instead of being inside the fic itself.
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NOTE: I MIGHT CHANGE THIS IN THE FUTURE!!! especially because tumblr doesn't allow a lot of links!
I was so convinced he was a somewhat old version of BB, in the crazy hypotesy i had maybe in a period of time where he was him and then something happened which made him change.
but now im more convinced RB and BB are two different people, my most crazy theory is that RB was in a relationship with us, maybe if its true him and BB are related then it could explain on how BB knows him and us for a long time? not to mention our particular fear, some memories coming back in specific mentions etc...
maybe BB wanted to protect us from him? or he just needed us in his life? we were in a beautiful relationship in the past that he started to devolp some types of feelings while in a relationship??
(I dont know if this was discussed already because i have been distracted in this period of time so I apologize if someone already mentioned this😭🙏🏻 i wasnt trying to copy, rather trying to understand who is this guy🤔 I suggest if you look up to Neur, she has the most elaborated theories and all, like she even looked up at the Norway map to see where exactly BB grew up and all of his story there😭🤚🏻 as i am someone curious i dont think i'd have the capacity to come to these conclusions immediately, so consider look her blog up I promise you wont be dissapointed at all❣)
apart from small theories, I do love his design a lotttt, like the devil concept speaks a lot to me❤ as a angelology/demonology nerd i immediately made the headcanon of him casually knowing a lot of demons names and all😭🙏🏻 he has an appeal to creepy and evil things i see, makes me wonder where they came from...🤔 (is it maybe because he wants to scare?) I feel like he has not only an appeal for biblical demons but also folklore in general or more in general paganism as a whole? it doesnt seem like a lot, but Scandinavia's countries as a whole has a lot of folklore and gloomy themes and stories, so I would try to find something in my free time if related and the same for demonology for inspiration, but again not quiete theory based just an headcanon i have and as to why he wants to be a "devil" figure🙈❣
and side note, i love the idea he could be a blonde because i am one too😋❣ but i also live for the idea of never knowing his true identity, and just leave him as this memory that wont leave us. (again, could this mean that he actually died, killed by BB once he got feelings for us?🤔)
hes such a mysterious guy, i hope we will know more about him, and i do trust @where-spar0w-barks a lot for this🥺❤❤❤
What about RB and parenthood ? I feel like he could want a kid to have fun activities with it, but at the same time, I feel like he wouldn’t want a kid because it’s mean that he’d have to take care of it instead of having fun and doing risky stuff
I don't even know this man well enough, so it's hard to say. laughs nervously
If I had to guess though, he'd probably be more like the cool uncle than the stereotypical dad. But if he did become a father, I could actually see him being the type who's somehow both incredibly fun and surprisingly strict.
He'd absolutely encourage the kids' chaos, but only because he knows he can handle it. He'd be the kind of dad who lets them do dumb stuff within reason, makes them laugh, and then immediately puts them back in line when they're pushing it too far.
"You want some fun, adrenaline-filled bonding time with Dad? Cool. Go help your mom first. If that isn't done, then we're not doing anything today."
He's probably a lot more intimidating than he lets on when it actually matters.
And honestly, I don't think he'd find taking care of kids boring at all. I used to work in childcare, and damn... kids are unpredictable as hell 😭 They're basically tiny agents of chaos.
Some days, looking after a group of toddlers feels more dangerous than going full speed on a motorcycle. At least with a motorcycle you know what you're dealing with. Kids will somehow find the one random thing in the room that can cause the most trouble in under 30 seconds.
So yeah, I can actually imagine him enjoying that kind of chaos 😂
help i actually have thought about this too!! but indeed we know to little about him so yeah😅🙏🏻
my first thought was that he' be indeed a fun and carefree dad, that has rules he expects his kids to follow, but then somehow the rules changes based on what he feels at the moment. He either goes from an extreme to the other.
which big fun for him and us but a lot confusing for the kids.😔
Someone asked me this, but since my answer is pretty long, I think I'll split it into multiple posts so it doesn't turn into one giant wall of text 😭
Q: "If MC and one of the boys got into a relationship, had a child together, and then, because of unfortunate circumstances like divorce or MC passing away, would they remarry and give their child a stepmother? Would they be able to fall in love again, or would they stay single and raise the child themselves?"
For me, I honestly don't think either of them would move on easily. They'd both be devastated, but I think it'd hit Lane especially hard.
Lane lost his dad when he was young, and he saw how much his mom struggled afterward. Laly also mentioned that Lane directed a lot of his anger toward his father, blaming him for dying because, in his mind, his death was the reason their family became so dysfunctional and drifted apart. It was easier to blame someone who was already gone than risk damaging the relationship he still had with his mom.
Because of that, I can imagine Lane reacting similarly if MC suddenly passed away, especially if it happened without warning, such as in an accident.
At first, I think he'd completely fall apart. He'd go through every stage of grief, but anger would probably consume him the longest. I could see him blaming MC for leaving him and their child behind. Not because he truly believes it's her fault, but because grief isn't logical.
Eventually though, I think he'd catch himself.
The last thing Lane would ever want is for his own child to grow up watching him become what he watched his mother become after his father's death. He knows what that kind of grief does to a family, and I don't think he'd want history to repeat itself.
So he'd force himself to get back up. Not because he'd be okay, but because his child still needs a father.
That doesn't mean he'd ever be the same again.
Laly has already talked about how Lane would react if MC died in the bad ending, and I honestly think it'd be very similar here. The only real difference is that he'd have a child depending on him, so he'd have a reason to keep putting one foot in front of the other.
I also think he'd carry an enormous amount of guilt. He'd constantly wonder if he could've prevented it somehow. And if their child looked like MC...
I can't even imagine how painful that'd be for him. Every day he'd be reminded of the person he lost while also loving the child more than anything. Those two feelings would coexist.
Still, I think he'd do everything he could to be a good father, even if every day felt unbearably difficult.
As for BB...
Based on everything I've gathered about him so far, I think losing MC would make his world feel gray and completely directionless.
He'd keep living because their child is still there, and because he knows that's what MC would've wanted. But I honestly think he'd struggle much more with knowing how to keep living.
I can see BB becoming a very distant father, not because he doesn't love his child, but because he'd be so consumed by his own grief that he'd lose sight of everything else. He wouldn't know what he's supposed to do now that the person who grounded him is gone.
He'd still provide for his child and he'd still stay.
But emotionally... I think he'd be somewhere else.
His child would probably notice that something is always missing. The warmth that used to fill their home disappeared the day MC did, and no matter how hard BB tried, he wouldn't know how to recreate it on his own.
He'd keep going because he knows MC would never forgive him for abandoning their child. But there's no guarantee he'd actually be a good father.
Losing MC would feel like losing part of himself, and when part of you is gone, it's incredibly difficult to give someone else everything they need.
As for whether either of them would remarry or fall in love again...
Personally, I don't think either of them would actively look for another relationship. Could they eventually love someone else years down the line?
People are capable of loving more than once. But I don't think either Lane or BB would ever replace MC.
She'd always remain the love that changed their lives, none of them would move on.
Hi neur, I saw your post about what it would be like to be a father and it made me curious about what you think Lane would be like as a father 🫣
He definitely wouldn't know how to discipline kids, that's for sure. But every kid would absolutely love him because he's the cool dad, or the cool uncle. He's kind of like the fun dad next door.
I also feel like if his kid came home after getting beaten up by another child, Lane wouldn't wait around for the adults to sort it out. He'd march right over to the other kid first and make it very clear that if they ever laid another hand on his child, there'd be consequences. Only after that would he go talk to the parents.
Of course, it would probably end with everyone sitting in the principal's office.
Lane would probably say something like "Your kid thought it'd be a good idea to jump mine. I'm here to make sure they don't get that idea again."
He'd tone down the swearing because, well, it's a school.
"This is a school, Mr. Fostman."
But he'd still be aggressive enough, stubborn enough, and just enough of a douchebag to get his point across without crossing the line.
I can also imagine him becoming the kind of parent everyone at school whispers about.
"Don't mess with the Fostman kid."
"Why?"
"Because dealing with the dad is ten times worse. He's like a giant toddler."
The teachers would sigh every time they saw him walk through the front gate because they already knew he was about to be a handful. Meanwhile, all the kids would think he was the coolest dad ever.
He'd probably volunteer for every school event too. If you asked him why, he'd flash that stupid grin "The teachers, the moms, the ladies love me, Honey."
In reality though, he'd only signed up because it gave him another excuse to spend time with his kids.
That's pretty much how I picture him.
The only area where he'd be an absolutely terrible parent is discipline. Raising your kids with Lane would feel like having an extra child in the house because you'd constantly have to parent him too.
And if your kid turned out to be a little troublemaker, there's a very good chance they learned it from the best.
So you'd end up being the responsible one, cleaning up the messes, setting boundaries, and reminding everyone where the line is because Lane definitely isn't going to be the one doing it. Unless you whoop his ass.
I would also add that one of his issues in parenting would be the not fully setting boundaries, in the sense of the kid sees him more like a friend rather than a father authority. which also means "getting in big troubles is not a huge issue because dad wont be too mad about it."
but! I think Lane would get really mad if the kid hides stuff from him, like, as long as hes aware of what kind of troubles the kid is doing everything should be fine😅
songs i associate with my OCs and the BBD characters🩸🐛
(only for Paris, BB and Vicktor for now cuz tumblr acts strange with too many links apparently😭🙏🏻)
Paris and BB (her dad) - "Alligator blood" by Nicole Dollanganger
I ALWAYS associate this song with them beacuse of the lyrics and the voice of singer could be a voice claim for Paris!!🙏🏻
"Grow up weak, or grow up tough."
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cuz he wants me to be all guts no glory
''all survivor, no guilt'' he said
but he calls me his crocodile tears, while i'm chained up to the bed."
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Paris + Vicktor, even tho I also associate it with BB sometimes especially the first part🙏🏻 - "Mean" by Nicole Dollanganger
absolutely the voice claim for Paris🤚🏻 i'll try to find some for the others too tho🤭
"I like it when it hurts like hell
theres nothing you can do to me that i wouldnt do to myself."
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let me know if I should continue to do these types of posts, i find it super fun and omg finally im using spotify again!!😭❣❣ but im sad tumblr doesnt allow many links💔💔💔
Hey neurrr do you think BB would rather have a daughter or a son ? And do you think he would even want a child at all ?
Tbh, I'm not really an expert when it comes to family dynamics (unless it's a dysfunctional one lolllll). That said, Laly has actually shared a lot of interesting thoughts about BB in a family setting, especially his dynamic with a daughter. I'd definitely recommend following the series that @rott3nwill0w has been posting about her OCs' family with BB. She goes much deeper into what kind of father he'd be, how he'd interact with his children, and how he approaches those kinds of relationships.
(Also read THIS and you will have more insight about Dad! BB)
Personally though, I do think BB would want a daughter, but probably not for the reason most people imagine.
I think if BB had a son, he'd subconsciously be much stricter with him because of how he was raised. He still carries so many unresolved issues from his own childhood that I can see him unintentionally projecting some of that onto his son, whether in good ways or bad. I actually have a lot of thoughts about what that father-son dynamic would look like, but I want to sit on them a little longer until I'm more confident in my interpretation. :)))
As for a daughter... I think he'd be incredibly overprotective. Maybe even a bit of a control freak, especially if she inherited his stubborn streak or had a habit of throwing herself into dangerous situations. Whether he'd eventually learn to let go a little, I'm honestly not sure :))
I also see BB as someone who worries about the essentials before he even allows himself to think about having a family. During Shift 3, he almost constantly frames himself as someone whose job is to provide and protect. If he doesn't believe he's stable enough, I don't think he'd even consider dating, let alone getting married or having children. That's also why MC tells him that he doesn't need to have everything figured out before looking for a relationship or meeting someone.
So if BB ever seriously thought about having kids, I think it'd be a long process. If he felt his life wasn't stable enough, he'd probably keep putting it off because he'd believe he wasn't ready.
On the other hand, if you were the one who wanted children, I can't see him refusing just because it's not part of his plan. He loves you, and he'd genuinely want to make you happy.
I actually don't think he'd be the one to bring up the topic first. His mind would probably be too occupied with making sure you're safe, taken care of, and that he's fulfilling what he sees as his responsibilities. In a way, he's so consumed by taking care of you that you become his entire priority. Having children would mean that his attention and responsibilities would have to be shared, and I think that's something he'd wrestle with for quite a while.
That's just my interpretation though. Like I said, I don't think I understand BB well enough yet to speak confidently about this topic, so please don't take any of this too seriously.
I'm so sorry, I just saw this now...😭🙏🏻 also i have never expected you to tag me omg THANK YOUUU!!!🥺❤❤❤
so that post is old and misses some pieces in imo, but because I dont think its a good idea to yap too much in a reblog post I will say what i think are the problems when it comes on him being a dad, as Neur said, not really experienced and probably was pushed into a ride he didnt expect:
generally speaking, i'd say one of his biggest flaws when it comes to parenting is his inability to understand what the kid actually needs. he's present, too much present i'd say, but the presence is just annoying and doesnt help at all in the eyes of the child. he relieve somely on the MC which also puts the kid in a position of truly listening only the mom because dad cant choose, his opinion changes in base of what the MC thinks or feels.
its like he has this block, he just cant see things broadly with the many possibilities and prefers going only by instinct. it is indeed a sign of scars from his family, wounds still bleeding that he just puts bandages on without proper care.
he was in the military, which is not so bad itself as my dad was also in the military and hes the sweetest person, but in his case he takes that to an extent. the vibe at home doesnt feel safe, the energies with him are just odd. he causes anxiety, distress, confusion. he gives orders when the kid does something wrong, he demands, he wont give a listening ear for the kid's cries. and if they happen to reply bad to the mother? oh, he will punish them.
not only its bad for the kid's health but also confidence, as for BB has a said to almost everything. he wont let a daughter express herself fully, she will be told to fear everyone but find comfort in him. as a protector. and for the little man...he wants him a mini soldier, a small version of him. its so true that the daughter will be extremely protected, too much, will be seen as a small MC. and will be taught to follow a man's rule first.
he doesnt wish that the kid will have a personality, he will shape that for them. individuality can be seen as a threat, and threats must be eliminated.
(broadly speaking this is what i'd say his parenting will be like, in the case of a normal kid and not particularly following my fanfiction's events xD🙏🏻)
CAN WE ALSO GET HEADCANONS FOR BB AS A BOYFRIEND !? 🙏🏻
BB as a Boyfriend (Neur Me Think™ Edition)
Disclaimer: This is just my personal interpretation as a fan. None of this is canon unless Laly has explicitly confirmed it. Read this for fun, not as facts 😭🙏
So many people have asked me this, so I guess I'll answer it first.
BB is actually a bit trickier for me because I don't think I understand him well enough to confidently picture what he'd be like in a relationship. Compared to Lane, he's much more reserved, so there are still a lot of blank spaces.
Good :)
Loyal. Once he chooses you as his person, I don't think it'd be easy to chase him away. He's the type who stays, even when things get difficult.
Quiet acts of service. He'd fix things around the house without you asking, buy your favorite snacks, bring you to work, and pick you up after. He'd rather show love through actions than words.
Always thinking about you. I can totally picture him walking past a random store, seeing something small and immediately thinking "She'd probably like this."
Very protective. If you have a medical condition, he'd probably spend hours researching it just so he knows how to take better care of you.
I wouldn't call it princess treatment. It's more like lady treatment, and there's a huge difference. Grocery shopping with him sounds great because he'd carry every single bag and refuse to let you hold anything 😭
He'd tolerate some of your silly antics... depending on his mood that day.
I feel like he'd be very firm about his own boundaries in bed. If he's not comfortable with something, then that's it. No amount of begging would change his mind.
Dry humor but somehow still charming. The type who randomly drops the worst dad joke imaginable with a completely straight face.
Huge sweet tooth, but somehow the best snack always ends up saved for you.
He says he's not that great at cooking, but I think he'd start taking it seriously once he's in a relationship because he genuinely wants to take care of you. Cooking just feels like one of those life skills he'd quietly learn.
He'd love it when you call him by his real name and praise him. I have a feeling words of affirmation hit him harder than he'd ever admit. Gets flustered by compliments. If you start praising him as a person, his brain probably blue screens for a second.
STAR GAZING. NIGHT RIDES. You sitting behind him like a little backpack XD
He says animals don't really like him, but he'd absolutely go to the zoo, a pet café, or a pet store with you just because you wanted to.
He likes you watching him work. Literally anything he's doing. Unless it's something genuinely dangerous, then he'd probably tell you to stay back because he'd rather worry about the job than worry about you standing too close.
Seems like the type who'd flex his biceps a little more just because you complimented them once XD
If you ask about motorcycles... You just unlocked a three-hour TED Talk. GEEK!
Accidental physical affection. Not super clingy, but he'll instinctively put a hand on your back when crossing the street or guide you away from someone without realizing he's doing it.
Comfortable silence. I think he's someone who doesn't feel the need to fill every quiet moment. Just existing together would already feel nice to him.
Bad :(
Communication. You'd need a lot of patience because he's still pretty stiff and awkward, even with someone he loves. Sometimes he says the most unhinged things without realizing how they sound. I don't think he'd avoid difficult conversations, but you have to be straightforward. Don't expect him to read between the lines all the time because... sometimes he's not very good at that.
He doesn't know how to accept help. His self-worth is tied so tightly to being useful to other people that he genuinely believes he's already relying on you, even when he's carrying everything by himself.
Telling him "You can lean on me too" probably wouldn't land the way you'd hope.
The possessive and controlling streak is definitely there. Underneath that calm exterior is someone who can get surprisingly intense about who's around you and how close they are. A healthy relationship with him would take effort from both sides to maintain good boundaries.
Also... he'd probably be a massive hypocrite about your bad habits while pretending his own aren't equally concerning :((((
His self-destructive tendencies are probably the hardest part. The reckless riding, the suicidal undertones, the way he doesn't seem to value his own safety as much as everyone else does. Trying to confront him about that, or about his family, would probably be one of the biggest challenges.
There's a lot of unresolved trauma he hasn't processed. He has way too many unopened boxes... and unfortunately they're not the fun kind you get after online shopping.
He absolutely neglects his health. He'd stay awake all night, lose sleep for days, and somehow still tell you he's "fine."
He doesn't tell you a lot of things. If you find out and ask directly, he'll probably answer honestly. But getting him into the habit of telling you what's going on before you have to ask? Yeah... that's going to take a very very long time.
I also don't think he'd enjoy crowded places very much. So if you're super outgoing and love concerts, festivals or anywhere packed with people... convincing him to come along would probably take some serious effort.
Now I wonder how BB would react if MC had a kid? My head cannon mind goes blank on that one
He's canonically awkward around kids, so I think it'd take him a little while to warm up to them. I can picture those long awkward silences where neither BB nor the kid knows what to say.
I think the kids would end up loving him anyway. He just has that cool, mysterious vibe that makes him look like some kind of superhero in their eyes. Once they get past the awkward stage, they'd probably be all over him.
And don't worry, BB has an entire DILF consultation team at SLM. I'm sure the dads there would be more than happy to give him some parenting advice 😂
and after MONTHS, its finally there!! its short, but something i had to get out of my chest. and because the new shift has been out for days, I need to start to write again new scenes and more. in fact, im aleeady doing so hehe🙈❣
summary: Paris (BB's daughter) comes back home after school, while having what seems like an anxiety attack. as suggested by her therapist, she should write everything on a diary, which gives her a fun way to express her feelings and keep track on whats going on. and today, she tries to write down what makes her crawl her skin: her dad's judgement and his anxious figure in the house.
🐛 I will repeat this many times, but remember the things I'm writing are not in a official fanfiction yet. They just are my deep thoughts about the main characters of the visual novel Big Bad Dogs (by the amazing @where-spar0w-barks <33❣❣) being parents. Since we know little about the characters, I am working on what we have now. This will be a real thing when we will be knowing more about the world of the game itself. I will change these writing pieces once its all cleared out.❤
⚠️ paranoia, mention of anxiety, mention of self hatred and violence. for all who reads this and knows Paris partly well, dont trust everything she says or feels🤔.
I kept writing on the diary as an anguish feeling spread around the room:
“Technically I am free, but under some circumstances. I am free but I am actually not. My freedom will be measured like any other details of my likings and dislikes.”
But the last phrase sounded so wrong, so unprecised. I decided to rub the gum on the piece of paper and start again, as a glamorous example of my inability to just tell what's wrong in my head.
I ask myself this, and I'll ask a second time; What is exactly bothering me?
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Dad told me I have everything. And he's right.
My heart is beating. Oh God, I feel like I want to throw up on the pages of this damn diary. The same diary I bought in secret, that whenever I open it, it feels like I'm commenting on some sort of vile crime against society.
His eyes are on my back. He never needed to be physically here to make me question my morality.
He watches, he judges, and will judge me even now. As if he could actually read what I have in store for him. I see his eyes. I know what he wants to tell me, if only my mom wasn't around.
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I want to cry.
He found new ways to torture my soul. I know he does - The gazes are more terrifying, his black eyes penetrating on my skin with uncanny accuracy. Small, not asked comments were made on the purpose to hit whatever mold my heart is now.
If I could, I would give him his own medicine - if my eyes could be this scary, I would try and make him melt under my gaze.
I wish I could crash that heart of his and play with it. W i t h m y b a r e h a n d s.
But I can't. I always couldn't.
I'm a coward.
For years and years this has been an “if and what if” matter.
And no actions will be taken out of it.
No words left my mouth. They just…died under my tongue.
Zero effort to make my voice see the light of the day.
…
“as he made a list based on what and how I'm wrong about - I did the damn exact same thing.
I finally understood what made him stop on his crack. I know it when I see it, a particular slow motion of his movements, as if he was a robot and at some point the battery stopped working.
And I know which words annoy him the most.”
I reflect deeply on the last statement. It happens too often that when I try to get out every single spine inside my throat…It remains there. No possibility to get them out. And when I do, there's always a side effect, an irritation inside.
There's this ugly habit of mine I can't beat up. When confronted, I stop. All the poison I anticipated to spit was gone, vanished into nothingness.
And what was left? Nothing to say in real time, but a lot to say internally. Teeth rubbing each other in remembering the feeling. The uncomfortable feeling.
I still crumble at the mere thought of it. Pathetic, I say between me and me. Absolutely nothing can make me regret saying those eight words together. P-a-t-h-e-t-i-c.
According to my therapist Liz, I do deserve some sweet words. For sweetly feeding my brain, after years and years of feeding it with nothing but rat poison. It can't be felt in the first person, so I can't blindly say this but…My brain probably melted by all that poison.
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“It's difficult to give myself a little bit of peace when my reality is stuck between what he wants now and what I want to be without him. Isn't it? His words became what feeds my brain.”
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My hand stopped right there, there's some words that wish to be written down…But no. Let's keep them non-existent on paper, but permanent in memory.
It's not like I have to hold a conversation with him. No chains keep me trapped, not anymore, at least…
Our conversations have been strictly about my bike. The one he wanted for me to handle. A promise that has been kept, unlike many other wishes now trashed down the box.
Both my hands are now pressed against my cheeks. Covering my face. I really don't know if I can keep this act up.
BB often compares himself to a machine, objectifying himself, breaking himself down into tasks and objectives. The point of his Route is to break him away from the mold he forced to grow into.
He finds freedom in Purpose which funnily enough is the opposite of MC and I find that her being born a woman is part of it.
She finds Purpose in the search and maintenance of her Freedom.
he barely finds a way to be normal in society, its like he's costantly on a hunt for a mask he has to wear in order to hide something bigger than him. he probably hates himself for who he is, he sees himself as an object but cant let others step on him or making them see him that way.
Hello this is random but I saw you comment on the guide of Big Bad Dogs post by creator about how your PC died and just wanna say that if you own an Android you can emulate it using joyplay and if you use Iphone/ipad you could emulate it with Renpy Pocket
(hope this cures your boredom and longing to play the update)
heyy there, dear anon!!♡
tysm for the advice!! I actually prefer either watching on youtube or just wait for my new computer to come, it should be a nice set and well...i might finally learn how to download or work in a computer😭🙏🏻
also I dont know why, but when it comes to VN that im watching, i prefer a mild screen such as my tablet cuz I can see stuff better and not get distracted, i have no idea why😟🤚🏻
but still, tysm for telling me, i'd try one day when my phone is not dying out of memory LMAO xD
