Consistently Inconsistent

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Made this for anyone to use.

‘These are our streets! This is our city! This is our country!’

As a legal resident of Kyiv who’s not there and wishes she could be, GTFO my city. Get out of my second home. Get out of my beloved country. In fact, just get out of Earth altogether.

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Animation is hard and I’m still super bad at it. It was fun, though! A learning process, for sure. Maybe one day I’ll look back on this and think, ‘man, I’ve gotten so much better’. Or, look back and be glad I tried at least once. And it probably woulda been easier if it hadn’t been a drawing first and then I had the less than brilliant idea to make my day harder. Story of my life. (the reverse was just to make myself giggle)

All I can say is, start something with animation in mind to make life easier. Don’t decide to get ambitious at the very end... Learn from my pain.

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My inner best bois

I have three bros that have haunted me for like twelve years. Their appearance and names have changed very little over the years, but their personalities never have. But god help me, for the life of me I haven’t found the perfect setting for a story in which to place them, and not for lack of trying. They originated back in the day in a wonky Norse gods fantasy and yet modern day setting, which made no sense but was fun, and I’ve plopped them up and put them down in about a hundred other things, and still nothing feels right. It kills me slowly inside. T__T So, to ease the suffering a little, I tried to take them out of my head and onto paper.

(anyway, meet the ambiguously gay trio)

Ilya, the good quiet serious don’t-talk-to-me-because-i-hate-u-but-i-will-also-die-for-u boi :

Heikki, the bad angry but ridiculously loyal simp for Erik boi :

And Erik, the loud-mouth goofball prince who tries to kill himself once every few months because he doesn’t wanna be a king but he’s always saved by Heikki or Ilya and he f’n hates them for it...boi :

Erik picks up his phone and texts Heikki, ‘BRB, throwing myself off a bridge,’ and Heikki’s all full on Titanic skidding up screaming ‘u jump, i jump’, because he’s a total simp loyal stalker friend.

Heikki and Ilya hate each other, because Ilya is foreign and Heikki hates foreigners and also because Ilya is Erik’s personal bodyguard and Heikki is a jealous MF. Ilya never says a word or lifts a hand, and Heikki torments him constantly until Erik makes him stop because Erik is a simp for Ilya it’s the Right Thing To Do™.

Erik’s one scar came from Ilya, when Ilya got sick of Heikki’s simp combat training and coddling and took over and gave Erik a what for, unintentionally.

One day they’ll find their home, but until then they continue to haunt me and influence many of my characters dynamics in other stories. Thanks for listening to my frustrated rambling.

ALSO, I swear to god they actually wear clothing, I just can’t paint clothes for shit so here we are.

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A good thing about insomnia, I suppose, is that I have watched practically every single video on youtube about how to shade and shadow and light correctly, and I have let go of my stubborn notion that using a light reference is cheating. So. I needed practice models. I have trouble sometimes getting characters out of my head and onto paper, but with no sleep somehow Sasha and Bastian managed to mostly cooperate with me. I’m getting better, but I realize now that I will never be able to paint clothing. I hate clothing. Hate it. Just hate it. Guess that means all my bois will be forever naked.

When I can’t sleep, I can’t write at all, and I’m very sorry about that. You guys are always patient with me though and I really appreciate that a lot. <3 I don’t know what my life is right now.

Sasha and Bastian, before and after the war attempt. 

ALSO I’M DOING THIS HERE BECAUSE MY MUSHY BRAIN CAN’T REMEMBER THE PASSWORD TO MY OTHER TUMBLR THAT WAS MADE JUST FOR NON-FANDOM STUFF. And I can’t be bothered to recover it for now.

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Remembered my password. Eh heh.

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Work in progress. My football king, Basti. My one true sport love. XD

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