Shi-and-E

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So many things happened since my last post. And I have ticked almost all of those things.

I'm very happy right now, E. I love you.

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All the things I want to do with you, in reality and in my dreams:

(This list will be updated all the time)

1. Sleep together.

2. Watch movies and tv series at home, in bed or in couch.

3. Have or make breakfast, lunch, and dinner together

4. Have a date. 😊

5. Go for a run together, workout together.

6. Read books together.

7. Go to the beach together.

8. Go on a long drive.

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I'd rather have a piece of you than nothing at all.

E, I miss you everyday. I don't know what to do I miss you so much.

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E, i miss you.

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E,

This could only be the one thing that could describe how I feel for you. You're right, you're always right. I could have any guy I want but I still choose you. I still want to be with you. Yesterday, we were reminiscing our first times together. The first time I texted you, the first time you asked me out, the first time we went out, the first time we kissed. I get so kilig that you still remember what I wore. I must have been really pretty that day for you to remember it. Sometimes, I still ask myself why I liked you before, and why I still like you now. We have great conversations, and great sex. I ask myself even though I already know the answer. I like you and I'm staying with you is because I wanna make you happy. I want to be with you because I don't want you to feel alone. And yes, I know you told me that you don't feel lonely. But still. I want to share a meal with you, I want us to brush our teeth at the same time, I want us to sleep together. I also want to prepare your things when you go to work. I want to be the one to remind you of the things that you should do. To put it simply, I want to be with YOU. Always. And I honestly hate myself because I can't. I hate it that you were married before and I wasn't and now it's the other way around. I hate everything about me. I only not hate myself when I'm with you (and with Seb). I feel less lonely, I feel less angry, I feel less sad.

I wished for this before, and I still wish for it now. I knew it before, and I know it now. I'll choose you in the parallel world. I'll marry you in that world. I love you here and I'll love you more.

Love,

S.

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My bestfriend. My soulmate. My E.

I don't know how it happened, but it did. And I never once regretted us. Not before. Not now. Not ever.

You sent me this today. I don't remember it from before but this has put a smile on my face today. This photo speaks the truth. You really are my best friend. And it's not just about how I can't be mad at you for more than 5 minutes (remember when I said we shouldn't be sweet anymore and take it all back after saying it?) and how I like telling you anything that has happened to me or crossed my mind. But it's because you are the only person who I can be completely honest with. And the only person I know who hasn't judged me since day one. It meant a lot because I lived a fucked-up life, a sad life (still living it). And you have always been there for me, taking the time to listen to me, understand what I'm going through, helping me cope up with everything. You saved me, baby. I am a happier now because of you. I am not that miserable anymore because of you. And I hope I'm your best friend too. And I hope that I'm making you happy too the way you make me happy.

Thank you for coming in to my life. Thank you for being that person. Thank you for saving me.

Love,

Sh.