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I wanna guy who sings this to me about me.

This is literally incredible.

Idk what is wrong with me but I always fall for the opposition.

Is this even a normal human trait or bizarre and unique to me? The psychological mechanics behind it must be something to do with my love of peace and reunification bc of my foster care history — that social worker was like “we prioritize reunification.”

Also, my love isn’t purely romantic— it’s also a deep sense of familial bond — like somehow I was destined for conflict so when I encounter peace it really stirs me — as if we’re lifelong friends.

Isn’t this some wild programming?! 🩷

My first ex mouthed the words “I love you” through handcuffs, orange, and plexiglass.

Even though my second ex was violently erratic and abusive, bribed me to abort our child, and did nothing for her until he was court ordered to do so — I still fantasized about facing him off in court and yet deep down knew he couldn’t bare to look at me without perverted longing for power over me.

Whatever it is — I cannot help but admire anyone willing to take me on.

Even if it’s just casual conflict or argument on the street while I’m throwing my hands up for life — the opposition is not my enemy.

Hand to God.

I always dreamed of it working out with these guys in the throws of conflict, not because compatibility was real, but because I am deeply possessed with the idea of resolution.

In Santa Barbara I used to listen to this song and this band cruising around from uber pick up to uber pick up — to pick up the most delightful good natured people going out for the evening — sweet as pie ✨💭💕☀️🏝️

I think I’m ready to ride around with someone I love listening to these beats going to enjoy the ocean breeze somewhere.

This is such a weird time and so unexpected.

Something is unlocked.

#Youtube

I made these!

Apparently this is my year for my love life — I feel it, so I’ll take it. 🍓😄

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I’m soul searching today and blessing, (acknowledging and not following), all of my delusions.

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dismissal isn’t really necessary because they keep surfacing for a reason….

so, I’m watching them — instead.

#Instagram

I’ve known tragedy all of my life.

I can handle a little rejection — it doesn’t matter to me.

My next love will have a happy, wholesome ending….

I’m not really worried about all of my misplaced feelings in between.

podunkalicious.

except you gave me your whole number — not found — and every digit has a perfect place in my life. 💕🥹 #

I just wanna know why it didn’t occur to you when you gave it to me that I might not be able to handle it.

— why would you dare give me such a sensitive thing?

#Youtube #418

lol — the elder man can’t wait to bring up the private tumblr as if anything written there is of any contradiction and not merely an expansion of one’s existence.

— if one’s written and spoken word are wholly aligned — ye who seek the elaboration shall be shocked and yet blessed by the whole picture —

I mean it’s been a journey — and the best story left is the one not yet told!

Take the pieces, sir, they will do you no good as you try to mix and mash them in backwards and upside down.. 💕😜

There’s another Proverbs for it. He who digs a pit…..

when he’s ready for the real heart — he’ll see it from her clearly…. ✨

See? She isn’t one to go on digging pits unless to bury the ungrateful dead.

Can it be our SPOT?