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Ryder Bennett-Harris, soon to be Sophomore at Degrassi. They're all dead. ♋ July 18th, 1999 ♋

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As Jacob and Parker kissed, Jacob felt like time slipped away from the universe. It was just the two of them, together all alone in Parker's bedroom. The feeling of passion danced around the two of them, and Jacob loved every second. This was not what he was used to, but he knew he could get very well acquainted with it, because this is what he needed.

Parker was what he needed, and when he said he liked him, Jacob blushed.

“Parker,” Jacob spoke, as he pulled back from the kiss. He brought his hand to rest on his cheek, and then looked in his eyes, “I like you so much too.”

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Jacob was breathless. Fighting the lack of oxygen was easy as long as his lips were pressed against Parker’s. Jacob ran his hands up to the back of Parker’s head, running his fingers through his hair as he kissed him back. It was passionate and full of slow intensity- everything that made Jacob’s heart shake. Goosebumps rose across his arms like mountains touching the sky, and he let a soft moan escape his lips like wind racing through the sharp edges of grass.

Feeling Parker place his hands on his bare ass made Jacob let out another moan. He could just picture it out- it could be so easy for the two of them to go all the way; but him and Parker agreed not too, it was too soon. Although, the thought of it excited Jacob, and made every sensation even more voluptuous.

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Fuck, Parker was too hot.

That was the one thought that ran through Jacob’s mind as Parker went and took off his sweatpants- leaving him once again in his boxers. Jacob bit his lip, holding himself back from saying that Parker should just take off his underwear too- but he realized he needed to wait some time; even though Jacob really wanted to see the package Parker was packing.

Then Parker asked him about his, and Jacob looked down at his crotch- concealed in very tight clothing. Oh, he really needed to take those off. “Y-Yeah, okay,” he nodded his head, agreeing breathlessly. Jacob began to take off his pants, and realized just how awkward it must’ve been for Parker to take his off. The position was just too, up close.

Although, Jacob felt devious when instead of hooking his thumbs to his jeans- he also grabbed a hold of his boxers. So, in a couple seconds, Jacob was totally nude- straddling an equally hard, but underwear wearing Parker.

Blushing, Jacob pressed a kiss to Parker's lips.

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As Parker slid his hands on his ass, Jacob let out a moan. He pressed his crotch against Parker and moaned again. He couldn’t help but let these noises run free, but when he realized both him and Parker were super hard, he knew they needed to fix this.

“P-Parker, pants off,” he insisted, and kissed him harder.

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Jacob was beyond glad Parker understood him- and a passionate kiss proved that. Although, when Parker stood up- holding Jacob in his arms, he let out a little ‘oof’. Then once he realized Parker was carrying him to the bedroom, he let out a laugh of pure joy- oh, Parker was great. Parker was by far the most amazing man Jacob had ever met. He was caring and sweet and nice and just whole package- and he was all his.

Then once they got into the bedroom, Parker sat down on the bed and Jacob was straddling him again. Parker asked if it was better, placing a quick kiss to his lips and Jacob leaned his forehead against the other males.

“Oh, it’s much better,”  he blushed a deep red and kissed him again, but this time slower- taking his time to memorize his lips, and just how perfect they were. Although, that didn’t stop him from deepening it, so slowly- he parted his lips as he kissed him.

Oh, he never wanted to stop kissing him.

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As Parker rested his head in the crook of his neck, Jacob let out a slow giggle. He let his hands travel to Parker's back, rubbing and feeling Parker’s skin like it was the last thing he would ever do. He felt his muscles underneath his hands, and he let a visual picture of Parker working out come to mind. At the same time, Jacob bucked his hips again and groaned.

“Y-you know what would be great,” he pulled back and put his middle and index finger underneath Parker’s chin, tilting his head up so he could look down into his eyes, “If we relocated to the bedroom.”

Jacob tried to suggest that a new place to make out would be nice, not that he was looking for sex. That would be too soon for both him and Parker, and he wanted to wait on that. Although, that wouldn’t stop them from making out, and possible cuddling. “Just you, and me- cuddling and kissing. Sounds pretty great, doesn’t it?” he added, just in case.

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After Jacob asked Parker about his shirt, he blushed because Parker just smiled and nodded his head. Once his shirt was off though, Jacob took in the view of his body once again- but this time it was different. In a way, this was kind of all his now. It excited Jacob, and just as soon as he was about to go back to kissing Parker, he moaned.

Because Parker began to kiss his neck, and his shoulder. The kisses brought chills to his body, and he let out another moan. The soft kisses were so sensual  it drove Jacob crazy, and bucked his groin against Parker again, but this time harder- making more friction.

“F-Fuck,” he let the word escape his lips; he was in pure bliss.

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After Jacob took off his shirt, they went back to kissing. Although this time it was different. It was more slow and romantic- which Jacob liked it, a lot. They continued to kiss for a while, but after some time Jacob wanted to see Parker shirtless again.

“Can I?” Jacob asked, as his hand fell down to the hem of Parker's shirt. He tilted his head to the side a bit, and raised his eyebrows- he’d seen him half naked before, so it shouldn’t be a problem, should it?

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Things were starting to get more heated now.

A small moan escaped Jacob’s lips, and Parker suddenly realized that he was hard. He smirked against Jacob’s neck, then began to suck softly on his skin. Although, as soon as Jacob rocked his hips against Parker’s, Parker let out a small grunt against Jacob’s neck. He removed his lips from Jacob’s neck and pressed them against his lips again, then let his hands slide back down his back until his hands were near his ass. Without hesitation, he gripped onto his ass with both hands as he deepened their kiss, rocking his hips slightly to try to get more friction. He could feel his body temperature starting to rise up, and he let out a moan against Jacob’s lips.

They were both breathing hard.

Parker grunted against his neck, and Jacob moaned in response. Jacob continued to thrust against Parker, and he noticed Parker was just as hard as him. This realization brought chills all over Jacob, and he let out a groan. Then as Parker put his hands on his ass, Jacob giggled softly and then kissed the guy more passionately. Hearing a moan escape Parker’s lips turned Jacob on even more than he already was.

Pulling back, Jacob giggled, “Hold on lemme,” he trailed off as he grabbed the hem of his own shirt and took it off. Now, he was shirtless and kissing Parker- wonderful.

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The kiss seemed to get more and more intimate as it continued, and Parker felt himself smirk against Jacob’s lips. He’d made out plenty of times, probably with too many people to count, but they were all girls. Not once had he even thought about doing this with a guy. But here he was, and he didn’t want it to end.

His hands were still on Jacob’s cheeks, Jacob’s hands running through his hair. Parker allowed his hands to move from Jacob’s cheeks to wrap around his neck loosely. As the male moved his lips away from his and brought them back to his jaw and neck though, Parker’s hands began to slide down Jacob’s back, slowly rubbing his back up and down over his t shirt.

His name escapes Jacob’s lips, and Parker felt himself smirk again. Sliding his hands underneath Jacob’s shirt from the bottom, his hands slowly slid up his back as his lips pressed against his again. This kiss didn’t last long, though, because Parker decided to press his lips against Jacob’s neck this time.

The warm touch of Parker’s hands sliding underneath his shirt and onto his back was pure euphoric. The skin to skin contact brought goosebumps all over his arms, and Jacob let out a shaky breath. Although, as soon as he breathed out his lips were against Parker’s again, and he didn’t feel the need to breathe anymore. As long as he was with Parker, he didn’t care about anything.

Just as Jacob was about to further deepen the kiss, Parker pulled away, and to Jacob’s surprise, latched his lips onto his neck. The feeling was so sudden, and as Parker kissed his skin Jacob couldn’t help himself as a soft moan escaped his lips. Their chests were still pressed up against each other, Parker's hands on his back while he attacked his neck with kisses. It was all so much, and it felt so great.

“Fuck, Parker,” Jacob partially moaned out, and tilted his head back slowly. That was when Jacob noticed his pants had gotten really tight, and feeling devious, he rocked his hips against Parker. The friction made Jacob’s breath hitch, and he let out another soft moan.

Jacob was like putty in Parker’s hands.

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The kisses were very nice and felt as if they were necessary, and Parker didn’t want it to end. Jacob ended up pulling away from the kiss though, and Parker looked at the male with a hint of worry in his eyes, fearing maybe Jacob was changing his mind.

Instead, though, the boy was actually getting on Parker’s lap.

Kisses were being placed on his jaw and neck as the male spoke, and Parker felt a chill go down his spine. His body stiffened slightly, but in a good way, and he bit down on his lip slightly.

A soft chuckle escaped his lips as Jacob spoke, and he nodded his head. “Yeah, you are,” he breathed out, making eye contact with him for a moment. Parker smiled, and their lips collided once again.

He deepened the kiss a little bit this time, bringing his chest closer to Jacob’s and bringing his hands up to rest on the male’s cheeks.

Jacob’s hands trailed up to Parker’s hair and he ran his fingers through the dark brown locks. Chest pressed up against the male’s, Jacob began to kiss him with more passion. Jacob was enjoying himself, up against Parker with their lips dancing to the sound of their heartbeats. In all honesty, this had to be the most action Jacob had gotten in a long time. Eyes shut, Jacob parted from his lips, and went back down to press kisses to any inch of exposed skin.

Although, with each kiss Jacob placed on Parker, a flashback ran through his mind. Each lasted only a second, a wisp of blurred vision passing by just to remind Jacob of what he once used to be. Late nights in the back of a car with a guy who had just one extra bottle of Samuel Adams  that he couldn’t handle, dirty motels with a stranger as they tangled themselves in sweat soaked sheets, and the feeling of hot leather seats in the darkest corner of a bar all played through Jacob’s mind as he continued to kiss Parker. It was like every nameless guy and forgotten place were back to haunt Jacob, but he couldn’t focus on that- he was with Parker.

Parker was different.

Parker didn’t reek of booze or too much old spice. He didn’t push him down to his knees as soon as they stepped outside a bar. Parker wasn’t like that, at all- and neither was Jacob. Jacob didn’t go to bars anymore and try to find meaningless hook ups. He didn’t drink himself away because of the love life he didn’t have. In a sense, he had Parker now, and that made all the difference.

“Parker,” Jacob breathed out against his lips. He wasn’t like that anymore, and maybe this time he might’ve actually found love.

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Jacob seemed like he was trying to think of an answer to Parker’s question, and Parker bit down on his lip slightly. He’d never been in a situation like this, and he never thought he would be. Now, he felt confused. He couldn’t be gay.

But he was starting to feel butterflies in his stomach looking at Jacob as he waited for a response.

Then Jacob responded, and Parker was glad that he would allow him some time to figure things out. He definitely would need the time, since he had absolutely no idea what was happening in his life all of a sudden.

When Jacob leaned in for another kiss, though, Parker felt himself kiss the male softly, butterflies staying in his stomach. This was all so new to him, but he’d be lying if he said he didn’t enjoy it; Jacob’s lips were very soft and welcoming.

This was how it was supposed to be- the two of them lips pressed against each other in this well needed kiss. This little action showed just how much they needed each other, and Jacob felt was on cloud 9. He kept thinking over and over in his head that Parker was kissing him back, and each time he thought about it, it just made him even more happy than he already was. Jacob pulled back slowly, and then moved so he was straddling Parker. Being in his lap, Jacob smiled and blushed.

“You’re amazing, you know that right?” Jacob chuckled softly, and then placed a soft kiss on Parker’s cheek, then one on his jaw, and then another one. He was placing soft kisses along his jaw, and some just underneath near his neck. “I’m kissing the quarterback,” Jacob thought aloud, and then giggled, going back to facing Parker.

“Just in case you didn’t know, I really like kissing the quarterback,” Jacob said matter of factly and nodded his head very slowly. After a couple seconds passed, Jacob chuckled and then started kissing Parker again. He could do this all day.

At least they knew what they were going to do now. 

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Jacob seemed happy when Parker kissed him. Although it didn’t last long, it was still nice, and when Jacob pulled away, Parker actually felt alright. He wasn’t disgusted or anything. He felt warm and fuzzy inside, even.

All he could really do was smile at Jacob when he spoke. In reality, he had no idea what to do now. He just kissed a boy, and he wasn’t even gay. Did that make him not straight anymore? What was he now? His mind was racing, and for a moment, he forgot that Jacob was still sitting right beside him.

Quickly clearing his throat, he scratched the back of his neck awkwardly, biting his lip softly.

“I-I’m sorry, I-um,” he paused, trying to wrack his brain for something to say.

“Now what?”

It was a general question, really. Now what as in- what were they supposed to do now? Did this change their relationship? He had so many questions floating in his brain.

Parker smiled at him after he spoke, and Jacob just giggled softly. So, the butterflies in his stomach were still there and he was sure they probably weren’t going to go away for a while. Although, Jacob was fine with that, because it was Parker. Parker made him feel amazing and giddy,  and Jacob needed that. As soon as Parker had kissed him back, Jacob felt wanted and that’s all he’s ever wanted, too. Parker liked him back.

Then Parker coughed, and asked him the simple, ‘Now what?’ question. For a moment, Jacob began searching his mind for an answer, but the more he thought the more he realized it wasn’t really his decision. Well, yeah Jacob would be happy if they got together and became boyfriends, but he wasn’t sure if that was what Parker wanted. This needed to be a mutual agreement, or it wasn’t right.

“I think that’s up for you to decide, because I’m fine with,” Jacob trailed off, and bit his bottom lip, “Anything.” He grinned softly, and then a thought came to mind. “But in the mean time as you figure things out, how about we-”  Jacob smirked and leaned in again, pressing his lips against Parkers for another kiss.

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There was absolutely no reply. Parker put his hand on Jacob’s shoulder and spoke, but Jacob had absolutely no response. His eyebrows narrowed worriedly, wondering if the male was okay, and before he could question the male, it was like a table had been flipped over.

Suddenly, Jacob’s lips were pressed against Parker’s, his hand resting on the back of his neck. Parker’s eyes instantly widened, and at first, he didn’t do anything. He was in pure shock. How did that escalate so quickly?

And although Parker felt like he was enjoying the feeling of Jacob’s lips against his, he pulled away slightly, making eye contact with Jacob for a moment. Their faces were still close, and Jacob’s hand was still on Parker’s neck, but Parker didn’t say a word.

He enjoyed the kiss for sure, but it was shocking to him. Why would he enjoy that? Wasn’t that, well, gay? Parker’s initial reaction would be to jump up from the couch, call the boy a faggot and tell him to leave. But to his own surprise, he didn’t do that. In fact, all he wanted to do was lean in and kiss him again.

So he did. With no hesitation, he broke the space between the two’s lips and moved his lips against Jacob’s, scooting a bit closer to him as he did so.

For a second, everything was fine. Even though Jacob could hear Parker gasp as his initial reaction, everything had to be fine. They were kissing. Of course it wasn’t heated, but just a shared first moment between them, which was nice.

But then Parker pulled away, and their eyes locked.

It was in that moment Jacob felt panic flow through his body. Parker didn’t like it. Parker wouldn’t like him anymore. Jacob ruined everything between them all because he was selfish and doing what he wanted. Jacob gulped slightly, and prepared for Parker to: A. Punch him in the face, B. Go off on him, or worse, C. Both of the options. His pulse was still rocketing through the roof, and Jacob wanted to turn away and cry.

But he didn’t, because next thing he knew their lips were pressed together again and Jacob didn’t have to initiate it.

This time it was Jacob’s turn to gasp as he realized what was happening. Parker was kissing him. They were kissing and Parker liked it. At least that’s what made the most sense. Now, Jacob wasn’t so worried at all, and with every little movement their lips made, Jacob’s panic faded away.

Pulling back slowly, Jacob smiled softly and blushed. Their faces were still close, close enough to close the distance again if either of them wanted, but right now Jacob wanted to say something.

“I like you, Parker- thanks,” Jacob wasn’t sure what he said was really coherent, but he just wanted to thank Parker for kissing him back- and not doing other things.

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Parker smiled as Jacob said his favorite color was blue. It was nice that they were now starting to get to know each other. Parker was actually having an extremely good time, even though they weren’t doing much.

He laughed a bit as Jacob pointed out the Gemini stereotype, nodding his head. “I’ve heard. Anytime people find that out about me, they practically run for the hills. One of my exes broke up with me because she found out I was a Gemini. But I mean, she was a Scorpio, so,” he shrugged playfully, still chuckling a bit.

When Jacob mentioned he didn’t think he was two faced, though, Parker felt himself grin.

Jacob responded to Parker’s small story about himself, and he shrugged. To him, it wasn’t really a bit deal. Sure, he missed Sean, and sometimes his parents too, but overall it was just normal for him.

“Thanks man,” he responded with a smile, bringing a hand toward him and patting his shoulder. “You’re a pretty great guy, too.” And he was; he was one of the nicest, friendliest people he’d talked to in awhile.

When Parker mentioned he had a girlfriend, Jacob felt like he got slapped in the face. Okay, so they had broken up but it still had the same effect. As far as the clues were leading up, Parker was somewhat heterosexual. The realization kind of twisted Jacob’s insides, but he knew better. He always started to fall for the guys he couldn’t have- with the perfect example being Alec, and now it was Parker. Although, Jacob didn’t this to be the end. There were still so many opportunities and things he didn’t know. It’s not like you’re either gay or straight, there were other sexualites too- like bisexual, asexual, polysexual and pansexual. Maybe, just maybe, Parker was one of those.

Then the hand that Parker placed on his shoulder stopped Jacob from thinking.

All he could think about was how he was touching him- obviously not sexually, but he was still making physical contact. The butterflies in his stomach multiplied by 100, and Jacob’s heart rate began to increase. His face turned red, and he smiled sweetly as his eyes locked on Parker's’ while he listened to him saying that he was a great guy. Oh, Jacob wanted to be so much more though.

When Parker finished speaking, silence fell between them and Jacob held his gaze on his eyes- those beautiful  and mystifying blue eyes. They were drawing him in, and slowly Jacob moved forward as he felt like his heart was going to jump out of his chest. Jacob brought his hand around to the back of Parker’s neck, and then the next thing he knew, Jacob placed his lips on Parkers in a kiss.

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Suddenly, Jacob was throwing questions at Parker left and right. They were small questions, ones that didn’t mean too much but we’re still cool to know about a person. Parker actually found the questions pretty amusing, and his lips curved into a smile.

“Green,” he admitted with a small chuckle. He now had an abundance of questions to answer, and he was trying to answer them one at a time.

“I took sociology sophomore year which I guess was cool,” Parker continued, shrugging. “My birthday is June 11, 1998, which makes me a Gemini.”

It seemed that the many questions were finally answered. However, Jacob asked another question once he finished answering, one that was a little more personal, and Parker let out a soft sigh.

“My parents live in Wasaga Beach. I’ve been living with my brother almost my whole life.” He shrugged, shifting in his spot a bit. “I found out awhile ago my parents are drunks anyway, but yeah. My other brother, Sean, is in the army so I haven’t seen him in awhile, either.”

The mood seemed to go down a little bit with this topic out in the open. Things were starting to get more personal now.

“I don’t really have a reason, though. When Sean was in high school he got in trouble a lot and moved with Tracker to stay out of trouble, and I just didn’t wanna be without them. I mean, I was like, five years old, but still.”

He shrugged again, his teeth still biting down on his lip a bit.

As Parker began to answer his questions, Jacob couldn’t help but let his smile get wider. So, Parker's favorite color was green, which Jacob thought was definitely cute. “My favorite color is blue, by the way,” Jacob added quickly, and then chuckled. At least they wouldn’t have to fight about what color items to pick in the future, although as Jacob thought about it he realized he’d probably let Parker take green if they both mutually liked the color. Smiling at the thought, he couldn’t help but picture what they’d be like as a couple. Would they be the type of couple that are super public display of affection, or would they be sweet and sentimental in private? Jacob couldn’t decide, besides, only the future would know- if they even get together.

Then he continued to listen to Parker answer his questions, and his zodiac sign caught his attention and Jacob chuckled,  “You’re supposed to be a two-faced bitch, you know that right?” Jacob couldn’t help himself and he just had to say that, but a part of him knew Parker wasn’t really like that- it was intuition. “Although, I don’t think you are.” Jacob blushed and smiled.

Then the conversation got serious, as Parker answered his question about how he got to live here with his brother.

“I have,” Jacob said slowly, processing what he said, “No idea what to say. There are probably so many things I could say but- none are coming to mind.” Jacob sighed, and then looked at Parker with a glint in his eyes. “But I will say you don’t have to have a reason- hell, not wanting to be away from your brothers is a perfectly good reason in itself, you know? I’m glad you’re here, though- if you weren’t I wouldn’t have met you and I’d miss out on such a great guy.”

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There was a few moments of silence as Jacob seemed to think about something they could maybe talk about. They both seemed to struggle to find a topic, but when Jacob finally mentioned him, Parker felt his eyebrows narrow slightly. Him?

“Seriously?” He said, chuckling a bit. What was there to know about him? He wasn’t interesting or anything. At least, he didn’t think he was.

“Well, what do you want to know?” He asked the male. He was pretty confused as to why Jacob wanted to talk about him. He bit down on his bottom lip slightly, still looking at Jacob.

Parker seemed amazed that Jacob wanted to talk about him, but he carried on and went with it. As soon as Parker asked him what he wanted to know, Jacob thought for a second. Well, he wanted to know a lot- that was for sure. Questions kept swimming in his mind and Jacob just continued to ponder for a moment, taking glimpses at Parker a couple times, lips curled up at the ends in a playful smile.

“What’s your favorite color?” He caught one, and verbally it free. “What’s the most exciting class you’ve ever taken? When’s your birthday- which then ties into, what’s your zodiac sign?” Questions kept pouring out of Jacob, but he didn’t matter. He was genuinely interested on knowing this information, even if it was just little things. Although, there was a question in the back of his head that was dying to be picked.

“Why do you live here, with your brother? What brought on that?” Jacob softened as soon as he asked the question, as he expressed with it true interest and care.