I'm feeling better about me and reaching out.
When I first joined the scene I had in my ear a constant "everyone hates renmei everyone is an anti they'll not like you" and it hasn't been until the past month or so where I finally decided to post my art to an SK discord server. Since March I've been active in servers for the first time and trying to break that anxieties that have been haunting me for 2 years.
Having so many people be so nice about my work, compliment me, tell me they look up to me. It's really helped at breaking down that fear that everyone sees my drawings and thinks "ew! go away!"
I am glad I'm finally dismantling the bullshit that was so poisonous to my confidence and fed my anxiety. I don't ever want anyone to join the scene and feel fear. I want to be someone who is warm and open and allows people to feel accepted the way everyone is accepting me.
I don't want people to join the scene and feel how I felt.
Everyone is welcome here, regardless of ship, skill, activity. It's so nice. SK is the best fandom to be a part of, truly. I'm so happy with the new friends I've mad and I'm so glad that so many people embrace me, regardless of their stance on my OTPs, they still like me for me ;-;
