𐙚⋆° shayla⋆♡

21 🤍 the one and only ruffilo fangirl

[ruffilokisses]

Get to know me! <3

hiii!! i wanted to make a little get to know me post for anyone who stumbles across my blog! i barely post my own posts on here but i am very active and will always respond if anyone ever wants to talk or gossip or whatevsies!

Hi!! My name's Shayla! (pronounced sh-ay-luh, yes the same as the my shayla meme) I'm 21 from England! Im currently an undergraduate student nurse! nursing has been a passion of mine for quite some time now - i love to help people and make a difference both big and small but also the human body never ceases to amaze me and i hope one day im clever enough to graduate and know what the hell im doing hahhaa. my absolute dreaaaaaam job is to be a burlesque dancer but maybe in another life!! Im actually a trad goth but i thought id use a more "normal" photo for people to actually see what i look like i guess? i love being goth, it feels so right, feels like home and just makes me so confident in ways i could never put into words. gothic music, literature, fashion, politics all of it makes me who i am and i couldnt be more prouder of myself for staying true to who i am!! it hasnt always been easy!! My all time favourite artist is actually Ethel Cain, but omens forever have my heart! ive seen omens twice now, the first time when they supported bring me in 2023 and more recently on their uk leg of the DYFL tour! that was where noah noticed my sign for nick and came over to give me two picks, the photo of him smiling at me actually went kind of viral?? low-key my biggest flex in life but yes he was actually smiling at me hahahaha ! Ruffilo is my biggest lover and i feel like the only ruffilo girl online or at all for that matter (aside from Nadine of course) and I just want to spread some love and appreciation for him, listen i love Noah as much as the next girl but Nicholas has my heart entirely. my best friend is actually @runningincircl3s and i met her on tumblr not that long ago and we've been such great friends since !! i am so grateful for her!! we met up for our first and only time to see motionless in white together in february and i dont think ive ever laughed so much holy shit. ROLL ON DAYSEEKER AND SACE6!!! this girl just gets me and understands exactly the vibe and is the most INSANELY TALENTED WRITER EVER HELLO???? she inspires me so much and i have some drabbles on google docs (maybes ill actually write and post some day??) and i hope one day my blog can be the nick equivalent to hers but ill never be half as good since she is quite literally the best ive ever come across.

im not sure what else to say now lol but thats me!! please feel free to ask questions / talk to me / ask me in my chat box or even DM me!! im always happy to talk and meet new people <33

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william von ghould

via his ig on 21.11.2025, photo by @/hauntedmattress

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( All hail the original sinner, Black heaven, black heaven )

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william von ghould of creeper

via his ig on 15.06.2025, photo by @/hauntedmattress

[preqvelle]

Like an envelope, she tore open his throat and feasted on every heartbeat, 💜

[isabelleslastwords]

william von ghould of creeper

via his ig on 01.06.2026, photos by @/hauntedmattress

[preqvelle]

Will ghould for metal hammer

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Creeper live at Bike Jesus in Prague, 2026-05-10

[runningincircl3s]

₊˚⊹ ᰔ you’re done with this, well so am i, guess that makes two of us…

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ethel cain live at red rocks, photographed by enoch chuang

[ruffilokisses]

HELLOOOO

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ethel cain live at red rocks, photographed by enoch chuang

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ethel cain live at coachella, photographed by enoch chuang

[ruffilokisses]

IM HERE

[ruffilokisses]

TW: mentions of self harm, suicide, home life problems, stalking(?).

it has come to my attention that an old friend has joined bad omens tumblr and I’d just like to make people aware of the person they really are. They are going by the username of @/bbimabadidea I am unsure of which pronouns they use nowadays so for now I’ll use gender neutral ones, since I am not looking for any drama or upset I just feel people need to know what this person is actually like. Please take the time to read 🤍

I met this person at a bad omens concert not too long ago and while they seemed nice at the time, after a few months of talking online their true colours showed. They would message me almost everyday and tell me about their home situation and how it wasn’t the best and how it made them want to k*ll themselves. They would constantly talk to me and say things like “it would be so much better if I wasn’t here” “I wish I didn’t exist” “I want to just sleep forever” “it’s okay, you knew a life before me and you’ll be able to move on”. As you can imagine this is very distressing, especially when it is a daily occurrence and we were long distance so for me to be supportive I had to stay up at night until around 6am to talk to them just to make sure they didn’t do anything. However a few of my other friend (who they also met at the omens gig) all collectively wanted to help and through a long conversation that ended up turning into an argument and us falling out, it turns out that this person was lying and “never meant any of it”. This person is an attention seeker, and will pry off the kindness of others. I tried my best to be this persons friend and be supportive of them but eventually cracks within stories began to show and things didn’t add up, which is why me and my friend has the big conversation and sort of confronted them about it all, to which the truth came out. This person also, I believe, is a pathological liar. They would tell me a lot of things which turned out never to be true. While trying to be supportive of them, no advice I gave or anything I said was the right answer and this person never actually wanted the help, which they admitted to. They admitted that they were just saying things and never meant any of it, however they never told me this until the large argument which made us fall out therefore I was of course very worried about my friend across the world hurting themselves and potentially ending their own life every day. This is a very distressing topic for me since I have lost family members to s*icide yet not once did this person ask me if it was okay to talk about these things, never checked in on my side of things, never thought about how it would make me feel and quite frankly I believe it is because this person is an attention seeker like I say, they love the attention they get and do not care about others feelings. It was an incredibly tough time they put me through since I already have / had a lot on my plate with being in university studying a harsh degree and my own problems such at home problems and mental health problems. Please know I did my best for this person but this person is twisted and mean and cruel and it truly broke my heart to realise this about someone I saw as a good friend. I tried to be there for them but I have my own personal boundaries, which they crossed numerous times however they put me in such a tough situation where I genuinely believed they were going to end their own life so I felt I could not say during the time, I don’t want to have this conversation anymore since that would make me feel like a horrible person and friend - to abandon someone while they’re (what I thought) reaching out for help, I couldn’t do it. I’d like to also mention, just to be safe, me and my friends noticed gaps within stories they told us and made us have the impression that they were actually stalking a guy they were talking to. They turned up to this guys place of work purely just to see him, which could be harmless however I believe this guy made it very clear he wasn’t interested since he would have this person left on delivered for numerous weeks / months so this is when this person turned up at his work just to see him - which happened a few times. Again I am not sure if this is classed as stalking but I do think it is a little creepy. I understand how much this person was interested in this guy however I think going out of your way to find someone at their place of work just to see them and do this numerous times is a little odd.

HOWEVER AGAIN - I do not know anymore what was true and what wasn’t, since this person is a pathological liar it leaves me second guessing everything they said.

Please understand, I am not wanting drama, upset or “beef” I simply want people to be aware of this person and their true colours so they do not put others through what they put me and my friends through. I am not one for online dramas however this person isn’t the kindest and I would hate for others to be in this situation.

If anyone has any problems, please feel free to DM me.

Thank you for your time and for reading this,

Shayla (@ruffilokisses) 🤍

[galaxy-siren]

Thank you @opheliarae for the tag!

Post 13 songs that you've had on repeat lately! I think you all know by now that my music taste can be all over the place, so let's see what we've got

Cains of Love - Charli xcx

Dirty Prudes Must Die - from Nerdy Prudes Must Die

Gravity - from Hazbin Hotel

Drop Dead - Olivia Rodrigo

Always Everywhere - Charli xcx

The Loneliest Time - Carly Rae Jepsen

My Own Worst Enemy - Lit

Good Luck, Babe! - Chappell Roan

Unwritten - Natasha Bedingfield

No One Is Alone - from Into The Woods

No One Else - from The Great Comet

Evermore - from Beauty and the Beast

Just Like Heaven - The Cure

No pressure tags: @melodymunson, @spider-starry, @silent-stories, @ajokeformur-ray

[silent-stories]

Thank you for the tag!!! <3

In your name - Vana

You get one - The plot in you

4×4 - Wage war

Heavenly - Against the current

The one - The warning

Mirage - Mothica

Save your roses - Mothica

We've built the line - Hand of juno

Destroy the line - Hand of juno

Narcissist- Starr Adara

Bad Seed - Wargasm

Gauze - Blood oath

Sacrifice - In this moment

Tagging: @thepetrichor @inthedarkofmyroom @pacificbutbmth @ami-gami @springautumn @nogoodsailors @caffeinatedomens

[inthedarkofmyroom]

Thank you for the tag @silent-stories 🥰🥰

1. West Coast Prayer - Nessa Barret

2. I Know You’re Hurting - RAYE

3. Dance No More - Harry Styles

4. drop dead - Olivia Rodrigo

5. Hysteria - Bebe Rexha

6. Black Haired Madonna - Nessa Barett

7. Cherry - Naomi Scott

8. Special To You - Nessa Barrett

9. Stupid feelings - 220 KID, LANY

10. late at night - Ashton Rain

11. Simple Things - Absolutely

12. Pop - Harry Styles

13. The WhatsApp Shakespeare. - RAYE

no pressure tags: @buttercupbabyyy @noahshands @fadingintothegrey @runningincircl3s @concretejunglefm @thirstomens @mid-omens

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[runningincircl3s]

thank you for the tag!! @inthedarkofmyroom 💗💗

limerence - sace6

evolve - 5sos

bled - sace6

running in circles - bad omens

paper heart - dayseeker

4x4 - wage war

we never even dated - maggie lindemann

hours on end - sace6

wassup - asap rocky

mana god - make them suffer

she doesn’t mind - sean paul

bury my head in my hands - sace6

no pressure tags: @mrslumi @ruffilokisses @bluehairpunklol @r3prise @dxthrone 🫶

[ruffilokisses]

thank you for the taggg!! @runningincircl3s

1. the shining - the neighbourhood

2. alligator Blood - bring me the horizon

3. covet - sace6

4. dying to love - bad omens

5. start - the neighbourhood

6. ego - sace6

7. dethrone - bad omens

8. tempest - ethel cain

9. rage - president

10 nocturnal remedy - dayseeker

11. afraid of the dark - motionless in white

12. don’t keep driving - the paper kites

13. the devine infection - motionless in white

No pressure tags: @r3prise @chipotlebagnoah @concretejunglefm @littlebastardjess @mushrumink @mrslumi @noahshands @nethingmorethanhuman

[galaxy-siren]

Thank you @opheliarae for the tag!

Post 13 songs that you've had on repeat lately! I think you all know by now that my music taste can be all over the place, so let's see what we've got

Cains of Love - Charli xcx

Dirty Prudes Must Die - from Nerdy Prudes Must Die

Gravity - from Hazbin Hotel

Drop Dead - Olivia Rodrigo

Always Everywhere - Charli xcx

The Loneliest Time - Carly Rae Jepsen

My Own Worst Enemy - Lit

Good Luck, Babe! - Chappell Roan

Unwritten - Natasha Bedingfield

No One Is Alone - from Into The Woods

No One Else - from The Great Comet

Evermore - from Beauty and the Beast

Just Like Heaven - The Cure

No pressure tags: @melodymunson, @spider-starry, @silent-stories, @ajokeformur-ray

[silent-stories]

Thank you for the tag!!! <3

In your name - Vana

You get one - The plot in you

4×4 - Wage war

Heavenly - Against the current

The one - The warning

Mirage - Mothica

Save your roses - Mothica

We've built the line - Hand of juno

Destroy the line - Hand of juno

Narcissist- Starr Adara

Bad Seed - Wargasm

Gauze - Blood oath

Sacrifice - In this moment

Tagging: @thepetrichor @inthedarkofmyroom @pacificbutbmth @ami-gami @springautumn @nogoodsailors @caffeinatedomens

[inthedarkofmyroom]

Thank you for the tag @silent-stories 🥰🥰

1. West Coast Prayer - Nessa Barret

2. I Know You’re Hurting - RAYE

3. Dance No More - Harry Styles

4. drop dead - Olivia Rodrigo

5. Hysteria - Bebe Rexha

6. Black Haired Madonna - Nessa Barett

7. Cherry - Naomi Scott

8. Special To You - Nessa Barrett

9. Stupid feelings - 220 KID, LANY

10. late at night - Ashton Rain

11. Simple Things - Absolutely

12. Pop - Harry Styles

13. The WhatsApp Shakespeare. - RAYE

no pressure tags: @buttercupbabyyy @noahshands @fadingintothegrey @runningincircl3s @concretejunglefm @thirstomens @mid-omens

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[runningincircl3s]

thank you for the tag!! @inthedarkofmyroom 💗💗

limerence - sace6

evolve - 5sos

bled - sace6

running in circles - bad omens

paper heart - dayseeker

4x4 - wage war

we never even dated - maggie lindemann

hours on end - sace6

wassup - asap rocky

mana god - make them suffer

she doesn’t mind - sean paul

bury my head in my hands - sace6

no pressure tags: @mrslumi @ruffilokisses @bluehairpunklol @r3prise @dxthrone 🫶

[ruffilokisses]

BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD! Once you are given this award you're supposed to paste it in the asks of 8 people who deserve it. If you break the chain nothing happens, but it's sweet to know someone thinks you're beautiful inside and out 💜

THIS IS SO KIND WTH?!!?? IM SORRY FOR BEING SO MIA!! I’m currently working 12 hour shifts so they’re wiping the floor with me but I finish my first placement in 4 weeks!! And best believe I will be back!! THANK U SO MUCH FOR THIS ITS SO APPRECIATED OMGG TY!!! 💕💕