Don't Forget Where You Belong

"Just because you have flaws does not mean you aren't beautiful"

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Little Things || Ellie & Ryan

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Hooking her exposed legs around Ryan’s waist, the brunette nodded softly as her fingers reached out for the fabric of the tattooed boy’s shirt she was wearing to brush away the tears that kept rolling down her cheeks. “Okay.” She murmured quietly as he carried her to her bedroom. Ellie snuggled into his side, resting a hand absently on his chest. She let the silence hung between them for a moment before breaking it again, “You’ll come with me, right?”

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Ryan let his touch trace absently over Ellie’s shoulder as they lay together, keeping his gaze fixed on the ceiling while he thought over the situation the pair had found themselves in. As her voice cut through the silence, he turned his head to look down at the brunette, letting his lips press against her hair softly. The tattooed boy knew that the decision she was making wasn’t easy, everyone always thought the decision would be simple when you got pregnant but didn’t want a baby, but when you actually have to go through the process it was much harder. “Of course I will.” He murmured soothingly.

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Little Things || Ellie & Ryan

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A faint smile pulled at the corner of the brunette’s lips at the sight of her boyfriend, burrying her face into his neck as he pulled her into a hug. Tears filled her eyes, and her bottom lip began quivering. Holding back a silent sob, she let her teeth sink into her lower lip. “ Cuddles would be nice. ” She murmured quietly in an attempt to stop her voice from breaking. Ellie didn’t fully understand why the whole situation was so devastating to her, getting rid of it was the right thing to do. None of them was ready to be parents but at the same time, the thought of it was absolutely terrifying. “ I’m so sorry, Ryan.”

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“Cuddles it is then.” He told her with a soft smile, cupping her cheeks between his palms as he pressed a soft kiss to her lips. Ryan was shaking his head before Ellie had even finished speaking, pulling her into another hug as he attempted to sooth her by pressing a soft kiss to her neck. “Don’t apologise, Ellie. This is just as much my fault.” Sliding his hands onto the backs of her thighs, the tattooed boy lifted her to wrap the brunette’s legs around his waist and began walking up the stairs to her room. “Don’t apologise.” He repeated softly while moving onto her bed and manouvering them so he was lying on his back and Ellie was tucked against his side.

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Little Things || Ellie & Ryan

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Although Ellie wanted to be the one telling Ryan about her pregnancy, she was secretly glad Blake had told him. It didn’t exactly make things easier for them, though. Trust and honesty had always been something important to the brunette, but lately she found out that not everyone was going, to be honest, herself included. Once she had gotten out of the phone with her boyfriend, she rested her head against the window, letting her tear filled eyes flutter shut for a moment. It didn’t take long for the silence to be broken by her dogs’ familiar barking. Getting herself up from the window seat, she made her way downstairs, curling her fingers around the sleeves of her sweater as she swung the door open. “ Hey.”

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As he heard the front door open, Ryan glanced up to meet Ellie’s tired form. “Hey.” He breathed quietly in response as he took a step forward, letting his arms slide around her petite body as he pulled her against him in a hug. Not only did Ellie have to deal with being pregnant, but she had to be alone with her thoughts so often while in her house, that the tattooed boy imagined the situation would be even more difficult. “Do you need anything?” He questioned softly while pulling away just enough to meet her gaze, reaching to brush a lock of hair behind her ear. “Food? A cup of tea? Water? Cuddles?” He finished with a gentle smile on his lips.

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“I don’t know what type of scholarship I could get. I’m not on any of the sports teams, I’m not in any of the clubs around school, my grades are just average. I don’t think that’s something that could happen to me.” Jax sighed, only having a passion for writing but his grades in English were just average and that wasn’t enough to even be able to get into a good college. “No, it’s ok. I like it when she gets all happy when she talks about something she likes, or someone she likes in your case. I just tend to zone out often and just nod from time to time so that she thinks i’m listening because if she catches me not listening, I’ll have another bruise on my arm.”

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“Well if you don’t get a full scholarship then maybe you can apply for a partial scholarship, those things don’t always have to do with talent you just have to write an essay and go to a few interviews.” Ryan reassured to the blonde with a shrug of his shoulders, knowing that any hope for getting away from his trouble would be better than nothing. A low chuckle passed his lips at the mention of Ellie, “You’re right, she can be a little aggressive at times so it’s better to just try and go along with it so she doesn’t hit you. That girl can really punch.” He told him with a laugh.

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Little Things || Ellie & Ryan

Finding out that Ellie was pregnant had sent the tattooed boy into complete shock. He’d spend the night wide awake, thinking over the situation before calling Ellie to find out if it was true. It was then that he realised the brunette was just as terrified of the entire situation as he was, if anything she was even more terrified than he was because she was the one with a life growing inside her. At that time Ryan didn’t want his girlfriend to be alone, they would have to deal with the situation together and to be honest he felt as if he just needed to be close to her. Knocking on the girl’s front door he waited for the brunette to appear, hearing the soft barking of Meeko and Miles behind the wood as he waited. “It’s okay guys, it’s just me.”

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Calling || Ellie

Ellie: Not your fault.

Ellie: I know, I'm sorry.

Ellie: I'll get rid of it, I swear.

Ellie: Yeah, I do.

Ryan: Don't apologise.

Ryan: I'll be there soon.

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Calling || Ellie

Ellie: It's not the same. I don't want a mum, I want mine.

Ellie: [Holds back a sob] I- I don't want to kill our baby either.

Ellie: What should I do?

Ryan: I'm so sorry, El.

Ryan: I don't know, I'm no expert at this.

Ryan: I'm not ready to be a dad either.

Ryan: Do you want me to come over?

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“Didn’t think so.” Kayleigh smirked, shaking her head. His next question didn’t actually throw her off guard, it wasn’t unlike Ryan to ask those kinds of things. He always did when he tried to take an interest in her life, which actually just irritated her for some reason. But the brunette simply shrugged casually. “I don’t think I’ll have the time.”

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The brunette’s short reply was exactly what Ryan had been expecting, nodding his head slowly at her response. “Right, because you never have the time.” He commented with a quiet laugh, “Anyway, thanks for the advice. I’ll be sure to take it all into account and if you ever get the time and end up in a relationships, I’ll be sure to try and give you advice.” 

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Calling || Ellie

Ellie: I don't know because you didn't bother telling me.

Ellie: I don't know what I want. Actually I want my mumm, that's all I want.

Ellie: I can't be someone's mum, Ryan.

Ryan: Well now everyone knows, and everyone is giving me the same crap for it.

Ryan: I'm sorry, Ellie.

Ryan: If you want a mum to talk to then you can always talk to mine.

Ryan: Then you know what decision to make, and I'll be by your side through it all.

Ryan: Okay?

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Calling || Ellie

Ellie: You cheated on the person you always thought was the love of your life.

Ellie: She was your first everything, you have her permanently on your arm and you cheated on her. Do you realize how insecure that makes me,

Ellie: I...I don't want to be pregnant, Ryan.

Ellie: I just want this to go away. That's all.

Ryan: I know I did! And you don't think I hate myself every day for it?

Ryan: You are pregnant though, Ellie.

Ryan: Ultimately this is your decision and whatever you decide I'm going to be there for you.

Ryan: If you want to get rid of it, like you said, then I'll go with you.

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Calling || Ellie

Ellie: Wasn't Taylor everything to you at some point? Isn't that why you have her tattooed on your arm?

Ellie: That didn't stop you from cheating on her.

Ellie: You kept Blake being my brother away from me!

Ellie: I don't need you to be here for me, Ryan!

Ellie: Why are we still talking about this? what's the point?

Ryan: Why are we talking about Taylor? That doesn't have anything to do with us.

Ryan: I'm not going to cheat on you, Ellie. My relationship with you is more than it was with Taylor.

Ryan: You don't need me to be here for you? To deal with the pregnancy I'm responsible for?

Ryan: Do you even want me here at all?

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Calling || Ellie

Ellie: So that's what I am to you? I'm no one?

Ellie: Wow, I wonder what other things you've kept from me, boyfriend.

Ellie: Because it's nothing!

Ellie: Don't call it that, it's not even a baby.

Ellie: Well, what else am I supposed to do?

Ryan: What? Ellie, you're reading way too much into this. You're everything to me.

Ryan: You were going to keep this from me, Ellie! How is that any better?

Ryan: I understand that you're scared and this is a lot to deal with but I'm responsible for this as well!

Ryan: I want to be here for you but how can I do that if you're going to keep being pregnant from me?

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Calling || Ellie

Ellie: How does that explain you not telling me about it?

Ellie: I am but I'm getting rid of it so you don't need to worry about it.

Ryan: I didn't tell anyone, Ellie, because it was one of my biggest regrets.

Ryan: Why are you just brushing this off as if it's the most casual thing in the world.

Ryan: Were you going to get rid of this baby without telling me and just pretend the whole thing didn't happen?

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Calling || Ellie

Ellie: ....Why didn't you tell me about you and Holly?

Ryan: You're asking me about Holly right now?

Ryan: Ellie, I was drunk and she seduced me so she could keep that bit of information to hurt Taylor because of some grudge.

Ryan: That's the past.

Ryan: Now please stop avoiding the question and tell me because this isn't the past, this is now.

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Calling || Ellie

Ellie: Well, why didn't you?

Ellie: ... No.

Ellie: Who told you that?

Ryan: Blake told me.

Ryan: He said he found a positive pregnancy test in your bathroom bin.