something in the kid is fragmented, disjointed, and having come undone like old thread from broken seams. he might have believed he had always been this way if not for the fact henry knows that he had once been sweet— able to remember the feeling like it was a dream... faraway, yet simultaniously just within reach.
carol barely got to know that sweet boy before he was gone, and henry supposes that boy had died with ben. with the killing of gavin, henry had sealed his own fate. he had crossed a line that you don't come back from— and though "prince henry" was kind, was generous ... he still wasn't that same boy. and right now? he didn't ever want to be again.
because that little kid lost, and lost again, and kept losing till he had nearly no one else to lose.
now he was an exposed nerve. raw and pulsing with pain, he can feel it in the tense way his jaw clenches, and his teeth grind together. there is a sharp line of muscle going down his throat, and it beats in time with his heart, blood like mercury burning his veins.
HE BUILT COFFINS TODAY, AND YET ALL THEY HAD TO PUT IN THEM WERE DECAPITATED HEADS!
" ... then what do i do with it? " henry questions, turning now so that his whole body faces the archer. " what do i do with everything— all these things i don't know how to name— what do i do with them? " was he supposed to ignore them? the grief, the rage, the boy dying to the man he was quickly becoming? henry had to put the blame somewhere, and he wasn't going to put it anywhere else except his own head, and alpha's.
he couldn't imagine putting that kind of burden on anyone else.
thinking of tara and enid, his lips dip down into a slight frown. he waits for daryl to answer, but their faces haunt him in the mean time— dead, alive, dead again, alive once more, and finally undead. alpha left them to turn, left them as walkers to rot in the sun as they waited to be discovered by the very people that loved and cared for them.
how was henry supposed to deal with the emotions that sight evoked? he was seventeen... he should be in high school but instead he'd been ripped from his home at the age of three, put in the back of his mom's minivan, and hurried out of the city like millions of others.